Fire alarm fix

Friday Brett didn’t get to mine until almost midnight. He worked late and didn’t get the train until almost 10pm. I made him something to eat then we got into bed. It was quite late when we went to sleep.

Saturday I got up with Scarlett at 7:30am. She had a bottle and we watched some TV together. Scarlett’s new teletubbies bedding came Friday so we put that on. She loves it. She kept on about it when I put her down for a nap after her breakfast. We woke her up for swimming at 11:30. She wasn’t amused but once she realised where we were going she was fine. She had a lovely time swimming with Brett. She did really well. They were the only ones in the class so they had free reign of the pool.

After swimming we went home. Scarlett had a bottle and went back to bed. When she got up we went into town for a late lunch. I finally paid of my outstanding library fees and unblocked my card. Apparently if you owe more than £10 they bar you from being able check any books out until the bar is removed.

We headed back home. Scarlett had a snack, bath, bottle and then was in bed by 7:30. We went out at 8ish to go to the cinema. We were early so we sat in the foyer with our drinks and I had a hot dog. We watched Kingsman: The Golden Circle. It was a pretty good film as anticipated but the characters from “stateside”, the American spy agency akin to Kingsman, just did my head in. They were just really irritating the way they were portrayed. And I practically wrote the script it seems as I figured out most of it before it happened. But hey, I still enjoyed myself. We walked to the train station after to catch a taxi. I had booked it via the app but there must’ve been a glitch. We waited half hour before I got fed up and re-booked. The second time it went through and the car turned up in 10m. We got home about 12:15. Think I went to sleep about 2ish.

Sunday I got up with Scarlett at 7:30. We played games and snuggled. It was quite cold that I got her dinosaur soft blanket out. I put her up for a nap for an hour and caught up with Liar on ITV. She woke up and I gave her some breakfast. We woke Brett up at 11ish. He played with her. He dressed her whilst I got dressed then we left for my nan’s at 12:30. We had a nice dinner then Scarlett played for a bit. I put her down for a nap at 3pm. Brett had planned to go home at 6pm and he fell asleep on my Nan’s sofa just after Scarlett went down. She didn’t wake up till 20 to 6 so I didn’t wake him until then. He had the hump that I didn’t wake him sooner. But he’s a grown ass man, why he sleeping in the middle of the afternoon? I mean, he must’ve had about 8 hours sleep last night. I had 5/6. See me napping? Anyways he called his Dad and said he’d be getting the train at 7 not 6. So we went home and my mom dropped him off. We tagged along for the ride, stopped after we dropped him to fill the car up then I popped to the shop. We got home, Scarlett had a snack then I bathed her. Mom dressed her whilst I had a quick shower then I put her to bed. After mom left for work the fire alarm kept going off. Yet I wasn’t cooking, there was no fire nor was my house particularly “smokey”, well not smokey at all. I won’t lie, it freaked me out. I half expected to walk into the hallway and find someone stood there poking the test button. But no. There was no one. So I had to call the out-of-hours repairs team to see if they’d come sort it. The guy came at 11:15. He replaced the alarm, tested it was working and then left. I think I didn’t go to sleep until like 12:30/ I tossed and turned all night. My FitBit concurs this.

Monday I woke feeling so tired. I am on lunch atm. Just catching up with season 3 of Bitten that has just come on to Netflix.

TTFN x

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A quiet weekend

Friday we stopped for a bite to eat on the way home as we had stopped not too far away at Tesco to stock up on some bare essentials. I also got Scarlett 6 pairs of pyjamas as her old ones are too short for her now, finally. We had some food and then we headed home. Scarlett went to bed at usual time. She was shattered after our long week away.

