The Doctor copped a feel

Friday Brett didn’t arrive until almost 1am. Because I had fell asleep when I came home sick from work, I wasn’t tired yet so we watched some tele then went to bed about 3am.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at about 8am. Not too bad considering she went to bed at 9:30. She had her bottle in bed with us. She spoke to Brett but he was half asleep. I took her downstairs. She opened her advent for Days 1 and 2. As well as her first and second days of Book Advent. Her book was Fox’s Socks. Day 2 book was Princess Mirror-Belle and Snow White.

We had porridge for breakfast then I put her down for a nap. We were due to go out at 11. We didn’t leave until 11:30. Oops! We went to Camberley to take Scarlett to see santa. As you can see it went as well as last year!

After Santa we went and grabbed lunch at Wetherspoons. Scarlett had salmon fish cake, mash, peas and some cucumber and peppers as a side. I had a chicken burger and chips. Brett had steak and chips. Food was pretty good. Scarlett ate so much. We hadn’t taken the stroller with us so she was walking a lot but she’s still so little so we also carried her a bit too. Man she’s heavy lol

After lunch we went to Primark as my nan had asked me to get 2 gift vouchers for my cousins for Christmas. I also picked up matching Christmas headbands for me and Scarlett then we got a lift to my nans. We had a cup of tea then at 4 we headed home.

Scarlett had some fruit and a yoghurt for dinner (she ate loads at lunch) then Brett bathed her and then after a bottle and storytime she went to bed at 7. She went straight down like a good girl.

We ordered some dinner and watched Criminal Minds catch-up with my mom. My dinner took ages!! Brett’s came and he’d eaten it long before mine came. We had separate because he wanted pizza and I didn’t.

He has a bath whilst I read my book in bed. We were going to watch a film but I had bellyache so I went to sleep about 11. My grandad’s Birthday is today. He’s 68.

Sunday Scarlett woke at 8:45. That’s some epic sleep she had. She must’ve had almost 14 hours sleep! She had a bottle then she had toast (she asked for it). I had porridge and of course she had to share it when she’d finished hers lol

Scarlett opened Day 3 of Book Advent which was the book Everyone Loves Underpants.

We woke Brett up at 10. I put Scarlett down for a nap at 10:30. We climbed back into bed for cuddles and just relaxed. We woke her up at 12:30 so we could go shopping then to my Nan’s for dinner. I had to stock up on nappies and wipes. We bunged it in my mom’s boot then we went to my nan’s house. We left at 4:30. I stuck Shrek on and Scarlett actually sat with us to watch it for ages. I took her up for bath time and Brett left to get the train home at like 6ish.

She and I read a story. She had her bottle then I put her to bed.

Today she did not want to get up. I don’t blame her, I didn’t want to either! She got dressed, had her bottle whilst I made my lunch then my Nan turned up so I could leave for work. I got to work and set about playing catching up from being sick on Friday. I made an epic dent in my emails and managed to finally load AIR on to the system. I did a mini victory dance because we’ve waited too long to load AIR!!!!

I left work at 3:15 as I had my hospital appointment. We managed to get parked in the middle of the day. That’s so rare! I got seen at 4:10 so only 20 minutes late. The doctor asked me a bunch of questions and then did a check. Said it all seemed normal and sent me on my way. Weird considering my GP said she was sending me for a scan. But nonetheless I’ve been discharged from the hospital so if I have any more issues or am not happy in the new year I’ll go back to my GP.

After the hospital we went to pick Scarlett up. She does a full day at Nursery on Mondays. My mom usually picks her up at 4:30 then me at 5. My nan picked her up so we got her from her house. She was having a yoghurt when we got there. Apparently she had already “helped” Grandad to feed the dog. She loves doing that. Her and Marley are BFFs.

We went home and Scarlett had some fruit as she was “hungry” – she wasn’t she was peckish. She has dinner at Nursery lol we watched some teletubbies and she opened her Day 4 on her advent calendar, as well as her Book Advent. The book was Stories for 3 Year Olds. She went for a bath then she went to bed at 7.

Mom is off tonight so we’re watching tele and having a relaxing evening.

TTFN x

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Rail replacement buses

Friday wasn’t too bad at work. I got a lot done but I didn’t feel that productive. I just got by, mostly. Scarlett had a bath and went to bed like normal.

