It’s bloody snowing again!

Friday Scarlett and I got home and I put her in the bath. Then once she was dressed we wrapped up and walked to my nans house. My grandparents were having a takeaway. I hadn’t eaten so I left Scarlett with my Nan and hopped in the car with my Grandad to pick the food up. We ate at 7:30ish then Ernie and Debbie turned up like usual for a cup of tea. My Nan dropped us home at 10ish. Scarlett had her milk and was in bed by 10:30. I watched some TV then climbed into bed.

Saturday I set an alarm so we wouldn’t lay in too much otherwise it throws our weekend early rise routine out of the window. I turned it off and we woke up at almost 10. We had breakfast, we shared some porridge. My mom’s friend came round at 12ish. Scarlett was napping. When she woke up we went to Big Yellow Storage to pick up my boxes then we went to Sainsbury’s so I could get some food for Work next week. One of my brother’s friends had helped himself to my fucking salami. I went to have some in my wrap for lunch before we went out and there was no salami. Pisstake!

After the shops we swung by my nans house for a cuppa. She had said she was finally getting her kitchen redone so to avoid coming round as it’ll be hectic. No one listened as there was 14 of us at one point. We didn’t stay too long. We left at 5ish. Scarlett had some dinner at 6ish then we went up and got in the bath. She went to bed at 8. Mom and I sorted dinner. We had pizza and I made some cheesy garlic bread. We watched The Disappearance episode from this week then we put on a film on Netflix. We watched No Good Deed.

I was up till late talking to Brett. Which is fine as I knew Scarlett would lay in.

Today she woke up at 8:30. We got out of bed at 9. We had toast and she had some fruit. We started watching The BFG then mom got up and said she was walking round my nans as my Grandad was due to pick my cousin up and needed her as he wasn’t sure where he was going. So we got dressed and accompanied her. It’s very cold due to the bastard snow we had yesterday. It snowed all day and only stopped in the night. We’ve had 2 inches. However it’s not staying and a lot of it’s melting already.

We walked home and I put Scarlett down for a nap. She’s still asleep now. Mom is cooking dinner and I’ve just finished boxing up all my DVDs and some of my books. I’ve hit my Fitbit target just from throwing all my DVDs on my bed and sorting them into boxes. I must have about 200+ DVDs.

5 days till moving day! Excited but also anxious over how much stuff I’ve actually got to box/bag up to move!



Moving Day in 1 week!

Wednesday I posted before I learned that Stephen Hawking had passed away. He was a truly amazing and inspiring man. I must admit, I didn’t know a lot about him for a lot of my life. But I was aware he suffered from Motor Neurone Disease after being diagnosed with it when he was just 21. After watching the film about his life, “The Theory of Everything” I understood more about him, his condition and what he had achieved. He was one of the most brilliant minds and it will be a sad loss to our world. But he made it to 76 years of age, which considering he was given only 2 years to live in 1963. He made it to 2018. “So remember, look at the stars and not at your feet.”

Thursday was long. I was full on bleeding now. My period is not due for another 10 days so it’s taken me by surprise. Also, I hate periods. I hate that women have to have them. I mean, I went through the agony of having the coil placed so it would stop getting the bastards. Did it work? Did it fuck! I started watching iZombie as season 4 is now on Netflix. I didn’t want to binge though so I went up to bed at 9:30 and finished reading my book. I’ve read 7 books in the last 2 weeks from this DI Dixon series. I am itching for number 8 but it’s not out till May so have pre-ordered and will have to wait. I went to bed at 11:30.

Friday [today] I woke up to even more blood, if that’s even possible! I swear I will probably pass out at some point. I mean I have been knackered all week as it is so this won’t help. This weekend we [me and Mom] are going to blitz my room of junk, old clothes and god know’s what else. Then we’ll do the same to Scarlett’s room. All in preparation of the move next week. I got the email to confirm the deposit has gone through and what I need to do next week. I have to go to the Aldershot office to sign the tenancy agreement then I can check-in the property at 10. I am so excited! But also anxious of the actual move. All my possessions seem to be all over my house. Which makes sense as I’ve accumulated 23 years worth of crap in that house. Wish us luck!


