5 days till Italy

So I got up with Scarlett at 7:45am. Was a decent lay in. She had a bottle and a nappy change. We watched some teletubbies and she sat on my lap for ages, which made me think she was probably tired. I made her breakfast then I put her down for a nap. Brett got up just before 10 and we had a bicker in the kitchen because he had pissed me off in the morning by almost knocking me out when dreaming [which itself isn’t an issue] and then when I was nice and asked if he was ok/dreaming? He got really attitudinal with me and then he was whinging that Scarlett was crying [I was putting her down for a nap] so I swore at him and left the bedroom. He came out a bit later and yeah we argued. His mom decided to get in the middle and told us to grow up. Brett was annoyed because he wouldn’t interfere in her relationship with his Dad, so she shouldn’t do it to us. But her argument was that it’s her house and she doesn’t want arguing in her house. She said [not to me, to Brett whilst I sat there feeling awkward as fuck] that I need to learn to “handle” him better. I am still young apparently and bite too quickly. Not sure having the hump over his attitude is anything to do with my age, just the fact I don’t like being spoken to like shit. But anyways, I was just still angry so I kept my mouth shut and sat there like a fucking lemon feeling more awkward by the minute.

We went into the shops once Scarlett woke up from her morning nap. I felt sick because I was so hungry as it was lunch time at this point. And we went into the pet store and it stank I almost vommed lol so I waited outside. We headed back. Scarlett had a sandwich and then I put her back down for a nap at half 2. She woke up just in time for dinner at 4ish. She didn’t eat much dinner, which I expected as she had just woke up. Brett and his dad had a blazing row in the kitchen whilst washing up. Not entirely sure what it was over. I was in the lounge changing Scarlett’s shitty nappy so I only heard snippets. They’ve never rowed when we’ve been there before. So was a little unsettling to hear 2 grown men going at each other. Scarlett obviously could hear and it upset her a little. Contrary to what you may believe, we don’t yell at each other in my house an we certainly have never in front of Scarlett. Brett picked her up when he had calmed down and I packed our stuff up. His mom drove us to the station at 6. Our train was 6:18pm. We got home at 7:30. My mom picked us up and we went home.

She had a bath and went to bed for 8:30ish. I had a quick shower myself and then caught up with Midnight, Texas that was on Thursday. Mom and I went up to bed at about 10ish. I was quite tired so I am thinking of going to sleep soon. Just laid in bed with my lovely mosquito bites that are itchy. I keep coming across a new one. So far I have 5.

5 days until Italy. I should count “sleeps”. So we have Sunday night, Monday night, Tuesday night, Wednesday night and Thursday night so that is 5 sleeps. Getting closer and I feel unprepared lol

TTFN x

11 days to go

Friday I had originally said to mom that I fancied going cinema as she was home so it was no hardship for her to babysit. But I changed my mind. I stayed in. We waited for her boyfriend to come over then we ordered a sneaky Chinese. I then went up to bed to carry on watching Salem. I have just started watching it and I am engrossed. It is a Netflix show so been streaming it downstairs on TiVo. But also on my iPad.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 6ish. Put her back down. She wasn’t having any of it so we got up. Went downstairs. Let her play in the lounge whilst I attempted to doze. Every time I tried she kept coming over to show me her “baby” lol we had breakfast then she went for a nap. I woke her up at 11 as she had a swimming lesson finally. They had been cancelled for 2 weeks in a row due to a fault with the swimming pool so we’d not been in ages. She loves her lessons. She is getting more confident every time. When we were finished Mom dropped us in town. By then it was lunch so we had a cheeky McDonald’s. I just had a chicken burger. Scarlett had a cheese burger.

After lunch we took a stroll to the hairdressers as I needed my hair cut. She was really good behaved considering she had to sit in the stroller whilst they washed, cut and blow dried my hair. She whinged towards the end but that was due to her being tired and needing a nap. We hit the shops before we headed to my Nan’s. My mom, me and her boyfriend decided we wanted to go cinema so we asked my Nan if she minded babysitting. She said she would. So mom headed home to grab some bits. We had dinner at my nan’s then I bathed Scarlett in my Nan’s kitchen sink then I got her ready for bed. Nan said she’d give her a bottle and then put her to sleep in the stroller. Which she did.

We went off to the cinema at 8ish. We popped into Morrison’s first then headed to the movies. It was really busy. We all got a slushie then sat down in our seats. The movie was really good. Having studied History for 5 years at school I am really disappointed that we were never taught about Dunkirk. I know that if we had been I would’ve at least remembered the name of it. There is so much we aren’t taught in class and I feel like I barely know any of our history.

