11 days to go

Friday I had originally said to mom that I fancied going cinema as she was home so it was no hardship for her to babysit. But I changed my mind. I stayed in. We waited for her boyfriend to come over then we ordered a sneaky Chinese. I then went up to bed to carry on watching Salem. I have just started watching it and I am engrossed. It is a Netflix show so been streaming it downstairs on TiVo. But also on my iPad.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 6ish. Put her back down. She wasn’t having any of it so we got up. Went downstairs. Let her play in the lounge whilst I attempted to doze. Every time I tried she kept coming over to show me her “baby” lol we had breakfast then she went for a nap. I woke her up at 11 as she had a swimming lesson finally. They had been cancelled for 2 weeks in a row due to a fault with the swimming pool so we’d not been in ages. She loves her lessons. She is getting more confident every time. When we were finished Mom dropped us in town. By then it was lunch so we had a cheeky McDonald’s. I just had a chicken burger. Scarlett had a cheese burger.

After lunch we took a stroll to the hairdressers as I needed my hair cut. She was really good behaved considering she had to sit in the stroller whilst they washed, cut and blow dried my hair. She whinged towards the end but that was due to her being tired and needing a nap. We hit the shops before we headed to my Nan’s. My mom, me and her boyfriend decided we wanted to go cinema so we asked my Nan if she minded babysitting. She said she would. So mom headed home to grab some bits. We had dinner at my nan’s then I bathed Scarlett in my Nan’s kitchen sink then I got her ready for bed. Nan said she’d give her a bottle and then put her to sleep in the stroller. Which she did.

We went off to the cinema at 8ish. We popped into Morrison’s first then headed to the movies. It was really busy. We all got a slushie then sat down in our seats. The movie was really good. Having studied History for 5 years at school I am really disappointed that we were never taught about Dunkirk. I know that if we had been I would’ve at least remembered the name of it. There is so much we aren’t taught in class and I feel like I barely know any of our history.

We Drove to my Nan’s and picked Scarlett up. Couldn’t transfer her from stroller to car seat without waking her so I didn’t other trying too much. She had a few extra ounces of milk in her cot at home then she was back to sleep. She is such a good little human, bless her.

Sunday she woke me up at 6am. Again! We were going out at 11ish so I gave her a bottle when she first woke then some breakfast at half 8. She went down for a nap at 9 and then I woke her at 10:45 so she could get dressed. We got picked up at 11 and off we went. We went to my aunt’s house. Her new house. Was hectic as with us there there was 5 adults and 6 kids. But we managed. Scarlett finally noticed there were 2 of the same kid. She was sat next to Frankie and then Freddie came in. She looked from Fred to Frank and back again. Then at me. Her face was a picture. She couldn’t figure out why there was 2. So I told her one was Frankie, the other was Freddie. She still wasn’t convinced, I could see it in her face lolIMG_3295

I don’t think anyone understands what that pic (^) means to me. Seeing my child with them. They were in-utero when I was told I couldn’t have my own babies. And I felt jealous that my aunt could just pop babies out. And I vowed I wouldn’t babysit for anyone ever again because it hurt too much to be near kids at the time. But time moved on and they were born. They spent as much time at mine their first 2 years than they did at home. They were terrors but I loved them anyway. And then Scarlett came along. My little dream. My miracle. MY terror. And to see her with them today. Her following them. Copying them. Yabbering away to them. Well, it made my heart swell… This is exactly what I had always dreamed of. My child with my aunt’s children, growing up as besties. Sometimes dream DO come true!

We got home at 5:30pm. We finished watched Hotel Transylvania. She had some supper [crisps, a gingerbread man and a yoghurt] then she had a bath. She was trying out her new skills from swimming. I got her ready for bed. We had a nice long cuddle on the sofa before I got up and made her bottle. She was in bed fast asleep by 7:30pm. When I put her down I got in the shower myself. Then I went downstairs just as mom got home. I hoovered whilst she made me some supper then we watched Poldark. When it was done I climbed into bed. I am in bed now. Work tomorrow.

