Moving Day is T-Minus 2 Days

Monday I woke up at 7:15 instead of 6:30. Not a great start to my day however I did actually manage to arrive at work on time. Scarlett was miserable when I got in the car at 5pm. She was just so whingy so she went to bed dead on 7pm. I had some dinner and mom and I watched some TV. I came up to bed later and folded up some of Scarlett’s clothes and packed them in a box. I have lots more to throw in so I’ve left the box open for now.

Tuesday I got to work on time. It was a busy morning but a slow afternoon. I hate that. But I was up-to-date with everything and all my emails were filed so that’s good. Scarlett was a bit happier but she’s still a bit grumpy. Her nose is runny and she coughed a bit in the night.

Today [Wednesday] Mom is training at work so she’s out all day and my Grandad will look after Scarlett when my Nan goes to work at 5 if my mom isn’t back to pick her up. She says she will pick her up ASAP then come home. It may be before my her friend drives me home. She works in my company, in a different department and she finishes at 5:30 so on Wednesday’s she drives me home. I stay in my office till 5:30. So today she is taking me home. I finished book 7 of the DI Dixon series. Number 8 comes out in May so I have pre-ordered this. I read another book and now onto book 9 of the year. Not bad for only being in the 3rd month of the year.

16 years today since my uncle passed away. He was only 20 when he committed suicide. I try not to talk in too much depth about my family. For their privacy, respecting that they won’t want their lives all over the internet so I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned him before. Maybe I have. He was very troubled, drugs and running away from home as a teenager. He had mental health problems and eventually it lead him to jumping in front of a train, March 21st 2002. He may be gone but he’s certainly not forgotten. We shall visit his grave tomorrow [during lunch] and I always say Hi.



Mother’s Day 2018

Friday Brett came down at 9ish. We were at my Nan’s do he got dropped there. He had gotten a card from Scarlett to me for Mother’s Day. I didn’t expect that. He wrote it in the dining room and had her draw on it for me. It was very thoughtful. He also got my a dvd from her too. La la land.

We got home and put Scarlett to bed. We laid in bed chatting for hours. Eventually we went to sleep.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. I picked her up from the cot and changed her nappy then I took her into my bedroom to wake up Brett. To his credit, he did get up. We all went downstairs and I made breakfast. We watched Postman Pat the movie then we took Scarlett up for a nap. I had a headache so I laid down on my bed whilst she was asleep. It helped.

When she woke up we all got dressed then my mom took her in the car to town and me and Brett got the bus. We couldn’t fit all of us in the car as my brother and his girlfriend were coming to the shop as well. We met up with them in ASDA. Brett and I primarily went to get my microwave. He agreed he’d buy me one and he’s stuck by that, even post-breakup. I picked a nice little white one and then mom put it in her car.

My mom had gotten me some flowers from Scarlett. Once they’d gone through the checkout she gave them to her to give me.

We took Scarlett and went into town for lunch. She didn’t want to sit in the “baby seat”. She wanted to sit on the chair next to “daddy” to eat her lunch. After we ate we headed to my nan’s. We stayed for a cup of tea and ended up having dinner. I just about managed to eat some but Brett isn’t a huge eater and his lunch had finished him off so we wrapped it up and brought it home.

He packed his stuff up whilst I bathed Scarlett then my nan picked him up and dropped him at the station for 8. I put Scarlett to bed then I caught up with some TV before heading to bed.

Today is Mother’s Day. My mom’s away. She’s at her boyfriends. My Nan is out for dinner so it’s just me and Scarlett. Except it’s never just us in the house. God I can’t wait to move!

She woke up at 8:30. We had porridge then we watched Brave in bed whilst doing puzzles. At 11am I put her down for a nap. She woke up at 1:30. We got dressed and headed to my nan’s. She had said if we wanted some space then we were welcome to go to hers whilst she was out. So we did. I cooked our dinner. We had steak pie and chips. We watched teletubbies, played games, coloured lots. Overall just spent the day together. Which was lovely but I was a bit irked that no one wanted to make it special given that it’s my last Mother’s Day living at my mom’s house. But whatevs!

I caught Scarlett standing on my nans windowsill looking out at the kids playing outside. She wanted to join in. But she’s just too little. Maybe next year.

My grandparents got home and we had a cup of tea. Scarlett helped feed Marley, like usual. She loves being helpful. She knows the routine and doesn’t need much prompting, my clever bean!

My nan dropped us home at 6:30. We got straight in the bath. Scarlett loves it when we share a bath but I don’t do it often as it’s harder work than if I just bath her quick then get her dressed lol we came downstairs to watch some dancing on ice as she loves it. We spoke to Brett then I took her up at 8:15. She cried so I had to go back up for cuddles then she went to sleep. Haven’t heard a peep since!

