A party, a cupcake and some Netflix

Wednesday was my neighbours birthday. She works in the office above mine. She came in with a cupcake. I saved mine for Scarlett. She demolished it in the car on the journey home. She did day 13 of her book advent. She got the book “We are going on a bear hunt”.

Thursday I watched the Riverdale season finale during lunch. No idea when season 3 is coming. Can’t believe season 2 is done already. Feels so quick! Scarlett did her book advent for Day 14. She got the book “All Aboard”.

Friday was long at work. It had been a long week. It was Christmas jumper day at the Nursery so I sent Scarlett in with her new reindeer jumper. We were going to a party in the evening so when we got home I tried to get her to nap. She wasn’t keen lol I bathed her and got her dressed at 6. I sent her downstairs so I could straighten my hair and do my make up. I was ready to go. We took a few pics before we left.

Party was good. Scarlett made an automatic beeline for the buffet table. I mean, of course she did, it’s food. She ran around lots. Made a little friend and danced a lot. I danced with her. Towards the evening she was getting tired. I picked her up and she laid in my arms like she was a baby. I swayed with her and she just laid there looking at me. She didn’t try to move or get put down. It was lovely tbh. We left at 10:30 and she got straight into pyjamas at home and into bed. I think I was asleep by 11. I felt shattered. It’s hard work to work all day then go out. Even though we weren’t “that late”, it’s still long!

It was the twins birthday. They were 5 today!!!

Saturday I wasn’t woken up till almost 9. What a fab lay in. Scarlett had her morning milk then we watched some tv. We read her new books. She curled up because she was still tired. My mom got breakfast at 10:30. We ate then I put Scarlett down for a nap. Whilst she slept I ignored my feelings of wanting to nap and I hoovered the front room. In preparation for the Christmas tree being put up. I then finished wrapping presents.

Scarlett woke up when my mom got back from town. They retrieved the tree from the loft. It was up and Scarlett “helped” us decorate it. I added her personalised bits from last year and this year too.

I need to get my haircut so at 3ish my mom took Scarlett to my nan’s for a bit. My nan was out all day visiting my uncle so she’d asked us to let the dog out. I got the bus to town. I picked up my special people Christmas cards and some tidbits to wrap. Then I went to the salon. They were closing in 40m and said they didn’t have time to do what I wanted so I’ll have to go back tomorrow!

I got home at 5ish. I cooked me and Scarlett some dinner then at 6 I took her up for a bath. Also to let the others eat their dinner in peace. She opened her book advent for Days 15 and 16. Day 15 was Cinderella. Day 16 was Some Dogs Do. She had her bottle then went to bed at 7. She was flat out asleep within 15 minutes.

I did some more wrapping whilst my mom dropped my brother at work then we sat down and watched a 4 part series called Bancroft. It was very good. Kept you guessing till the end. Although we did figure out some of it.

I’ve just climbed into bed. I need to go to sleep as Scarlett will wake about 7-7:30 tomorrow.

TTFN x

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Thank god I am single!

Yesterday was hectic. We got so close to loading Air at work but hit a brick wall, again. It’s so frustrating. I’ve done my part and filled out my import spreadsheets but someone somewhere else hasn’t done their part so it cannot be loaded yet.

Brett FaceTimed Scarlett at 6ish and then I bathed her then put her to bed. I watched some TV and ate my dinner. I messaged him at half 8 to see if he was ok. He’d had a shit day at work, he’d told me in the day. He said no he wasn’t so I asked what’s up? He said don’t worry about it I cba. Meaning it was a long story and he didn’t wanna get in to it. So I called him to say a proper Hey and he was really rude to me. He was like what do you want? He hung up when I was mid sentence. So I messaged him to say he didn’t need to hang up, I’d talk to him tomorrow as he’s clearly busyand he can explain why his day was shit. If he wanted. He went off on one. Started saying I was being difficult and I should just leave him alone when he’s got the hump. And just being absolutely ridiculous. I just sat there reading what he was saying I just felt so drained. Relationships aren’t perfect, I get that. Everyone disagrees. No one agrees with everything. But we are just so up and down, constantly. No matter how much he tells me arguing is normal, it’s not. It drains me. And I just sat there and I realised I didn’t want this anymore. It wasn’t worth the fighting. So I blocked communication and went to bed.