Mother’s Day 2018

Friday Brett came down at 9ish. We were at my Nan’s do he got dropped there. He had gotten a card from Scarlett to me for Mother’s Day. I didn’t expect that. He wrote it in the dining room and had her draw on it for me. It was very thoughtful. He also got my a dvd from her too. La la land.

We got home and put Scarlett to bed. We laid in bed chatting for hours. Eventually we went to sleep.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. I picked her up from the cot and changed her nappy then I took her into my bedroom to wake up Brett. To his credit, he did get up. We all went downstairs and I made breakfast. We watched Postman Pat the movie then we took Scarlett up for a nap. I had a headache so I laid down on my bed whilst she was asleep. It helped.

When she woke up we all got dressed then my mom took her in the car to town and me and Brett got the bus. We couldn’t fit all of us in the car as my brother and his girlfriend were coming to the shop as well. We met up with them in ASDA. Brett and I primarily went to get my microwave. He agreed he’d buy me one and he’s stuck by that, even post-breakup. I picked a nice little white one and then mom put it in her car.

My mom had gotten me some flowers from Scarlett. Once they’d gone through the checkout she gave them to her to give me.

We took Scarlett and went into town for lunch. She didn’t want to sit in the “baby seat”. She wanted to sit on the chair next to “daddy” to eat her lunch. After we ate we headed to my nan’s. We stayed for a cup of tea and ended up having dinner. I just about managed to eat some but Brett isn’t a huge eater and his lunch had finished him off so we wrapped it up and brought it home.

He packed his stuff up whilst I bathed Scarlett then my nan picked him up and dropped him at the station for 8. I put Scarlett to bed then I caught up with some TV before heading to bed.

Today is Mother’s Day. My mom’s away. She’s at her boyfriends. My Nan is out for dinner so it’s just me and Scarlett. Except it’s never just us in the house. God I can’t wait to move!

She woke up at 8:30. We had porridge then we watched Brave in bed whilst doing puzzles. At 11am I put her down for a nap. She woke up at 1:30. We got dressed and headed to my nan’s. She had said if we wanted some space then we were welcome to go to hers whilst she was out. So we did. I cooked our dinner. We had steak pie and chips. We watched teletubbies, played games, coloured lots. Overall just spent the day together. Which was lovely but I was a bit irked that no one wanted to make it special given that it’s my last Mother’s Day living at my mom’s house. But whatevs!

I caught Scarlett standing on my nans windowsill looking out at the kids playing outside. She wanted to join in. But she’s just too little. Maybe next year.

My grandparents got home and we had a cup of tea. Scarlett helped feed Marley, like usual. She loves being helpful. She knows the routine and doesn’t need much prompting, my clever bean!

My nan dropped us home at 6:30. We got straight in the bath. Scarlett loves it when we share a bath but I don’t do it often as it’s harder work than if I just bath her quick then get her dressed lol we came downstairs to watch some dancing on ice as she loves it. We spoke to Brett then I took her up at 8:15. She cried so I had to go back up for cuddles then she went to sleep. Haven’t heard a peep since!

I started watching a film on my iPad but got distracted then it was too late to watch the rest so I’ll watch it another day.

Work tomorrow. Hope it’s not a stressful day. Got enough stresses in my head with this move!


P.S. 11 days till moving day!!!!

Corfu, here we come

Saturday we had a lay in. Scarlett woke up at 8ish. I took her down and we had breakfast. We watched Gnomeo and Juliet then I put her up for a nap. Whilst she was asleep I read more of my book. I literally cannot put it down. I was on book number 4. when she woke up we got dressed and went to my Nan’s for some lunch. After we ate, we left her there to play so we could go shopping. I picked up a new TV for my new place. 32 inch HD Smart TV. It was only £210. Bargain! Then we did some food shopping. We got Scarlett a water bottle that is the same as mine, just a different colour as she is always drinking out of mine. And my throat has been sore for like 8 weeks so it’s not ideal for her to share my drinks, germs. We dropped our shopping home then we walked back to my nan’s. Scarlett had some dinner there then we headed home. I bathed her and put her to bed. We had our dinner. We had these pizzas from Sainbury’s that were “Pizza Express” ones. And some doughballs. Lush!