Saturday she didn’t wake until 9am. What a lovely lay-in. She got up, had a bottle, we watched some teletubbies and then she had breakfast. She was tired still so I put her back to bed at 10:30am. I had to wake her for swimming. We were late and then I discovered I had left my swimsuit at home. I told the swim teacher my predicament and explained that I was sorry but Scarlett would have to miss it this week. She said that if I didn’t mind, she would take her and swim with her. She said as we were down to half the class [usually there is 4 of us but today there was only 2 including Scarlett]. So Scarlett did her lesson with the teacher. After swimming we went home for lunch. She had her lunch then she went back down for a nap. She was still asleep at 3:45 when I left to go to the cinema. I had a hot dog and a slushie. I don’t usually have food but I was hungry. I watched the new “IT” movie. It wasn’t scary but very creepy. It was only down as a 15 so there was a bunch of “teenagers” in there and every time you saw his hand or reflection or something equally as non-scary you’d hear squeals. Like seriously? I enjoyed the movie and I think Bill Skarsgard did the role brilliantly. I know Tim Currie did the original Pennywise but you cannot compare the two. Bill brought something different to the character. It seems they are splitting the book between 2 movies instead of condensing it in to 1 movie, like the first movie was done. So I look forward to IT chapter 2. After the cinema I got the bus back to home. Scarlett was in bed but still awake. I popped up and said Hi to her and goodnight. She was so pleased to see me. She had a quick chat on FaceTime with Brett then I put her to bed properly.

Mom and I toasted her completion of her NVQ level 3 in Care. She started it when I was pregnant but so much personal stuff had come up and she had put it on the back burner. I am so proud of her because this year she worked her ass off to complete it. And it wasn’t easy as some of the physical attributes to the NVQ required my mom to be shadowed by her NVQ assessor, at work, doing stuff. But my mom’s work life has been really disruptive this year as she was made redundant and changed jobs twice since for various reasons. And she was in hospital last month. But she did it. So we toasted with some Martini Asti.

Sunday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. She had a bottle then some breakfast. We started watching Hotel Transylvania 2 together but she ditched me for a nap. That’s fine, I watched it by myself. I love that movie. She woke up at 1:30pm. I dressed her then mom and I took her to the park. We all needed the fresh air. We played for a bit but there was too many boisterous asshole kids pushing past her, and she banged her cheek. So we left the play area and wandered on the open field. I had brought her bubbles so she chased them lol we went home after and watched Shrek 4. Mom cooked some dinner at 5:30. Scarlett was bathed at 6 and in bed by 6:45. She had been whinging to go to bed since 4 lol it took a lot of energy to keep her up as long as I did.

Mom and I watched some tele. I tidied up the toys in the front room then I got in the shower. After I finished I came down to watch Victoria. I love it. Now it is finished I am in bed.

I am back at work tomorrow. I wonder what that will bring. I bet I have a bunch of emails and shit has changed. I have anxiety just thinking about it. But it feeds my kid. I forgot to say, I got a letter whilst away from my company saying I was getting a salary increased effective from this month. I have gained about £1300 a year. Not bad.

TTFN x

Mom’s turn

Saturday I couldn’t wait for Brett to go home. He started a row on my birthday night [although technically it was early hours Saturday]. He pissed me off so I stormed up to bed at like 3am. A while later he came up when I was half asleep and then said I was snoring and annoying him. I didn’t care. I was only breathing FFS so he went downstairs and slept on my brother’s bed. I got up to give Scarlett a bottle at 8ish and then I put her back to bed as she had had a late night. Then I climbed back into bed. I heard her wake again later on but I just ignored her as I knew someone else would get her out and sort her. And I was right. So apparently I only get a lay-in when I force it. I got up later on and he tried to talk to me. I didn’t want to talk to him. I wanted him to fuck off home. He tried to talk to me discreetly in front of everyone but he just wound me up, and something he said led me to put my ring on the table and say “well go then, I am done”. Then I shoved him away from me as he had been all up in my face. I walked upstairs and away from him. He followed me and kept getting in my face and I said I didn’t want him to do that. He just kept on and on. told me he was sorry for what he said previously, and can we just forget about it and move on? I don’t think so. I think it will be the same argument in 3 months, it is always the same thing. He wore me down eventually and said to put my ring back on. He said as long as we love each other, that is all we need. I disbelieve that. You need more than that to keep a relationship going and at the moment I am fed up of the BS. Nonetheless I stuck my ring back on, hugged him and went downstairs. He went home. I took Scarlett out for a mummy-daughter date. We ended up in Frankie & Benny’s again. That burger I had the night before was so delicious. She had mini hot dogs this time. After dinner we had 1 game of bowling. She hasn’t quite got the hang and is too young to sit still nicely whilst I have my go so I had to carry her = I was knackered!

