Hump day today

Monday:

Woke up late. Alarm was meant to wake me at 6:30am. Nope. I switched it off apparently and rolled out of bed at 6:55am. Oops. It meant we didn’t have time to cook breakfast so we had to swing by McDonald’s for our usual. I made it to work on time though, so that is good. Scarlett is always so tired after her full day session at nursery on Mondays [and Fridays]. She went to bed at 7 and I caught up on NCIS. I am almost done with season 6. I have been watching them sequentially since season 2. I love it. I don’t know why I am obsessed lol I finished reading my book, Limitless. It is part of the “Girl in the box” series I was reading. The author created a follow series called “out of the box” so that is what I am reading now. I purchased the second book in the OOTB series so I will start that this week.

Tuesday:

Scarlett was really grumpy when I got in from work. She had just a vest and shoes on. Apparently she had been out in my Nan’s garden all afternoon. She had done a nasty poo so I shoved her straight in the bath. Usually she goes up for a bath at 6. But made no sense to waste a clean nappy for 45 minutes. Might as well bath her straight away. So in she went. She was really snotty and she picked her nose and made it bleed. I gave her some dinner with a cup of tea [she loves her tea]. Then we watched some teletubbies. At 6:30 she was whinging for bed so she said goodbye to my mom, as she was leaving for work anyway. and I took her up to bed with a bottle. She drank it and I said goodnight and left her to it. She rolled around getting comfy, sat and played with her TedTed for a bit then she laid down and went to sleep. She is a funny little thing sometimes.

I had my dinner at 8ish and waited for my Amazon Prime Now delivery [we had run out of a few things and neither of us have chance to go near a shop in the week]. I watched more NCIS catch up and am now on season 7. My delivery came at almost 10pm. I watched the season finale of Shades of Blue then I got into bed. I couldn’t sleep though and ended up laying in bed until about 2am.

Wednesday:

I am so damn tired. I heard Scarlett coughing in the night a few times. I did get up at 6:45 though. And I managed to dress myself and Scarlett, brush my teeth and cook sausages for breakfast before my mom got home at 7:10. So #winning

I booked an appointment at my doctors because I found a lump somewhere. It is probably a cyst but always worth getting it checked!

Wednesdays mean one thing: Pretty Little Liars. So that is what I am about to watch on my lunch break today. Only thing that has kept me going today lol so tired!

TTFN

Sunday blues

Thursday 8th:

So we voted. Both myself and mom voted the same. Not because we copied. That’s silly. And totally not how thing should be. We voted the same because we believed in the same things. Not that it did us much good because the election ended with a hung parliament. It’s not all bad. But it’s not good either because we didn’t get enough seats for our party so god knows what happens next. A coalition perhaps?

My little brother was 14 today. 14! Where has that gone? I remember when he was a baby. I use to pick him up for a cuddle and play silly games with him. Now he’s 2 years into teenage-hood. What!?

Friday 9th:

I had a long day at work. I felt so tired. I usually get to Thursday/Friday and feel exhausted. It’s this energy-free life. It’s just not compatible with my brain lol but nonetheless I gave up energy drinks about 6 weeks ago and I haven’t died, yet, so I can’t quit now lol

I decided I didn’t want to spend another Friday at home doing nothing so I bathed Scarlett, got her into her pyjamas and slippers then we headed to my nan’s house. She usually entertains on a Friday as her brother and his other half always come over for a cuppa tea and a chat. We ended up getting home for 9:30 and Scarlett went to bed at 10pm, 3 hours past her bedtime. She did really well. She only started to complain when it got to 9ish and she was REALLY tired!

She wasn’t feeling very well in the night. She woke up with a fever (teething I think) so I had to give her calpol, teething gel and a bottle. She was up from 3am until almost 6am. She eventually settled.

Saturday 10th:

She woke up at 8ish but didn’t stir fully and ended up going back to sleep. So did I. And eventually we surfaced at 10:30am. I don’t think she was right as rain yet because she got up and had breakfast then she cried to go back to bed so I gave her more calpol and put her back down at 12. She slept until 3pm. When she woke up she seemed much happier. We went out for dinner with my mom at 4:30 then did a quick food shop before heading home as mom had work. Scarlett was in bed by 7:30. Didn’t hear much from her except some coughing. Bless her!!!

Sunday (today):

She woke up at 8ish. She had a bottle then a bit later she had some breakfast with a cup of tea. She couldn’t get any more like my family if she tried lol I put her back down for a nap about 10ish. She slept until almost 12. Then we headed to my nan’s. I let her walk. No stroller! She did really well considering the distance and her short legs. Originally we weren’t going for dinner. But we ended up having dinner, pudding and after her playing in and out the garden all day, we went home at 6ish. She had a bath then she watched teletubbies. Then I made her a bottle at 7 and down she went. I heard her cough a bit but she’s alright.