Sunday she woke up at 8am again. We watched Curious George the movie whilst eating breakfast. I put her up for a nap again and then climbed into bed to read my book. I finished book 4 and started reading book 5. We walked to my Nan’s for Sunday roast. We stayed there till the early evening then we headed home. Scarlett was tired when we got in so she was bit whingy. We got in the car and drove to Fleet to pick up the coffee. It’s just as the pictures showed. No scratches etc. I tried calling Brett before she went to bed but I hadn’t heard from him since Saturday night. He had been at a house party with his pals and I assumed he was asleep at his friends. But usually he pops up, hungover, by like 3/4pm. This was 7pm I tried calling him. My Whatsapp messages were only coming up with 1 tick. Which meant his phone was either off or had no signal. I was annoying because he would be pissed at me if I ignored him for 24 hours. So I put Scarlett to bed then chilled out. Finished doing my washing. I read my book in bed then went to bed.

Monday I woke up with my throat being worse than it had been in days. Awesome. It was snowing. It didn’t really settle but it was snowing on/off all day.

Still no word from Brett. Which I found unusual so I messaged his mom later on and asked if he had come home. She said no and she said she was sending his Dad round after work to see if he was at his pals house. Turned out he was. So he came home when I had finished work then he called to say Hi. He is such a knob. Fancy going AWOL for 2 days then being all “hey”. If I had done that to him, he’d have gone mental at me.

He spoke to Scarlett on FaceTime and she wasn’t even bothered. She just carried on playing. I put her to bed at 7ish then we ate dinner. Mom had cooked whilst I made tea. We watched TV then she went to work. I watched new Criminal Minds and Blindspot then I read some more of my book in bed before I went to sleep.

Today I didn’t wanna get up. It was so cold. Must’ve been minus 3 when we got up. Scarlett’s GroEgg in her room was blue meaning it was too cold. Yet when I pulled her from under her duvet she was toasty warm. She had toast and I had porridge then we went out separate ways.

Sunday we had sat with my mom’s boyfriend and looked at holidays. My nan is in Spain in September and as she does the nursery run, plus has Scarlett 3 afternoons a week, I had to book the time off. Or mom had to. Either way, one of us had to. So we agreed to both book 2 weeks off and we’d go away. So we settled on the Alkion Hotel in Corfu [check it out]. It worked out as £276 per person but that is if we split it 4 ways to include Scarlett. Mom said to just split it between us 3 adults so it’s £368 per person for 7 nights, half board. I am very excited now we’ve actually booked. We paid the deposit then the next instalment is due the end of next month.

Corfu here we come! Only 210 days to go LOL


P.S. Only 24 days till MOVING DAY!!!!

A mini rave for a 2 year old

Friday I emailed TurtleTots about swimming lessons as I planned. I am hoping to book her in for Saturday classes same as before. But I want her to have her lesson earlier in the morning. She never wanted to go when her lesson was 12 because she was either tired because she was due to nap, tired and cranky because we had woken her or she was hungry. Either way she was miserable until she actually got there and realised what we were doing.

When I got in from work I hoovered up [Scarlett pretended to hoover with her toy Henry Hoover] then I took her up for a bath. She went to bed at 8ish. We had dinner. We had KFC then I went upstairs.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 7am. She had lost her dummy. I gave her another one and she went back to sleep. She woke again at 8ish. I heard her singing. As she wasn’t calling for me or crying I left her for a bit. At 8:30 my mom popped her head in and said she was taking her downstairs for breakfast. So I laid in bed a little longer. We got dressed and headed out. I had to pop to town to buy a birthday card for the little boy whose party we were attending. I drew out some money [£10 for his card] and checked how much was in Scarlett’s account. My mom’s friend had put in money for her birthday and wanted me to confirm it had arrived there. It had.