11 days to go tomorrow until we go to Italy. It is getting very exciting!!!!!!!!!

TTFN x

Happy 18 Months Baby

So today my tiny terror is 18 months old. She has 13 teeth [when I am allowed a quick peek]. She says Hiya to everyone she sees. She says it to me when I wake her for nursery, when I see her after work. Every time we see each other. I love it. She is currently obsessed with her baby doll. I told her that she won’t be getting a sibling any time soon. If she is lucky to actually have any siblings. There is no guarantee I can have any other babies. But that is a story for another time. I just count my blessing every day for this little miracle of mine. She is so smart and brave and cheeky. She makes me smile even when she has made me tear my hair out in frustration. She wraps her arms around my neck for a cuddle and says Mama in my ear. What I would do for her squishy cuddles forever.

 

 

 

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Just born – January 2016

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6 months – July 2016

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26 weeks – July 2016

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12 months – January 2017

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18 months today – July 2017

TTFN x

 

 

Monday, again. What!

Thursday:

My Bridea gift box came. Inside was some random as hell items. Personalised sunglasses. A hand fan. Some sweets. Some other things and many leaflets. I think the idea is to look at all the options for what is available for when you marry. From flowers to decorations. What I really wanted from the box was the wedding planner.

Bride box

I left a book next to Scarlett’s cot to see if she would pick it up and look at it. As she sometimes has this half hour “faff about” after I put her to bed. She did pick it up and she played with it for a bit then she went to bed.

Friday:

We were allowed to leave our office at 4:30 so mom picked me up then we picked Scarlett up after. She looked confused that I was there. I seldom pick her up as usually Mom does, then picks me up. We went home and did the usual routine. Mom went off to work at 7:30 and I settled in for the night.

Saturday:

Swimming was cancelled. Second week in a row. The pool still has issues apparently. Scarlett woke me up at 5am. Again. Starting to drain on my soul now lol we had breakfast then I put her down for a nap. I had every intention to grab a shower whilst she was asleep but apparently my body had other ideas. I fell asleep on my bed lol

We went out at lunch time. It had been raining nonstop since the night before and everywhere was soaking wet. We went to my Nan’s for lunch. Scarlett played and ran and jumped. Not bad for being stuck indoors lol Mom came round later, as she had slept all day because she been at work. They had dinner and then we went to Morrison’s on our way home as I needed stuff for work. Ended up spending £40 on clothes for the kid lol #momlife

She threw a little tantrum when we got home as she didn’t want to walk from the car to the house. But I had my hands full of shopping lol so she laid herself down on the concrete, ever so gently, and then whinged! #dramaqueen

I had a shower when she was in bed and just had a chilled evening with some tele – the usual.

Sunday:

We were going up the old folks home to visit my gran so we were up, fed and dressed by 10am. I decided to take some distractions so she wouldn’t wreck the place. So we took her baby doll and toy pram. As well as her ball and a book. She was all over the baby doll all day. It was really cute. I put her down for a nap before dinner as she was grotty but she wouldn’t go down so she didn’t sleep until gone 3pm. We went home at 6ish. She was in the bath and in bed asleep by 7:30pm. I did some washing up then I watched some TV. I climbed into bed at 11ish.

Monday [today]:

Scarlett didn’t wake up at 5am this morning. First morning in a fortnight. Well, if she did wake I didn’t hear her haha I woke up at 7 and I got dressed then woke her up at 7:15. She had her bottle and my Nan turned up at 7:30 whilst I was making my lunch. Mom turned up at 7:45. I got to work for 8:10am. Not good. I hate being late but mom was late leaving work so I was late getting to work. It’s a knock-on affect. Never mind, no one died due to it.

TTFN x

Celebratory BBQ

Thursday:

Scarlett was fine and didn’t seem to hold a grudge. She went to bed like usual.

