Sunday blues

Thursday 8th:

So we voted. Both myself and mom voted the same. Not because we copied. That’s silly. And totally not how thing should be. We voted the same because we believed in the same things. Not that it did us much good because the election ended with a hung parliament. It’s not all bad. But it’s not good either because we didn’t get enough seats for our party so god knows what happens next. A coalition perhaps?

My little brother was 14 today. 14! Where has that gone? I remember when he was a baby. I use to pick him up for a cuddle and play silly games with him. Now he’s 2 years into teenage-hood. What!?

Friday 9th:

I had a long day at work. I felt so tired. I usually get to Thursday/Friday and feel exhausted. It’s this energy-free life. It’s just not compatible with my brain lol but nonetheless I gave up energy drinks about 6 weeks ago and I haven’t died, yet, so I can’t quit now lol

I decided I didn’t want to spend another Friday at home doing nothing so I bathed Scarlett, got her into her pyjamas and slippers then we headed to my nan’s house. She usually entertains on a Friday as her brother and his other half always come over for a cuppa tea and a chat. We ended up getting home for 9:30 and Scarlett went to bed at 10pm, 3 hours past her bedtime. She did really well. She only started to complain when it got to 9ish and she was REALLY tired!

She wasn’t feeling very well in the night. She woke up with a fever (teething I think) so I had to give her calpol, teething gel and a bottle. She was up from 3am until almost 6am. She eventually settled.

Saturday 10th:

She woke up at 8ish but didn’t stir fully and ended up going back to sleep. So did I. And eventually we surfaced at 10:30am. I don’t think she was right as rain yet because she got up and had breakfast then she cried to go back to bed so I gave her more calpol and put her back down at 12. She slept until 3pm. When she woke up she seemed much happier. We went out for dinner with my mom at 4:30 then did a quick food shop before heading home as mom had work. Scarlett was in bed by 7:30. Didn’t hear much from her except some coughing. Bless her!!!

Sunday (today):

She woke up at 8ish. She had a bottle then a bit later she had some breakfast with a cup of tea. She couldn’t get any more like my family if she tried lol I put her back down for a nap about 10ish. She slept until almost 12. Then we headed to my nan’s. I let her walk. No stroller! She did really well considering the distance and her short legs. Originally we weren’t going for dinner. But we ended up having dinner, pudding and after her playing in and out the garden all day, we went home at 6ish. She had a bath then she watched teletubbies. Then I made her a bottle at 7 and down she went. I heard her cough a bit but she’s alright.

I have been binge watching NCIS lately. I love it. I’m officially following season 7 (having seen the previous seasons in sequential order) but I dipped into season 9 tonight, the finale, after catching 2 episodes previous to it that were good.

I’m also reading. I’m still reading Limitless but I’m 70-something percent done so yay!

Work tomorrow. I bet the week drags balls. And I bet the weather outside our office window all week is blue skies and sunshine lol

TTFN x

Almost late

Sunday 28th:

We took Scarlett up to visit my gran in the old folks home. Scarlett got hold of some playing cards and found it highly amusing to hand random ones to everyone, then take it back, then hand it over again. Kept her amused the entire time we were there.

After we left we headed towards Morrison’s as she desperately needed her Soya Milk. She only had 1 carton left and she needed 1 for nursery, 1 for my nan’s and atleast 1/2 for home. So I grabbed some. Then we went to my nan’s as she was cooking dinner. Scarlett went down for a nap as she was tired and I knew dinner wasn’t going to be ready for at least an hour. She slept for 90 minutes, woke up just as we had finished eating. So she had her dinner in the highchair then she was let loose. We left for home. She had a snack, a bath and then watched some teletubbies before her bottle then bed.

Monday 29th:

Bank holiday Monday. Typically it was very wet outside so again we couldn’t do much. Scarlett had me up at 3am until about 4:30am. Then again at 6am. Finally we got up at 8:30 for the day. As I had given her a bottle at 4am, I just gave her proper breakfast at 8:30. She watched some teletubbies. We read a book. Played with her wooden music bits. Played sleeping lions. Just acted silly. Then I took her up for a nap at 10ish. She woke up at 12 when my dad turned up. I made him a cup of tea then we left to grab lunch. We were going to try out the new place that opened opposite Morrison’s but turns out it isn’t open, yet. Opens tomorrow. So we ended up at the Harvester. They were jam packed so we ended up waiting for our mains for so long. Scarlett did really well considering waiting isn’t exactly a toddler’s best skill. He dropped us home at 2:45 and sped off to his appointment. Mom was watching something on tele. afterwards we went to Morrison’s so I could attempt to get Scarlett’s passport photo done. It was the single most stressful 10 minutes of my life and they best be accepted by the passport people because I refuse to attempt that again! Scarlett was tired as she hadn’t had a chance to have an afternoon siesta but I managed to keep her up. She had her dinner at 5:30, bath at 6:15 and was in bed settled by 7. I watched Emmerdale then I watched 12 monkey’s. I have just started season 2. Season 1 was weird but interesting enough to warrant attempting the second season. I cleared away stuff, got our bags ready for the morning and climbed into bed at 10. I read a bit of my new book and was asleep by 10:30pm [according to my FitBit].