Saturday she got up at 7:45. I gave her a bottle and then we got dressed. We got picked up at 8:15 for Gravity Tots. Scarlett didn’t quite get the hang of jumping. She’s used to jumping off hard floors. It was too bouncy for her. She did enjoy herself. We ran around and played with balls and soft squares you can chuck. We managed half hour then we left to have a snack. She was freezing. They had the AC on and I’m assuming it’s so people don’t overheat as bouncing is exercise and people will get hot and sweaty. But she’s only little. Her lips went blue. I gave her a banana and some water then we got our shoes on.

We got picked up and we headed to McDonald’s for breakfast. Scarlett had pancakes and sausage. I had my usual breakfast wrap. She ate lots then went down for a nap. She slept for like 3 hours.

When she woke up we headed to Camberley. We had planned to go to Woking but it turned out there was rail works going on. No trains between Basingstoke and Weybridge which meant none from Farnborough, where I live. Oops! So we got the bus to Camberley. We did Primark first. It was hectic. Reminded me of why I hate shopping. We survived nonetheless. We went outside and there was a gymnastics display from a local dance school. They weren’t half bad. It reminded me of my dancing days. I was so flexible, and skinny lol

After Primark and the gymnastics show we headed for food. We settled on Pizza Express. Scarlett had her own little starter of Dough Balls with some cucumber and tomatoes on the side. She was dipping her balls in the garlic butter, copying me. Then she dipped her tomatoes. She doesn’t like them so she just licked the butter off lol

After pizza we got the bus to my nan’s. We had a cuppa and I showed my nan what I’d bought. Scarlett has learned to say “peace” but you can imagine what it sounds like. Nan then dropped us home. Scarlett and I jumped in the bath together. I stood up to wash my hair under the shower whilst she played in the draining bath water. She mostly just rubbed my foot with a flannel (helping me wash). I got out and then got her out. She was in bed by 8:30. So a later night than usual but it’s the weekend. I watched the finale of Stranger Things 2. I don’t know if there will be a season 3. I mean, there could be but I don’t know!

Sunday (today) she woke up at 7ish. Which would’ve been 8 had the clocks not gone back. So I can’t complain at all. She had a bottle then some breakfast. We watched some of Sharktail then she went for a nap. She woke up at 11am. I got her dressed then my mom’s friend (Scarlett’s godmother) picked us up and took us to Sainsbury’s so I could grab some stuff for work tomorrow. She dropped us at my nan’s when we were done as we were having dinner there.

We had roast beef. Scarlett ate a lot then we had ginger cake for pudding. She loved it. She had custard with hers. I don’t like custard. She tried to play with my cousin, who is almost 4 but she doesn’t seem to like Scarlett. She just ignored her when she tried to play with her. We stayed for a cuppa then we went home. We carried on watching Sharktail then I put the Bee Movie on. She fell off the sofa and kept rubbing her eyes so I took her up for a bath.

She’s been a bit of a nightmare this weekend. I feel like all I’ve done is tell her off, even shouted at her a few times. She just hasn’t listened to me all weekend. I was constantly telling her the same things to NOT do. And I don’t want our weekends to be like that given how little we see of each other in the week. And it made me feel a bit bad. Before bed she came and sat with me. She gave me a big cuddle and kisses. So I guess she doesn’t have any hard feelings about it. And her loving feelings towards me helped diminish some of my bad/guilty feelings. I love this wild crazy child of mine. She’s just pushing boundaries. It’s totally normal.

She went to bed at 7. I put some washing on and sorted myself some supper. I heard Stormzy was going to perform on X-factor so I turned it on. He appeared as the closing act. I legit sat through 2 hours of bullshit to see him lol was worth it. I love him!

I got into bed at 9. I’m just chatting on WhatsApp to my girls and playing my game.

Work tomorrow. Another week just signals another week closer to being the only database team member standing. I don’t think I can hack doing 3 people’s work. I need to find a new job. I’ve been looking for 11 months and no luck. It’s Christmas time now so everything online is temporary positions. Not ideal. So might have to give up and try again in the new year. Not where I thought I’d be at this point in the year.

TTFN x

Almost September

Well last weekend was a Bank Holiday weekend. We didn’t have a lot planned.