After town we headed to Costco. I didn’t fancy going in as mom was only after some toilet rolls so we stayed in the car, me and Scarlett. We went to my Nan’s for lunch and I threw some make-up at my face – I’ve run out of foundation [which I only discovered when I went to put some on. Luckily I had a different “type” of coverage which worked]. At 2 my grandad dropped us at the party venue. It was like a mini rave. It was pitch black with loud music and disco/strobe lights. There was an indoors bouncy castle. But given how dark it was I didn’t fancy Scarlett hurting herself because some unsuspecting child has collided with her. Sitting up A&E on a Saturday is not fun. So I kept her away from it. But given how dark it was, she wasn’t keen on being there. A few times she wandered away from me chasing a balloon and almost got mowed down by a kid on a bike so she soon stood next to me. She stole a cake when we first got there. She is so funny, she made a beeline for the table of food. Typical Scarlett!!!

We left at 4pm, instead of 4:30pm. We walked across the road to the shop to get sweets and then we got picked up. We stopped at my Nan’s for dinner then we headed home. I got Scarlett in the bath then she went to bed at 8ish.

Sunday she woke up at 10am. How lazy! We had some breakfast together and watched Kung Fu Panda. At half 12 we got dressed and walked to my Nan’s as we were having Sunday roast there. We ate then she played. She followed Macey (my cousin) around. She loves playing with the big kids. We stayed until about 4:30. My aunt had turned up at 3:45. 45 minutes with her lots craziness was enough. Plus Scarlett had not napped all day so we needed to go and chill at home.

We had a cup of tea and we watched the movie Megamind. She actually did watch a lot of it. I took her up for a bath then she went to bed at 7:45.

I jumped into the bath at 9ish then I climbed into bed. I was eating giant buttons the night before and I must’ve dropped one. I was getting ready for bed after my bath and I noticed there was brown crap on my sheet. I genuinely thought it was shit. Then I remembered “I haven’t shit myself so..”. I smelt it (gross I know) and it was chocolate. Had zero clue where it came from. Then I remembered the buttons. But, I didn’t drop any. I ate the motherfuckers. Then I noticed I had chocolate on my foot and as I was searching for more I saw a squished button on the sole of my foot. How an earth I hadn’t felt it, I could not tell you. It was disgusting because visually my brain was yelling “SHIT. ITS SHIT. EWWW”. But my nose was like “mmm chocolate”. I wiped it all off and then sat there laughing to myself. What an idiot!

Today I woke up at 7:10. Basically running late. I got myself dressed the I woke her ladyship up and dressed her. I took her downstairs. She had toast and milk for breakfast. I made my lunch then my mom arrived so I left for work. All she did was chat chat chat in the car. Most of it was her moaning about stuff. Stuff I haven’t done. Stuff that’s my fault. The usual. I was so annoyed when she dropped me.

Work was slow. The office was cold. Heaters were on ALL DAY! We had a conference call at 11. Directors went through all the slides of some presentation thing. A lot of it wasn’t particularly interesting or relevant to me and my role. But some things peaked my interest. Mostly due to them being a tad incorrect. But hey ho.

At 4:50 I noticed my mom’s car outside so I went out to say Hi. I brought Scarlett in the office for the last 5 minutes. She sat on my desk whilst I finished some emails. I fully expect to be told off for having her there but I’ll be fuming if I am as I know for a fact there’s people in the office who’ve brought their child in to the office end of the day many times for various reasons. So 5 minutes wouldn’t hurt anyone.

After work we got home and the carpet in the lounge was soaked. Turns out the radiator has a hole in it and is pissing out water. Ideal! Mom phoned the housing people and they said a guy will come out within 4 hours. We put a bucket under the leak and turned the heating off. I was due to view a property at 5:45, in my road (view here). So at 5:40 we set off down the road with Scarlett. It’s a lovely 1st floor 2 bedroom maisonette. It has a garden, big lounge, decent sized rooms, good bathroom. It’s been newly redecorated and recarpeted. Lots of built in storage space with gas central heating too. I do like it but I’m keeping my options open so I’m viewing a maisonette in town tomorrow lunch. I like this one a lot. It’s very ideal due to its location. So we’ll see.

