Baby’s not feeling good

Monday I felt knackered. Going back to work after basically 10-11 days off consecutively was a bit much. Plus I still had that shitty cold. If anything I felt worse than I did at the weekend. I didn’t sleep great Sunday so today was just hard work. I caught up with more Shadowhunters as well as the soaps.

At 8:42pm some twat knocked my door. When I peeked around the door frame I could see it was some charity woman from Christian Aid. That is way too late in the evening to be approaching people’s doors. Not just because I have a toddler who they risked waking, but any vulnerable/old people do not need strangers knocked their doors at night. That could cause a fright or anxiety episodes to them. 

Tuesday was even worse. I had 4 hours of sleep because I kept coughing continuously between midnight and 3am. I woke up feeling crappy and I had a banging headache but I went to work regardless. No one is going to pay my bills for me lol

The charity people knocked AGAIN. It was about 8ish. I was eating my dinner.

Wednesday I watched Lucifer thinking it was the season finale but it wasn’t! So got another episode to watch tomorrow. Scarlett and me had a bath at half 6. We watched Emmerdale then I put her to bed whilst my dinner cooked.

I was eating my dinner and the bastard charity people knocked my door again for a third night in a row. I put my plate down and walked towards my hallway when they knocked again. Twice in 30 seconds, are they taking the absolute piss! I was furious so I raced down my flat stairs and swung the door open. This is how it went:

Lady: “Hi, I am here from Christian Aid”.
Me: “yes I know, I have seen you outside all week. You knocked my door rather late Monday and woke my toddler up. Not really acceptable to knock doors at almost 9pm”.
She seemed shocked for me to say this. Why? It IS too late to be knocking doors!
Lady: “It wasn’t that late, sorry to hear that, did your toddler go back to sleep?”
Me: “Yes but that’s hardly the point. It was far too late to be knocking my door and 3 days in a row is a bit much. Verging on harassment tbh.”
Lady: “Well are you interested in giving to our charity?”
Me: “Nah I’m alright thanks” then I slammed my door shut.

Now, just to clarify: I have NO QUALMS about giving to charity. I frequently do so and I will always help someone but when you’re constantly hounded for money left, right and centre it gets me angry. I will give my hard earned pennies when I choose. And if I don’t answer two nights in a row, do not knock a third night. And certainly do not knock twice in the space of 30 seconds. Scarlett is actually unwell so if they’ve had woken her yesterday I would’ve been a lot more rude than I was.

Speaking of Scarlett. She woke up at half 9 when I was on FaceTime to Brett. She was crying, hot and red cheeked. I gave her calpol then she laid on my chest [she never does this]. I put her back to bed at 10ish but she woke up again at half 11 when I went to bed. I settled her and then I fell asleep. She woke up crying at 2:30 and asked to sleep with me in my bed so I let her. She never asks so I relished the fact that she needs her mama. We slept and she woke me up again at like 4/5am. When my alarm went off she was blissfully sleeping. I was able to dress in peace, make my lunch for work and have a wee without an audience. It was bliss. I woke her at 7:20 and dressed her. I managed to convince her to have some calpol then I did some breakfast. I called my Nan at lunch to see how she was when she picked her up. She said she was tired but fine. I am glad about that. I can’t keep taking time off to look after her, even though I legit don’t have an alternative if she’s unwell #momlife

Riverdale season finale is available on Netflix today. I really hope Jughead isn’t dead but we’ll soon see. I watch the Lucifer season finale during lunch. Chloe finally realised he actually IS the devil, as he’s been telling her for 2 years.

I saw this post on Facebook. It was titled “An Open Letter To My Broken Hearted Friend”. I read it and it’s something we all should read and take heed. We’ve all been devastated by a relationship breakdown and we’re all guilty of thinking this “one guy” was the bees knees and he’s damaged us, ruined us forever. He hasn’t, you’re not broken and you will rise. You’ll look back and see it for what it truly was. You’ll be stronger, you’ll learn.

TTFN x

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The Terrible Twos

Tuesday after work we went up the hospital to visit my Nan. She looked alright considering she’d had surgery at her ripe old age of almost 90. Scarlett was really well behaved and didn’t run around the ward as I had expected her to. We left for Home and grabbed food on the way as I hadn’t eaten.

