Baby’s not feeling good

Monday I felt knackered. Going back to work after basically 10-11 days off consecutively was a bit much. Plus I still had that shitty cold. If anything I felt worse than I did at the weekend. I didn’t sleep great Sunday so today was just hard work. I caught up with more Shadowhunters as well as the soaps.

At 8:42pm some twat knocked my door. When I peeked around the door frame I could see it was some charity woman from Christian Aid. That is way too late in the evening to be approaching people’s doors. Not just because I have a toddler who they risked waking, but any vulnerable/old people do not need strangers knocked their doors at night. That could cause a fright or anxiety episodes to them. 

Tuesday was even worse. I had 4 hours of sleep because I kept coughing continuously between midnight and 3am. I woke up feeling crappy and I had a banging headache but I went to work regardless. No one is going to pay my bills for me lol

The charity people knocked AGAIN. It was about 8ish. I was eating my dinner.

Wednesday I watched Lucifer thinking it was the season finale but it wasn’t! So got another episode to watch tomorrow. Scarlett and me had a bath at half 6. We watched Emmerdale then I put her to bed whilst my dinner cooked.

I was eating my dinner and the bastard charity people knocked my door again for a third night in a row. I put my plate down and walked towards my hallway when they knocked again. Twice in 30 seconds, are they taking the absolute piss! I was furious so I raced down my flat stairs and swung the door open. This is how it went:

Lady: “Hi, I am here from Christian Aid”.
Me: “yes I know, I have seen you outside all week. You knocked my door rather late Monday and woke my toddler up. Not really acceptable to knock doors at almost 9pm”.
She seemed shocked for me to say this. Why? It IS too late to be knocking doors!
Lady: “It wasn’t that late, sorry to hear that, did your toddler go back to sleep?”
Me: “Yes but that’s hardly the point. It was far too late to be knocking my door and 3 days in a row is a bit much. Verging on harassment tbh.”
Lady: “Well are you interested in giving to our charity?”
Me: “Nah I’m alright thanks” then I slammed my door shut.

Now, just to clarify: I have NO QUALMS about giving to charity. I frequently do so and I will always help someone but when you’re constantly hounded for money left, right and centre it gets me angry. I will give my hard earned pennies when I choose. And if I don’t answer two nights in a row, do not knock a third night. And certainly do not knock twice in the space of 30 seconds. Scarlett is actually unwell so if they’ve had woken her yesterday I would’ve been a lot more rude than I was.

Speaking of Scarlett. She woke up at half 9 when I was on FaceTime to Brett. She was crying, hot and red cheeked. I gave her calpol then she laid on my chest [she never does this]. I put her back to bed at 10ish but she woke up again at half 11 when I went to bed. I settled her and then I fell asleep. She woke up crying at 2:30 and asked to sleep with me in my bed so I let her. She never asks so I relished the fact that she needs her mama. We slept and she woke me up again at like 4/5am. When my alarm went off she was blissfully sleeping. I was able to dress in peace, make my lunch for work and have a wee without an audience. It was bliss. I woke her at 7:20 and dressed her. I managed to convince her to have some calpol then I did some breakfast. I called my Nan at lunch to see how she was when she picked her up. She said she was tired but fine. I am glad about that. I can’t keep taking time off to look after her, even though I legit don’t have an alternative if she’s unwell #momlife

Riverdale season finale is available on Netflix today. I really hope Jughead isn’t dead but we’ll soon see. I watch the Lucifer season finale during lunch. Chloe finally realised he actually IS the devil, as he’s been telling her for 2 years.

I saw this post on Facebook. It was titled “An Open Letter To My Broken Hearted Friend”. I read it and it’s something we all should read and take heed. We’ve all been devastated by a relationship breakdown and we’re all guilty of thinking this “one guy” was the bees knees and he’s damaged us, ruined us forever. He hasn’t, you’re not broken and you will rise. You’ll look back and see it for what it truly was. You’ll be stronger, you’ll learn.

TTFN x

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1 more sleep till Rockley Park

Thursday Scarlett had her 2 year review with the Health Visiting team. She’s practically perfect in every way. Scores all in the “white area”. They did her height, she’s 85cm and her weight was 22lb. She’s so little, bless her.

She had a fever when she woke up from her nap. I gave her calpol. She was very sad and not herself. She had me up at midnight then again at 3am.

