A mini rave for a 2 year old

Friday I emailed TurtleTots about swimming lessons as I planned. I am hoping to book her in for Saturday classes same as before. But I want her to have her lesson earlier in the morning. She never wanted to go when her lesson was 12 because she was either tired because she was due to nap, tired and cranky because we had woken her or she was hungry. Either way she was miserable until she actually got there and realised what we were doing.

When I got in from work I hoovered up [Scarlett pretended to hoover with her toy Henry Hoover] then I took her up for a bath. She went to bed at 8ish. We had dinner. We had KFC then I went upstairs.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 7am. She had lost her dummy. I gave her another one and she went back to sleep. She woke again at 8ish. I heard her singing. As she wasn’t calling for me or crying I left her for a bit. At 8:30 my mom popped her head in and said she was taking her downstairs for breakfast. So I laid in bed a little longer. We got dressed and headed out. I had to pop to town to buy a birthday card for the little boy whose party we were attending. I drew out some money [£10 for his card] and checked how much was in Scarlett’s account. My mom’s friend had put in money for her birthday and wanted me to confirm it had arrived there. It had.

After town we headed to Costco. I didn’t fancy going in as mom was only after some toilet rolls so we stayed in the car, me and Scarlett. We went to my Nan’s for lunch and I threw some make-up at my face – I’ve run out of foundation [which I only discovered when I went to put some on. Luckily I had a different “type” of coverage which worked]. At 2 my grandad dropped us at the party venue. It was like a mini rave. It was pitch black with loud music and disco/strobe lights. There was an indoors bouncy castle. But given how dark it was I didn’t fancy Scarlett hurting herself because some unsuspecting child has collided with her. Sitting up A&E on a Saturday is not fun. So I kept her away from it. But given how dark it was, she wasn’t keen on being there. A few times she wandered away from me chasing a balloon and almost got mowed down by a kid on a bike so she soon stood next to me. She stole a cake when we first got there. She is so funny, she made a beeline for the table of food. Typical Scarlett!!!

We left at 4pm, instead of 4:30pm. We walked across the road to the shop to get sweets and then we got picked up. We stopped at my Nan’s for dinner then we headed home. I got Scarlett in the bath then she went to bed at 8ish.

Sunday she woke up at 10am. How lazy! We had some breakfast together and watched Kung Fu Panda. At half 12 we got dressed and walked to my Nan’s as we were having Sunday roast there. We ate then she played. She followed Macey (my cousin) around. She loves playing with the big kids. We stayed until about 4:30. My aunt had turned up at 3:45. 45 minutes with her lots craziness was enough. Plus Scarlett had not napped all day so we needed to go and chill at home.

We had a cup of tea and we watched the movie Megamind. She actually did watch a lot of it. I took her up for a bath then she went to bed at 7:45.

I jumped into the bath at 9ish then I climbed into bed. I was eating giant buttons the night before and I must’ve dropped one. I was getting ready for bed after my bath and I noticed there was brown crap on my sheet. I genuinely thought it was shit. Then I remembered “I haven’t shit myself so..”. I smelt it (gross I know) and it was chocolate. Had zero clue where it came from. Then I remembered the buttons. But, I didn’t drop any. I ate the motherfuckers. Then I noticed I had chocolate on my foot and as I was searching for more I saw a squished button on the sole of my foot. How an earth I hadn’t felt it, I could not tell you. It was disgusting because visually my brain was yelling “SHIT. ITS SHIT. EWWW”. But my nose was like “mmm chocolate”. I wiped it all off and then sat there laughing to myself. What an idiot!

Today I woke up at 7:10. Basically running late. I got myself dressed the I woke her ladyship up and dressed her. I took her downstairs. She had toast and milk for breakfast. I made my lunch then my mom arrived so I left for work. All she did was chat chat chat in the car. Most of it was her moaning about stuff. Stuff I haven’t done. Stuff that’s my fault. The usual. I was so annoyed when she dropped me.

Work was slow. The office was cold. Heaters were on ALL DAY! We had a conference call at 11. Directors went through all the slides of some presentation thing. A lot of it wasn’t particularly interesting or relevant to me and my role. But some things peaked my interest. Mostly due to them being a tad incorrect. But hey ho.

At 4:50 I noticed my mom’s car outside so I went out to say Hi. I brought Scarlett in the office for the last 5 minutes. She sat on my desk whilst I finished some emails. I fully expect to be told off for having her there but I’ll be fuming if I am as I know for a fact there’s people in the office who’ve brought their child in to the office end of the day many times for various reasons. So 5 minutes wouldn’t hurt anyone.

