2 sleeps until Italy

Forgot to say yesterday that the nursery phoned me at 10am to say Scarlett had banged her head. They didn't want her picked up, just wanted to let me know. It's a lovely bruise lol

I was late to work this morning, even though we were up on time. Time just got lost somewhere. Only late by a few minutes. Was soaking wet outside, had been raining all night.

I walked into the reception area at work and was rummaging in my bag for my pass as I passed the reception desk. The lady said "morning", to which I replied "morning" and carried on walking and rummaging. Next thing, she's yelled "HELLO?" I turned around and went "excuse me?" Because how rude is that. To yell at someone. Across a room like that. We could've had clients sat waiting for a meeting. So unprofessional. She went "I said morning", to which I replied "Yes, so did I" and then I walked off, pass in hand and into my office. It really irritated how rude she was. What a great start to my day!

I had a busy morning then a slow afternoon. I was suppose to have a telephone interview at 1pm but I totally forgot and then I remembered it was for a job too far away so I figured it was a sign I shouldn't bother pursuing it.

After work we came home and I gave Scarlett the leftovers of her dinner from my nan's house. She had a cup of tea. We all did. I bathed her and then put her to bed at 7. She messed about for a bit. And I had to go up a few times and sort her out but she eventually went to sleep. I had my dinner and now I'm watching Salem! #obsessed

2 sleeps until Italy. Getting real now. Brett's here tomorrow. He says he's aiming to arrive for 1/2pm.


4 sleeps until Italy

Monday. I hate Monday’s. It’s not Monday’s fault. I just can’t seem to get my “work head” on straight until Tuesday rolls in. However that said, I did get up and eat breakfast and dress before Scarlett woke so I consider this a success as sometimes I have to sort her before I can do anything. And doing anything with her trailing behind me is harder and takes double the time, hence why we are late sometimes. Nonetheless, I was at work on time. I had an okay day. After work mom picked me up so we could go last minute holiday shopping. We went to ASDA because it is bigger and has a better choice of toiletries and holiday bits. Usually we go to Morrison’s. I got some nappies and all her baby milk. We picked up a pizza and garlic bread for dinner. I also got some bite cream and antihistamines. These bites are driving me insane!!!!

After shopping we went home and Mom bathed Scarlett whilst I put the dinner on. When she was done I made her a bottle and put her to bed whilst it cooked. We ate our dinner watching Emmerdale, then Corrie [mom wanted to]. After Corrie she went upstairs because I was watching Salem and she won’t watch it [wimp].

Only 4 sleeps until Italy. How mad is that? This time next week we will be in Rome. I managed to wrangle a half day for Thursday. I asked and was lucky to be granted it. I mean, don’t ask don’t get. It will help tremendously as I need to pop to the bank to transfer some funds from my other saving account into my main. I can’t do it on the app as I don’t have internet banking for that saving account and it’s not linked to my current account lol I think I have £250/300 in there. I won’t take it all. I’ll leave some for a rainy day.


10 days to go

Scarlett spoke to Brett on FaceTime twice last night. She was very loving towards him. Sometimes she acts really indifferent to him and it bothers him. But she is a toddler and they get easily distracted which is why I tend to turn the TV off when he calls. But she was talkative to him. She was in the bath. She was showing him her bath toys [which he sees anyway when he is here] but it was super cute. She went to bed at 7:15 and then mom and I watched Emmerdale together. Brett FaceTimed me a few times on and off whilst I watched Salem again. I think I crawled into bed at half 10. Didn’t fall asleep until gone midnight though!

Today I got up at 7 for work. Mom dropped me in and I was 15 minutes early for a change. I worked until 9:15 then mom picked me up and dropped me for my interview. It was at the hospital. The same hospital I was born in almost 26 years ago, and my brother was born in 22 years ago. Also, Scarlett was born there 18 months ago. I actually walked passed the entrance to the Labour Ward/Delivery Suite. So surreal. If me and Brett end up living down my area, rather than his, it’s safe to assume our next baby will be born there too. Although we might not. We may find a place together in Croydon. I wouldn’t mind doing that. Moving away. But we’ll see.