The guy came and looked at the leak. He was unable to fully remove the radiator due to the wooded fittings on the wall surrounding it. He said he’ll isolate the radiator so it’s no longer connected to the system so we can still use the heating for the other radiators. So we’ve turned it back on as Scarlett will freeze to death in her ice box room. He said someone will ring up about coming out to replace the radiator soon. They’ll probably need I rip off some of the wooden slats. Oh well, got to be done I guess. Our carpet is soaking wet. It squelches when you step on it. Lovely!!

Scarlett went to bed at 7:30. She settled at 8 whilst we were eating dinner. Mom got ready for work. I watched some TV then I came up to get into bed and watch some new NCIS. I turned it off at 11pm and now I’m just laid in bed thinking about all the stuff I will need when I move out. I can’t wait!


A murder, a party and losing the will to live

Friday I went to work. I felt like absolute shit. I was manic all day. Trying to catch up. Trying to do stuff. I made a fair dent in my emails.

After work we went home. There had been an incident near to the party venue at 2pm and I wasn’t sure if the road would be open in time. There had been a fatal stabbing and the road was cordoned off.

Saturday we woke up at 7:30ish. Mom had worked the night so she grabbed breakfast on her way home. We ate when she got in. Scarlett ate loads. I was due to go to the venue for 11. I needed to go to town to get her cake. So I put her down for a nap then at 9:45 Grandad picked me up. The road was still shut. I had phoned the venue at half 8 and they reckoned I was still able to go ahead with the party. So I went to Asda to sort her cake. I settled on one of her Cake Smash pictures on it. I grabbed myself a new top to wear then we paid and left. I stopped by Home to grab what I needed then I went to my nan’s. She lives nearer to the venue than I do and I was due there at 11ish.

I walked over. I was perplexed. I couldn’t figure out how I was meant to get in when the front of the entire building/flats was cordoned off, including the road. I walked round behind and found the security guy (we had spoken on the phone). He let me in and said he’d lift the car park barriers so my guests could come in and out. And when we are finished later to call him and he’d come lock up the building.

The soft play guy arrived to set up at 11:15. My nan came with the food. I decorated and everyone blew up the balloons. I can’t because I’m allergic to latex. The guy finished setting up and left.

Just before the party was due to start I creeped into the toilet so I could slap some makeup on and change my top. Then I headed back out. I still felt like shit but the party was actually happening so I “put my big girl pants on”.

People arrived. People had a laugh. The kids played. They ate. It was good. I did some mingling. I met some of her Nursery friend’s parents. They’re all lovely. The kids too.

We did some presents from Brett’s brother because they’re big and they said it’ll be easier for them to take them straight back home in the car. Otherwise I’d have to drag it to their house on the train next time we visit. It was a crayola my first easel set. She’ll love it.

We did the cake at 2ish then everyone slowly parted ways. We gave them all their party bags and then when they’d all gone we tidied up. The soft play guy came at 2:50 and put everything away. I paid the remaining fee. I called security to inform them that we were leaving then we left.

We stopped at my nans house for a cup of tea then we headed home. Scarlett had eaten a lot so she just had some chips with Brett. I had a chicken curry. She had her bath then she went to bed.

We both felt knackered so we climbed into bed at like 9:30. We were going to watch a film but instead we just laid in bed chatting. We went to bed quite early, must’ve been midnight.

Sunday Brett looked at trains and they were rail replacement so he said he’d go home the next day. Worked for me. Scarlett got up at 8. We had breakfast at 10 then I put Scarlett up for a nap. We woke her at 12:30 so we could go out for dinner. We went to the Beefeater in town. I had garlic flatbread for starter then a buttermilk fried chicken burger with chips for a main. Scarlett had chicken bites, chips and peas. She ate a little but she wasn’t overly hungry. She helped my mom eat her dinner though lol

We left the restaurant a 3:15 and headed to my Nan’s. We had a cup of tea then headed home at 5ish. Scarlett had a yoghurt then went up for a bath at 6:30. We got her into bed at 8pm. We wanted to watch a film. Brett said Django so I found Django Unchained on Netflix. We watched it. I made him some supper. I ate my leftover rice from the night before.