After work we got home and the carpet in the lounge was soaked. Turns out the radiator has a hole in it and is pissing out water. Ideal! Mom phoned the housing people and they said a guy will come out within 4 hours. We put a bucket under the leak and turned the heating off. I was due to view a property at 5:45, in my road (view here). So at 5:40 we set off down the road with Scarlett. It’s a lovely 1st floor 2 bedroom maisonette. It has a garden, big lounge, decent sized rooms, good bathroom. It’s been newly redecorated and recarpeted. Lots of built in storage space with gas central heating too. I do like it but I’m keeping my options open so I’m viewing a maisonette in town tomorrow lunch. I like this one a lot. It’s very ideal due to its location. So we’ll see.

The guy came and looked at the leak. He was unable to fully remove the radiator due to the wooded fittings on the wall surrounding it. He said he’ll isolate the radiator so it’s no longer connected to the system so we can still use the heating for the other radiators. So we’ve turned it back on as Scarlett will freeze to death in her ice box room. He said someone will ring up about coming out to replace the radiator soon. They’ll probably need I rip off some of the wooden slats. Oh well, got to be done I guess. Our carpet is soaking wet. It squelches when you step on it. Lovely!!

Scarlett went to bed at 7:30. She settled at 8 whilst we were eating dinner. Mom got ready for work. I watched some TV then I came up to get into bed and watch some new NCIS. I turned it off at 11pm and now I’m just laid in bed thinking about all the stuff I will need when I move out. I can’t wait!

TTFN x

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A murder, a party and losing the will to live

Friday I went to work. I felt like absolute shit. I was manic all day. Trying to catch up. Trying to do stuff. I made a fair dent in my emails.

After work we went home. There had been an incident near to the party venue at 2pm and I wasn’t sure if the road would be open in time. There had been a fatal stabbing and the road was cordoned off.

Saturday we woke up at 7:30ish. Mom had worked the night so she grabbed breakfast on her way home. We ate when she got in. Scarlett ate loads. I was due to go to the venue for 11. I needed to go to town to get her cake. So I put her down for a nap then at 9:45 Grandad picked me up. The road was still shut. I had phoned the venue at half 8 and they reckoned I was still able to go ahead with the party. So I went to Asda to sort her cake. I settled on one of her Cake Smash pictures on it. I grabbed myself a new top to wear then we paid and left. I stopped by Home to grab what I needed then I went to my nan’s. She lives nearer to the venue than I do and I was due there at 11ish.

I walked over. I was perplexed. I couldn’t figure out how I was meant to get in when the front of the entire building/flats was cordoned off, including the road. I walked round behind and found the security guy (we had spoken on the phone). He let me in and said he’d lift the car park barriers so my guests could come in and out. And when we are finished later to call him and he’d come lock up the building.

The soft play guy arrived to set up at 11:15. My nan came with the food. I decorated and everyone blew up the balloons. I can’t because I’m allergic to latex. The guy finished setting up and left.

Just before the party was due to start I creeped into the toilet so I could slap some makeup on and change my top. Then I headed back out. I still felt like shit but the party was actually happening so I “put my big girl pants on”.

People arrived. People had a laugh. The kids played. They ate. It was good. I did some mingling. I met some of her Nursery friend’s parents. They’re all lovely. The kids too.

We did some presents from Brett’s brother because they’re big and they said it’ll be easier for them to take them straight back home in the car. Otherwise I’d have to drag it to their house on the train next time we visit. It was a crayola my first easel set. She’ll love it.

We did the cake at 2ish then everyone slowly parted ways. We gave them all their party bags and then when they’d all gone we tidied up. The soft play guy came at 2:50 and put everything away. I paid the remaining fee. I called security to inform them that we were leaving then we left.

We stopped at my nans house for a cup of tea then we headed home. Scarlett had eaten a lot so she just had some chips with Brett. I had a chicken curry. She had her bath then she went to bed.

We both felt knackered so we climbed into bed at like 9:30. We were going to watch a film but instead we just laid in bed chatting. We went to bed quite early, must’ve been midnight.

Sunday Brett looked at trains and they were rail replacement so he said he’d go home the next day. Worked for me. Scarlett got up at 8. We had breakfast at 10 then I put Scarlett up for a nap. We woke her at 12:30 so we could go out for dinner. We went to the Beefeater in town. I had garlic flatbread for starter then a buttermilk fried chicken burger with chips for a main. Scarlett had chicken bites, chips and peas. She ate a little but she wasn’t overly hungry. She helped my mom eat her dinner though lol

We left the restaurant a 3:15 and headed to my Nan’s. We had a cup of tea then headed home at 5ish. Scarlett had a yoghurt then went up for a bath at 6:30. We got her into bed at 8pm. We wanted to watch a film. Brett said Django so I found Django Unchained on Netflix. We watched it. I made him some supper. I ate my leftover rice from the night before.