Friday Scarlett stayed off Nursery as her fever was bad and we had a shit night. She was miserable all day. We had no food in so we popped to the shops so we could eat and grab some groceries. We went to my nans for a cup of tea then we headed home. Brett arrived at 9:30. Scarlett went to bed at 10. We went to bed at 1ish.

Saturday Scarlett woke up and we had breakfast. We watched Frozen then she went down for a nap. When she was up we had lunch. We stayed in all day as it was so hot outside. I cooked dinner then bathed Scarlett. We headed out to drop her at my nans so we could go cinema. I bought the tickets weeks ago.

We watched Avengers Infinity War. It was good but the ending was a bit weird. And now there’s a year long wait for part 2!

We got home at 11:30. Scarlett was really grumpy and took ages to settle. We went to sleep at 2:30.

Sunday She woke up screaming at 3:30 and it took me ages to settle her back asleep. She woke again at 6am and wouldn’t calm down. Ended up getting up with her, making breakfast and chilling. She perked up after some calpol. I put her down for a nap at 8ish.

I woke up at almost midday. She’d had a 3/4 hour sleep. She needed it. She usually sleeps 12 hours a night but had only had 6 hours, broken sleep. Brett took her out for an hour to play. I watched the season 2 premier of Mortal Instruments. When they came back I did us cheese on toast for lunch. Brett took all the boxes down to my garage and took the recycling out. Then he put together my two side tables and 2 bedside tables from ikea. Scarlett had a nap and woke up at 6ish.

I put dinner on then Scarlett had a bath at 7:30. She went to bed at 8:30. I had had a bath with her so Brett had 1 after then we settled down to watch more Prison Break together. It’s so hot here. My flat is a sweat box. I can’t deal with it. I’m so glad our “summer” is only the odd week here and there. I couldn’t live this for months. I’d melt!

We’re off on holiday tomorrow. I’m excited. We’re staying at Rockley Park in Poole. We’re doing monkey world, Weymouth and Bournemouth. The weather is suppose to be warm so I’m packing for that but also throwing in some jeans and hoodies etc.

TTFN x

Holiday in 5 days!

Yesterday wasn’t that bad of a day. Had lots to do at work and the day flew by. I got an email from the job interview I went for. They want to do a second interview but can’t confirm a date yet. I’m away next week so hopefully it happens before then. Would like it out the way before I am on annual leave as it’ll give them a week to decide whether the job is mine.

I said in my last post that Scarlett’s hit the terrible twos:

She’s so naughty at the moment. She doesn’t listen. She pushes and taps you (mild slapping). She says No all the time. She’s defiant and stubborn. I think she’s hit the Terrible Twos. She’s been like it a few weeks and I’m already at the end of my tether. She just pushes and pushes. Nothings working. I’ve tried the softly approach but all I seem to do lately is shout at her to get her attention because she just does not listen. I cried with frustration earlier and it did stop her in her tracks and she calmed down a little so we could chat. I’m not sure she listened or took in what I said. I mean she is only 2. But it was worth a try.

Yesterday we had a better evening and we sat down and had another chat. I asked her some questions to gauge her understanding/comprehension. I told her she needs to listen to  what I/Nursery/Nanny/Daddy tell her. She has to speak more. If she isn’t happy or wants something she needs to speak up. She needs to stop jumping on the sofa, her bed or anything else like a chair as it’s dangerous. I told her if she gets a toy out she needs to put it back or ask for help in putting it back. Same with books. I am going to get her to help tidy up the front room tonight. Her toys and books are everywhere.

Today I woke up in a pool of blood. I stupidly thought my period was calming down so I only wore a pad overnight. I hate tampons. They are uncomfortable. So I try to avoid them. But I got caught out massively and had to leave my soaking PJ bottoms and pants in a bowl of cold water [and vanish] this morning when I headed out to work.

I still can’t believe I live in my own place. I mean we’ve lived there for nearly 7 weeks now. I’ve paid 2 lots of rent already plus 1 month of utility bills. So far, so good. It’s scary though. Knowing I have to pay all these things as well as Nursery fees, my phone bill, my iPad bill, Netflix [because I can’t live without it. Evenings are spent at home because the toddler is in bed]. Amazon Prime [I opted for monthly rather than £80 lump sum each year]. God what else do I pay for? Oh I pay money off my credit card, I put money in Scarlett’s account and I pay off my studio account. My brother’s bed came from my studio account so I pay the fees each month and he and his girlfriend are giving me money each month.