Wednesday we had a big meeting at work. Well the meeting itself was at the Holiday Inn in the conference room. Apparently my job is at risk due to a restructure, coming from the merger of my department (and our sub department) with another department. Basically they’ve come in and told us we have to fight for our jobs. But they’re moving my office to another office. 9 miles away. As a non-driver this won’t work for me. So I’ve no choice but to leave. It left us all in low spirits if I’m being honest. Luckily I already had an interview lined up for the afternoon so fingers crossed something comes from that.

Thursday Scarlett didn’t go to bed till late. Well she did go to bed at a normal time. But she was still awake at 9pm. I even climbed in her bed with her for 10 minutes and it didn’t make a difference. I caught her chewing her dummy so I’ve taken it off her. She’s too old to have 1 now and she doesn’t need it. It’s just become habit for her.

Friday Brett got off the train when I finished work so we picked him up. It was great having him here for bath and bedtime on a Friday for a change. He doesn’t usually get here that early, when he’s working. Scarlett enjoyed a bedtime story with Daddy, rather than me. She prefers it when he does it. Day 2 of No Dummy went ok. When she went to bed I cooked us dinner then I had a quick bath. We watched Prison Break season 1 episodes 1-4. We said we’d watch the entire series from beginning to end as I haven’t seen it in years and can barely remember.

Saturday we got up at 8ish. We had breakfast then we watched A Little Mermaid. Well some of it. We put her down for a nap. I did some washing. When she was up we went into town for lunch then I bought a present for Scarlett’s Nursery friend. His party was at 3pm so I had to wrap it in the car outside. The party wasn’t that bad just very hectic. Lots of kids everywhere. Brett got forced into following her into the jungle gym. She wouldn’t go without him haha at 4:30 the kids had some dinner then at 5 we left. It was good seeing her with her little friends. After the party we went to Morrison’s so I could do a small shop then we headed home. Scarlett had a bath then she went to bed. I cooked us pizza and garlic bread then we settled down to watch more Prison Break.

Sunday I woke up at 8ish and heard Scarlett moving. She didn’t call out so I stayed in bed and must’ve fell asleep because when I heard her again it was quarter to 10. Result! We got up and had breakfast. We played and watched TV. At 12:30 we walked to my nan’s house for dinner. We stayed till 3ish then went home to chill. Brett left mine at 4:30 to get a lift to the train station. Me and Scarlett had cheese on toast then we had a bath. Mom popped in for tea then Scarlett went to bed at 8:30. Mom left just before 9. I settled down to watch a new series I’ve started. It’s called Shadow Hunters: The Mortal Instruments. It’s been a movie, which I’ve seen. And I read the books as well. It’s brill.

Monday (today) I woke up just before 7. Started making my lunch and Scarlett woke up crying. She had a bad dream. We got dressed then I did breakfast.

She’s so naughty at the moment. She doesn’t listen. She pushes and taps you (mild slapping). She says No all the time. She’s defiant and stubborn. I think she’s hit the Terrible Twos. She’s been like it a few weeks and I’m already at the end of my tether. She just pushes and pushes. Nothings working. I’ve tried the softly approach but all I seem to do lately is shout at her to get her attention because she just does not listen. I cried with frustration earlier and it did stop her in her tracks and she calmed down a little so we could chat. I’m not sure she listened or took in what I said. I mean she is only 2. But it was worth a try.

She went to bed at 7:30 but was still awake till almost 9! I watched the soaps then Criminal Minds. Tried to watch Blindspot but my TalkTalk box was playing up so I had to turn it off and reset. I lost my recording of Blindspot. So I set it up to record later on and I climbed into bed.

I’ve got neck ache and a headache. I’m on so I’m exhausted with menstural fatigue.

They named the new price. Louis Arthur Charles, pronounced as Loo-wee. How exciting!

TTFN x

Night 3

So our first night was alright. It’s weird because I must’ve gotten acclimatised to the motorway noises. Having lived next to the M3 for 23 years I think I had become used to the background noise and being in my flat, away from it, it’s eerily quiet.

Monday I slept okay and got up before Scarlett did. I brushed my teeth and got dressed. She woke up at 10 to 7. I dressed her then put teletubbies on so I could make her breakfast then my lunch. She ate some fruit and then we got our coats on and left. My mom picked us up at 7:30. We dropped Scarlett to my Nan’s house then we drove to my work.

My day wasn’t bad. I caught up with all the emails from Friday when I was off. My cousin had a new phone because hers wasn’t working so my Nan tasked me with setting it up. I am the tech person. So I made mom and Scarlett a cup of tea then mom helped me fill out some forms for Housing Benefit. Scarlett had a bath at 6:30 then she had her milk whilst we watched Emmerdale. When it was done I put her in bed and made myself some dinner. Monday/Friday she eats at Nursery. I watched Corrie then I watched Criminal Minds as it was Monday. Then I watched another then Blindspot. I climbed into bed at midnight and read some of my book. I fell asleep about 2ish.