After dinner we headed back towards home. We stopped at my Nan’s for a cup of tea and ended up staying there for the evening. My Nan dropped us home and I put Scarlett straight to bed, no bath lol

Sunday we had dinner at my Nan’s, like usual. 3 of my many cousins were there. My uncle’s 3 daughters. Scarlett is a fair bit younger than them so she didn’t really play with them and one of them kept trying to pick her up and crowd her. I had to tell her to give her space. We went home later and I put Scarlett to bed then had a shower before having some supper.

Monday was my first day back at work. I felt so tired and it really took a lot mentally. I ended up rowing with Brett, again. I can’t even remember what it was over. Oh wait yes I do, because I made a comment about how shit my birthday actually was. And then it was about this weekend when the fight between Mayweather and McGregor is on. I was already coming to his for the weekend as it is a bank holiday, and I never had issue with him wanting to watch the fight. But not if he goes to his pals as the fight doesn’t start till 5/6am and if he is up all night he would sleep all day at his pals and we wouldn’t see him till night time. What am I meant to do all day at his? So I said we wouldn’t come this weekend and it set him off even more.

Tuesday morning I woke up to a text from my mom saying she was in hospital and I would need to ask my Grandad to take me to work. I asked if she was ok? She said she had bleed really badly at work so her coworker phoned an ambulance who took her to hospital at 6:45am. I text my Nan and told her what happened and what I needed. She didn’t reply so I called her, phone was off. I called her house phone and she answered. She said she would pick Scarlett up as usual and Grandad would pick me up. So he did and I went to work.

What happened was, 3 weeks ago she had a procedure called a Colposcopy to have a look at her cervix and laser some bad cells off. This was after a routine smear had come back as abnormal. It went well and her bleeding afterwards was fairly normal.

Mom called me just before 10 and said they were considering discharging her. She said I was the only person with a key and she didn’t think Grandad would want to go through her bedroom looking for clothes so would I be able to leave work, get him to run me home and then up the hospital. Everything she had worn to the hospital was covered in blood. I said of course and hung up. I called my grandad asking him to come get me. He turned up at 10ish, we drove home and I picked up some bits then he dropped me at the hospital. I found her bed. She was in the same trauma bay [M6] that I had been in the times I were in A&E during pregnancy. Weird. She looked a bit white/pale but she was alright. She said the doctor claims she had stopped bleeding. She got off the bed to go and change her pad and clothes. When she hobbled past me I saw she was wearing a hospital grade sanitary pad with mesh knickers. It looked like a giant nappy. I couldn’t help but laugh. She got dressed and we headed out. She was advised to rest and take it easy and not be alone for 12-24 hours in case the bleeding got worse again. I bought her a cup of tea whilst we waited for Grandad to pick us up.