Today I woke up and it took me a while to remember what had occurred. And do you know what, I found myself not caring. I just got up and did the same things I do everyday. Nothing had significantly changed except inside my head. I felt relieved. I didn’t feel drained or boggled. I just felt “okay”. I had taken my ring off the night before. I glanced at it on the side and reminded myself to put it somewhere better than my bedside table. He may ask for it back if he ever tries to chase me. I don’t want him to. I don’t expect him to. But he does know where I am and he may turn up on my doorstep.

I went to work and I had a stressful mid-morning with air. Banged my head against the wall a lot. Afternoon was a laugh though. I helped my manager sort out Secret Santa. I sort of know the person I matched with so that’s good.

After work we headed to the social club for my cousin’s birthday. She is 4 today so her mom has thrown a party. There was a bouncy castle and lots of soft play toys. Scarlett dived straight into the buffet and spent 20 minutes walking around eating a biscuit watching everyone playing. She did a disgusting stinky poo and I had no wipes (I’d come from work) and I reasoned changing her now was a waste of happy as she was soon going home for a bath. So we braved the stench and drove home at 10 to 6. She got straight in the bath. I got in with her. She’s getting better at playing in the bath water whilst I wash my hair under the shower. Once we were both clean we got out. Went downstairs for a cup of tea. She helped my mom eat her dinner (Scarlett had already had her dinner at Nursery). Usually she goes to bed at 7 as she’s shattered but she was happy and playing nicely so I let her stay up. My mom’s friend was here so she was entertaining her. I put her to bed at 8:30. She’s so funny that kid!

My mom, my brother’s girlfriend and me watched Jack Reacher 2 whilst I ate my dinner. Now I’m in bed. Tomorrow I’m going to blitz my room for Christmas. As well as Scarlett’s. I’m living in a mess and it’s doing me no good seeing it every day!

I’m reading again so I’m going to read a bit then go to bed. I’m reading Shadow Demons (Peachville High Demons #4).

TTFN x

20 months today

My girl is 20 months old today. Whilst we were away she celebrated her 1 year of Nursery. She speaks much more each day. Her favourite thing at the moment is her “fake sneeze”. She also laughs her head off when you do a real sneeze. Her hair has grown so we’ve been putting it in pigtails since we got back from Italy. She has been really good with not taking it out. 

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She has about 13/14 teeth, with her back ones giving her major pain at the moment, turning her into a grumpy. She has almost finished her swimming lessons. She quite enjoys them so I think I will definitely booking her in for level 2 in the spring.

She is such a happy girl but so stubborn and cheeky. I love that her morning routine consists of “Hiya mama”, when I go in to scoop her up out of her cot.

She still loves her “baby” [her doll] and has started carrying it so gently, rubbing its head and putting her hand under its bum, patting its back. It is adorable. Maybe she will make a good big sister once day. Maybe.

TTFN x

Bad neck

Well I finished watching season 1 of The Returned on Netflix. It’s really good. It’s kept me interested to the point of wanting another season lol

I’ve hurt my back. Well my shoulders. And neck. My neck was killing me for 2 days. I must’ve slept funny. Today was much better. But still got a bit of a dull ache so hasn’t fully gone yet.

I follow a lot of “random” people on instagram. Some of them are just other bloggers or “parent friends” and some are “celebrities”. I seem to follow quite a lot of pregnant women. And one I’ve been following has been making me cringe slightly. She’s pregnant with her first. She’s only about 20 weeks. She has been letting the baby “listen” to this “baby genius” app thing. Now I know there’s research into this sort of thing and people do believe it helps their intelligence and do actively let them listen. But personally I find it very weird and also babies will be either be intelligent or not, regardless of doing that. It’s just one of them things. And watching her videos of her with her iPad next to her bump (which btw isn’t a bump coz she is so skinny and I actually look 7 months pregnant myself and I’m not) and it just made me cringe with embarrassment. I’m not judging her btw. Each to their own. And there’s legit nout wrong with doing it. I just can’t even lol

But also a lot of the pregnant first timers on my feed just sound so naive. We were all like that. I know. I look back at myself and there was certain things I purchased I didn’t need and things I said etc. And I cringe at that now. Because I know better now I’m on this side of it. I am a parent. I’ve lived some of the parenting life. I bought some mad shit coz people told me to and I never used it. It got sold on lol so if I’m lucky enough (and actually want) to have more children, I think I know what I will and won’t do/say/buy.