Tomorrow I have a half day at work as Scarlett has her 2 year Health Visit review. It’s like 90 minutes long. Also, I’ve lost her Red Book. Her RED BOOK. How? I can’t blame the move because it’s been lost months…

Once I am done Friday I am then off for 9 consecutive days. 2 weekends, 1 bank holiday and 4 days holiday. I can’t wait. Poole here we come!

TTFN x

The Terrible Twos

Tuesday after work we went up the hospital to visit my Nan. She looked alright considering she’d had surgery at her ripe old age of almost 90. Scarlett was really well behaved and didn’t run around the ward as I had expected her to. We left for Home and grabbed food on the way as I hadn’t eaten.

Wednesday we had a big meeting at work. Well the meeting itself was at the Holiday Inn in the conference room. Apparently my job is at risk due to a restructure, coming from the merger of my department (and our sub department) with another department. Basically they’ve come in and told us we have to fight for our jobs. But they’re moving my office to another office. 9 miles away. As a non-driver this won’t work for me. So I’ve no choice but to leave. It left us all in low spirits if I’m being honest. Luckily I already had an interview lined up for the afternoon so fingers crossed something comes from that.

Thursday Scarlett didn’t go to bed till late. Well she did go to bed at a normal time. But she was still awake at 9pm. I even climbed in her bed with her for 10 minutes and it didn’t make a difference. I caught her chewing her dummy so I’ve taken it off her. She’s too old to have 1 now and she doesn’t need it. It’s just become habit for her.

Friday Brett got off the train when I finished work so we picked him up. It was great having him here for bath and bedtime on a Friday for a change. He doesn’t usually get here that early, when he’s working. Scarlett enjoyed a bedtime story with Daddy, rather than me. She prefers it when he does it. Day 2 of No Dummy went ok. When she went to bed I cooked us dinner then I had a quick bath. We watched Prison Break season 1 episodes 1-4. We said we’d watch the entire series from beginning to end as I haven’t seen it in years and can barely remember.

Saturday we got up at 8ish. We had breakfast then we watched A Little Mermaid. Well some of it. We put her down for a nap. I did some washing. When she was up we went into town for lunch then I bought a present for Scarlett’s Nursery friend. His party was at 3pm so I had to wrap it in the car outside. The party wasn’t that bad just very hectic. Lots of kids everywhere. Brett got forced into following her into the jungle gym. She wouldn’t go without him haha at 4:30 the kids had some dinner then at 5 we left. It was good seeing her with her little friends. After the party we went to Morrison’s so I could do a small shop then we headed home. Scarlett had a bath then she went to bed. I cooked us pizza and garlic bread then we settled down to watch more Prison Break.

Sunday I woke up at 8ish and heard Scarlett moving. She didn’t call out so I stayed in bed and must’ve fell asleep because when I heard her again it was quarter to 10. Result! We got up and had breakfast. We played and watched TV. At 12:30 we walked to my nan’s house for dinner. We stayed till 3ish then went home to chill. Brett left mine at 4:30 to get a lift to the train station. Me and Scarlett had cheese on toast then we had a bath. Mom popped in for tea then Scarlett went to bed at 8:30. Mom left just before 9. I settled down to watch a new series I’ve started. It’s called Shadow Hunters: The Mortal Instruments. It’s been a movie, which I’ve seen. And I read the books as well. It’s brill.

Monday (today) I woke up just before 7. Started making my lunch and Scarlett woke up crying. She had a bad dream. We got dressed then I did breakfast.

She’s so naughty at the moment. She doesn’t listen. She pushes and taps you (mild slapping). She says No all the time. She’s defiant and stubborn. I think she’s hit the Terrible Twos. She’s been like it a few weeks and I’m already at the end of my tether. She just pushes and pushes. Nothings working. I’ve tried the softly approach but all I seem to do lately is shout at her to get her attention because she just does not listen. I cried with frustration earlier and it did stop her in her tracks and she calmed down a little so we could chat. I’m not sure she listened or took in what I said. I mean she is only 2. But it was worth a try.

She went to bed at 7:30 but was still awake till almost 9! I watched the soaps then Criminal Minds. Tried to watch Blindspot but my TalkTalk box was playing up so I had to turn it off and reset. I lost my recording of Blindspot. So I set it up to record later on and I climbed into bed.

I’ve got neck ache and a headache. I’m on so I’m exhausted with menstural fatigue.