We got home and she desperately wanted food, sleep and a shower. She was starving, had not slept having worked a night shift and had not eaten since the middle of the night. She decided to have a shower once my Nan had finished work and grabbed her some more maternity-like sanitary towels. She dropped Scarlett off at 12:30ish. She was asleep so I put her straight in her cot and then aided mom in her shower. My nan stayed too [in case mom went dizzy I think]. She had massive blood clots and it was just running down her leg, going everywhere. She was really upset. She was stood in the bath crying. She said “how am I suppose to get dressed? It’s just going to go everywhere”. I told her to just stay still and I would get her clothes and she can dress in the bath. She laughed. Then chastised me for making her laugh as it caused more blood to leak. I called 111 for advice and they said they’d send a referral to our GP surgery so she can have an emergency appointment. I phoned them at 1:45 and they said the doctor would call back within 30 minutes. She didn’t call for 2 and a half hours. By that time my mom’s meds had kicked in and her bleeding was substantially much less so she said to the doctor she wouldn’t take an appointment and would go up A&E if the bleeding got worse again.

So she had a lay down and then at 5ish we decided what to have for dinner. She hadn’t eaten since her night shift so she welcomed that. We had dinner, I bathed Scarlett and put her to bed then Mom and I just relaxed. She went up to relax in bed at about 9ish. I finished watching season 4 of The Originals then I had a shower and got into bed.

I hope she feels better tomorrow.

TTFN x

Alpro ice cream

Wednesday 21st:

My cousins baby was born at 10:01am. He weighed 8 lb 14 oz. And he is gorgeous. He has quite a bit of dark hair. So glad he arrived safely. They named him Parker Harry James.

Thursday 22nd:

Scarlett’s passport came through the mail today. I’m so excited for our holiday now. I was worried the passport people would reject it due to her picture or something but thankfully they are more lenient with under 2s. We are now checked in for our flights online. I needed all of our passport numbers to do. And I have!!!!

My mom dated a guy the year after my step-dad left her. And he cheated on her for 4 months before they split. He denied this. But we know it’s true. Anyway he and my mom always stayed in contact as friends. He was told by his new missus he can’t be friends with my mom. Insecure much? This breeds from being “the other woman” to a guy who cheated WITH YOU. And many times she removed my moms number from this guys phone. Talk about controlling. But whatevs! This woman he cheated with became his partner from the moment they met all the way up till now. Well this woman’s daughter called my mom up and accused my mom off sleeping with him. As my mom pointed out, 1) she’s in a very happy relationship, 2) he cheated on her so why the F would she want his ass back and 3) how the F would any of their menial “hello how are you” texts ever convey there was anything untoward going on. She said all this and basically told the girl to fuck off. She told me and I sent her ex (from 8 fucking years ago, like for real who even cares about people from that long ago) a shitty message telling him to get his fucking women under control and stop dragging my mom into his BS. I told him that he knows he’s not suppose to be friends with my mom and because he failed to do as he’s fucking told she’s now been on the receiving end of some shitty outburst.

It’s gets better. He never responded. Surprise! Not! Turns out it’s their Wedding Day on Saturday. That woman would be stupid to marry him. She knows he’s a cheater and she clearly thinks he still does so why marry him.

Friday 23rd:

For the first time in ages it was just me and my mom. No men. Oh, and Scarlett, obviously. So we put her to bed, grabbed some alcohol and watched a film. It was nice.

Her new high chair came today. I think she likes it!!


Saturday 24th:

Scarlett had her first swimming lesson at 12. We arrived at 10 to 12. I was already in my swim stuff so I just had to sort her into her swim suit. I had bought her a neoprene nappy cover and a neoprene all-in-one to stop her getting cold. She did really well. She let the instructor take her around the pool for a minute without me. She walked on a float before holding my hands and sliding into the water. She kicked. She waved her arms to move the water in a motion. We sang songs. Overall it was good. I was really proud of her. I made the rookie mistake of not checking my bag before we left. I left my bra behind. So we popped home so I could dump the wet swimming gear and grab my bra then we headed to Morrisons. We had some lunch then we did some shopping. We went home and chilled. Scarlett was tired so I put her down for a nap at 3:30 and I kind of fell asleep myself. I rarely do that. Even when she was a proper baby I didn’t nap often. She went to bed at 8:30. She’s so funny. She kept playing silly games with my hair. She likes it when it’s wet from the shower (no idea why).