Friday:

My manager let us leave early Friday so I was at my nan’s just after 4:30. It was a nice thing for a Friday. I got a last minute text from TurtleTots saying there was no swimming lesson Saturday due to a problem with the pool chlorination pump having an issue. So I agreed with Brett’s mom that we’d get an earlier train so we could have more time there.

Saturday:

We got up quite early and were on the train by 9am. His mom picked us up at 10:45 the other end and we went to Sainsbury’s for some groceries then after we’d dropped them back, and I made Scarlett some lunch, we set off to visit some of Brett’s family. We got a few engagement cards. So sweet. I wasn’t expecting that.

When we got back from visiting people Brett had finished work and was home. We decided not to go out (cinema). Scarlett went to bed quite late and then we watched tele with his family then we went into his room and watched a film. We watched The Mechanic. We had accidentally watched the sequel recently so we had both wanted to see the first one. So we did. I was shattered by the time it finished so we climbed into bed and I was flat out within half hour.

Sunday:

Scarlett woke me at 6am. She had only been asleep since 9:30pm (usually she’s down by 7pm) so I changed her nappy, made her a bottle and put her back down. She didn’t nod back off until 7:30 and I was behind her by about an hour. Then at 9:30 Brett woke me up trying to get frisky. Idiot! Then 10 minutes later told me to stop snoring haha I weren’t even asleep again. What a twat! She woke back up at 10:30 so I gave her breakfast then I got her dressed for the day. She played with her uncle Scott and followed him around like a lost puppy lol I put her down for a nap at 1:30 and fell asleep myself. We had a BBQ at 3ish to celebrate our engagement. It was nice. Scarlett wasn’t overly hungry so she just had a yoghurt and an ice lolly. She’s so funny. She was playing “basketball”. Meaning Scott was lifting her up to the basket and she was putting the ball in lol

Brett dropped his phone down the loo. It turns on and for the most part it does “work” but he’s got no sound and the microphone doesn’t appear to work if he calls you!!!

We got on the train home at 7ish and got off at 8:30. She didn’t go to bed until almost 10pm because it was 9 when we got home then we bathed together (well I showered whilst she was sat in the bath). She’s getting brave now. She usually hates the shower and cries. But this time she used a flannel to “wash” my feet and ankles whilst I was stood up washing my hair. Bless her.

I’m in bed now. Got work tomorrow. I’m quite tired. Travelling really does take it out of you!!!

TTFN x

Sunday blues

Thursday 8th:

So we voted. Both myself and mom voted the same. Not because we copied. That’s silly. And totally not how thing should be. We voted the same because we believed in the same things. Not that it did us much good because the election ended with a hung parliament. It’s not all bad. But it’s not good either because we didn’t get enough seats for our party so god knows what happens next. A coalition perhaps?

My little brother was 14 today. 14! Where has that gone? I remember when he was a baby. I use to pick him up for a cuddle and play silly games with him. Now he’s 2 years into teenage-hood. What!?

Friday 9th:

I had a long day at work. I felt so tired. I usually get to Thursday/Friday and feel exhausted. It’s this energy-free life. It’s just not compatible with my brain lol but nonetheless I gave up energy drinks about 6 weeks ago and I haven’t died, yet, so I can’t quit now lol

I decided I didn’t want to spend another Friday at home doing nothing so I bathed Scarlett, got her into her pyjamas and slippers then we headed to my nan’s house. She usually entertains on a Friday as her brother and his other half always come over for a cuppa tea and a chat. We ended up getting home for 9:30 and Scarlett went to bed at 10pm, 3 hours past her bedtime. She did really well. She only started to complain when it got to 9ish and she was REALLY tired!

She wasn’t feeling very well in the night. She woke up with a fever (teething I think) so I had to give her calpol, teething gel and a bottle. She was up from 3am until almost 6am. She eventually settled.