A “seasoned” mom friend of my mine helped me when I was pregnant. She told me a lot of things to avoid etc and it’s down to her that I didn’t waste even more money etc. But I tried to impart the same wisdom on a pregnant girl at work and she got very defensive and told me to mind my business. Which is fair enough I guess. But did make me chuckle because I was trying to do her a favour and she will realise this in 6 months time. But oh well. Good luck to her.

Finally read another book. I finished reading In The Wind (Out of the Box #2). I love that series. I think I already purchased a few of them on Amazon kindle.

Going out for dinner tomorrow with my mom and some of her old work pals. They haven’t met Scarlett yet so should be a good catch up.

TTFN x

11 days to go

Friday I had originally said to mom that I fancied going cinema as she was home so it was no hardship for her to babysit. But I changed my mind. I stayed in. We waited for her boyfriend to come over then we ordered a sneaky Chinese. I then went up to bed to carry on watching Salem. I have just started watching it and I am engrossed. It is a Netflix show so been streaming it downstairs on TiVo. But also on my iPad.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 6ish. Put her back down. She wasn’t having any of it so we got up. Went downstairs. Let her play in the lounge whilst I attempted to doze. Every time I tried she kept coming over to show me her “baby” lol we had breakfast then she went for a nap. I woke her up at 11 as she had a swimming lesson finally. They had been cancelled for 2 weeks in a row due to a fault with the swimming pool so we’d not been in ages. She loves her lessons. She is getting more confident every time. When we were finished Mom dropped us in town. By then it was lunch so we had a cheeky McDonald’s. I just had a chicken burger. Scarlett had a cheese burger.

After lunch we took a stroll to the hairdressers as I needed my hair cut. She was really good behaved considering she had to sit in the stroller whilst they washed, cut and blow dried my hair. She whinged towards the end but that was due to her being tired and needing a nap. We hit the shops before we headed to my Nan’s. My mom, me and her boyfriend decided we wanted to go cinema so we asked my Nan if she minded babysitting. She said she would. So mom headed home to grab some bits. We had dinner at my nan’s then I bathed Scarlett in my Nan’s kitchen sink then I got her ready for bed. Nan said she’d give her a bottle and then put her to sleep in the stroller. Which she did.

We went off to the cinema at 8ish. We popped into Morrison’s first then headed to the movies. It was really busy. We all got a slushie then sat down in our seats. The movie was really good. Having studied History for 5 years at school I am really disappointed that we were never taught about Dunkirk. I know that if we had been I would’ve at least remembered the name of it. There is so much we aren’t taught in class and I feel like I barely know any of our history.

We Drove to my Nan’s and picked Scarlett up. Couldn’t transfer her from stroller to car seat without waking her so I didn’t other trying too much. She had a few extra ounces of milk in her cot at home then she was back to sleep. She is such a good little human, bless her.

Sunday she woke me up at 6am. Again! We were going out at 11ish so I gave her a bottle when she first woke then some breakfast at half 8. She went down for a nap at 9 and then I woke her at 10:45 so she could get dressed. We got picked up at 11 and off we went. We went to my aunt’s house. Her new house. Was hectic as with us there there was 5 adults and 6 kids. But we managed. Scarlett finally noticed there were 2 of the same kid. She was sat next to Frankie and then Freddie came in. She looked from Fred to Frank and back again. Then at me. Her face was a picture. She couldn’t figure out why there was 2. So I told her one was Frankie, the other was Freddie. She still wasn’t convinced, I could see it in her face lolIMG_3295

I don’t think anyone understands what that pic (^) means to me. Seeing my child with them. They were in-utero when I was told I couldn’t have my own babies. And I felt jealous that my aunt could just pop babies out. And I vowed I wouldn’t babysit for anyone ever again because it hurt too much to be near kids at the time. But time moved on and they were born. They spent as much time at mine their first 2 years than they did at home. They were terrors but I loved them anyway. And then Scarlett came along. My little dream. My miracle. MY terror. And to see her with them today. Her following them. Copying them. Yabbering away to them. Well, it made my heart swell… This is exactly what I had always dreamed of. My child with my aunt’s children, growing up as besties. Sometimes dream DO come true!