The film finished quite late. I needed a shower as I had Work the next day. So we jumped in the shower then got into bed.

My neck has been really painful. Neck. Not throat. My throat is tolerable. My neck hurts if I turn too far either way. If I tilt my head. If I swallow or cough. It’s ridiculous. I cried. In bed. In front of Brett. I hate crying but I hate crying with an audience even more!! He cuddles me and said I’d be ok. It helped. We went to sleep.

Today I woke up and I just felt like utter shit. I was sick in bathroom. My head was pounding. My neck was killing me. I called in dead sick then booked a doctors appointment. They gave me a triage call first then an appointment for 11:40. I watched more Hemlock Grove then I climbed into bed with Brett. He woke up and said he was going to head home. So he left at half 10. At 11:20 I set off for the Doctors. I saw the same doctor as last week and she couldn’t get me out of there quick enough. Apparently my neck pain is muscular and will go away on it’s own. Basically put up and shut up!

After the doctors I walked to my nans house. I had some lunch at 12:30 then at 3pm mom came round. We went to Morrison’s to grab some food for Work then we went and picked up Scarlett. She had a good day. She ate and slept well apparently.

We went home and did some colouring. We played with her baby dolls. I took her up for a bath. She won’t get undressed. Turns out she needed a poo. When she was finished I stripped her off and she had a bath. She had her bottle and I took her up to bed at 7:30 but she didn’t settle. Mom went up once to sort her out. She’d taken her trousers off. I went up the second time and brought her downstairs. We turnedthe lights off and just had the tv on, down low.

I took her back up to bed at 9:30 as she seemed more ready for bed. I think she was missing me because she sat with me, cuddling and kissing my face. Rubbing my arm. Playing with my hair. So I can’t be mad at that!

I watched Vera at 10pm. It’s almost 2 hours long so it’s only just finished. I’m headed to bed now.


4 days till baby is 2!

So I’ve just had the shittest day I’ve had in ages. And a lot of it was fuelled by tiredness, hunger, hormones and the bastard rain.

Friday’s journey to Brett’s house wasn’t bad. Just bit packed on the train. That’s the problem with travelling at rush hour. We got on the 5:15 and got off at 6:35 so not too bad. Brett met us on the platform. His mom was in the car waiting.

When we got back we had some dinner. We had chip shop because it’s a Friday. Scarlett had already eaten at Nursery so she just had some chips. Brett bathed her then we put her down to bed at 9:30. She took ages to drop off.

Brett fell asleep on the sofa at 10. I left him. I climbed into his bed. Played my iPhone games then went to sleep at 12:30. He climbed into bed at some point, he woke me up. But we both went back to sleep.

Saturday Scarlett stirred at 6:55. I heard her but as she’d woke me, I really needed a wee so I ran past her cot and went upstairs. When I came back down she’d settled so I climbed into bed and went back to sleep. I heard her again at 9:30. She was singing. I left her till almost 10 then I got her up. Brett didn’t get up. It annoyed me. He eventually came out the bedroom after Scarlett had already gone shopping with his mom and I had had a shower.

When they got back we headed out to see his family. We stopped at McDonald’s on the way as I was starving and Scarlett needed some lunch. We ate on the way. We were there till 3 then we headed back. I put Scarlett down for a nap. She slept for 90 minutes. I woke her up trying to get past the cot (his room is an obstacle course).

We put her dinner on at 6ish. She ate at 6:30. She had waffles, fish fingers and beans. Then a yoghurt. Standard lol

We ate at 7ish then I put her in the bath. Took ages to get her to go to sleep. Mostly because Brett was on the PS4 and took ages to get off it. We put her down then we watched a film in the front room. We watched paycheck. Not bad film. It had you guessing things, which I like.

He played his PS4, again. Whilst I played my game on my phone in bed. I went to sleep at about 1ish.