Tuesday 30th:

My stepmom’s birthday today. She is 42. 2 years ago she had a party for her 40th and I revealed I was pregnant there and then. My dad found it amusing that she was going to be a granny at 40.

Back to work today. Almost didn’t make it in on time. I was suppose to have been woken up by my alarm at 6:40am but I didn’t rise from the dead until 7:10 when my mom got in from work and enquired where I was? I managed to dress myself, brush my teeth and dress Scarlett [waking her beforehand] in the space of 8 minutes. Then I grabbed my lunch and off we went. We dropped her off at my Nan’s, swung by McDonald’s for a breakfast wrap then drove to my work. I got in the office for 7:55am. I start at 8!

I forgot to say the other day that I ordered a bunch of stuff for H&M for Scarlett. For our holiday. I got her a handful of dresses, some shorts and 2 pairs of shoes. I got her a pair of navy blue sandals and a pair of water/beach shoes. Very excited about those as I am hoping she will use them on all 3 of our holidays this year.

I also forgot to say mom and I have booked a week away Glamping in September. We are going to Notgrove in Gloucestershire. Just me, her and Scarlett. Should be fun.

On lunch now, watching Lucifer on Amazon Video.

TTFN x

Friday feeling

Monday 3rd:

We did Scarlett’s official “I can walk” sticker. She has done so well with it recently and her walking outside settled it for me. Mom and I had a girl night and we watched Broadchurch together as it was her only night off all week.

Tuesday 4th:

Scarlett was constipated. I hadn’t noticed as her nappies had been fine but the nursery said the day before that she was so my nan was sent out to get some pure OJ for her. Apparently she didn’t like it lol she kept pulling a funny face!

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Look at her cheeky face. She knows she isn’t meant to be climbing!

Wednesday 5th:

We had our monthly 1-to-1 meetings at work today. I decided to take Scarlett to Italy. I had always planned to go in 2015 but I decided to leave it as I found out I was pregnant and needed to be sensible with my money. But now Scarlett is a toddler and I am working, I can afford [just about] to take her away. So I have booked our flights there and back. I have reserved rooms in the hotels. The plan is to fly to Verona and stay there for 2 days then get a train to Venice. Stay in Venice for a night then fly down to Rome and stay in Rome for 3 days. We can get a train to Naples from Rome, for the day. I am really excited. I will get Scarlett a passport at the end of this month. I have already renewed mine, in 2015. How exciting! I have a list for each city of thing to do/see. Hopefully we will manage 3 thing at least but ideally I wanna do/see 5 things in each place.

Thursday 6th:

I got up earlier and cooked sausages for breakfast for me and mom. I accidentally defrosted too many sausages so we kept them for dinner. We ate our breakfast then she dropped me

Mom worked Tuesday, Wednesday night and tonight. So we had dinner then she left for work. I have been Netflixing this show called 13 reasons why. It is very impressive. It is about a young girl who kills herself during high school but leaves behind a series of tapes that each side is dedicated to one person who did or said something to her that led up to her committing suicide. Only the people on the tapes can listen, they have to follow a series of rules and there is this guy who is around watching them all. He keeps them in time. Each person who is on one of the tapes listens to all 13 tapes by themselves then they get passed on to another person. The series is narrated partially by the dead girl but also the person who currently has the tapes, Clay [he had a crush on her]. He doesn’t understand why he would be a candidate on the tapes and doesn’t really want to find out because he didn’t think he had ever hurt her in any way. It is really easy to relate to in regards to the BS of school days. Everyone had their clicks, even in our British schools we still have the same kind of set up as American High Schools. I cannot wait to find out more.

Friday 7th [today]:

Today is Friday. Yay! Brett and me have had a falling out. It is over something stupid but now it has escalated. I never know what it is he expects from me. He knows I don’t show my feelings the same way as he does, yet he still expects me to. Which is unfair. That isn’t me, and he is meant to love me for who I am, yet expects me to change myself? He is meant to be coming down tonight but I just don’t know how it is going to go. He seems so defeated about us. I guess I just don’t measure up to his expectations of a girlfriend?

Going on lunch soon. Think my little team is off down the pub so I will join as we don’t go out much as a team.

TTFN x

The last day

Saturday 25th:

I took Scarlett into town for lunch. We had a little mother-daughter date at Poppins cafe. Then we had a wander around the town. I let her “walk” a little inside the shopping centre. She quite enjoyed herself.