I have been binge watching NCIS lately. I love it. I’m officially following season 7 (having seen the previous seasons in sequential order) but I dipped into season 9 tonight, the finale, after catching 2 episodes previous to it that were good.

I’m also reading. I’m still reading Limitless but I’m 70-something percent done so yay!

Work tomorrow. I bet the week drags balls. And I bet the weather outside our office window all week is blue skies and sunshine lol

TTFN x

Bank holiday weekend

Wednesday 24th:

Spent most of my day catching up with BBC news for more updates on the Manchester arena attack. More names were released over the victims who died. An 8 year old girl! What the actual fuck? She’s a child. Her life cut short. And to what end? What reason? I can’t even fathom what this world has come to! As a mother, this cut deep. 10 years from now, that could’ve been me and Scarlett at a concert. I cannot even begin to imagine what that poor little girls family are going through right now. All the families.

Thursday 25th:

2 years ago today I found out I was pregnant. I still remember it vividly to this day. I had been unwell with some kind of bug type thing and someone asked me if I was maybe pregnant? I laughed. Said of course not, I can’t get pregnant! Then I checked my period tracking app and realised I was in my “due on time frame”. I have very wonky periods. Some months I have a perfect 28 day cycle and other months I can wait 6-8 weeks for one. At this point I was on cycle day 34 so well within in my “I’m due on” frame. So I thought hmmm I’ll do a test. So I grabbed this cheap line one from my friend and did the deed. When I looked down I could not believe my eyes. Two lines. Albeit one line was faint. The positive line. But it was a line. I felt like I was on drugs. Everything was so surreal. I didn’t believe it. So I ended up taking another test the next day and the days after until I ended up making it “clearblue official” lol

Scarlett celebrates her 16 months today. She’s so cheeky and clever. She still only has 6 teeth but she’s definitely getting more. Hopefully soon.

Friday 26th:

Payday bitches lol spent £53 online at H&M on summer stuff for Scarlett. Got 20% off because I am a H&M member. Woohoo lol

Me and Amelia went for lunch at work together. We went to the harvester around the road. It was nice just us 2.

My mom worked the night so it was just me and Scarlett. The usual. I watched some tele, had a shower then read my book. I’m reading the latest Alex Cross book. I love it! I’ve read all 23 previous ones.

I came across a heart wrenching tribute on ITV before I went to bed. See below:

https://www.facebook.com/itvnews/videos/10154828722872672/
Saturday 27th:

Scarlett missed out on breakfast with me and mom as she wasn’t awake at 7:30 when mom got in from work with a McDonald’s breakfast. She woke up about 20 minutes after so she ended up just having a hash brown instead of a wrap. She wasn’t overly fussed tbh and she had a bottle, watched some teletubbies and then I put her up for a nap because she asked to go. She kept rubbing her eyes so I asked if she wanted a nap and she pointed at the stairs, got off my lap and walked to the stair gate. She didn’t settle in bed until about an hour after though. I listened to her talking to herself for ages. I watched NCIS from Friday and then I read more of my book. Scarlett settled and I must’ve fell asleep on the sofa because next time I know, the monitor is lit up and she’s crying. So I go up and sort her out. Get her dressed and off we go to my Nan’s house. As she hasn’t had lunch yet I defrosted her a shepherds pie but she wouldn’t eat it. She just wanted her bottle so I gave her some milk. Then she played. In and out the garden all day. She got her outfit soaking wet so I changed her into a new vest and a clean shirt so she could continue playing. We ended up staying for dinner then we came home.

She had a bath, watched 1 episode of teletubbies then up to bed she went with her bottle. She went straight to sleep as she had skipped her afternoon nap so she must’ve been shattered.

I’m watching 12 monkeys on Netflix and enjoying a quiet Saturday evening. Mom’s working tonight so again it’s just us 2.

TTFN x

Bank holiday weekend FTW

Monday 24th:

Wasn’t as bad a day as I expected. I mean, yeah, I was totally not mentally prepared to go back to work after 10 days off. But I did. And I lived. And so did everyone else. So a win!

Mom and I are fine. We just left it as a middle of the night tiff.

Tuesday 25th:

My brother came to visit today so my mom picked me up for lunch. We had a little lunch date (and a catch up). Scarlett came too. Was good getting out the office. Much needed fresh air and convo!

Wednesday 26th:

I had lunch with my work team. We went to a pub down the road. I had a steak and cheese wrap. It was delicious. It came with fries and a drink for £8. That’s really old IMO. I saw the trailer for Kingsman 2. It looked brilliant so I’ll definitely be going to see that. 