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Today was the same except I was tired when I got to work having only had 5 hours sleep. I had the weirdest dream, which I can’t even recall now. At lunch mom ran me down the council offices so I could give in my forms and my 20 thousand forms of ID [okay, maybe not that many but so many]. I am entitled to help with my rent which coupled with me working full time means I haven’t got to worry too much about that aspect. I still have to pay a lot of it myself but I can breathe a little. I went back to the office and ate my lunch whilst I worked.

I messaged Harry’s mom to tell her we’ve moved, and where to. I asked her to pass my address onto Harry as he’s blocked me or changed his number again. He has a right to know where his daughter sleeps. I am on my way home from work now.

I bought a really cheap but efficient [and small] tumble dryer. It’s being delivered on Thursday a long with my counter top freezer. I needed both. I also ordered some towels and stuff from Studio online. It’s slowly coming together. My internet is being installed Thursday too. I decided to go with TalkTalk for TV, broadband and phone. It will be about £36 a month on a fixed rate for 18 months. I can’t wait to be able to set up my SmartTV.

I just have tomorrow at work then Thursday morning then I am done for Easter. Can’t wait to spend the weekend with Scarlett. In our home. Our home.

TTFN x

It’s finally stopped snowing!

Yesterday it was snowing when we left my Nan’s house just after 5ish. It finally stopped at like 6:30. Everywhere was covered in snow still. I was pleased it had stopped. As much as it’s pretty to look at, it’s not practical!

Scarlett went to bed at 8ish. We had some dinner. We had sausage and mash. We were meant to have schnitzels but mom forgot to check we had breadcrumbs so she had to put them in the fridge and do sausages instead.

I was wide awake all night watching some TV. I couldn’t sleep. I think it was the coke I drank. I fell asleep about 6am and woke up at 9ish.

Today Scarlett woke about 9ish. She was singing so I left her till 9:30 then I took her downstairs. We had some breakfast then mom watched her whilst I showered. We got dressed then we went to my Nan’s house. She was cooking pies for everyone to take home. At 2ish I did Scarlett and everyone else some lunch then I put her down for a nap at 3:15. She slept till 5:30 then we walked home. She walked pretty much the whole way except for 2 minutes between one end of the park and the other, near the bridge. Which is fine. She did so well!!!

She had her schnitzel before we did as I wanted her in bed. She ate, had a bath then went to bed at 8. We ate then mom got ready for work. She left and so did her boyfriend. He headed home. I watched the latest episode of Requiem. Not entirely sure what’s even happening on it now. It’s confusing and weird!

I headed up to bed at 10 (half hour ago). Was going to watch a film but I’ve had a headache ALL DAMN DAY. So I’ll read instead and get an early night. I’m quite tired. We’ve had rain today, not snow. So a lot of the snow is gone and it’s much more drivable. At this rate I’ll 100% be back in the office Monday.

TTFN x

P.s. 20 days till MOVING DAY!!!

50 shades of pure cheese!

Friday Brett got here relatively earlier than usual. My Nan picked him up from the train station at like 9:15 so he was at mine for 9:30. We watched some TV and then climbed into bed.

Saturday Scarlett woke up quite early. About 7ish. I got her up and out the cot at 8. I did her some breakfast. She had some fruit and a yoghurt. We watched some TV, did some colouring and she played with my hair. At 9:30 we came upstairs to get Brett up. Mom did us some breakfast. She cooked. We headed down town to the bank as I needed to transfer some money. Then we headed to my nan’s. We stopped for a few cups of tea. At 3pm we headed Home to pack a few bits for our night “away” then we set off for town. We checked in at the hotel, dumped our stuff then headed back to town. Brett needed some new clothes so we hit up Sports Direct then we went back to the hotel. We put the TV and chilled for a bit. We decided we’d eat at 7ish as movie was 8:40. We ended up eating at 7:30/8ish. We went to the Tilly in town (Wetherspoons). Cheap meal and good food. I was stuffed.

We watched 50 shades freed. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t as intense as the book. And I feel their stuffed the good bits (kidnapping) into a small 5 minute segment. It could’ve been much more exciting than that. Also it just felt so damn cheesy. Eurgh!