Interview seemed to go well. They said they’ll let me know either way before next Friday. I popped into the toilets on the way out and whilst I was mid-pee the toilet flushed. Safe to say I got an impromptu fanny wash haha I got back to work at 11am.

I got picked up after work so I could donate at 5:30pm. I booked this months ago after my last donation. I couldn’t donate. My iron levels were 110 and the average is 115-140 and the NHSBT bottom line is 125. So I’ve been banned for a year from donating and told to see a doctor at some point. So we went home for dinner etc. Mom went to her boyfriend’s house about 20 minutes ago and Scarlett is in bed so I think I will just catch up with Salem.

10 days till Italy!!!!!!!!!!


Hump day already

I woke up in agony at 3am. I had really bad stomachache and I ended up rushing to the loo with diarrhoea. I went back to bed and then Scarlett woke up at 6ish. Gave her a bottle and put her back down. I finally crawled out of bed at 7ish. I felt like crap but I decided to go to work so I did. I got in just before 8 and was heading back home by 10ish. My manager was nice and dropped me home. I curled up on the sofa and pretty much remained there all day. I felt bad mom-guilt that I was home [when usually I’d be at work] but I wasn’t spending my time with Scarlett. But I was sick. She was better off at nursery. So Mom and I popped past Morrison’s to grab some much needed groceries as we had literally NOTHING at home then we picked her up. She looked so confused when I walked in to pick her up. I rarely get her. Even the nursery staff were like “Hey stranger…” We went home and did our usual routine then she went to bed. Mom went off to work at 7:30pm. I still felt crappy and I decided that if I still felt dodgy in the morning then I would phone in sick.

I did still feel crappy so I called in sick. Scarlett had me up at 5am, then again at 6am – I gave her a bottle. Then I left her and woke her up just after 7am. My nan picked her up just before 8. She waved bye and they left. Mom and I had breakfast then she went up to sleep, having worked the night before. I caught up on some tele then later I felt like I needed to be productive so I tidied Scarlett’s room and washed up the dirty dishes. Then I headed to my Nan’s as Scarlett does a half day on Tuesdays so she was there from 12:30. I put her down for a nap when I got there and a bit later my nan woke her up by accident so she was very grumpy. I tried to put her back down but she wouldn’t so we just sat and played. Then we had dinner then headed home.

Today is hump day. I went into work and caught up on the emails I got whilst off, and finished the task I started on Monday. My brother is up visiting so we met for lunch with my mom and Scarlett. We went to the Harvester. Scarlett just had salad and garlic bread as the little fatpants had already had her lunch! After we ate my mom dropped me back at work.

My brother stayed at home for a bit after I finished work but my mom dropped him at the train station at 6ish. Scarlett didn’t settle for bed very easily even though she had asked to go to bed. I had to go up and cuddle her 3 times. The last time I went up she laid in my arms like a baby. She hasn’t done that for a very long time. It was very soothing for my soul to just rock her whilst taking in her baby smell. She eventually settled and Mom and I had dinner before watching Emmerdale. Then mom started doing some of her tasks for her NVQ whilst I caught up with NCIS.

I have just got into bed. Work tomorrow. Was suppose to have a job interview but having looked at where the actual office is based, and bus times, I don’t think I can get to work on time if I got the job so no point in attending the interview, so I cancelled.


Long week back


So Scarlett had me up really early. Think it was 5:30 when she woke up. I went back to sleep and then overslept. We ended up having to grab a McDonald’s Breakfast. Which is fine because that is our Monday tradition anyway. When I got to work my team had put some “congratulations” banners on my desk as well as lots of confetti. I was finding the damn stuff hours later lol


Scarlett was super grumpy when we got home at 5:30pm. I think being away for a week from nursery has her feeling exhausted on her first day back. Plus she does a full day on Mondays so she was there 8am till 4:30pm. That is very long. Hopefully she is less grumpy tomorrow.