Saturday 10th:

She woke up at 8ish but didn’t stir fully and ended up going back to sleep. So did I. And eventually we surfaced at 10:30am. I don’t think she was right as rain yet because she got up and had breakfast then she cried to go back to bed so I gave her more calpol and put her back down at 12. She slept until 3pm. When she woke up she seemed much happier. We went out for dinner with my mom at 4:30 then did a quick food shop before heading home as mom had work. Scarlett was in bed by 7:30. Didn’t hear much from her except some coughing. Bless her!!!

Sunday (today):

She woke up at 8ish. She had a bottle then a bit later she had some breakfast with a cup of tea. She couldn’t get any more like my family if she tried lol I put her back down for a nap about 10ish. She slept until almost 12. Then we headed to my nan’s. I let her walk. No stroller! She did really well considering the distance and her short legs. Originally we weren’t going for dinner. But we ended up having dinner, pudding and after her playing in and out the garden all day, we went home at 6ish. She had a bath then she watched teletubbies. Then I made her a bottle at 7 and down she went. I heard her cough a bit but she’s alright.

I have been binge watching NCIS lately. I love it. I’m officially following season 7 (having seen the previous seasons in sequential order) but I dipped into season 9 tonight, the finale, after catching 2 episodes previous to it that were good.

I’m also reading. I’m still reading Limitless but I’m 70-something percent done so yay!

Work tomorrow. I bet the week drags balls. And I bet the weather outside our office window all week is blue skies and sunshine lol

TTFN x

Almost late

Sunday 28th:

We took Scarlett up to visit my gran in the old folks home. Scarlett got hold of some playing cards and found it highly amusing to hand random ones to everyone, then take it back, then hand it over again. Kept her amused the entire time we were there.

After we left we headed towards Morrison’s as she desperately needed her Soya Milk. She only had 1 carton left and she needed 1 for nursery, 1 for my nan’s and atleast 1/2 for home. So I grabbed some. Then we went to my nan’s as she was cooking dinner. Scarlett went down for a nap as she was tired and I knew dinner wasn’t going to be ready for at least an hour. She slept for 90 minutes, woke up just as we had finished eating. So she had her dinner in the highchair then she was let loose. We left for home. She had a snack, a bath and then watched some teletubbies before her bottle then bed.

Monday 29th:

Bank holiday Monday. Typically it was very wet outside so again we couldn’t do much. Scarlett had me up at 3am until about 4:30am. Then again at 6am. Finally we got up at 8:30 for the day. As I had given her a bottle at 4am, I just gave her proper breakfast at 8:30. She watched some teletubbies. We read a book. Played with her wooden music bits. Played sleeping lions. Just acted silly. Then I took her up for a nap at 10ish. She woke up at 12 when my dad turned up. I made him a cup of tea then we left to grab lunch. We were going to try out the new place that opened opposite Morrison’s but turns out it isn’t open, yet. Opens tomorrow. So we ended up at the Harvester. They were jam packed so we ended up waiting for our mains for so long. Scarlett did really well considering waiting isn’t exactly a toddler’s best skill. He dropped us home at 2:45 and sped off to his appointment. Mom was watching something on tele. afterwards we went to Morrison’s so I could attempt to get Scarlett’s passport photo done. It was the single most stressful 10 minutes of my life and they best be accepted by the passport people because I refuse to attempt that again! Scarlett was tired as she hadn’t had a chance to have an afternoon siesta but I managed to keep her up. She had her dinner at 5:30, bath at 6:15 and was in bed settled by 7. I watched Emmerdale then I watched 12 monkey’s. I have just started season 2. Season 1 was weird but interesting enough to warrant attempting the second season. I cleared away stuff, got our bags ready for the morning and climbed into bed at 10. I read a bit of my new book and was asleep by 10:30pm [according to my FitBit].

Tuesday 30th:

My stepmom’s birthday today. She is 42. 2 years ago she had a party for her 40th and I revealed I was pregnant there and then. My dad found it amusing that she was going to be a granny at 40.

