Saying bye to the weekend

Friday could not have come quicker. It was a long week. The week at work after any time away is always the hardest. IMO anyway. We got home at 5:15 and I decided we’d go to my Nan’s for the evening. I don’t do this often as it means a late night for Scarlett. But once every now and then is fine. So we got picked up just after 7. My nan was going to the chip shop so I grabbed myself some dinner as I hadn’t yet eaten. We had a nice evening. Scarlett played and jumped and we didn’t get home till 10:30. She went to bed at 11ish.

Saturday we woke up at half 7ish. I did us some breakfast. Scarlett’s eye has been sore and weepy for a few days. It was horrid this morning. We watched Finding Dory then I put her down for a nap. When she woke we ate lunch then headed to my Nan’s. The sun was shining so she could play in their garden. We ended up staying for dinner. We headed home at 7:30. Quick bath then bed for little madam.

Today I heard her stir at 7ish but she didn’t yell out for me so I went back to sleep. She woke me up at 9am by rattling the stairgate on her bedroom. Turns out she’d shit and it was all down her leg because the nappy was too full of wee so it had no where else to go. Lovely! We had breakfast then at 10:30 we went food shopping with mom. She dropped me home with the shopping and took Scarlett round to hers for an hour. I watched a child-free episode of Shadowhunters and then we all walked to my Nan’s for dinner. Scarlett did some colouring with her chalk board table. And she played Tap Tap Art with everyone. Overall a pretty good day. Weather was too hot for me though. I hate this hot weather. Ironic really, given that I was born in the height of summer lol

We left for Home at 5ish and Scarlett had a banana (she asked for it) then we bathed and chilled. I put her to bed at 7:30. I did two loads of washing and am currently watching more Shadowhunters. I don’t know what I’ll do with myself when I reach the end lol actually tbf I do have season 2 of “13 Reasons Why” to watch. But I’m not in the headspace for it. Season 1 was mad intense and I’m not ready for that kind of focus.

Back to work tomorrow. I had hoped to hand in my notice. But I’ve not received my paperwork from my new role yet and I’m not resigning until I know what I’m signing my soul to lol

TTFN x

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So Glad It’s Friday

Wednesday was much the same as Tuesday on the work front. Quiet. I put Scarlett to bed like normal. But I forgot to switch the monitor on. I usually keep an eye on her whilst she’s settling. I didn’t. I eventually realised and went into check on her before I went to bed. She had taken her onesie off because she was hot [evident by her sweaty head] and then was wrapped half in her duvet. So I put a vest on her so she wouldn’t be able to take her nappy off if she woke up before me. Then I climbed into bed. She is so damn cheeky it makes me giggle.

Thursday she put her own coat on. They teach them how to do it at Nursery. She’s such a clever bean! Scarlett asked me to put my phone down when we had done her bath. When I did she took it off me and put it on the side. Then she asked me to sit next to her for a cuddle. It made me simultaneously melt with love and then guilt. She obviously thinks I’ve used my phone too much recently between 5-7pm. I never use to. I had a strict rule of them 2 hours being privileged time. For just me and her. I only use to use my phone to call Brett for FaceTime. Or to take pics or videos of her. But now I use it a lot for other things like Snapchat or WhatsApp. And I’m so sorry to her for that. It’s a bad habit. But I can break it very quickly. I’m not addicted. It’s just one of things that creeps up on you.

I got into bed at 11ish. I hadn’t been watching much on TV. I had music on. I didn’t get to sleep till almost 1am. This is a recurring issue lately. I think I am still adjusting to the lack of background noise. I just lived next to a motorway for 23 years. We are only 2 weeks into living away from it.

Today was sunny and bright. Scarlett and I did our usual morning routine. Friday’s we drive her to nursery. We get McDonald’s breakfast. We go through the drive through. We got there and it was shut because some knobhead doesn’t know the size of his van and got himself wedged under the “height restriction” sign. Typical man not knowing the size of something! So I got out and went in to order our breakfasts. Scarlett gets aggy as soon as the bag comes in the car because she know’s it’s food but it’s too hot. So she sulks all the way to my work.

My day has been pretty good. I love Friday’s. We are not up to much this weekend. It is my cousins birthday today so we are going for dinner tomorrow as a family.