Thursday 27th:

Had my 1-to-1 monthly meeting at work. Nothing special. Just chatting and filling out a form. I ordered some bits from GAP for Scarlett for our holiday to Italy. It’ll be warm when we go so she needed some new dresses. Most of her dresses don’t fit her now. They’re 9-12 months some of them, and she’s grown in height so they’re like t-shirts now lol


I tidied up when Scarlett was in bed. Hoovered then washed up. Did 2 loads of washing. Made myself a snack. Took sausages out of the freezer for breakfast Friday and then got in to bed.

Friday 28th:

I had a super busy day. I had this task to do. It was massive and took me all day, and I’m not even finished yet. Will finish it Tuesday, hopefully! Mom met me for lunch. We grabbed food then I picked up Scarlett’s new Clarks shoes. I got her the pink version of the white ones she already has.

Someone told me I looked pregnant. So I guess I’ll have to start dieting if it’s got to that point lol tbf I know I’ve put on about 10 lbs in the last 7 months. Ever since I went back to work. That can’t be a coincidence surely!

Tonight Scarlett had a bath and went to bed by 7ish. Mom and I watched emmerdale then when her boyfriend arrived, we had dinner. They watched some tele downstairs. I came up to watch Riverdale in bed. I’m knackered. It’s been a long week so I may go to sleep soon.

We are going to Godstone Farm tomorrow. It looks really fun. There’s a lot of stuff designed for her age and now she’s walking it’ll be so much better for her to explore. I’m excited lol can you tell?

TTFN x

April is here!

Saturday 1st:

Scarlett gave me a lovely lay-in. She woke up at 8:30. She had breakfast at 10am and then went back down for a nap. She woke up a midday. We had some lunch then mom got up [she had worked the night before]. We went to my nan’s to pick her up as we were visiting my gran in the old folks home. Scarlett entertained us whilst we were there. She had a chocolate cake and played Giant Connect 4 with my mom. We dropped my nan back home then we picked up my new glasses. After we went food shopping. Scarlett was sat in the trolley touching EVERYTHING we loaded in lol we went home and had some dinner then I put Scarlett to bed.

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Sunday 2nd:

She gave me ANOTHER lay-in. What even is this life? She woke up 8:30. Had a bottle. Refused her breakfast and then went back to bed [her request] at 9:30. She then slept until 12:30pm. We had lunch then at 2ish we took a wander over to the park. We took a small picnic [crisps, fruity yoghurt, water etc] and a blanket. We sat on the blanket with some toys for a little while then we packed up and she “walked” up and down the path. She walked so much. We headed back at 3ish and she wanted a bottle and then went back down for another 90 minutes. Not like her at all. She woke up at 5ish. Mom text to say they were on their way home and were going to go for dinner, did we want to come? Yes! But Scarlett got a bit hangry at 6ish so she finished the rest of her spicy tomato crisps to tide her over. My mom picked us up at 7 and we went for dinner with her and her boyfriend. We had a nice meal and Scarlett was in bed by 9ish. We watched Casualty then the new Mrs Brown’s boys TV show. I love it!

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I am in bed. Can’t sleep. Have work tomorrow so I should get some shuteye!

TTFN x

Everywhere I turn

Wednesday 15th:

Today we had a meeting with the guy we will be reporting to. He still hasn’t answered that many of our questions but he did say “as far as he knows we will remain in our current building and no one is losing their job”. So that is good news, providing that doesn’t change in a few months…

My mom worked the night so we had dinner and then she went off to work. I bathed Scarlett and then she did her “I don’t want to go to bed yet” thing so she played whilst I watched Emmerdale and did some washing. I took her up at 8ish. I then got in the bath and it was lovely to relax. Used one of my face masks lol

Thursday 16th:

The day felt long. I felt tired. I think donating 1 pint of my rare blood had finally caught up with me. Mom couldn’t be arsed to cook so we grabbed dinner on my way home from work. Scarlett had a happy meal. She had a cheese burger and chips, same as me (I had a quarter pounder). Mom was working again so she went off to work and I got Scarlett bathed and ready for bed. I didn’t even try to put her down for 7pm. I let her watch Emmerdale with me. She facetimed Brett and then I put her down at 8:30pm. I watched some tele and packed our stuff as we are going to Brett’s tomorrow.