I woke up with a banging headache. I took some paracetamol and went to work. It dulled but it reared back twice as hard in the afternoon. I took some Ibuprofen in a last ditch attempt to get it to fuck the hell off. It did the trick, temporarily. I went to bed really early. According to my Fitbit I was asleep by 10:30pm.


I woke up 7am and I felt sick as a dog. I kept heaving and retching. The last time I had felt like that was when I was pregnant. It was awful. I know I am not pregnant, btw. I have the coil remember lol I just meant to explain that I do not feel “off” very often. Although Friday I did feel “off”. However I do believe that was from all the travelling we’d done whilst away. I get travel sickness [well motion sickness] but it doesn’t always happen until I stand still, so to speak. Like a delayed reaction. Anyways, I felt like shit so I called in sick, sent Scarlett off to nursery and then climbed into bed. Now I didn’t want to sleep all day because I knew I wouldn’t sleep the night, so I laid and “rested” whilst watching back-to-back NCIS, obvs! I did nod off, around 1:30pm and then woke up at 2:30pm [according to Sir Fitbit lol]. At 3ish we went to my Nan’s for dinner and to pick up Scarlett. I got her into the bath and in bed before 7pm. This week she has whinged to go to bed before 7 so I let her. She is obviously tired so why force her to stay up. We have to be up at 6:30 in the morning so her sleeping earlier means she’ll be up in time in the AM. I had a shower and then watched some tele before heading to bed myself. I couldn’t sleep and didn’t drop off till about 1:30am!!!!!!!!

Thursday [today]:

My alarm was set for 7am. Should’ve known that Scarlett wouldn’t allow me to lay in on a rare day that I actually can. She woke at 6am. I brought her into my bed for a cuddle then we went downstairs to watch some cartoons whilst she drank her bottle. Then we got dressed. I cooked mine and mom’s breakfast and she came in from work just as I dished up. My nan picked Scarlett up at 7:50. Scarlett didn’t want to go. She cried and held her arms out for me to take her. Broke my heart. She’s never done that before. In the 10 months she has been at nursery. I wanted to just grab her and stay at home. But I can’t. So I let her go. We finished eating then my mother took me to the doctors. Today I had the luxury of being frisked in my Hoo-Hah by a doctor for the sole purpose of checking my coil has stayed where it should and is doing what it should do. Apparently it IS fine and all is well. I got to work for 9am.

A friend announced her pregnancy today. She is due in January 2018. Her daughter was due Feb and came 5 weeks early. I am keeping my fingers crossed for a full term baby especially as she says she will work until the first week of January, which is fair play but given her daughter’s speedy entrance, I would’ve opted to finish at Christmas, just in case lol

I am hoping Scarlett is in a better mood today and doesn’t hold a grudge about this morning. I have just got in the car so I will find out when we get home.


FriYAY finally

Monday 26th:

So I didn’t get to sleep until 4am. Awesome. Shouldn’t have had that energy drink. I had to get up for work at 6:30am. Tired doesn’t even begin to explain how I feel.

Tuesday 27th:

I had my long awaited doctor’s appointment today. Conclusion: unhelpful. I asked for more migraine tablets, as the last load I got was just before being pregnant and then when I first had her I didn’t have migraines again so I never went back for more. But my hormones must’ve gone up and down to settle because I have started having them again. But she refused to prescribe my usual Naproxen. Said to try Ibuprofen. Asked about any hayfever relief as OTC hasn’t worked. She basically said to keep trying OTC and see what works for me. I explained that I had had an allergic reaction to some eyedrops I had tried before, and she said she would prescribe me some to try. Was like getting blood from a stone. I decided to dye my hair after work today for the holiday. I love having fresh hair. I managed to not ruin the bathroom with hair dye.

Wednesday 28th:

Mom has worked every night this week so far. I don’t mind being alone but it does get boring after a few days lol

Omg Pretty Little Liars ended today. I watched the 90 minute episode. In peace. Phone off, cider in my hand and my full attention. I now understand why people are disappointed by how it ended. There is so many unanswered questions.