We watched two movies. Bad Moms and Mother’s Day. It was nice just the two of us. I think I went to bed about 1ish.

Sunday 25th (today):

Scarlett woke up at 7ish. Gave her a bottle at 7:30 thinking she’d go back to sleep for a bit but after half hour of her rolling around she got up and whinged so we went downstairs. She had her breakfast – some fruit and a choc-au-pain then she got dressed. Mom did us some breakfast then we got dressed. We had to head to Morrisons for a cooked chicken as nan had planned for 3 of my uncle’s kids to have dinner with us so she needed more meat. We got one and then went to my Nan’s house. Scarlett was asleep when I got her out of the car so I went straight in and laid her in the stroller in the hallway. She needs her afternoon nap. She slept through Sunday dinner and woke up just after we ate so I got her out and put her in the high chair. She ate her dinner then she had pudding. My nan had managed to get some Alpro Soya ice cream. She had her first taste and she loved it. She ate the ice cream AND the cornetto too!


After we had dinner we had a cup of tea and let our dinner go down then we took her to King George V park. Her first ever trip to a park. She’s been in parks as a baby baby. But they didn’t count as she wasn’t walking etc. She loved it. She went down the slides and in the swings. She climbed EVERYTHING! We had a good time then we headed back for another cuppa then home.

I did her some supper at 6ish. She had some fruit and a slice of bread with butter. She’s like me in so many ways, it’s weird but kind of exciting. She had a bath and then for a change Nanny put her to bed. She went straight down. We stuck on a movie after having some supper ourselves. We watched The DUFF. Mom hadn’t seen it.  I love it!

I’ve just got into bed. I’m not tired. I had my first energy drink today in 8 weeks. My mom bought 2. I think she forgot I don’t drink them. Tbh neither does she now. We’ve both stopped. I quit cold turkey. She has the occasional one. I think I won’t be able I sleep tonight now!!!

Back to work tomorrow. I only have 5 days then I’m off on holiday July 3rd. I can’t wait. It should be good fun. Brett and I are taking Scarlett to Hastings for the week.

Just over 6 weeks till we go to Italy!!!!!!!

TTFN x

Sunday blues

Thursday 8th:

So we voted. Both myself and mom voted the same. Not because we copied. That’s silly. And totally not how thing should be. We voted the same because we believed in the same things. Not that it did us much good because the election ended with a hung parliament. It’s not all bad. But it’s not good either because we didn’t get enough seats for our party so god knows what happens next. A coalition perhaps?

My little brother was 14 today. 14! Where has that gone? I remember when he was a baby. I use to pick him up for a cuddle and play silly games with him. Now he’s 2 years into teenage-hood. What!?

Friday 9th:

I had a long day at work. I felt so tired. I usually get to Thursday/Friday and feel exhausted. It’s this energy-free life. It’s just not compatible with my brain lol but nonetheless I gave up energy drinks about 6 weeks ago and I haven’t died, yet, so I can’t quit now lol

I decided I didn’t want to spend another Friday at home doing nothing so I bathed Scarlett, got her into her pyjamas and slippers then we headed to my nan’s house. She usually entertains on a Friday as her brother and his other half always come over for a cuppa tea and a chat. We ended up getting home for 9:30 and Scarlett went to bed at 10pm, 3 hours past her bedtime. She did really well. She only started to complain when it got to 9ish and she was REALLY tired!

She wasn’t feeling very well in the night. She woke up with a fever (teething I think) so I had to give her calpol, teething gel and a bottle. She was up from 3am until almost 6am. She eventually settled.