Back to work today. Almost didn’t make it in on time. I was suppose to have been woken up by my alarm at 6:40am but I didn’t rise from the dead until 7:10 when my mom got in from work and enquired where I was? I managed to dress myself, brush my teeth and dress Scarlett [waking her beforehand] in the space of 8 minutes. Then I grabbed my lunch and off we went. We dropped her off at my Nan’s, swung by McDonald’s for a breakfast wrap then drove to my work. I got in the office for 7:55am. I start at 8!

I forgot to say the other day that I ordered a bunch of stuff for H&M for Scarlett. For our holiday. I got her a handful of dresses, some shorts and 2 pairs of shoes. I got her a pair of navy blue sandals and a pair of water/beach shoes. Very excited about those as I am hoping she will use them on all 3 of our holidays this year.

I also forgot to say mom and I have booked a week away Glamping in September. We are going to Notgrove in Gloucestershire. Just me, her and Scarlett. Should be fun.

On lunch now, watching Lucifer on Amazon Video.

TTFN x

Friday feeling

Monday 3rd:

We did Scarlett’s official “I can walk” sticker. She has done so well with it recently and her walking outside settled it for me. Mom and I had a girl night and we watched Broadchurch together as it was her only night off all week.

Tuesday 4th:

Scarlett was constipated. I hadn’t noticed as her nappies had been fine but the nursery said the day before that she was so my nan was sent out to get some pure OJ for her. Apparently she didn’t like it lol she kept pulling a funny face!

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Look at her cheeky face. She knows she isn’t meant to be climbing!

Wednesday 5th:

We had our monthly 1-to-1 meetings at work today. I decided to take Scarlett to Italy. I had always planned to go in 2015 but I decided to leave it as I found out I was pregnant and needed to be sensible with my money. But now Scarlett is a toddler and I am working, I can afford [just about] to take her away. So I have booked our flights there and back. I have reserved rooms in the hotels. The plan is to fly to Verona and stay there for 2 days then get a train to Venice. Stay in Venice for a night then fly down to Rome and stay in Rome for 3 days. We can get a train to Naples from Rome, for the day. I am really excited. I will get Scarlett a passport at the end of this month. I have already renewed mine, in 2015. How exciting! I have a list for each city of thing to do/see. Hopefully we will manage 3 thing at least but ideally I wanna do/see 5 things in each place.

Thursday 6th:

I got up earlier and cooked sausages for breakfast for me and mom. I accidentally defrosted too many sausages so we kept them for dinner. We ate our breakfast then she dropped me

Mom worked Tuesday, Wednesday night and tonight. So we had dinner then she left for work. I have been Netflixing this show called 13 reasons why. It is very impressive. It is about a young girl who kills herself during high school but leaves behind a series of tapes that each side is dedicated to one person who did or said something to her that led up to her committing suicide. Only the people on the tapes can listen, they have to follow a series of rules and there is this guy who is around watching them all. He keeps them in time. Each person who is on one of the tapes listens to all 13 tapes by themselves then they get passed on to another person. The series is narrated partially by the dead girl but also the person who currently has the tapes, Clay [he had a crush on her]. He doesn’t understand why he would be a candidate on the tapes and doesn’t really want to find out because he didn’t think he had ever hurt her in any way. It is really easy to relate to in regards to the BS of school days. Everyone had their clicks, even in our British schools we still have the same kind of set up as American High Schools. I cannot wait to find out more.

Friday 7th [today]:

Today is Friday. Yay! Brett and me have had a falling out. It is over something stupid but now it has escalated. I never know what it is he expects from me. He knows I don’t show my feelings the same way as he does, yet he still expects me to. Which is unfair. That isn’t me, and he is meant to love me for who I am, yet expects me to change myself? He is meant to be coming down tonight but I just don’t know how it is going to go. He seems so defeated about us. I guess I just don’t measure up to his expectations of a girlfriend?

Going on lunch soon. Think my little team is off down the pub so I will join as we don’t go out much as a team.

TTFN x