After the movie finished we walked back to the hotel. We put the Winter Olympics on. We stayed up chatting about EVERYTHING. It was really nice and good fun. But we didn’t realise how late it was and when we finally laid our heads down to sleep it was half 3 in the morning. Not ideal.

Sunday I woke up at 8ish with my alarm but I reset it for 9 and went back to sleep. I got up at 9 and jumped in the shower. I needed to get the make up off my face and wash my hair. When I was done I woke Brett up. We checked out just after 10 and walked back to the Tilly for breakfast. Brett didn’t eat. He never does lol I did though, I was hungry.

We jumped on the bus and headed to my Nan’s. Scarlett was happy to see us, for all of 5 minutes. We stayed there for dinner then we headed home at like 4ish. Brett packed his stuff and he left to go home at 5:30. I sorted Scarlett some supper then we did our Weekend Box. 1 of the things was a creative thing. We created dinosaur claws. The other was a cooking/baking thing. We made chocolate rice crispy cakes.

After we made the cakes we watched half of Dancing on Ice. She proper loves it. We did bath time then we watched the rest. She went to bed but she sang for ages. She’s so funny!

Today I woke up to a little horror scene. Since having the coil fitted I’ve been in a weird pattern of having my period one month but skipping the next totally. My periods had gotten lighter. It was great. But today was nasty. I wasn’t expecting it but I had skipped January so I figured at some point something would come. I’ve felt drained all day. I’ve also had a bad headache too. Awesome!

Tonight Scarlett told my mom she didn’t like her. It was in reply to my mom yelling at her to move as she was standing underneath my mom when she was trying to make tea. Hot water is never ideal. She said “me no like you nanny” then stomped out. Teenager alert! Lol

I watched Criminal Minds as it’s back on but now I’m in bed because my head in banging. I’ve taken more paracemtol as it’s been 4 hours now.

TTFN x

A murder, a party and losing the will to live

Friday I went to work. I felt like absolute shit. I was manic all day. Trying to catch up. Trying to do stuff. I made a fair dent in my emails.

After work we went home. There had been an incident near to the party venue at 2pm and I wasn’t sure if the road would be open in time. There had been a fatal stabbing and the road was cordoned off.

Saturday we woke up at 7:30ish. Mom had worked the night so she grabbed breakfast on her way home. We ate when she got in. Scarlett ate loads. I was due to go to the venue for 11. I needed to go to town to get her cake. So I put her down for a nap then at 9:45 Grandad picked me up. The road was still shut. I had phoned the venue at half 8 and they reckoned I was still able to go ahead with the party. So I went to Asda to sort her cake. I settled on one of her Cake Smash pictures on it. I grabbed myself a new top to wear then we paid and left. I stopped by Home to grab what I needed then I went to my nan’s. She lives nearer to the venue than I do and I was due there at 11ish.

I walked over. I was perplexed. I couldn’t figure out how I was meant to get in when the front of the entire building/flats was cordoned off, including the road. I walked round behind and found the security guy (we had spoken on the phone). He let me in and said he’d lift the car park barriers so my guests could come in and out. And when we are finished later to call him and he’d come lock up the building.

The soft play guy arrived to set up at 11:15. My nan came with the food. I decorated and everyone blew up the balloons. I can’t because I’m allergic to latex. The guy finished setting up and left.

Just before the party was due to start I creeped into the toilet so I could slap some makeup on and change my top. Then I headed back out. I still felt like shit but the party was actually happening so I “put my big girl pants on”.

People arrived. People had a laugh. The kids played. They ate. It was good. I did some mingling. I met some of her Nursery friend’s parents. They’re all lovely. The kids too.

We did some presents from Brett’s brother because they’re big and they said it’ll be easier for them to take them straight back home in the car. Otherwise I’d have to drag it to their house on the train next time we visit. It was a crayola my first easel set. She’ll love it.

We did the cake at 2ish then everyone slowly parted ways. We gave them all their party bags and then when they’d all gone we tidied up. The soft play guy came at 2:50 and put everything away. I paid the remaining fee. I called security to inform them that we were leaving then we left.

We stopped at my nans house for a cup of tea then we headed home. Scarlett had eaten a lot so she just had some chips with Brett. I had a chicken curry. She had her bath then she went to bed.

We both felt knackered so we climbed into bed at like 9:30. We were going to watch a film but instead we just laid in bed chatting. We went to bed quite early, must’ve been midnight.