We got home at 5:30pm. We finished watched Hotel Transylvania. She had some supper [crisps, a gingerbread man and a yoghurt] then she had a bath. She was trying out her new skills from swimming. I got her ready for bed. We had a nice long cuddle on the sofa before I got up and made her bottle. She was in bed fast asleep by 7:30pm. When I put her down I got in the shower myself. Then I went downstairs just as mom got home. I hoovered whilst she made me some supper then we watched Poldark. When it was done I climbed into bed. I am in bed now. Work tomorrow.

11 days to go tomorrow until we go to Italy. It is getting very exciting!!!!!!!!!

TTFN x

Happy 18 Months Baby

So today my tiny terror is 18 months old. She has 13 teeth [when I am allowed a quick peek]. She says Hiya to everyone she sees. She says it to me when I wake her for nursery, when I see her after work. Every time we see each other. I love it. She is currently obsessed with her baby doll. I told her that she won’t be getting a sibling any time soon. If she is lucky to actually have any siblings. There is no guarantee I can have any other babies. But that is a story for another time. I just count my blessing every day for this little miracle of mine. She is so smart and brave and cheeky. She makes me smile even when she has made me tear my hair out in frustration. She wraps her arms around my neck for a cuddle and says Mama in my ear. What I would do for her squishy cuddles forever.

 

 

 

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Just born – January 2016

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6 months – July 2016

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26 weeks – July 2016

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12 months – January 2017

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18 months today – July 2017

TTFN x

 

 

Monday, again. What!

Thursday:

My Bridea gift box came. Inside was some random as hell items. Personalised sunglasses. A hand fan. Some sweets. Some other things and many leaflets. I think the idea is to look at all the options for what is available for when you marry. From flowers to decorations. What I really wanted from the box was the wedding planner.

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I left a book next to Scarlett’s cot to see if she would pick it up and look at it. As she sometimes has this half hour “faff about” after I put her to bed. She did pick it up and she played with it for a bit then she went to bed.

Friday:

We were allowed to leave our office at 4:30 so mom picked me up then we picked Scarlett up after. She looked confused that I was there. I seldom pick her up as usually Mom does, then picks me up. We went home and did the usual routine. Mom went off to work at 7:30 and I settled in for the night.

Saturday:

Swimming was cancelled. Second week in a row. The pool still has issues apparently. Scarlett woke me up at 5am. Again. Starting to drain on my soul now lol we had breakfast then I put her down for a nap. I had every intention to grab a shower whilst she was asleep but apparently my body had other ideas. I fell asleep on my bed lol

We went out at lunch time. It had been raining nonstop since the night before and everywhere was soaking wet. We went to my Nan’s for lunch. Scarlett played and ran and jumped. Not bad for being stuck indoors lol Mom came round later, as she had slept all day because she been at work. They had dinner and then we went to Morrison’s on our way home as I needed stuff for work. Ended up spending £40 on clothes for the kid lol #momlife

She threw a little tantrum when we got home as she didn’t want to walk from the car to the house. But I had my hands full of shopping lol so she laid herself down on the concrete, ever so gently, and then whinged! #dramaqueen

I had a shower when she was in bed and just had a chilled evening with some tele – the usual.

Sunday:

We were going up the old folks home to visit my gran so we were up, fed and dressed by 10am. I decided to take some distractions so she wouldn’t wreck the place. So we took her baby doll and toy pram. As well as her ball and a book. She was all over the baby doll all day. It was really cute. I put her down for a nap before dinner as she was grotty but she wouldn’t go down so she didn’t sleep until gone 3pm. We went home at 6ish. She was in the bath and in bed asleep by 7:30pm. I did some washing up then I watched some TV. I climbed into bed at 11ish.

Monday [today]:

Scarlett didn’t wake up at 5am this morning. First morning in a fortnight. Well, if she did wake I didn’t hear her haha I woke up at 7 and I got dressed then woke her up at 7:15. She had her bottle and my Nan turned up at 7:30 whilst I was making my lunch. Mom turned up at 7:45. I got to work for 8:10am. Not good. I hate being late but mom was late leaving work so I was late getting to work. It’s a knock-on affect. Never mind, no one died due to it.

TTFN x