Sunday (today) I didn’t hear Scarlett until 9. She was singing so I left her be. Must’ve fell asleep. Woke up at 10 and she was quiet. Rolled over to wake Brett up. Told him it was 10 and we should get up. Slide off the bed to see her and the cot was empty. I figured his mom must’ve picked her up so I went upstairs for a wee. On the stairs I could see her feet on the sofa, she was sat with his brother. So I brushed my teeth and came down to get dressed. I told Brett we needed to relieve his brother from babysitting duties. He just stayed there so I left the bedroom and went into see Scarlett. She had already had her bottle. Then she had some grapes and a yoghurt. The dog was asleep on the sofa and Scarlett slammed her hand down when running past. It startled him and he bit her. She was really upset. I picked her up and took her into the kitchen so I could see her hand. It was a smallest of grazes. I tried to console her but she was heartbroken. I washed her hands to be safe (let’s be honest, dogs lick their own arses). I told her it was okay and he didn’t mean it, she just spooked him. Her cry was really getting to me. I could feel my eyes watering. I hate crying. And I hate public crying even more. I held it back till she composed herself. I took her in the lounge to dress her. She was much calmer. Then she took her dirty nappy out into the kitchen to put in the bin. There was people in the kitchen so I seized my chance to escape upstairs. I had a wee and cried. I cried because my heart hurt. I don’t like when she’s upset. I don’t like not being able to control things. It wasn’t really anyone’s fault. The dog is old and was asleep. She startled him. But he shouldn’t bite. I’m so hormonal. Since the coil I’ve been skipping my period every other month. And it’s annoying. Because yeah, no blood, yay brill. But hormones still rain on me. So I’m either a blubbering mess or a psycho bitch. No inbetween #ideal

I tried to put her down for a nap before dinner. Brett was on his PS4 and didn’t get the hint when I said I wanted to put her to sleep. So after 90 minutes of trying I gave up. Then we had dinner. We got our stuff together and we left to get the train at 4ish. There was rail replacement buses from Woking (2 stops from Home) and I can’t do them buses as they are coaches and I get motion sickness. So I asked my mom if she minded picking us up from Woking. My brother’s girlfriend lives in Woking so she said yeah ok I’ll drop her back when I get you. So ok cool.

We got off the train at 5pm. It’s been raining for 2 days. So it’s soaking wet outside. They tell me to exit via platform 5. So I do. Then I’m told they got stuck because there is a road closed and they got diverted for like 2 miles and can’t get to me so can I go back through the station to platform 1’s exit. So I go back in and explain to the guard. They let me through. I come out the other exit. See mom waving down the road so walk as fast as I can carrying our overnight bag and pushing the stroller. Eventually we’re all in the car. Wet but in. Off we go to drop Natalia home. Scarlett is asleep within minutes. Not ideal. But whatever.

We had to divert again on the way home but we finally arrived just after 6. Kitchen was a mess. The water was still turned off. My mom nipped next door to ask if she could fill up some bottles with water so we could at least make tea. Scarlett had a hissy fit. She sounded like she was in pain. She was really upset. She wouldn’t let anyone pick her up off the floor. She ended up in my mom’s arms and she handed her to me. She calmed down. I asked her what was wrong. She said her elbow hurt (no idea) so I asked if she wanted me to kiss it better. She said Yeah. So I did. Then I asked if she wanted her tea. She shook her head. I said what do you want? She said “my bottle”. So I put her pyjamas on and wiped her face (no bath so it’s the best I could do) then I made her milk. She drank it and seemed to perk up. My mom’s friend came round to fix the pipe on the washing machine. Scarlett said Nunight at 7:30 and I took her up. She went to sleep. Water was back on so I watched Vera at 8 then at 10 I got in the shower. Omg it was so nice to wash my hair. I hate going to work with greasy hair and lately my hair is nothing but greasy. Ughhh!

I laid on my bed for a while after, enjoying the warmth from the heating that had come on whilst I was showering.

Now I’m in bed. Can’t sleep as I didn’t get up till 10 but I’ll try my best!

Scarlett is turning 2 in 4 days (although it’s almost 3 days now). It’s gone by so quick but at the same time it’s gone slowly.

I’m off to dream about the time when my kitchen wasn’t a shit hole, my hair wasn’t constantly greasy and I didn’t feel like shit (sore throat is back).