Saturday I took Scarlett to town for a mummy-daughter lunch date. I had her feet measured at Clarks. She was a 3F in March and she is now a 4G. Her feet have grown!!! My little weed is growing lol not surprised with the amount she eats. After Clarks we went to Poppins for lunch. Scarlett had a burger and chips, same as me. She wasn’t able to sit in a highchair as they were all occupied so she sat in the booth with me. She sat SO well for her age. I was so impressed with her, my heart swelled.

After we ate lunch we did some shopping and I bought her some new trainers and some wellies. I also got her some sandals as September is meant to be a sunny month. We got on the bus and went to my Nan’s. We ended up there for dinner. We had KFC but the idiots forgot to give us our drink when we left so I had to walk back in with the receipt to ask for it. Then we got back and they had forgotten our 2 sides. Bloody morons. Kind of glad I don’t have KFC often. It doesn’t agree with my bowels. They get angry lol

Sunday we had planned to meet my mummy friend, her husband and their toddler, M. They were stuck in traffic but we managed to meet at Frimley Lodge for 1pm [ish]. We had lunch at the café and the toddlers got reacquainted with each other. They haven’t since each other since M’s 1st birthday party in February. A lot changes in 6 months. Bacl then M was walking but Scarlett wasn’t quite there. We ate our lunch, did nappy changes and then we walked to the play area. There was sand so off came the shoes. Scarlett has only been on sand once before, last year when she was about 9 months old [technically half her life ago]. She was okay but it’s hard to walk on sand lol

We went to the fields and found a shaded part. It was really hot. The girls took it in turns of sitting between my legs. Scarlett got a bit jealous of M sitting near me haha was cute. We left the lodge at 4ish. My grandad picked me and Scarlett up as we had a dinner waiting for us. I put Scarlett down for a nap and when she was up we ate our dinner together. We went home and Scarlett had a bath, bottle and bed like usual.

Monday we had no plans except for going food shopping. We decided to go at 11am and then when we got back Scarlett went for a nap. She wake until almost 2pm. MOm was dropping my brother somewhere so we bundled in the car and she dropped me and Scarlett at my Nan’s. My nan was out all day so she had asked if I would go in for half hour and let the dog get some fresh air. I stayed about an hour then mom picked us up. We went to the chemist to speak to a pharmacist about Scarlett’s bumpy rash but as it was a Bank Holiday none were open except the 24hr Boots one at Farnborough Gate Retail Park. So we asked there and they guy said it “could be chicken pox” but as there are so few of them, he can’t say for sure and suggested I see a GP. We were next to food places so we had dinner as we had kind of skipped lunch. Scarlett ate lots and was so good with her cup and straw. I think she has finally gotten the hang of it and doesn’t “tip” it as much as she use to lol as I knew I’d need to take her to the doctor’s Tuesday, I text my manager to let her know I’d have to be home Tuesday. She was fine with it and said she’d let my TL know [as it was just going to be me and my TL in this week, the other 2 are on annual leave lucky buggers].

Tuesday I got up at 7:30am. My doctor’s surgery opens at 8am so I waited and then called. It took me 15 minutes of clicking “call back” and a further 15 minutes of being on hold until I got through. They had an emergency appointment for 9:20am available so we took that. I gave Scarlett breakfast, fed her and then we walked to her appointment. The doctor said it looked like she had a viral infection [some long winded name] and it would go on its own. So no Chicken Pox for us. Yay lol we didn’t want her to be spotty for our holiday in 2 weeks!!! The doc looked at her swollen eye and confirmed it was a stye as previously suspected. She says it should go down on its own, but to put a farm clean flannel on it as a compress once or twice a day to help aid it. But she’s a toddler so she probably won’t sit still long enough. I did try it at bed time and she sat fine so that is great. She is such a good-natured child, I can’t believe how lucky I am. After doctor’s we stopped by my grandparent’s as they live near it. We ended up staying almost the whole day. I put Scarlett down for a nap at 10:30am and she woke up at 12:30 when my Dad popped in on his lunch hour. When he went to leave an hour later, she went down the garden hand in his hand and wanted to go with him. Which is great considering she doesn’t see him as often as she should.

We went home at about 5ish. Mom cooked sausage and mash. I do love that. Scarlett had it too. She is quite partial to having the same food as us now. I can rarely get away with giving her something different haha she knows, she isn’t silly.