Saturday 10th:

She woke up at 8ish but didn’t stir fully and ended up going back to sleep. So did I. And eventually we surfaced at 10:30am. I don’t think she was right as rain yet because she got up and had breakfast then she cried to go back to bed so I gave her more calpol and put her back down at 12. She slept until 3pm. When she woke up she seemed much happier. We went out for dinner with my mom at 4:30 then did a quick food shop before heading home as mom had work. Scarlett was in bed by 7:30. Didn’t hear much from her except some coughing. Bless her!!!

Sunday (today):

She woke up at 8ish. She had a bottle then a bit later she had some breakfast with a cup of tea. She couldn’t get any more like my family if she tried lol I put her back down for a nap about 10ish. She slept until almost 12. Then we headed to my nan’s. I let her walk. No stroller! She did really well considering the distance and her short legs. Originally we weren’t going for dinner. But we ended up having dinner, pudding and after her playing in and out the garden all day, we went home at 6ish. She had a bath then she watched teletubbies. Then I made her a bottle at 7 and down she went. I heard her cough a bit but she’s alright.

I have been binge watching NCIS lately. I love it. I’m officially following season 7 (having seen the previous seasons in sequential order) but I dipped into season 9 tonight, the finale, after catching 2 episodes previous to it that were good.

I’m also reading. I’m still reading Limitless but I’m 70-something percent done so yay!

Work tomorrow. I bet the week drags balls. And I bet the weather outside our office window all week is blue skies and sunshine lol

TTFN x

Omg! Spa day

Omg spa day! It was fab. I had a McDonald’s breakfast to set me off then I settled in for my treatments. I had an hour long Indian head message at 10am followed by an hour long full body massage then I had a half hour break where I relaxed in the relaxation room with some water. Then I had a half hour facial. I felt so serene when I left at 1pm.

I came home and caught up with supernatural and laid in bed being totally lazy until I had to go and pick Scarlett up from nursery at 4:30!!! I missed her but it WAS so lovely to have a little “me” time.

Saturday we didn’t go to Stratford in the end. I had a nasty headache and Scarlett didn’t feel very well. She slept basically all day and it was obviously much needed and she wouldn’t have been able to do that at a party, so then she would have been a nightmare later on. I apologied to my friend and said I’d post little man’s presents in the week. My BMF went to the party. I saw her snapchats and I was sad to have missed out but ya gotta do what ya gotta do.

Scarlett did some steps. Finally. I was super excited (you can tell in the video lol)


Sunday we had dinner at my nan’s house but she had a full house so we didn’t stay as long as usual. She dished up for 18 people. That was 8 kids and 10 adults. Too hectic! I washed up then we went home. 

Monday I woke up so late, mom was late in from work in the morning to pick us up and her car had trouble because the inside was frozen due to the water leak she’s had. Total nightmare. I got to work 15 minutes late and just felt like I shouldn’t have even got up. Anyone else would have a baby who wakes up at 6am and can be used as an alarm but not me. I have a kid who sleeps mostly till I wake her. Lazy cow! I was in a foul mood all day and I have no idea why. I just felt so irritable!
Today was a better day. I’m thankful that I’m busy at work because it means I don’t spend a lot of time thinking and overthinking. I’m really struggling with the fact I cannot afford to move out yet. I really need to. It’s affecting me mentally and emotionally because I don’t feel in control of my own child’s life, because we are effectively living in “someone else’s” house. All I can do is save, save, save.

Scarlett went to bed at 7:15. She woke up about 12:20. Her eczema is bad and her leg is hurting her so I changed her nappy and re-creamed her sore leg then put her back down. She laid down but kept sitting up so I got her back out and decided she may be hungry so I got some antibiotics down her and then she had a 5oz bottle. She drained it flat and has been laying in her cot talking to herself and playing with her TedTed. I can’t sleep whilst she’s awake so tomorrow will be fun when I’m knackered lol

She’s gone quiet, I think!

TTFN

9 months

Well the weekend wasn’t half bad except for kind of arguing with my dad about the situation with Harry plus Brett and I constantly back and forth about it as well.