I started watching a film on my iPad but got distracted then it was too late to watch the rest so I’ll watch it another day.

Work tomorrow. Hope it’s not a stressful day. Got enough stresses in my head with this move!


P.S. 11 days till moving day!!!!

International Women’s Day 2018

Wednesday I got to work for 8. By 10 my eye was so bad I couldn’t see. My managers were in a meeting so I left an email and a text to say I was off home and then I left. When I got in I cleaned my eye out, I took more antihistamines and then climbed into bed with a wet flannel on my face. I fell asleep and woke up at lunch time. I ate some lunch then I laid back in bed waiting for the scratchy feeling and throbbing pain [and leaky water] to subside. It didn’t that much.

Thursday I stayed home again. My manager didn’t seem pleased but what could I do. My eye was still so bad. So I went back to bed after I sent Scarlett off to Nursery. I got up at 1:30. I didn’t bother with lunch. I went to my Nan’s. Scarlett was napping. Once she was up, she had dinner then we headed home. I watched some TV then I laid in a nice hot bath reading my book. I caught up with the season finale of Requiem. Two episodes instead of 1. It was a really strange ending. Scarlett woke up at midnight when I had just laid down to sleep. Typical. She was cute though. She thinks it’s exciting laying in my bed. She snuggles right up under my duvet. I put her back in her cot at 1am. Then finished reading my book. That is 6 books in the space of 2 weeks.

International Women’s Day 2018. As a mother of a daughter all I posted on Insta was “she may be small, but she is mighty“. I’ve heard it somewhere before but I can’t think where. It just sounded appropriate. I aim to raise my girl to be strong, independent and fierce. But also kind, loyal and determined. She’s very stubborn so I look forward [not] to her teen years. The terrible twos have already started [save me]!!!

Today I got up at 7. Got dressed then got Scarlett dressed. We brushed our teeth then I did her breakfast. I wasn’t hungry. I left at 7:45 for work. I’ve had a headache all day and my eye are been scratchy still because the heater was on and it kept drying my eye out. To be honest the heater didn’t need to be on, I was getting ready hot. The weather outside is dreary but not cold. I actually felt sick at one point.

Brett is coming down tonight. He is staying over and going home tomorrow evening. He wants to spend some time with Scarlett. I genuinely don’t know what is the best course of action. I am the reason they have a bond in the first place so I don’t feel it’s right or fair of me to rip them apart. At the same time, I’m not sure how appropriate or healthy it is for her to keep seeing him as “Daddy”. At the end of the day, he’s not her dad. And it’s not like we’ve been together years and have other children. It’s not been 2 years and it’s just her. Honestly, who knew navigating dating whilst a single parent was so damn tricky! I swear I am not going near anyone else. This has put me off for life!


P.S. move in day is in T-Minus 14 days!

It’s finally stopped snowing!

Yesterday it was snowing when we left my Nan’s house just after 5ish. It finally stopped at like 6:30. Everywhere was covered in snow still. I was pleased it had stopped. As much as it’s pretty to look at, it’s not practical!

Scarlett went to bed at 8ish. We had some dinner. We had sausage and mash. We were meant to have schnitzels but mom forgot to check we had breadcrumbs so she had to put them in the fridge and do sausages instead.

I was wide awake all night watching some TV. I couldn’t sleep. I think it was the coke I drank. I fell asleep about 6am and woke up at 9ish.

Today Scarlett woke about 9ish. She was singing so I left her till 9:30 then I took her downstairs. We had some breakfast then mom watched her whilst I showered. We got dressed then we went to my Nan’s house. She was cooking pies for everyone to take home. At 2ish I did Scarlett and everyone else some lunch then I put her down for a nap at 3:15. She slept till 5:30 then we walked home. She walked pretty much the whole way except for 2 minutes between one end of the park and the other, near the bridge. Which is fine. She did so well!!!

She had her schnitzel before we did as I wanted her in bed. She ate, had a bath then went to bed at 8. We ate then mom got ready for work. She left and so did her boyfriend. He headed home. I watched the latest episode of Requiem. Not entirely sure what’s even happening on it now. It’s confusing and weird!

I headed up to bed at 10 (half hour ago). Was going to watch a film but I’ve had a headache ALL DAMN DAY. So I’ll read instead and get an early night. I’m quite tired. We’ve had rain today, not snow. So a lot of the snow is gone and it’s much more drivable. At this rate I’ll 100% be back in the office Monday.


P.s. 20 days till MOVING DAY!!!