Wednesday my first day back after an extra long Bank Holiday was a very busy day. I didn’t stop doing stuff all day. Usually we have quiet periods. We fill out these task trackers to keep track of tasks, ironically. My task tracker was 20+ lines deep and all different colours. It’s never usually like that lol it’s good being busy though. Scarlett and I had garlic and herb tortellini with a cheese sauce for dinner. She ate most of it and then asked for a banana, which she shared with my mom. She then went to bed. She was asleep by 7:30 but when I went upstairs at 8:30 she was whinging, she must’ve woke up. So I went in and gave her a big cuddle and then we FaceTimed Brett so he could say Hello to her as he missed her before bedtime. She stayed up for 20 minutes then I put her back down and she went back to sleep. She thought she was incredibly clever for sitting on Nann’y bed after bed time lol

Thursday [today] I had an awful nights sleep last night. I feel like I haven’t slept much. Just on lunch at work. Thank god. I accidentally left my sunbite crisps at home so I had NO SNACK so I was HANGRY beyond believe until now.

TTFN x 

Day 2 in Verona

Scarlett woke up at 7:30am. I gave her a bottle and changed her nappy then put her back to sleep at 8am. I wasn't sure she'd go back down but she did and she didn't wake until almost 10am. I did her some breakfast then I gave her a quick bath (yoghurt was EVERYWHERE) then we got ready to go out for the day.

We walked from our apartment in Piazza Pozza to Castelvecchio to walk over the bridge and looked at the views. We found a cafe as we were thirsty so we had a drink then we carried on walking towards to piazza brà.

Day 2 in Verona

Scarlett woke up at 7:30am. I gave her a bottle and changed her nappy then put her back to sleep at 8am. I wasn't sure she'd go back down but she did and she didn't wake until almost 10am. I did her some breakfast then I gave her a quick bath (yoghurt was EVERYWHERE) then we got ready to go out for the day.

We walked from our apartment in Piazza Pozza to Castelvecchio to walk over the bridge and looked at the views. We found a cafe as we were thirsty so we had a drink then we carried on walking towards to piazza brà. We decided to stop for lunch as it was about 1pm now. So we found a charming (but busy) restaurant on the main road opposite Verona arena. I had a German hotdog and curly fries and Brett had a burger with fries. Scarlett had a toastie but tried to help herself to my hotdog lol it rained whilst we ate but we were underneath a massive canopy so we were fine lol

After we ate I grabbed some more euros from the ATM and we headed towards the shopping streets. My aim was to see Casa di Guilietta (Juliet's house) which was nearby. So we walked. It was so busy. You could tell it was a tourist attraction. It was exactly how I remember it being when I watched Letters to Juliet. I'm glad I can tick it off my list of places. It started to pour down with rain again. So we sought shelter underneath a shop canopy on our walk back to the centre. Scarlett had fell asleep so we didn't mind just sitting on a step watching people go by. When the rain had let up a little we carried on walking. We had a wander through the trees in the middle of the Piazza. There was a fountain and some statues. Scarlett stayed asleep until we had gotten almost back to the apartment. She woke up but was still tired. I left her for a bit to play but she kept jumping around (knowing that if she sat still she'd nod off) and in the end I succumbed to giving her a bottle and putting her in bed. She napped for 2 hours and didn't wake until 7:30pm. Brett had gone to sleep as well so I tried waking him, saying we needed to go for dinner. He was really grumpy and told me to fuck off. I assumed his head was bad still so I picked up the keys, sorted Scarlett out and was planning to take her to dinner by myself. He got up properly and got the right hump. Saying I was leaving him behind. Ignoring the fact he was a complete ass to me for half hour beforehand. But yeah I'm the one who is wrong lol he said he needed a shower etc so "fuck off and go without me". But ignoring my hunger I stayed till he was ready. Which wasn't fair on Scarlett tbh because it was 9 before we left.

We found a brilliant restaurant in the main part of Piazza Pozza. I had sage and butter tortellini. Brett had a margarita pizza and Scarlett just shared everything lol we tipped them because the staff were very interactive with Scarlett. She kept waving and saying Hiya to everyone lol

We got back to our apartment at 10:30. Scarlett had a quick bath then she played with Brett whilst I showered quick. Then once I was dressed I put her to bed.