The film finished quite late. I needed a shower as I had Work the next day. So we jumped in the shower then got into bed.

My neck has been really painful. Neck. Not throat. My throat is tolerable. My neck hurts if I turn too far either way. If I tilt my head. If I swallow or cough. It’s ridiculous. I cried. In bed. In front of Brett. I hate crying but I hate crying with an audience even more!! He cuddles me and said I’d be ok. It helped. We went to sleep.

Today I woke up and I just felt like utter shit. I was sick in bathroom. My head was pounding. My neck was killing me. I called in dead sick then booked a doctors appointment. They gave me a triage call first then an appointment for 11:40. I watched more Hemlock Grove then I climbed into bed with Brett. He woke up and said he was going to head home. So he left at half 10. At 11:20 I set off for the Doctors. I saw the same doctor as last week and she couldn’t get me out of there quick enough. Apparently my neck pain is muscular and will go away on it’s own. Basically put up and shut up!

After the doctors I walked to my nans house. I had some lunch at 12:30 then at 3pm mom came round. We went to Morrison’s to grab some food for Work then we went and picked up Scarlett. She had a good day. She ate and slept well apparently.

We went home and did some colouring. We played with her baby dolls. I took her up for a bath. She won’t get undressed. Turns out she needed a poo. When she was finished I stripped her off and she had a bath. She had her bottle and I took her up to bed at 7:30 but she didn’t settle. Mom went up once to sort her out. She’d taken her trousers off. I went up the second time and brought her downstairs. We turnedthe lights off and just had the tv on, down low.

I took her back up to bed at 9:30 as she seemed more ready for bed. I think she was missing me because she sat with me, cuddling and kissing my face. Rubbing my arm. Playing with my hair. So I can’t be mad at that!

I watched Vera at 10pm. It’s almost 2 hours long so it’s only just finished. I’m headed to bed now.

TTFN x

Thank god I am single!

Yesterday was hectic. We got so close to loading Air at work but hit a brick wall, again. It’s so frustrating. I’ve done my part and filled out my import spreadsheets but someone somewhere else hasn’t done their part so it cannot be loaded yet.

Brett FaceTimed Scarlett at 6ish and then I bathed her then put her to bed. I watched some TV and ate my dinner. I messaged him at half 8 to see if he was ok. He’d had a shit day at work, he’d told me in the day. He said no he wasn’t so I asked what’s up? He said don’t worry about it I cba. Meaning it was a long story and he didn’t wanna get in to it. So I called him to say a proper Hey and he was really rude to me. He was like what do you want? He hung up when I was mid sentence. So I messaged him to say he didn’t need to hang up, I’d talk to him tomorrow as he’s clearly busyand he can explain why his day was shit. If he wanted. He went off on one. Started saying I was being difficult and I should just leave him alone when he’s got the hump. And just being absolutely ridiculous. I just sat there reading what he was saying I just felt so drained. Relationships aren’t perfect, I get that. Everyone disagrees. No one agrees with everything. But we are just so up and down, constantly. No matter how much he tells me arguing is normal, it’s not. It drains me. And I just sat there and I realised I didn’t want this anymore. It wasn’t worth the fighting. So I blocked communication and went to bed.

Today I woke up and it took me a while to remember what had occurred. And do you know what, I found myself not caring. I just got up and did the same things I do everyday. Nothing had significantly changed except inside my head. I felt relieved. I didn’t feel drained or boggled. I just felt “okay”. I had taken my ring off the night before. I glanced at it on the side and reminded myself to put it somewhere better than my bedside table. He may ask for it back if he ever tries to chase me. I don’t want him to. I don’t expect him to. But he does know where I am and he may turn up on my doorstep.

I went to work and I had a stressful mid-morning with air. Banged my head against the wall a lot. Afternoon was a laugh though. I helped my manager sort out Secret Santa. I sort of know the person I matched with so that’s good.