They named the new price. Louis Arthur Charles, pronounced as Loo-wee. How exciting!

TTFN x

There is a new Prince

Wednesday I went for a walk during lunch with my work colleagues. We walked around Frimley Lodge opposite our offices. Took us 20-25 minutes. I did 2800+ steps to add to my steps of 2500 so I hit my daily 5K target. Started watching a new series called the Resident. It is set in a hospital and follows the stories of some Doctors.

Thursday we went for another walk. Did the same thing. It was quite warm and I should’ve worn sun cream as I burn easily due to my sensitive skin. Wasn’t out in it for long though and the trees provided shade so I should be ok!

It was my brother’s birthday today so I posted a video on his facebook of Scarlett singing Happy Birthday lol

Friday I sent Scarlett to Nursery in a dress. Her first one without tights in like 6 months. I made the mistake of thinking her Nursery would remove it before painting etc. She came home smothered in paint. The dress is white (and pink). Very annoyed!

Brett got to mine late. I had said I’d wait for him to get off the train and cook us dinner so we could eat together. Which I did. It was nice eating together. We stuck some TV on then climbed into bed.

Saturday was Brett’s birthday. Scarlett woke up quite early. I was awake from like 6am because Brett kept coughing and it was really annoying lol we had breakfast then we watched half of Moana. Scarlett was tired so she went down for her morning nap. Once she was up we walked to the bus stop to go to town. We had lunch at poppins cafe then we jumped on the train to London. We arrived just before 3pm and headed straight for the London Eye. We had a lovely time. It was warm but not too warm. We headed back towards home. My nan picked us up from the station at 4:45. We went to hers for a cup of tea and ended up having dinner. I ate egg for the first time in 3 years. I don’t know why, I just ate it. And I didn’t feel queasy after so that’s good.

We headed home and Scarlett and I had a bath then she went to bed. Brett and I watched a film called The Dark Tower. It’s based on a Stephen King book so it was quite weird and creepy. We got into bed at midnight. Brett said he’d had a good birthday.

Sunday we got up at 8ish. I did us breakfast then we watched the rest of Moana. Scarlett had a nap and we watched most of Jack Reacher 2 before she woke. Once she was up we got dressed and got a taxi to Morrison’s. I almost went out my slippers on. I forgot to put shoes on and went down my flat stairs and was half way down the road before I realised. I had to go back in and change them, with Scarlett in tow. Talk about hassle lol

We did some shopping then my nan picked us up with the shopping. We dropped it home. We packed away the fridge and freezer stuff but left the rest. Then we jumped back in the car and headed to my nans as we were having dinner there. Nan cooked chicken and we stayed till 4ish then headed home. Brett left for the train at 6:15. Scarlett and I had a bath again then we snuggled watching In The Night Garden (or Piggle as she calls it). Then she went to bed. She’s been brilliant at this “sleeping in a bed” thing. I couldn’t fault her.

I struggled to sleep. I laid in bed coughing for 2 hours. I got up at 2 and had some water then I finally went to sleep.

Monday I woke up a 6:45, got dressed and then got Scarlett dressed. Thought it was going to be a nice day so I stuck her in some shorts but threw some trousers in her bag for good measure.

My nan told me that my Nan had had a fall in the old folks home. They suspected she’d broken her hip. She did her other hip in when she fell in 2015. They were going to operate on her. Later I found out she went down at 10:30 and survived the operation. Surprising given that she’s almost 90! So now it’s just a case of recovery and physio. She’s a nightmare that woman lol glad she’s okay though! We’re going to visit her tomorrow.

Prince William and Princess Kate have finally had baby number 3. A little boy. He weighed 8lb 7oz and looked all squishy. No name yet but amongst the favourites is Albert, Arthur and Philip. Whatever the choice, I’m sure they’ll put a lot of thought in to it. I love princess Charlotte, she’s beautiful and she reminds me of our queen (I’ve seen pictures of her from her childhood), they’re the spitting image!

Today at Work I ended up balls deep in a task that’s going to take me days. And it’s really long and dragging. It’s also taking me away from my daily duties, which is annoying. I’ve had to massively multitask today. I’m knackered after my night of rubbish sleep.