Thursday 29th:

There is this guy at my work that I have banter with. It has got to a point where he is trying to embarrass me so he asked me very loudly in front of coworkers if I fancy him. Which of course made me go beetroot red and exclaim that of course I don’t. But now everyone thinks I do. And every time I had to walk by his area other coworkers made a point of telling him so he could look up and wave. I was walking past to go to the loo and he was coming out of his desk, but I didn’t see and almost walked in to him. He said really loudly “Did you want a cuddle?” How embarrassing. I have been thinking of things to try and get a reaction from him but he just isn’t embarrassed. He left his laptop open and unattended. His pal sent me an email [admittedly I did think it was from him at first]. It said “do you fancy me?” I replied with “how chilidish. PS. you’ll never know”. He replied saying it wasn’t him to sent that so I said “awww getting your pal to ask, how cute”. But he isn’t even phased by crap. Need to step up my game.

Friday 30th:

Today is FriYay finally. Been waiting for this all week. I am on annual leave next week for the entire week. It is much needed. Been so stressed out and I just need a break to relax. Not that you can relax much with a toddler in tow. We are going to St. Leonard’s near Hastings. I am really excited for our first holiday as a family, just us 3.

It is my uncle’s birthday today. He is 30. Old sod haha

I turn 26 in about 7 weeks and that makes me a little anxious lol getting closer to 30 and I have hardly achieved much so far, except for being a mother – best thing ever! But I still live with my mother, I have a job that I have been trying to leave for another, better one and so far, nothing. I had another interview last week and I heard back this week. I didn’t get the job. The lady went into very minute detail of why I am such a fucking loser. Awesome!

Just on lunch atm.


32 degrees!

Monday 19th:

So Scarlett woke me up at 5:30am with a poo explosion. I knew that ice-cream would come back to haunt me lol Just what I needed to deal with half-asleep and sweating my ass off. I cleaned her up, removed all offensive bedding and made her a bottle. Once she was re-settled I laid back down but couldn’t sleep. Eventually we got up and got ready for the day. As it is so hot I dressed her in one of her new cotton dresses, with no vest. Just her dress and a nappy. Oh, and socks and shoes. Mom didn’t work the night so we chilled with a drink and some tele then climbed in our respective, hot beds.

Tuesday 20th:

Scarlett had me up at 6am. Managed to get her to go back to sleep. I changed her nappy and gave her some water as she was thirsty. Mom worked the night and had already had dinner before she picked me up so I waited until Scarlett went to bed to sort my dinner. I had a shower when I first put her down at 7pm. Then ate at 8pm whilst watching NCIS catch-up. I have been watching this TV show on Prime Video called American Gods. Now I shit-you-not, this woman swallowed a man whole with her vagina. Yes, her lady parts ate him. She is a goddess, I think. And I think it was the equivalent of “soul eating”. Nicer way she could’ve done it though. The show is mad weird! I am not sure I like it or not. I am only 4 episodes in so I feel like I need to keep watching and give it a proper try before declaring it “not for me”.

Wednesday 21st:

My cousin has gone in for her scheduled c-section today. No word yet. I am excited as this is her second baby and she tried so hard to get to this point of having him. So fingers crossed for safe delivery!!

Scarlett woke up at 6am. I gave her a bottle and put her back down. Doing this allows me to get up and do what I need to without her getting under my legs. She slept for another hour or so. I woke her up at 7:15ish and dressed her. Again in a new dress. It is just too warm for anything else.

I watched the latest episode of Pretty Little Liars on Netflix on my lunch hour today and spent a good half hour pissed that the series appeared done but the bad guy hadn’t been revealed. Then someone informed me there was 1 more episode, next week, a 2 hour episode. Hopefully everything will be revealed then. I was so confused lol

I had a call from a woman regarding a job I had applied for. Hopefully this will lead somewhere good as the location is nearby home and the money is starting at £2K more than I get now upwards to £7K more. So definitely worth considering.

Just finished worked. Not sure what to have for dinner. Need a shower because I feel so hot and sweaty. More NCIS later, plus new episode of iZombie – must be Wednesday ;)