We are just watching a film called Next. It's weird but good.

We are leaving Verona tomorrow for Venice. We are getting a train from Verona to Venice. It should be fun. I've enjoyed my stay in this apartment however it's not very child-friendly. Knives were at knee height. Meaning, baby height lol but we've had a good stay and our host was a godsend with her recommendations on things and routes to get there.

TTFN x

Anxiety creeping

Brett turned up at 10:30ish. So not too late on Thursday. We tried to get an early night but we like to chill and catch up. He woke Scarlett up when he got there so he had to put her back to bed and she wasn’t amused so I ended up giving her a small bottle, as well as teething gel after he had changed her nappy. Once she was asleep we got into bed.

Friday 21st:

Brett turned 25!!!! I got up with Scarlett for nursery. Dressed her then woke Brett up so he could say goodbye as we weren’t going to see her till Saturday once she left. They had cuddles then my Nan picked her up. I climbed back in to bed for a bit. We got up later than we should’ve and he wanted to shower and shit before we left so that took longer. We ended up leaving at 2ish. Train was due at 2:45. Didn’t leave until gone 3pm. We made a “friend” on the platform. An older lady was sat next to us on the bench and she started talking to us. Harmless enough. However it became very clear she was drunk. She was 63 (she said), still very sexually active (she also said) and had a boyfriend in Southampton (where she was headed apparently). We hopped on the train and settled in the “quiet carriage” and she had gotten on a different carriage. 3 minutes later she wanders past with all her stuff and plonks down next to us (well next to me). Fun times. She dropped all her stuff (in that drunk clumsy way people do). So we scrambled around helping her pick it up. She asked our names as she was texting someone about her trip (and meeting us two) and 3 times Brett told her what his name was and 3 times she called him Brian! It was a very painful experience. Thankfully she departed the train at Winchester (after asking us 5 times where she was going?) and we had a quiet remainder to our journey.

We finally got to Portsmouth at 4:25pm. We headed to our hotel for check in. Checked in. Threw our stuff on the bed and went straight back out for dinner. By the time we arrived at Gunwharf Quays it was almost 5. We walked along the food promenade and settled on Pizza Express. Whilst we ate I booked our cinema tickets for 7:15. We finished eating and went for a drink as we had plenty of time. We watched Fast & Furious 8. It’s not my kind of film as such but I have seen most of them so I did enjoy it. After we left the cinema it was about 10ish so we got a train back to the hotel. We wanted some nibbles so we hunted for a convenience store. No success. Brett ended up asking a local and he directed us to the nearest Tesco lol

We didn’t get to sleep until 2am (maybe later). We got caught up in the typical dirty weekend things – food, trashy TV and sex (Obvs). Overall we’d had a good day and night. Brett said his birthday had been great day!!!

Saturday 22nd:

We got up at 9:30 and went down to the restaurant for breakfast. We came back up for showers and packing then at midday we checked out and headed back to Gunwharf. Brett had birthday money to spend and I just wanted to wander. Also we had to do the Spinnaker Tower as Brett had never done it. So we did that first then we had lunch in the cafe below it.


We headed to the shops. Brett had his eyes on some Ralph Lauren so that’s where we headed. I got Scarlett some adorable floral shoes for our trip to Italy in August. We paid for our stuff and then he went to a different store for his dad’s birthday present and then we headed back to the train station to head home.

We got off the train at 4:30 and my nan picked us up. Scarlett acted super excited when she first saw us but then acted all indifferent when we tried to hug her haha sassy pants!

We had a cuppa tea then went home. Brett did bath time whilst we picked up dinner. We had a nice take away from the chippy. He and I then put Scarlett to bed and then watched the Conor McGregor DVD I bought him for his birthday. That was about 3/4 hours then we settled down for bed.

Today (Sunday 23rd):

St. George’s day today. Scarlett’s second one. She gave me a lay in. She woke up at 8 ish but I didn’t hear her till almost 8:30 as she was just talking to herself in her cot! I have her a bottle then we played. Then she had breakfast (and tipped some fruit all over the floor) then I dressed her. I woke Brett up at 10:30 and then at 11 I put Scarlett down for a nap. She slept for ages and I watched some catch-up NCIS. Obsessed with the show. No idea why! Once she was up, we got ready and went to my nan’s for Sunday dinner. Scarlett had her dress on for all over 5 minutes before tipping most of her dinner down herself, mostly gravy.