We Drove to my Nan’s and picked Scarlett up. Couldn’t transfer her from stroller to car seat without waking her so I didn’t other trying too much. She had a few extra ounces of milk in her cot at home then she was back to sleep. She is such a good little human, bless her.

Sunday she woke me up at 6am. Again! We were going out at 11ish so I gave her a bottle when she first woke then some breakfast at half 8. She went down for a nap at 9 and then I woke her at 10:45 so she could get dressed. We got picked up at 11 and off we went. We went to my aunt’s house. Her new house. Was hectic as with us there there was 5 adults and 6 kids. But we managed. Scarlett finally noticed there were 2 of the same kid. She was sat next to Frankie and then Freddie came in. She looked from Fred to Frank and back again. Then at me. Her face was a picture. She couldn’t figure out why there was 2. So I told her one was Frankie, the other was Freddie. She still wasn’t convinced, I could see it in her face lolIMG_3295

I don’t think anyone understands what that pic (^) means to me. Seeing my child with them. They were in-utero when I was told I couldn’t have my own babies. And I felt jealous that my aunt could just pop babies out. And I vowed I wouldn’t babysit for anyone ever again because it hurt too much to be near kids at the time. But time moved on and they were born. They spent as much time at mine their first 2 years than they did at home. They were terrors but I loved them anyway. And then Scarlett came along. My little dream. My miracle. MY terror. And to see her with them today. Her following them. Copying them. Yabbering away to them. Well, it made my heart swell… This is exactly what I had always dreamed of. My child with my aunt’s children, growing up as besties. Sometimes dream DO come true!

We got home at 5:30pm. We finished watched Hotel Transylvania. She had some supper [crisps, a gingerbread man and a yoghurt] then she had a bath. She was trying out her new skills from swimming. I got her ready for bed. We had a nice long cuddle on the sofa before I got up and made her bottle. She was in bed fast asleep by 7:30pm. When I put her down I got in the shower myself. Then I went downstairs just as mom got home. I hoovered whilst she made me some supper then we watched Poldark. When it was done I climbed into bed. I am in bed now. Work tomorrow.

11 days to go tomorrow until we go to Italy. It is getting very exciting!!!!!!!!!

TTFN x

Monday, again. What!

Thursday:

My Bridea gift box came. Inside was some random as hell items. Personalised sunglasses. A hand fan. Some sweets. Some other things and many leaflets. I think the idea is to look at all the options for what is available for when you marry. From flowers to decorations. What I really wanted from the box was the wedding planner.

Bride box

I left a book next to Scarlett’s cot to see if she would pick it up and look at it. As she sometimes has this half hour “faff about” after I put her to bed. She did pick it up and she played with it for a bit then she went to bed.

Friday:

We were allowed to leave our office at 4:30 so mom picked me up then we picked Scarlett up after. She looked confused that I was there. I seldom pick her up as usually Mom does, then picks me up. We went home and did the usual routine. Mom went off to work at 7:30 and I settled in for the night.

Saturday:

Swimming was cancelled. Second week in a row. The pool still has issues apparently. Scarlett woke me up at 5am. Again. Starting to drain on my soul now lol we had breakfast then I put her down for a nap. I had every intention to grab a shower whilst she was asleep but apparently my body had other ideas. I fell asleep on my bed lol

We went out at lunch time. It had been raining nonstop since the night before and everywhere was soaking wet. We went to my Nan’s for lunch. Scarlett played and ran and jumped. Not bad for being stuck indoors lol Mom came round later, as she had slept all day because she been at work. They had dinner and then we went to Morrison’s on our way home as I needed stuff for work. Ended up spending £40 on clothes for the kid lol #momlife

She threw a little tantrum when we got home as she didn’t want to walk from the car to the house. But I had my hands full of shopping lol so she laid herself down on the concrete, ever so gently, and then whinged! #dramaqueen

I had a shower when she was in bed and just had a chilled evening with some tele – the usual.

Sunday:

We were going up the old folks home to visit my gran so we were up, fed and dressed by 10am. I decided to take some distractions so she wouldn’t wreck the place. So we took her baby doll and toy pram. As well as her ball and a book. She was all over the baby doll all day. It was really cute. I put her down for a nap before dinner as she was grotty but she wouldn’t go down so she didn’t sleep until gone 3pm. We went home at 6ish. She was in the bath and in bed asleep by 7:30pm. I did some washing up then I watched some TV. I climbed into bed at 11ish.