I’m currently watching Blindspot on sky living then I’m going to bed to read my book in bed then go to sleep lol

TTFN x

So Glad It’s Friday

Wednesday was much the same as Tuesday on the work front. Quiet. I put Scarlett to bed like normal. But I forgot to switch the monitor on. I usually keep an eye on her whilst she’s settling. I didn’t. I eventually realised and went into check on her before I went to bed. She had taken her onesie off because she was hot [evident by her sweaty head] and then was wrapped half in her duvet. So I put a vest on her so she wouldn’t be able to take her nappy off if she woke up before me. Then I climbed into bed. She is so damn cheeky it makes me giggle.

Thursday she put her own coat on. They teach them how to do it at Nursery. She’s such a clever bean! Scarlett asked me to put my phone down when we had done her bath. When I did she took it off me and put it on the side. Then she asked me to sit next to her for a cuddle. It made me simultaneously melt with love and then guilt. She obviously thinks I’ve used my phone too much recently between 5-7pm. I never use to. I had a strict rule of them 2 hours being privileged time. For just me and her. I only use to use my phone to call Brett for FaceTime. Or to take pics or videos of her. But now I use it a lot for other things like Snapchat or WhatsApp. And I’m so sorry to her for that. It’s a bad habit. But I can break it very quickly. I’m not addicted. It’s just one of things that creeps up on you.

I got into bed at 11ish. I hadn’t been watching much on TV. I had music on. I didn’t get to sleep till almost 1am. This is a recurring issue lately. I think I am still adjusting to the lack of background noise. I just lived next to a motorway for 23 years. We are only 2 weeks into living away from it.

Today was sunny and bright. Scarlett and I did our usual morning routine. Friday’s we drive her to nursery. We get McDonald’s breakfast. We go through the drive through. We got there and it was shut because some knobhead doesn’t know the size of his van and got himself wedged under the “height restriction” sign. Typical man not knowing the size of something! So I got out and went in to order our breakfasts. Scarlett gets aggy as soon as the bag comes in the car because she know’s it’s food but it’s too hot. So she sulks all the way to my work.

My day has been pretty good. I love Friday’s. We are not up to much this weekend. It is my cousins birthday today so we are going for dinner tomorrow as a family.

TTFN x

Night 3

So our first night was alright. It’s weird because I must’ve gotten acclimatised to the motorway noises. Having lived next to the M3 for 23 years I think I had become used to the background noise and being in my flat, away from it, it’s eerily quiet.

Monday I slept okay and got up before Scarlett did. I brushed my teeth and got dressed. She woke up at 10 to 7. I dressed her then put teletubbies on so I could make her breakfast then my lunch. She ate some fruit and then we got our coats on and left. My mom picked us up at 7:30. We dropped Scarlett to my Nan’s house then we drove to my work.

My day wasn’t bad. I caught up with all the emails from Friday when I was off. My cousin had a new phone because hers wasn’t working so my Nan tasked me with setting it up. I am the tech person. So I made mom and Scarlett a cup of tea then mom helped me fill out some forms for Housing Benefit. Scarlett had a bath at 6:30 then she had her milk whilst we watched Emmerdale. When it was done I put her in bed and made myself some dinner. Monday/Friday she eats at Nursery. I watched Corrie then I watched Criminal Minds as it was Monday. Then I watched another then Blindspot. I climbed into bed at midnight and read some of my book. I fell asleep about 2ish.

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Today was the same except I was tired when I got to work having only had 5 hours sleep. I had the weirdest dream, which I can’t even recall now. At lunch mom ran me down the council offices so I could give in my forms and my 20 thousand forms of ID [okay, maybe not that many but so many]. I am entitled to help with my rent which coupled with me working full time means I haven’t got to worry too much about that aspect. I still have to pay a lot of it myself but I can breathe a little. I went back to the office and ate my lunch whilst I worked.

I messaged Harry’s mom to tell her we’ve moved, and where to. I asked her to pass my address onto Harry as he’s blocked me or changed his number again. He has a right to know where his daughter sleeps. I am on my way home from work now.

I bought a really cheap but efficient [and small] tumble dryer. It’s being delivered on Thursday a long with my counter top freezer. I needed both. I also ordered some towels and stuff from Studio online. It’s slowly coming together. My internet is being installed Thursday too. I decided to go with TalkTalk for TV, broadband and phone. It will be about £36 a month on a fixed rate for 18 months. I can’t wait to be able to set up my SmartTV.

I just have tomorrow at work then Thursday morning then I am done for Easter. Can’t wait to spend the weekend with Scarlett. In our home. Our home.

TTFN x