TTFN x

Moving Day is T-Minus 2 Days

Monday I woke up at 7:15 instead of 6:30. Not a great start to my day however I did actually manage to arrive at work on time. Scarlett was miserable when I got in the car at 5pm. She was just so whingy so she went to bed dead on 7pm. I had some dinner and mom and I watched some TV. I came up to bed later and folded up some of Scarlett’s clothes and packed them in a box. I have lots more to throw in so I’ve left the box open for now.

Tuesday I got to work on time. It was a busy morning but a slow afternoon. I hate that. But I was up-to-date with everything and all my emails were filed so that’s good. Scarlett was a bit happier but she’s still a bit grumpy. Her nose is runny and she coughed a bit in the night.

Today [Wednesday] Mom is training at work so she’s out all day and my Grandad will look after Scarlett when my Nan goes to work at 5 if my mom isn’t back to pick her up. She says she will pick her up ASAP then come home. It may be before my her friend drives me home. She works in my company, in a different department and she finishes at 5:30 so on Wednesday’s she drives me home. I stay in my office till 5:30. So today she is taking me home. I finished book 7 of the DI Dixon series. Number 8 comes out in May so I have pre-ordered this. I read another book and now onto book 9 of the year. Not bad for only being in the 3rd month of the year.

16 years today since my uncle passed away. He was only 20 when he committed suicide. I try not to talk in too much depth about my family. For their privacy, respecting that they won’t want their lives all over the internet so I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned him before. Maybe I have. He was very troubled, drugs and running away from home as a teenager. He had mental health problems and eventually it lead him to jumping in front of a train, March 21st 2002. He may be gone but he’s certainly not forgotten. We shall visit his grave tomorrow [during lunch] and I always say Hi.

TTFN x

Mother’s Day 2018

Friday Brett came down at 9ish. We were at my Nan’s do he got dropped there. He had gotten a card from Scarlett to me for Mother’s Day. I didn’t expect that. He wrote it in the dining room and had her draw on it for me. It was very thoughtful. He also got my a dvd from her too. La la land.

We got home and put Scarlett to bed. We laid in bed chatting for hours. Eventually we went to sleep.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. I picked her up from the cot and changed her nappy then I took her into my bedroom to wake up Brett. To his credit, he did get up. We all went downstairs and I made breakfast. We watched Postman Pat the movie then we took Scarlett up for a nap. I had a headache so I laid down on my bed whilst she was asleep. It helped.

When she woke up we all got dressed then my mom took her in the car to town and me and Brett got the bus. We couldn’t fit all of us in the car as my brother and his girlfriend were coming to the shop as well. We met up with them in ASDA. Brett and I primarily went to get my microwave. He agreed he’d buy me one and he’s stuck by that, even post-breakup. I picked a nice little white one and then mom put it in her car.

My mom had gotten me some flowers from Scarlett. Once they’d gone through the checkout she gave them to her to give me.

We took Scarlett and went into town for lunch. She didn’t want to sit in the “baby seat”. She wanted to sit on the chair next to “daddy” to eat her lunch. After we ate we headed to my nan’s. We stayed for a cup of tea and ended up having dinner. I just about managed to eat some but Brett isn’t a huge eater and his lunch had finished him off so we wrapped it up and brought it home.

He packed his stuff up whilst I bathed Scarlett then my nan picked him up and dropped him at the station for 8. I put Scarlett to bed then I caught up with some TV before heading to bed.

Today is Mother’s Day. My mom’s away. She’s at her boyfriends. My Nan is out for dinner so it’s just me and Scarlett. Except it’s never just us in the house. God I can’t wait to move!

She woke up at 8:30. We had porridge then we watched Brave in bed whilst doing puzzles. At 11am I put her down for a nap. She woke up at 1:30. We got dressed and headed to my nan’s. She had said if we wanted some space then we were welcome to go to hers whilst she was out. So we did. I cooked our dinner. We had steak pie and chips. We watched teletubbies, played games, coloured lots. Overall just spent the day together. Which was lovely but I was a bit irked that no one wanted to make it special given that it’s my last Mother’s Day living at my mom’s house. But whatevs!

I caught Scarlett standing on my nans windowsill looking out at the kids playing outside. She wanted to join in. But she’s just too little. Maybe next year.