Monday [today]:

Scarlett didn’t wake up at 5am this morning. First morning in a fortnight. Well, if she did wake I didn’t hear her haha I woke up at 7 and I got dressed then woke her up at 7:15. She had her bottle and my Nan turned up at 7:30 whilst I was making my lunch. Mom turned up at 7:45. I got to work for 8:10am. Not good. I hate being late but mom was late leaving work so I was late getting to work. It’s a knock-on affect. Never mind, no one died due to it.

TTFN x

1 more sleep

Saturday:

Scarlett had her second swimming lesson on Saturday afternoon. She did really well and was much more confident doing things. I am so proud of her. She’s just a darling (and a tiny terror lol)

Brett came down Saturday afternoon. His brother drove him down to ours after work. We went to Asda to grab some last minute bits for the holiday. I managed to pick up a swimsuit for myself. It wasn’t the best one but it’ll do.

We put Scarlett to bed and then caught up with each other. We planned to watch a film but we just never got around to it.

Sunday:

We got up and watched some tele. Scarlett had a bottle then breakfast. I got Brett up at 10ish. He had a shower. We headed to my Nan’s at 1 after Scarlett woke up from her mid morning nap. We had dinner at my nan’s. Scarlett had on one of her new dresses from GAP. It’s lovely. She had a nice afternoon and we went home in the evening. Brett had a banging headache so he went for a nap and so did Scarlett. I had a headache too (due to the heat) so I just laid in the sofa watching tele.

I have finally packed for our holiday. God I forgot how stressful packing can be. Especially as it’s not just me now. It’s a toddler too.

We’ve just watched that film now. It was pretty good. It was The Mechanic sequel. We haven’t seen the first though lol

Holiday tomorrow. I’m apprehensive for the travel as we’ve got to get the train to Hastings via London. I don’t really fancy going via London lol but needs must!

TTFN x

Alpro ice cream

Wednesday 21st:

My cousins baby was born at 10:01am. He weighed 8 lb 14 oz. And he is gorgeous. He has quite a bit of dark hair. So glad he arrived safely. They named him Parker Harry James.

Thursday 22nd:

Scarlett’s passport came through the mail today. I’m so excited for our holiday now. I was worried the passport people would reject it due to her picture or something but thankfully they are more lenient with under 2s. We are now checked in for our flights online. I needed all of our passport numbers to do. And I have!!!!

My mom dated a guy the year after my step-dad left her. And he cheated on her for 4 months before they split. He denied this. But we know it’s true. Anyway he and my mom always stayed in contact as friends. He was told by his new missus he can’t be friends with my mom. Insecure much? This breeds from being “the other woman” to a guy who cheated WITH YOU. And many times she removed my moms number from this guys phone. Talk about controlling. But whatevs! This woman he cheated with became his partner from the moment they met all the way up till now. Well this woman’s daughter called my mom up and accused my mom off sleeping with him. As my mom pointed out, 1) she’s in a very happy relationship, 2) he cheated on her so why the F would she want his ass back and 3) how the F would any of their menial “hello how are you” texts ever convey there was anything untoward going on. She said all this and basically told the girl to fuck off. She told me and I sent her ex (from 8 fucking years ago, like for real who even cares about people from that long ago) a shitty message telling him to get his fucking women under control and stop dragging my mom into his BS. I told him that he knows he’s not suppose to be friends with my mom and because he failed to do as he’s fucking told she’s now been on the receiving end of some shitty outburst.

It’s gets better. He never responded. Surprise! Not! Turns out it’s their Wedding Day on Saturday. That woman would be stupid to marry him. She knows he’s a cheater and she clearly thinks he still does so why marry him.

Friday 23rd:

For the first time in ages it was just me and my mom. No men. Oh, and Scarlett, obviously. So we put her to bed, grabbed some alcohol and watched a film. It was nice.

Her new high chair came today. I think she likes it!!