After work we headed to the social club for my cousin’s birthday. She is 4 today so her mom has thrown a party. There was a bouncy castle and lots of soft play toys. Scarlett dived straight into the buffet and spent 20 minutes walking around eating a biscuit watching everyone playing. She did a disgusting stinky poo and I had no wipes (I’d come from work) and I reasoned changing her now was a waste of happy as she was soon going home for a bath. So we braved the stench and drove home at 10 to 6. She got straight in the bath. I got in with her. She’s getting better at playing in the bath water whilst I wash my hair under the shower. Once we were both clean we got out. Went downstairs for a cup of tea. She helped my mom eat her dinner (Scarlett had already had her dinner at Nursery). Usually she goes to bed at 7 as she’s shattered but she was happy and playing nicely so I let her stay up. My mom’s friend was here so she was entertaining her. I put her to bed at 8:30. She’s so funny that kid!

My mom, my brother’s girlfriend and me watched Jack Reacher 2 whilst I ate my dinner. Now I’m in bed. Tomorrow I’m going to blitz my room for Christmas. As well as Scarlett’s. I’m living in a mess and it’s doing me no good seeing it every day!

I’m reading again so I’m going to read a bit then go to bed. I’m reading Shadow Demons (Peachville High Demons #4).

TTFN x

Oops

So I totally forgot to blog for a while! Here’s what has been happening.

Thursday 13th:

Had work and then at 5pm I was free for 10 days!!!

Friday 14th (Easter Friday):

Bank holidays rule! Scarlett had me up at usual time. Sorted her then we played. She had a nap then once she was up we got on the train to Brett’s house. Scarlett went to bed at 9ish I think.

Saturday 15th:

We didn’t get up to much. Weather wasn’t overly great so stayed in. We got ready for the party (Brett’s friend’s 21st) and off we went. I had a fairly decent night. Finally met some of his peeps. Hopefully didn’t show myself up, even though I puked a few times before getting the uber home lol

Sunday 16th (Easter Sunday):

I was hanging out my asshole when I woke up with Scarlett at 8am. She wanted to run about and I just wanted to die BUT I did get up. I gave her a bottle. Dragged her to the toilet so I could puke a bit more. She gave me this judgmental stare. 15 months old and that sort of attitude! #MyKidRules

At 10am Brett’s mom said did I want her to take Scarlett with her to visit some family for a few hours? Yes please lol so off they went. I climbed back into bed. After 2 hours I felt right as rain. Was starving and dinner wasn’t due til 3ish so I had a bit of toast and some more water. I felt much better. Dinner was lovely. Brett had surfaced at that point. Lazy fucker. Next time he says a word about being up early with Scarlett I’ll remind him of the time I got up with a hangover to deal with her, when he was very incapable of doing so!


Monday 17th (Easter Monday):

We got up today and I packed our stuff. Brett said he was going to the tattooist in Epsom to book in his ink. So we tagged along. We had some lunch then we came home. Chilled for a bit then we jumped on a train home. Think we got back at about 6ish. I bathed Scarlett and put her to bed.


Tuesday 18th:

Scarlett had Nursery and I had a lay in. Technically I didn’t. I still got up with her at 7ish but after I’d fed her, dressed her and shipped her off to Nursery, I climbed back in bed lol my nan picked her up at 12:30 like normal. I went round to pick her up a bit later. I had a doctors appointment at 3:50pm. We ended up having dinner with my nan then we came home. She went to bed at 7:30 like normal but at midnight, just as I was settling for bed, she woke up and was up for the next 2 hours. I think I didn’t get to sleep until 3am.

Wednesday 19th:

Woke up to a lovely swollen hayfever eye. Not surprising I was tired though, after being up till 3am. Sent her off to Nursery as I had stuff to do. Had to tidy my room and hoover the upstairs. Plus do some washing. Clean the dishes. Just random crap really.

Today (20th):

Today I was due to meet my bestie in London for a playdate but she couldn’t make it due to a fire at Euston station and some other incident going on. Shame but it what it is! So me and Scarlett stayed home all morning so she could nap after playing with me. After she woke up we grabbed our coats and walked to my nan’s house. We had lunch and played a bit then she had a short nap. We stayed for dinner then we walked home.


I put her to bed at 7:30. She was tired but spent about 20 minutes rolling around her cot talking to herself. I love listening to her.

I watched Emmerdale then I packed Scarlett’s stuff for her overnight stay at my nan’s tomorrow. Brett’s birthday is tomorrow. He is going to be 25. I’m taking him away for the night. It’ll be good fun. My nan is babysitting :)

Just watching Chicago Justice catch up and waiting for Brett to arrive.

TTFN x

Happy Birthday Matilda

Scarlett didn’t go to sleep that night (last blog post). Well she did. But not at a reasonable time. She didn’t settle until almost 3am. I think I fell asleep at 3:30 and then was up again 6:30. To say I struggled the next day in work would be an understatement lol

I survived it though. Some how!