My grandparents got home and we had a cup of tea. Scarlett helped feed Marley, like usual. She loves being helpful. She knows the routine and doesn’t need much prompting, my clever bean!

My nan dropped us home at 6:30. We got straight in the bath. Scarlett loves it when we share a bath but I don’t do it often as it’s harder work than if I just bath her quick then get her dressed lol we came downstairs to watch some dancing on ice as she loves it. We spoke to Brett then I took her up at 8:15. She cried so I had to go back up for cuddles then she went to sleep. Haven’t heard a peep since!

I started watching a film on my iPad but got distracted then it was too late to watch the rest so I’ll watch it another day.

Work tomorrow. Hope it’s not a stressful day. Got enough stresses in my head with this move!

TTFN x

P.S. 11 days till moving day!!!!

International Women’s Day 2018

Wednesday I got to work for 8. By 10 my eye was so bad I couldn’t see. My managers were in a meeting so I left an email and a text to say I was off home and then I left. When I got in I cleaned my eye out, I took more antihistamines and then climbed into bed with a wet flannel on my face. I fell asleep and woke up at lunch time. I ate some lunch then I laid back in bed waiting for the scratchy feeling and throbbing pain [and leaky water] to subside. It didn’t that much.

Thursday I stayed home again. My manager didn’t seem pleased but what could I do. My eye was still so bad. So I went back to bed after I sent Scarlett off to Nursery. I got up at 1:30. I didn’t bother with lunch. I went to my Nan’s. Scarlett was napping. Once she was up, she had dinner then we headed home. I watched some TV then I laid in a nice hot bath reading my book. I caught up with the season finale of Requiem. Two episodes instead of 1. It was a really strange ending. Scarlett woke up at midnight when I had just laid down to sleep. Typical. She was cute though. She thinks it’s exciting laying in my bed. She snuggles right up under my duvet. I put her back in her cot at 1am. Then finished reading my book. That is 6 books in the space of 2 weeks.

International Women’s Day 2018. As a mother of a daughter all I posted on Insta was “she may be small, but she is mighty“. I’ve heard it somewhere before but I can’t think where. It just sounded appropriate. I aim to raise my girl to be strong, independent and fierce. But also kind, loyal and determined. She’s very stubborn so I look forward [not] to her teen years. The terrible twos have already started [save me]!!!

Today I got up at 7. Got dressed then got Scarlett dressed. We brushed our teeth then I did her breakfast. I wasn’t hungry. I left at 7:45 for work. I’ve had a headache all day and my eye are been scratchy still because the heater was on and it kept drying my eye out. To be honest the heater didn’t need to be on, I was getting ready hot. The weather outside is dreary but not cold. I actually felt sick at one point.

Brett is coming down tonight. He is staying over and going home tomorrow evening. He wants to spend some time with Scarlett. I genuinely don’t know what is the best course of action. I am the reason they have a bond in the first place so I don’t feel it’s right or fair of me to rip them apart. At the same time, I’m not sure how appropriate or healthy it is for her to keep seeing him as “Daddy”. At the end of the day, he’s not her dad. And it’s not like we’ve been together years and have other children. It’s not been 2 years and it’s just her. Honestly, who knew navigating dating whilst a single parent was so damn tricky! I swear I am not going near anyone else. This has put me off for life!

TTFN x

P.S. move in day is in T-Minus 14 days!

It’s finally stopped snowing!

Yesterday it was snowing when we left my Nan’s house just after 5ish. It finally stopped at like 6:30. Everywhere was covered in snow still. I was pleased it had stopped. As much as it’s pretty to look at, it’s not practical!

Scarlett went to bed at 8ish. We had some dinner. We had sausage and mash. We were meant to have schnitzels but mom forgot to check we had breadcrumbs so she had to put them in the fridge and do sausages instead.

I was wide awake all night watching some TV. I couldn’t sleep. I think it was the coke I drank. I fell asleep about 6am and woke up at 9ish.

Today Scarlett woke about 9ish. She was singing so I left her till 9:30 then I took her downstairs. We had some breakfast then mom watched her whilst I showered. We got dressed then we went to my Nan’s house. She was cooking pies for everyone to take home. At 2ish I did Scarlett and everyone else some lunch then I put her down for a nap at 3:15. She slept till 5:30 then we walked home. She walked pretty much the whole way except for 2 minutes between one end of the park and the other, near the bridge. Which is fine. She did so well!!!