Corfu, here we come

Saturday we had a lay in. Scarlett woke up at 8ish. I took her down and we had breakfast. We watched Gnomeo and Juliet then I put her up for a nap. Whilst she was asleep I read more of my book. I literally cannot put it down. I was on book number 4. when she woke up we got dressed and went to my Nan’s for some lunch. After we ate, we left her there to play so we could go shopping. I picked up a new TV for my new place. 32 inch HD Smart TV. It was only £210. Bargain! Then we did some food shopping. We got Scarlett a water bottle that is the same as mine, just a different colour as she is always drinking out of mine. And my throat has been sore for like 8 weeks so it’s not ideal for her to share my drinks, germs. We dropped our shopping home then we walked back to my nan’s. Scarlett had some dinner there then we headed home. I bathed her and put her to bed. We had our dinner. We had these pizzas from Sainbury’s that were “Pizza Express” ones. And some doughballs. Lush!

Sunday she woke up at 8am again. We watched Curious George the movie whilst eating breakfast. I put her up for a nap again and then climbed into bed to read my book. I finished book 4 and started reading book 5. We walked to my Nan’s for Sunday roast. We stayed there till the early evening then we headed home. Scarlett was tired when we got in so she was bit whingy. We got in the car and drove to Fleet to pick up the coffee. It’s just as the pictures showed. No scratches etc. I tried calling Brett before she went to bed but I hadn’t heard from him since Saturday night. He had been at a house party with his pals and I assumed he was asleep at his friends. But usually he pops up, hungover, by like 3/4pm. This was 7pm I tried calling him. My Whatsapp messages were only coming up with 1 tick. Which meant his phone was either off or had no signal. I was annoying because he would be pissed at me if I ignored him for 24 hours. So I put Scarlett to bed then chilled out. Finished doing my washing. I read my book in bed then went to bed.

Monday I woke up with my throat being worse than it had been in days. Awesome. It was snowing. It didn’t really settle but it was snowing on/off all day.

Still no word from Brett. Which I found unusual so I messaged his mom later on and asked if he had come home. She said no and she said she was sending his Dad round after work to see if he was at his pals house. Turned out he was. So he came home when I had finished work then he called to say Hi. He is such a knob. Fancy going AWOL for 2 days then being all “hey”. If I had done that to him, he’d have gone mental at me.

He spoke to Scarlett on FaceTime and she wasn’t even bothered. She just carried on playing. I put her to bed at 7ish then we ate dinner. Mom had cooked whilst I made tea. We watched TV then she went to work. I watched new Criminal Minds and Blindspot then I read some more of my book in bed before I went to sleep.

Today I didn’t wanna get up. It was so cold. Must’ve been minus 3 when we got up. Scarlett’s GroEgg in her room was blue meaning it was too cold. Yet when I pulled her from under her duvet she was toasty warm. She had toast and I had porridge then we went out separate ways.

Sunday we had sat with my mom’s boyfriend and looked at holidays. My nan is in Spain in September and as she does the nursery run, plus has Scarlett 3 afternoons a week, I had to book the time off. Or mom had to. Either way, one of us had to. So we agreed to both book 2 weeks off and we’d go away. So we settled on the Alkion Hotel in Corfu [check it out]. It worked out as £276 per person but that is if we split it 4 ways to include Scarlett. Mom said to just split it between us 3 adults so it’s £368 per person for 7 nights, half board. I am very excited now we’ve actually booked. We paid the deposit then the next instalment is due the end of next month.

Corfu here we come! Only 210 days to go LOL


P.S. Only 24 days till MOVING DAY!!!!

Laziest weekend ever!

Thursday Scarlett woke up in the night. She’s really into midnight Mama Snuggles at the moment. I’m loving it but I still put her back to bed. No bed sharing. It’s like sleeping with a drink octopus lol

Friday was looooooooong. It just seemed to drag. I felt really tired. I guess working a full week after being off for so long had caught up with me. Scarlett went to bed at 7:30. My mom went to work at 9. I watched some more Elementary. Scarlett woke up at 10:30. I brought her downstairs. I turned off the light, just had the TV as a light. She asked for a bottle. I gave her 5oz. She drank it. She’d had 5oz at 7. So that’s 10oz. That’s not like her. She must be having a growth spurt. She fell asleep on my lap on the sofa. So I left her. Brett turned up at 11:30. I woke her by accident when I got up to open the door when he knocked. She was so happy to see him. She was all over him like a rash. It was good to see because sometimes she really nonchalant about him lol

We put her back to bed then we watched some tele together. It was great just being there together. I think we went to sleep at like half 2!