Saturday 24th:

Scarlett had her first swimming lesson at 12. We arrived at 10 to 12. I was already in my swim stuff so I just had to sort her into her swim suit. I had bought her a neoprene nappy cover and a neoprene all-in-one to stop her getting cold. She did really well. She let the instructor take her around the pool for a minute without me. She walked on a float before holding my hands and sliding into the water. She kicked. She waved her arms to move the water in a motion. We sang songs. Overall it was good. I was really proud of her. I made the rookie mistake of not checking my bag before we left. I left my bra behind. So we popped home so I could dump the wet swimming gear and grab my bra then we headed to Morrisons. We had some lunch then we did some shopping. We went home and chilled. Scarlett was tired so I put her down for a nap at 3:30 and I kind of fell asleep myself. I rarely do that. Even when she was a proper baby I didn’t nap often. She went to bed at 8:30. She’s so funny. She kept playing silly games with my hair. She likes it when it’s wet from the shower (no idea why).

We watched two movies. Bad Moms and Mother’s Day. It was nice just the two of us. I think I went to bed about 1ish.

Sunday 25th (today):

Scarlett woke up at 7ish. Gave her a bottle at 7:30 thinking she’d go back to sleep for a bit but after half hour of her rolling around she got up and whinged so we went downstairs. She had her breakfast – some fruit and a choc-au-pain then she got dressed. Mom did us some breakfast then we got dressed. We had to head to Morrisons for a cooked chicken as nan had planned for 3 of my uncle’s kids to have dinner with us so she needed more meat. We got one and then went to my Nan’s house. Scarlett was asleep when I got her out of the car so I went straight in and laid her in the stroller in the hallway. She needs her afternoon nap. She slept through Sunday dinner and woke up just after we ate so I got her out and put her in the high chair. She ate her dinner then she had pudding. My nan had managed to get some Alpro Soya ice cream. She had her first taste and she loved it. She ate the ice cream AND the cornetto too!


After we had dinner we had a cup of tea and let our dinner go down then we took her to King George V park. Her first ever trip to a park. She’s been in parks as a baby baby. But they didn’t count as she wasn’t walking etc. She loved it. She went down the slides and in the swings. She climbed EVERYTHING! We had a good time then we headed back for another cuppa then home.

I did her some supper at 6ish. She had some fruit and a slice of bread with butter. She’s like me in so many ways, it’s weird but kind of exciting. She had a bath and then for a change Nanny put her to bed. She went straight down. We stuck on a movie after having some supper ourselves. We watched The DUFF. Mom hadn’t seen it.  I love it!

I’ve just got into bed. I’m not tired. I had my first energy drink today in 8 weeks. My mom bought 2. I think she forgot I don’t drink them. Tbh neither does she now. We’ve both stopped. I quit cold turkey. She has the occasional one. I think I won’t be able I sleep tonight now!!!

Back to work tomorrow. I only have 5 days then I’m off on holiday July 3rd. I can’t wait. It should be good fun. Brett and I are taking Scarlett to Hastings for the week.

Just over 6 weeks till we go to Italy!!!!!!!

TTFN x

Father’s Day 2017

Thursday 15th:

Weather is too warm for me. Considering I am a “summer baby”, I really cannot stand the heat. Scarlett has been “okay” with it, so far. Today she just went to bed in a vest. No pyjamas. I tried to take her duvet out of the cot but she wouldn’t let me. So I left it. And tbh she hasn’t been silly and had it over her, she just likes laying on it so hopefully she won’t overheat.

Friday 16th:

It’s FriYAY. Brett came down at 10pm. My nan picked him up from the station. I cooked him some scrambled egg and sausages as he hadn’t eaten. He and my mom had a mini row because she was watching tele and he asked me a question. She rudely told him to STFU and he didn’t like that so he told her to chill as it’s just a TV show, which made her worse and she told him to go if he didn’t like it because it’s “her house”. So he left. He walked back to the station. But he had left his stuff here so he came back and then decided he would stay so our weekend wasn’t ruined. Not bad, they made it over a year before coming to blows lol

Saturday 17th:

Scarlett woke up at 6am. I changed her nappy and gave her a bottle. Thankfully she went back down for a few hours. I went back to sleep but it was so hot that I tossed and turned a lot. When she got back up I gave her some breakfast and we played, read some books and danced. I took her up to get dressed and we woke Brett up. He got dressed and we headed to my Nan’s so Scarlett could play in her garden and the paddling pool. They had on their matching “Father’s Day” t-shirts [see below]. We had a nice afternoon then my Nan did a BBQ. We were going cinema [date night] so we left Scarlett there with my mom so we could go home, shower and go. We watched “The Mummy”. It was good and they’ve left it open for a sequel. We got home just after midnight.

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Sunday 18th [today]:

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Father’s Day 2017!!!