After town we met my mom and went food shopping. We took it home and packed it away then went round my nan’s house. I don’t see her much in the week as I’m working. I see her for a minute when we drop Scarlett to her in the morning and that’s it.

Sunday 26th (Mother’s Day):

I took my nan, mom and Scarlett out for dinner for Mother’s Day. My grandad was coming initially but he was still in hospital so he couldn’t make it. He was fine. Just being kept in until they could get hold of his kidney specialist who apparently was busy lol we had a nice meal the 4 of us then we went to my nan’s for a cuppa tea before heading home. It was a good day. I ended up with 2 cards “from” Scarlett. That was nice. They’ll go in her memory box.

Monday 27th:

Payday! I hate Mondays though. Scarlett must’ve hated it too as she screamed for 45 minutes at bed time. It was hard to take as she’s never like that. Was a shock to my system lol

My grandad came home. Finally. They released him but he left his meds up there so my mom said she’d run him up the next day to pick them up. What is he like? Lol

Tuesday 28th:

For the first time in the 6 months I’ve been back at work I missed Scarlett so much that I needed to see her. Like desperately. So I had my mom meet me for lunch and bring her with her. It soothed my unsettled soul. If only temporarily.

Wednesday 29th:

I had an epic day! I fell out with a coworker and was treated like a 5 year old by another. #winning

I finally got my Mother’s Day gift from Scarlett (aka my mom and Brett). My mom picked it. Scarlett broke my necklace last month. It was the one I got for my first Mother’s Day last year. Mom said she’d replace it. She did. But with the same necklace that “Scarlett” got me for Christmas, only 3 months ago lol so we’ve took it back and we’ll decide on something different haha 

Thursday 30th:

I bought a blackout curtain on Amazon on Tuesday and it arrived today so after work my mom put it up (longer arms than me). It should keep her from waking up too early when it’s light out and going to bed at a reasonable time when it’s light out. Here’s hoping lol

Friday 31st (today):

The end of March has come and it seems a little quick. Where has the time gone? I remember playing for my week of in April and it seemed so long away. Now it is 2-3 weeks!!! Mom took me and Scarlett home after I finished work. I bathed her and then she dropped us at my Nan’s as I was having dinner there. Scarlett had to join in too, even though she had already eaten dinner at nursery. #greedy We stayed for a cuppa tea and my Nan dropped us home at 9:30. Scarlett was in bed by 10pm. I am just binge watching Iron Fist. I quite like it and I hope there is a season 2.

TTFN x

Red Nose Day 2017

Monday 20th:

My brother came home to visit. He had missed us, but mostly Scarlett. Obvs! We caught her walking about on camera. She was just wandering back and forth the lounge.

Tuesday 21st:

Today it has been 15 years since my uncle Jay died. People lie. Time doesn’t heal shit. You just learn to accept they are gone. 15 years on and it still hits us like a tonne of bricks.

I had my rescheduled Doctor’s appointment today. I didn’t get in to work until 9:45 so I have to make that time up the rest of the week #annoying

Wednesday 22nd:

My brother had said he was going back home to his Dad’s today but he decided not to. It annoyed me a little because I had expected him not to be there when I got in from work. I had looked forward to having the house to myself once my mom had gone to work but I didn’t. I couldn’t wander round naked or whatever lol I have loved having that freedom.

Thursday 23rd:

My brother went home today. Work was long. Can’t wait for the weekend. My grandad got a call from his doctor this evening saying one of his blood test levels was abnormal so he needed to go up A&E. They’ve kept him in.

Friday 24th [today]:

Today is Red Nose Day. Scarlett wore her RND top I got her from TK Maxx ages ago. I tried to find something red to wear but don’t actually have anything red lol my nan was on her own so I asked her what she was doing for dinner. She said she wasn’t alone as her brother was coming over, like he usually does on Friday nights. So that was ok. I finished my book, finally lol Scarlett has been in a bed a while. I am catching up with Iron Fist. I am loving this show. It crosses over with Daredevil, which I have already watched 2 seasons of. Waiting on season 3.

TTFN x

Hump Day

Saturday 4th:

We spent the day with my grandparents as I hadn’t seen them much in the week. My throat was so sore I was struggling to swallow fluids so I phoned 111 and spoke to an out of hours doctor. Apparently they are so magical that they can diagnose problems over the phone. Problems that normal GPs require seeing you face-to-face for. Imagine that! So it is “viral” but to call my GP if I don’t feel better in the week. I took Scarlett to get measured for her first shoes at Clarks. I got her a pair of pre-walkers. She is a 3F. She was so funny standing in her shoes because she kept trying to flick them off lol

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Sunday 5th:

My nan was out for the day so me and Scarlett stayed home. I let her have a good nap then we wandered to town. Mostly because we needed fresh air but I had also planned to take her to soft play. We ate lunch then walked to the play thing. It was packed so I turned right back round and went home.