Sunday Brett looked at trains and they were rail replacement so he said he’d go home the next day. Worked for me. Scarlett got up at 8. We had breakfast at 10 then I put Scarlett up for a nap. We woke her at 12:30 so we could go out for dinner. We went to the Beefeater in town. I had garlic flatbread for starter then a buttermilk fried chicken burger with chips for a main. Scarlett had chicken bites, chips and peas. She ate a little but she wasn’t overly hungry. She helped my mom eat her dinner though lol

We left the restaurant a 3:15 and headed to my Nan’s. We had a cup of tea then headed home at 5ish. Scarlett had a yoghurt then went up for a bath at 6:30. We got her into bed at 8pm. We wanted to watch a film. Brett said Django so I found Django Unchained on Netflix. We watched it. I made him some supper. I ate my leftover rice from the night before.

The film finished quite late. I needed a shower as I had Work the next day. So we jumped in the shower then got into bed.

My neck has been really painful. Neck. Not throat. My throat is tolerable. My neck hurts if I turn too far either way. If I tilt my head. If I swallow or cough. It’s ridiculous. I cried. In bed. In front of Brett. I hate crying but I hate crying with an audience even more!! He cuddles me and said I’d be ok. It helped. We went to sleep.

Today I woke up and I just felt like utter shit. I was sick in bathroom. My head was pounding. My neck was killing me. I called in dead sick then booked a doctors appointment. They gave me a triage call first then an appointment for 11:40. I watched more Hemlock Grove then I climbed into bed with Brett. He woke up and said he was going to head home. So he left at half 10. At 11:20 I set off for the Doctors. I saw the same doctor as last week and she couldn’t get me out of there quick enough. Apparently my neck pain is muscular and will go away on it’s own. Basically put up and shut up!

After the doctors I walked to my nans house. I had some lunch at 12:30 then at 3pm mom came round. We went to Morrison’s to grab some food for Work then we went and picked up Scarlett. She had a good day. She ate and slept well apparently.

We went home and did some colouring. We played with her baby dolls. I took her up for a bath. She won’t get undressed. Turns out she needed a poo. When she was finished I stripped her off and she had a bath. She had her bottle and I took her up to bed at 7:30 but she didn’t settle. Mom went up once to sort her out. She’d taken her trousers off. I went up the second time and brought her downstairs. We turnedthe lights off and just had the tv on, down low.

I took her back up to bed at 9:30 as she seemed more ready for bed. I think she was missing me because she sat with me, cuddling and kissing my face. Rubbing my arm. Playing with my hair. So I can’t be mad at that!

I watched Vera at 10pm. It’s almost 2 hours long so it’s only just finished. I’m headed to bed now.

TTFN x

4 days till baby is 2!

So I’ve just had the shittest day I’ve had in ages. And a lot of it was fuelled by tiredness, hunger, hormones and the bastard rain.

Friday’s journey to Brett’s house wasn’t bad. Just bit packed on the train. That’s the problem with travelling at rush hour. We got on the 5:15 and got off at 6:35 so not too bad. Brett met us on the platform. His mom was in the car waiting.

When we got back we had some dinner. We had chip shop because it’s a Friday. Scarlett had already eaten at Nursery so she just had some chips. Brett bathed her then we put her down to bed at 9:30. She took ages to drop off.

Brett fell asleep on the sofa at 10. I left him. I climbed into his bed. Played my iPhone games then went to sleep at 12:30. He climbed into bed at some point, he woke me up. But we both went back to sleep.

Saturday Scarlett stirred at 6:55. I heard her but as she’d woke me, I really needed a wee so I ran past her cot and went upstairs. When I came back down she’d settled so I climbed into bed and went back to sleep. I heard her again at 9:30. She was singing. I left her till almost 10 then I got her up. Brett didn’t get up. It annoyed me. He eventually came out the bedroom after Scarlett had already gone shopping with his mom and I had had a shower.

When they got back we headed out to see his family. We stopped at McDonald’s on the way as I was starving and Scarlett needed some lunch. We ate on the way. We were there till 3 then we headed back. I put Scarlett down for a nap. She slept for 90 minutes. I woke her up trying to get past the cot (his room is an obstacle course).

We put her dinner on at 6ish. She ate at 6:30. She had waffles, fish fingers and beans. Then a yoghurt. Standard lol

We ate at 7ish then I put her in the bath. Took ages to get her to go to sleep. Mostly because Brett was on the PS4 and took ages to get off it. We put her down then we watched a film in the front room. We watched paycheck. Not bad film. It had you guessing things, which I like.