We had a good afternoon. She walked around the garden, a lot. Mom, her boyfriend, Brett and I nipped to the shops for some food shopping then we swung back to pick Scarlett up before heading home. Brett went home at 5 and I fed Scarlett some tea before taking her up for a bath. She was so tired. She just kept laying her head on my shoulder. At 6:30. She never goes to bed much before 7 usually. But nonetheless I did her bottle and put her to bed. She was out like a light.

I went up and had a shower at 9 and then just chilled etc. I watched some tele and came up to bed at midnight but it’s 1:30am and I’m still awake because it’s hit me that I don’t want to go to work tomorrow and I’ve been to the loo 4 times with stress related bowel issues. I hate that I cannot control my life. I’ve been actively looking for a new job for months and have had no luck. My friend has been looking for maybe a month or so and she managed to land one quickly and has handed her notice in already. I feel sick at the thought of going to work. My mental health is affected so much. To the point where I saw my doctor last week and got referred on to discuss my problems. Anxiety she reckons but I think it’s more than that.

I just had a row with my mom. We were just having a laugh and then I was talking about work and that I hate that I cannot just quit now and she was going on about “don’t forget that I cannot afford to have you here if you’re not working” and it just angered me because as if I don’t know this. She’s been giving me that same line since I was 18. I’m well-a-fucking-ware that she depends on my income. Which adds to my stress because not only do I have a child who relies on me but also my mother. So then she started to say “oh it’s my fault you’re stressed”. I cut her off and told her to leave my room. She carried on so I screeched at her to get out. I think she called me a cunt as she stormed out and slammed her bedroom door. Yeah I’m a cunt because I’m very clearly fucking struggling with life ATM and she knows this because I’ve told her this. She knows about my doctors appointments and stuff.

But whatever. I’m not apologising for telling her to leave my room.

Morning looms closer!

TTFN x

Christmas Market

Well Brett and I took Scarlett to see santa on Sunday. We queued up for ages and took her in the grotto. She was fine all the while the door was ajar so there was light but soon as the “elf” shut the door, she screamed. On santas lap. Right when the camera went off. So the picture we have is a classic and will be shown at every opportunity because it’s funny. She got a toy and she liked what she got. She was playing with it once we left the grotto.


We wandered and then got the bus to my nan’s house as she has cooked us dinner. We ate and Scarlett had her dinner. She ate so much!!!

Brett went home in the evening and I sorted Scarlett with bath and bedtime then I had a nice hot shower.

Monday she was 45 weeks.


She’s teething like a champ and god it’s painful. All week was a nightmare. Scarlett had me up every night except Sunday. I then had to go to work for 9 hours. Proper suck-age lol I struggled. I won’t lie. Redbull was my BFF !!!!

Friday she did a full day and I think she’s getting use to it now. It’s her 4th one so that’s pretty good.

She had me up a lot last night and I was so damn tired this morning that I proper moaned to my two bestfriends. I hardly ever do that because for the most part, she’s really a good happy baby. With an attitude. But happy lol

My mom and her boyfriend were taking a trip to Chichester for the Christmas markets so we tagged along too. I posted my xmas cards and presents to various friends at the post office on the way then we set off. Scarlett slept for the whole journey after I had fed her a bottle. We had a wander around the markets then we walked out of the town centre to Whetherspoons for lunch. Scarlett had some cheesy garlic bread whilst I ate dinner and she drank water from her sippy cup. It was a proud mama moment as I had never seen her do it.

We finished eating and walked back to the car and headed back towards home. We stopped off at Morrisons to do some shopping then we went to my nan’s for a cuppa. She had put her tree up and Scarlett was very interested in it lol


After we had a cuppa we left for home. I bathed her then she had a bottle. She was very grumpy so she had some calpol and some teething powder then I put her to bed. It was 8:30. She’s usually down by 7. She rolled around a bit and stood up a few times but eventually she went to sleep. I hope she doesn’t have me up too much tonight. We are off to my dads for the day tomorrow and I’d rather she was happier than grumpier lol

I’m just in bed catching up with Once Upon A Time and eating a cheese toastie :)

TTFN x