So Brett got a personalised picture cup, the hero t-shirt [as seen] and a shirt that says “Super Daddio” – this one hasn’t arrived yet though! He also got a personalised card. I let him have a good la in [although that aint anything special, he usually sleeps in]. I took Scarlett up the old folks home to see my Gran, with my mom and Nan. When we got back I woke him up and he had a shower and we left him to it. We were going out for dinner at 1ish so we just waited for him to come to my Nan’s. We left at 1:15 for our meal. Scarlett ate loads and played games with Brett [she was sat between us]. We all had a pudding. Scarlett had ice cream. I will have to forewarn the nursery as the ice cream wasn’t dairy-free so it will undoubtedly affect her nappies for a few days. And whenever she has explosions they always assume she sick. She isn’t lol

We went back to my Nan’s after dinner. Scarlett ended up in a pair of 5-6 years knickers and just a pair of shoes in the garden but she was having fun. We left at 4pm. I put her down for a nap as she was knackered. Brett and I laid on the sofa trying not to melt and Mom had a nap as she is working tonight. Brett got a lift to the station at 6:30 when my mom left for work. Scarlett had a bath at 6:30 and then I put her down at 7:30. She started to settle then was up crying so I brought her downstairs for a bit. Her room GroEgg was saying 31 degrees. Too hot! I managed to swap her shitty fan for my mom’s fan as hers is better. Her room temp dropped to 30 and she went back to bed and finally settled. I kept checking her on the monitor until I went to bed myself. Then I checked her properly. She didn’t feel “hot to touch” so I think she’ll be okay. Just in bed playing Domino’s on Facebook with my mom [who is on her break at work].

TTFN x

Sunday blues

Thursday 8th:

So we voted. Both myself and mom voted the same. Not because we copied. That’s silly. And totally not how thing should be. We voted the same because we believed in the same things. Not that it did us much good because the election ended with a hung parliament. It’s not all bad. But it’s not good either because we didn’t get enough seats for our party so god knows what happens next. A coalition perhaps?

My little brother was 14 today. 14! Where has that gone? I remember when he was a baby. I use to pick him up for a cuddle and play silly games with him. Now he’s 2 years into teenage-hood. What!?

Friday 9th:

I had a long day at work. I felt so tired. I usually get to Thursday/Friday and feel exhausted. It’s this energy-free life. It’s just not compatible with my brain lol but nonetheless I gave up energy drinks about 6 weeks ago and I haven’t died, yet, so I can’t quit now lol

I decided I didn’t want to spend another Friday at home doing nothing so I bathed Scarlett, got her into her pyjamas and slippers then we headed to my nan’s house. She usually entertains on a Friday as her brother and his other half always come over for a cuppa tea and a chat. We ended up getting home for 9:30 and Scarlett went to bed at 10pm, 3 hours past her bedtime. She did really well. She only started to complain when it got to 9ish and she was REALLY tired!

She wasn’t feeling very well in the night. She woke up with a fever (teething I think) so I had to give her calpol, teething gel and a bottle. She was up from 3am until almost 6am. She eventually settled.

Saturday 10th:

She woke up at 8ish but didn’t stir fully and ended up going back to sleep. So did I. And eventually we surfaced at 10:30am. I don’t think she was right as rain yet because she got up and had breakfast then she cried to go back to bed so I gave her more calpol and put her back down at 12. She slept until 3pm. When she woke up she seemed much happier. We went out for dinner with my mom at 4:30 then did a quick food shop before heading home as mom had work. Scarlett was in bed by 7:30. Didn’t hear much from her except some coughing. Bless her!!!

Sunday (today):

She woke up at 8ish. She had a bottle then a bit later she had some breakfast with a cup of tea. She couldn’t get any more like my family if she tried lol I put her back down for a nap about 10ish. She slept until almost 12. Then we headed to my nan’s. I let her walk. No stroller! She did really well considering the distance and her short legs. Originally we weren’t going for dinner. But we ended up having dinner, pudding and after her playing in and out the garden all day, we went home at 6ish. She had a bath then she watched teletubbies. Then I made her a bottle at 7 and down she went. I heard her cough a bit but she’s alright.

I have been binge watching NCIS lately. I love it. I’m officially following season 7 (having seen the previous seasons in sequential order) but I dipped into season 9 tonight, the finale, after catching 2 episodes previous to it that were good.

I’m also reading. I’m still reading Limitless but I’m 70-something percent done so yay!

Work tomorrow. I bet the week drags balls. And I bet the weather outside our office window all week is blue skies and sunshine lol

TTFN x