She had her schnitzel before we did as I wanted her in bed. She ate, had a bath then went to bed at 8. We ate then mom got ready for work. She left and so did her boyfriend. He headed home. I watched the latest episode of Requiem. Not entirely sure what’s even happening on it now. It’s confusing and weird!

I headed up to bed at 10 (half hour ago). Was going to watch a film but I’ve had a headache ALL DAMN DAY. So I’ll read instead and get an early night. I’m quite tired. We’ve had rain today, not snow. So a lot of the snow is gone and it’s much more drivable. At this rate I’ll 100% be back in the office Monday.

TTFN x

P.s. 20 days till MOVING DAY!!!

Corfu, here we come

Saturday we had a lay in. Scarlett woke up at 8ish. I took her down and we had breakfast. We watched Gnomeo and Juliet then I put her up for a nap. Whilst she was asleep I read more of my book. I literally cannot put it down. I was on book number 4. when she woke up we got dressed and went to my Nan’s for some lunch. After we ate, we left her there to play so we could go shopping. I picked up a new TV for my new place. 32 inch HD Smart TV. It was only £210. Bargain! Then we did some food shopping. We got Scarlett a water bottle that is the same as mine, just a different colour as she is always drinking out of mine. And my throat has been sore for like 8 weeks so it’s not ideal for her to share my drinks, germs. We dropped our shopping home then we walked back to my nan’s. Scarlett had some dinner there then we headed home. I bathed her and put her to bed. We had our dinner. We had these pizzas from Sainbury’s that were “Pizza Express” ones. And some doughballs. Lush!

Sunday she woke up at 8am again. We watched Curious George the movie whilst eating breakfast. I put her up for a nap again and then climbed into bed to read my book. I finished book 4 and started reading book 5. We walked to my Nan’s for Sunday roast. We stayed there till the early evening then we headed home. Scarlett was tired when we got in so she was bit whingy. We got in the car and drove to Fleet to pick up the coffee. It’s just as the pictures showed. No scratches etc. I tried calling Brett before she went to bed but I hadn’t heard from him since Saturday night. He had been at a house party with his pals and I assumed he was asleep at his friends. But usually he pops up, hungover, by like 3/4pm. This was 7pm I tried calling him. My Whatsapp messages were only coming up with 1 tick. Which meant his phone was either off or had no signal. I was annoying because he would be pissed at me if I ignored him for 24 hours. So I put Scarlett to bed then chilled out. Finished doing my washing. I read my book in bed then went to bed.

Monday I woke up with my throat being worse than it had been in days. Awesome. It was snowing. It didn’t really settle but it was snowing on/off all day.

Still no word from Brett. Which I found unusual so I messaged his mom later on and asked if he had come home. She said no and she said she was sending his Dad round after work to see if he was at his pals house. Turned out he was. So he came home when I had finished work then he called to say Hi. He is such a knob. Fancy going AWOL for 2 days then being all “hey”. If I had done that to him, he’d have gone mental at me.

He spoke to Scarlett on FaceTime and she wasn’t even bothered. She just carried on playing. I put her to bed at 7ish then we ate dinner. Mom had cooked whilst I made tea. We watched TV then she went to work. I watched new Criminal Minds and Blindspot then I read some more of my book in bed before I went to sleep.

Today I didn’t wanna get up. It was so cold. Must’ve been minus 3 when we got up. Scarlett’s GroEgg in her room was blue meaning it was too cold. Yet when I pulled her from under her duvet she was toasty warm. She had toast and I had porridge then we went out separate ways.

Sunday we had sat with my mom’s boyfriend and looked at holidays. My nan is in Spain in September and as she does the nursery run, plus has Scarlett 3 afternoons a week, I had to book the time off. Or mom had to. Either way, one of us had to. So we agreed to both book 2 weeks off and we’d go away. So we settled on the Alkion Hotel in Corfu [check it out]. It worked out as £276 per person but that is if we split it 4 ways to include Scarlett. Mom said to just split it between us 3 adults so it’s £368 per person for 7 nights, half board. I am very excited now we’ve actually booked. We paid the deposit then the next instalment is due the end of next month.

Corfu here we come! Only 210 days to go LOL

TTFN x

P.S. Only 24 days till MOVING DAY!!!!