Monday 6th:

My eye swelled up over night. It had been itchy and sore the night before but usually a good nights sleep helps it calm down. Not this time. So I phoned in sick at work and made an emergency doctors appointment. It took me an hour to get through. Firstly it took about 15-20 attempts to get through then I was on the holding loop (with shitty music) for 10 minutes. It got to the point where it says how many people were in front of me and there was only 2 then it cut me off. So I had to do it all again and it took 30 attempts to get through and I was on hold for another 15 minutes. When I finally did get through and explained my issue, they told me I would get a phone call back. I explained that I had already had a telephone appointment with 111 and that the issue needs to be “seen”. The receptionist was rather rude and said that it was procedure. Weird because that has never happened to me before so I guess it must be a really new procedure! So the doc called and said she didn’t understand why they didn’t make me a proper appointment and she made me one there and then. I went back to bed for a couple of hours and then walked to my appointment. Saw the doc and she said it all looks viral but to come back in a week if nothing has gotten better, or if it gets worse.

Scarlett was at nursery a whole day so I figured I could grab something to eat at my nan’s before heading home. And she lives next to the surgery so I walked to hers for some lunch. Me and my mom picked her up later.

Tuesday 7th:

My eye was still really bad and it was swollen when I woke up at 5am. I woke up early because it was hurting and I had a bad headache. I called in sick again and just tried to keep my eye clean and lubricated. It helped because I felt much better later.

Wednesday 8th (today):

Well I went to work today. Had a back-to-work interview. Wasn’t necessary in my eyes because I was only off for 2 days but anyway. Also got moaned at about “using my phone too much”. Yeah, because I am the only person to touch my phone. Irony is that my phone didn’t even have signal most of the week before as I had run out of data and I turned my 4G off so I couldn’t go over my limit and get charged. So I wasn’t even connected to anything except texts or calls – which I get very few. But whatever.

After my meeting, we had another one that had been scheduled to my calendar whilst I was off. Turns out that someone somewhere has decided my team is to no longer work as part of the water department but to be merged with the main company’s maximo team. Where this leaves us, I have no clue. The guy we will be going to “come under” is based in Whiteley, an hour or so away. We had so many questions for the guy but he had no answers for us today. I am not sure how I feel about it. But as a non-driver I won’t be travelling to Whiteley every day. I struggle to get to our office for 8am now, no way can I make it to Whiteley for 8am.

Just in bed. So tired. It has been a long week and it is only Hump Day.

TTFN x

First full week

Wednesday (1st):

Scarlett had beef chilli for dinner and she loved it. She made a mahoosive mess though and it reminded me of why I didn’t do Baby Led Weaning lol

She had me up at 3am. She screamed for half hour. I tried everything. In the end I decided maybe she was hungry. 5oz bottle made and drained within’ a few minutes. She then went back to sleep. HUH! She never wakes for a bottle. Must be a growth spurt.

Thursday (2nd):

World Book Day. The nursery joined in but I couldn’t find the costume I wanted her to wear, in her size. Typically BWD is done at schools so everything was aged 4+. I was hoping to send her in as Harry Potter, well Hermione. But in the end she wore an outfit wit the Gruffalo on it instead. Good compromise lol

She had me up at 5am last night instead of 3am. Same thing happened. In the end I made her a 6oz bottle, drained it and went back to sleep. Lucky for her. I couldn’t go back to sleep so I laid in bed from about 5:45:am, turned my alarm off when it went off at 6:30am and then finally “got up” when mom popped her head in at 7am lol

Friday (3rd):

Running on low energy today. Thankfully I have my trusty 500ml monster drink in my drawer lol mom met me for lunch at 1pm. We went into town for food and a wander.

My brother is moving in with his dad and step-mom tomorrow so we went out for dinner after work to say Bye. He is only moving about an hour away but we’ve all lived together so long so we felt we needed to do this. So we did. We went to the Harvester he used to work at.

We had a good meal and Scarlett ate so much. After we finished we went home. On the drive home some absolute knobhead tried to undertake my moms car on the dual carriage way. She was in the right hand lane, there was a car in the left hand lane, slightly ahead of her. Some twat came speeding up behind her, crossed into the left lane and proceeded to try some James Bond type shit of squeezing in the tiny gap between my moms front bumper and the other cars back bumper. My mom had to hit her brakes whilst going 70mph (the speed limit, just FYI) and the dickhead weaved in front of her and sped off. I was furious. It is bad enough that he would’ve hit us but to hit Scarlett’s side, I was angry as fuck!

Not got much planned this weekend. A relaxing one. Hopefully.

TTFN x