I think I know approximately 15-20 people who are pregnant at the moment. Whether they are newly pregnant, midway through, about to drop or have literally JUST had their baby. And I just feel like everywhere I turn there is a pregnant person/new mom. All I hear is baby this, pregnancy that. I understand it is exciting, and people who are having their first it is super exciting. And I hate being such a grumpy cunt but I just don’t have the mental energy to fake interest. Don’t get me wrong, I do have people who I have a real interest in and want to hear things, so I go out of my way to ask. Like my friend was due March 14th so I’ve been following her pregnancy for 9 months and I am super excited for the baby to arrive safely, so I am actively interested and I speak to her every other day asking her how she is doing etc. But everyone just seems to be popping up at the same time announcing they are pregnant. And they are people who I have listened to whinging for over a year about how hard being a parent is, so I am wondering why the fuck they would want baby number 2. There is a select few ladies who I am happy for because I know they’ve been actively trying and it is brill news. But some I am just proper eye-rolling at and I can’t help myself. I think it stems from the fact that Brett and I had a near miss recently and it made me realise just how much I DO NOT WANT to be pregnant. I love Scarlett as she is and she is entering a new age group which means she will get more challenging, but also more independent. And I am super excited for that. The thought of having to experience that whilst pregnant/looking after a small baby just makes me want to vom lol but that is just me. I think it is also because of my situation. Me and Brett have yet to hit the 1 year mark. We don’t live together and that isn’t the plan for the near future. I doubt if we will move in together much before next year, mid next year possibly.

My aims for this year are to change jobs (at some point), move out (am already saving and have a plan in place) and enroll Scarlett in swimming lessons before she is 2.

I am just finishing up watching NCIS then I am going to bed.

TTFN x

Hump Day

Saturday 4th:

We spent the day with my grandparents as I hadn’t seen them much in the week. My throat was so sore I was struggling to swallow fluids so I phoned 111 and spoke to an out of hours doctor. Apparently they are so magical that they can diagnose problems over the phone. Problems that normal GPs require seeing you face-to-face for. Imagine that! So it is “viral” but to call my GP if I don’t feel better in the week. I took Scarlett to get measured for her first shoes at Clarks. I got her a pair of pre-walkers. She is a 3F. She was so funny standing in her shoes because she kept trying to flick them off lol

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Sunday 5th:

My nan was out for the day so me and Scarlett stayed home. I let her have a good nap then we wandered to town. Mostly because we needed fresh air but I had also planned to take her to soft play. We ate lunch then walked to the play thing. It was packed so I turned right back round and went home.

Monday 6th:

My eye swelled up over night. It had been itchy and sore the night before but usually a good nights sleep helps it calm down. Not this time. So I phoned in sick at work and made an emergency doctors appointment. It took me an hour to get through. Firstly it took about 15-20 attempts to get through then I was on the holding loop (with shitty music) for 10 minutes. It got to the point where it says how many people were in front of me and there was only 2 then it cut me off. So I had to do it all again and it took 30 attempts to get through and I was on hold for another 15 minutes. When I finally did get through and explained my issue, they told me I would get a phone call back. I explained that I had already had a telephone appointment with 111 and that the issue needs to be “seen”. The receptionist was rather rude and said that it was procedure. Weird because that has never happened to me before so I guess it must be a really new procedure! So the doc called and said she didn’t understand why they didn’t make me a proper appointment and she made me one there and then. I went back to bed for a couple of hours and then walked to my appointment. Saw the doc and she said it all looks viral but to come back in a week if nothing has gotten better, or if it gets worse.

Scarlett was at nursery a whole day so I figured I could grab something to eat at my nan’s before heading home. And she lives next to the surgery so I walked to hers for some lunch. Me and my mom picked her up later.

Tuesday 7th:

My eye was still really bad and it was swollen when I woke up at 5am. I woke up early because it was hurting and I had a bad headache. I called in sick again and just tried to keep my eye clean and lubricated. It helped because I felt much better later.

Wednesday 8th (today):

Well I went to work today. Had a back-to-work interview. Wasn’t necessary in my eyes because I was only off for 2 days but anyway. Also got moaned at about “using my phone too much”. Yeah, because I am the only person to touch my phone. Irony is that my phone didn’t even have signal most of the week before as I had run out of data and I turned my 4G off so I couldn’t go over my limit and get charged. So I wasn’t even connected to anything except texts or calls – which I get very few. But whatever.

After my meeting, we had another one that had been scheduled to my calendar whilst I was off. Turns out that someone somewhere has decided my team is to no longer work as part of the water department but to be merged with the main company’s maximo team. Where this leaves us, I have no clue. The guy we will be going to “come under” is based in Whiteley, an hour or so away. We had so many questions for the guy but he had no answers for us today. I am not sure how I feel about it. But as a non-driver I won’t be travelling to Whiteley every day. I struggle to get to our office for 8am now, no way can I make it to Whiteley for 8am.

Just in bed. So tired. It has been a long week and it is only Hump Day.

TTFN x