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 8:30. I took her down to have her bottle. She watched some tele. We did some singing (wind the bobbin up). At 10 we went up and woke Brett up. I made breakfast. Scarlett loves porridge (or as she calls it “orridge”). He put her up for a nap. We watched some more Elementary. She woke up at 2ish. We got dressed and went to town for lunch. We went to Poppins cafe. We love it there. Scarlett had turkey dinosaurs, chips and peas. I had a chicken burger and chips. Brett had the all day breakfast. Mom had the mayo chicken baguette. Scarlett ate loads. My mom left as she was going to her boyfriends for the day/night. We went into the card factory as I needed to buy a few birthday cards. I’ve got a few friends toddler’s birthdays coming up in January and February. Plus my dad and Brett’s mom. And Scarlett (although I’ve already bought her card). So I went into the shop and Brett wandered with Scarlett. When I was done we went into Sainsbury’s. We got a movie to watch later plus he wanted some E45 bath stuff for his skin. We paid and then got on the bus to Home.

As we’d had a late lunch I didn’t plan on doing dinner until about 7. Usually Scarlett’s in bed by then but it’s a weekend and she was up late so I thought Ah Fuck It. So Brett had a bath at half 5. Scarlett and I chilled. My nan was making pies. I love her pies. She agreed to drop the first 2 round so we could have them for dinner. They were still hot (fresh out of the oven) so we had pie for dinner at 7:30. After dinner Brett bathed Scarlett whilst I put her washing away. She had her bottle then she went to bed at 9:30. That’s late for her but she went straight to sleep. We got into bed and watched Bridget Jones’s Baby. Brett actually liked the film though I doubt he’d ever admit it haha

Today she didn’t wake until at least half 9. I didn’t actually hear her until almost 10. She never cries or calls out. She just lays in her cot singing or she’ll get her book from the side and “read”. So I didn’t stir until her singing was louder on the monitor. I brought her in bed with us. I woke Brett up. He watched her whilst I nipped down to do her bottle. She had 8oz (I hate leaving a bit in the bottom of the carton so I poured it all out). She actually drank it all.

We went downstairs and I made her some breakfast. Porridge again lol she ate then she played with Brett. We watched some TV. He took her up for a nap at 1ish. We put on his Conor McGregor dvd. God I hate that Irish twat. But Brett likes him so I tolerated. Brett went up at 3:45 and woke Scarlett up. She was unamused but she can’t sleep all day. We watched some more Elementary and she played. He got his stuff together at 5 and then left to go home. His train was at 6. I put some dinner on at 6ish. We ate at 6:30. FaceTimed my mom then bath by 7ish. Bottle at 7:30. She wouldn’t drink much at first. She was trying to hang out bedtime lol she eventually went to bed at 8:15 but didn’t actually go to sleep until 9. She’s so funny. She was laid in her cot singing to herself and playing with her teletubbies. And she had the photo of her and Brett. She fell asleep holding it. So cute!

I watched Vera at 8 followed by 2 episodes of Elementary. I’ve almost finished season 5. What am I going to do with my life when it’s finished?

I tried to book our Sun Holiday today but they’ve changed how priority people can book so I’ve got to wait until tomorrow. How annoying. We’ve picked 4 sites around Weymouth/Poole area. So hopefully we get one of those. Will book it in the morning.

Back to work tomorrow. My work trousers are clean, I have food for lunch and Scarlett’s outfit for Nursery is laid out so I feel slightly organised lol


Throat is still sore

Monday was great. I was really busy at work catching up. It was unfortunate that I had been on annual leave previous to falling sick. So I had been out of the office since December 22nd. I had 50 emails. But most were tied into email chains so only 1 email out of say 5 were actionable. Still, I made a massive dent in them. I felt rather productive. Silent Witness started at 9pm. New season. I love it. So glad we have a series link!

Tuesday my alarm didn’t go off. I woke up at 7:45 to my Nan banging on my front door. I had to quickly get dressed, make my lunch and go. I left my Nan dressing Scarlett. I made her bottle whilst I was making lunch in the kitchen. But that was all I did do. I hate being late. My mom had arrived from work to pick me up and had to wait as I was running late. I got to work at 8:10. I was so surprised it wasn’t any later. I had text on my way that I was going to be late and why so my manager was fine when I got in. I said I’d make it up in my lunch break. Standard procedure.

I finished off all my email catchup. Then I looked into some upcoming tasks. Got a lot of database maintenance coming up. That’ll keep me busy!!!!

Wednesday (today) I had a quieter day. I felt really tired. I couldn’t sleep the night before. Think I didn’t nod off until gone 1am. I was feeling really tired by lunch time. I caught up with some more Elementary on my lunch break. I’m on season 5 now!

I’m almost finished with my antibiotics. I’m still coughing but not as much. My throat is still sore on one side. It’s annoying me. Like why does it need to be sore!?

Not got much planned this week. I’m working tomorrow and Friday. Usual!

Friday Brett is coming down after work. No plans thus far. Just chill out. Probably watch a movie Saturday (either cinema or in bed). I’m looking for a quiet weekend. I’m still not 100%. I’d say I’m functioning at 80%. Almost there but not quite!