He played his PS4, again. Whilst I played my game on my phone in bed. I went to sleep at about 1ish.

Sunday (today) I didn’t hear Scarlett until 9. She was singing so I left her be. Must’ve fell asleep. Woke up at 10 and she was quiet. Rolled over to wake Brett up. Told him it was 10 and we should get up. Slide off the bed to see her and the cot was empty. I figured his mom must’ve picked her up so I went upstairs for a wee. On the stairs I could see her feet on the sofa, she was sat with his brother. So I brushed my teeth and came down to get dressed. I told Brett we needed to relieve his brother from babysitting duties. He just stayed there so I left the bedroom and went into see Scarlett. She had already had her bottle. Then she had some grapes and a yoghurt. The dog was asleep on the sofa and Scarlett slammed her hand down when running past. It startled him and he bit her. She was really upset. I picked her up and took her into the kitchen so I could see her hand. It was a smallest of grazes. I tried to console her but she was heartbroken. I washed her hands to be safe (let’s be honest, dogs lick their own arses). I told her it was okay and he didn’t mean it, she just spooked him. Her cry was really getting to me. I could feel my eyes watering. I hate crying. And I hate public crying even more. I held it back till she composed herself. I took her in the lounge to dress her. She was much calmer. Then she took her dirty nappy out into the kitchen to put in the bin. There was people in the kitchen so I seized my chance to escape upstairs. I had a wee and cried. I cried because my heart hurt. I don’t like when she’s upset. I don’t like not being able to control things. It wasn’t really anyone’s fault. The dog is old and was asleep. She startled him. But he shouldn’t bite. I’m so hormonal. Since the coil I’ve been skipping my period every other month. And it’s annoying. Because yeah, no blood, yay brill. But hormones still rain on me. So I’m either a blubbering mess or a psycho bitch. No inbetween #ideal

I tried to put her down for a nap before dinner. Brett was on his PS4 and didn’t get the hint when I said I wanted to put her to sleep. So after 90 minutes of trying I gave up. Then we had dinner. We got our stuff together and we left to get the train at 4ish. There was rail replacement buses from Woking (2 stops from Home) and I can’t do them buses as they are coaches and I get motion sickness. So I asked my mom if she minded picking us up from Woking. My brother’s girlfriend lives in Woking so she said yeah ok I’ll drop her back when I get you. So ok cool.

We got off the train at 5pm. It’s been raining for 2 days. So it’s soaking wet outside. They tell me to exit via platform 5. So I do. Then I’m told they got stuck because there is a road closed and they got diverted for like 2 miles and can’t get to me so can I go back through the station to platform 1’s exit. So I go back in and explain to the guard. They let me through. I come out the other exit. See mom waving down the road so walk as fast as I can carrying our overnight bag and pushing the stroller. Eventually we’re all in the car. Wet but in. Off we go to drop Natalia home. Scarlett is asleep within minutes. Not ideal. But whatever.

We had to divert again on the way home but we finally arrived just after 6. Kitchen was a mess. The water was still turned off. My mom nipped next door to ask if she could fill up some bottles with water so we could at least make tea. Scarlett had a hissy fit. She sounded like she was in pain. She was really upset. She wouldn’t let anyone pick her up off the floor. She ended up in my mom’s arms and she handed her to me. She calmed down. I asked her what was wrong. She said her elbow hurt (no idea) so I asked if she wanted me to kiss it better. She said Yeah. So I did. Then I asked if she wanted her tea. She shook her head. I said what do you want? She said “my bottle”. So I put her pyjamas on and wiped her face (no bath so it’s the best I could do) then I made her milk. She drank it and seemed to perk up. My mom’s friend came round to fix the pipe on the washing machine. Scarlett said Nunight at 7:30 and I took her up. She went to sleep. Water was back on so I watched Vera at 8 then at 10 I got in the shower. Omg it was so nice to wash my hair. I hate going to work with greasy hair and lately my hair is nothing but greasy. Ughhh!

I laid on my bed for a while after, enjoying the warmth from the heating that had come on whilst I was showering.

Now I’m in bed. Can’t sleep as I didn’t get up till 10 but I’ll try my best!

Scarlett is turning 2 in 4 days (although it’s almost 3 days now). It’s gone by so quick but at the same time it’s gone slowly.

I’m off to dream about the time when my kitchen wasn’t a shit hole, my hair wasn’t constantly greasy and I didn’t feel like shit (sore throat is back).

TTFN x