Saturday me and Scarlett got the train down to my dad’s. We stayed at theirs till lunch. Scarlett was playing on the floor with everyone. Then we put her in the stroller and walked to the pub down the road for dinner. I had a delicious grilled chicken burger with chips. I had cheesy garlic for a starter and I shared with Scarlett. She loves cheese, and garlic it seems. We walked back to dad’s. My stepmom, my sister and me wanted to pop to town so we left Scarlett with my dad and off we went. We went into H&M and I got her this lush navy blue sparkly dress. I am thinking she can either wear on Christmas day or her birthday. It is lovely. I also got her a pair of fur lined boots. They are too big but she’ll wear them once she is walking. My stepmom got her 3 different grey jumpers and some gloves.

We got the train home at 5:20pm. Mom picked us up the other end and we went home. Harry and I agreed to meet Sunday lunch time instead of next Sunday as we were both free. I wanted to get it out of the way for 2 reasons.

  1. I couldn’t bear waiting. The anxiety in my stomach over it was driving me insane
  2. I needed to know if we could be in the same room as each other and it not be awkward. We hadn’t been face-to-face in 18 months, since the night Scarlett was conceived. So I had no idea what it would be like to see him.

Sunday I got up with Scarlett. Fed her. She slept a lot. Woke up for porridge. Had a little play. She was due a feed at 12ish so I fed her then she napped. She woke up at 1pm when Harry turned up. I could tell he wanted to play with her but (appreciatively) he asked me first if he could. He sat on the floor with her, playing. She was climbing all over him, giggling etc. I needed the loo so I nipped upstairs quickly. She usually would whinge if I left her but she didn’t. She just carried on playing. That was nice.

He came with some gifts. He bought her a multicolored cardigan (it is lush) and some velvety trousers. He and I chatted. A bit about the past but also about what we expect from the future. He picked her up and she sat with him. I took a few pictures. Mostly so that she has proof that he did at least see her once, even IF he does decide he doesn’t want to see her again. They are for her memory box.

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I am not sure when he will see her next. Maybe the end of the week. We don’t want to overload her so he only stayed for an hour. And next time will only be an hour too.

After he left I walked Scarlett round my nan’s. She was asleep, again, so I left her there so me and Mom could go back to Vodafone to finish upgrading my iPhone. I am getting the iPhone 6S in Rose Gold, 32GB with 5GB of data and unlimited texts and calls. I can’t wait for that and my iPad to be delivered to store.

Yesterday (Monday) Scarlett was 39 weeks. She is so sassy. She loves waving at people and giggling. She is teething I think. Officially. As her butt is red raw and she cried when I wiped her when she had a dirty nappy. My poor baby. She had a salty bath to help keep it clean and heal better.

She had me up at 3am because she had pooped in the night and she was sore. After I changed her I put her in my bed to sleep with me. She slept till 5:30am then was up. She wouldn’t go back to sleep lol

Today my little princess is 39 weeks plus 1 day, which is precisely how far I was when she was yanked from my uterus after 2 days of induced early labour. She is also 9 months!!! I have a 5 inch scar and more stretch marks than before but I wouldn’t change any of that. She is my world. I love to show her off but at the same time I hate sharing her. Although that said, I share her with Brett already and we manage. I think we can safely figure out how to share her with Harry and his family too.

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Harry is coming round tomorrow evening. Not sure what time but obviously it’ll be between 5:30 and 8 as she usually gets ready for bed no later than 8.

Brett is coming down this weekend and Scarlett is having her 9 month pictures done. I want some of me and her, some of her on her own and some of us 3 together. Maybe I shouldn’t do that because “he’s not her dad” but tough shit. He and I are in this for the long haul. We’ve had little wobbles, and big ones, but all that matters is we love each other. And he’s been the constant male figure in her life since she was 10 weeks old. To her, he IS daddy. And he still will be. She’ll just be lucky like I was and have 2.

TTFN x