Thursday she had her jabs. I took a half day (unpaid) so she could have me there. Even though my mom didn’t mind taking her. She offered. I don’t want Scarlett to be consoled by anyone except me. And tbh she wouldn’t have been able to be, she gets so worked up during her jabs. We survived them, just.

Friday she was feverish so I had to stay home with her. She slept ALL DAY. No joke. She was up at 7:30. Down for a nap at 9:30. Didn’t wake up until 12:30. Back down at 2pm and woke up at 4:30pm. We were due to visit our friends in Watford for a sleepover so we got on the train at 6pm. She had slept on the train so she wasn’t tired when we arrived at 7:30pm. My friend put her little one to bed at 8:30 as she was shattered. Scarlett stayed up whilst we ate our Chinese then I tried to put her to bed. She wasn’t having any of it. Eventually they went up to bed and I laid her in the travel cot. With no distractions she went quiet.

She was unsettled though so she ended up sleeping on the blow up bed with me. She woke up 3 times sobbing in the night but I was next to her so I just cuddled her back to sleep. It made my heart swell because she’s not slept with me since we stopped co-sleeping when she was 3 months. I miss those hazy newborn days. However I am thoroughly enjoying entertaining the toddler phase!

This morning (Saturday) my friends baby M woke up at 6am. I heard her from downstairs. She’s noisy lol bless her! It’s her 1st Birthday so she’s allowed to wake up early. Scarlett woke up at 7ish so we went upstairs to say Happy Birthday to M. We gave the girls some breakfast then put them both down for a nap. We had our breakfast and a nice girly chat. Haven’t had one of those in a long time.

The girls woke up at 10:30. They got dressed for the party. I sorted myself out and then I got in the car, with Scarlett, and my friends in-laws drove us there. The party was good fun. All the babies, and older kids, loved the soft play area. We saw a few of our “online mums group” mums and their babies. Weird seeing people face to face after interacting online for so long!

At 3 my friends husband dropped me and Scarlett back to the house so I could give her a bottle and get her down for a nap. She woke up at 5 and we all climbed in the car (they were back by then) so they could drop me off at the station. We got the train at 6ish and we’re off the other end at 7:15. My mom picked us up. Dinner was ready at my nan’s. She did steak pie and chips. So that was good timing. Scarlett had some dinner and was very entertaining as she had had that 2 hour sleep lol

I managed to get her to go to by for 9pm and now I’m just unpacking our stuff so I can put some washing on.

We had a fab overnighter and a proper blast at the party. So glad we got to meet so many of our friends.

Happy 1st Birthday to our gorgeous little M. We love you. Hope you had a blast!!!

TTFN

Tea party fit for a princess

Thursday my little princess went to nursery and I went back to bed after she was picked up. I hadn’t planned to but I thought fuck it, I deserve it. When I got up my Nan had just picked Scarlett up, so she picked me up too and we had some lunch. Then she went down for a nap.

I didn’t do a lot the rest of Thursday and once she was in bed I just caught up on TV and enjoyed knowing I wasn’t working the next day.

Friday I sent her off to nursery then I set about sorting her room, and mine. I managed to do it all in 3 hours. I still need to hoover my room but our hoover is broken at the moment! My mom picked me up at about 2 and we went shopping. I needed to pick up some stuff for the party as well as some food for work next week. We went to my Nan’s after we had dropped the shopping home so I could give her the bits I bought for the party. It was my Dad’s birthday so I sent him a message on Facebook. I had sent him a card from me and a separate one from Scarlett. It is actually his second birthday since she was born as she just made it last year by 2 days lol

Brett came down late Friday night. He didn’t get to ours until gone midnight. He went in and gave Scarlett a kiss on her head and woke her up. To say I was pissed would be an understatement. I had a headache, it was late and I just don’t want her awake at midnight because she ends up mad as hell the next day, and who deals with her in the AM? Me! It took until 2am to get her back down.

Today Brett didn’t get up till almost midday. Fucking irritated me. I was up with Scarlett at 7:30 and I was tired as fuck. We got picked up by my grandad at 12:30 so we could go to Asda to get her birthday cake plus a few extra party bits.

After Asda we went to my nan’s so I could help with stuff. Decorations were up and food was laid out. I put some make up on and got Scarlett changed into her dress.
My dad turned up with my stepmom and kids. We had a lovely afternoon then we did her cake.

Her cake


Birthday girl


Baby is one!


Cake



Me, Brett and Scarlett

 

She’s in bed and we are watching some tele at the moment.

TTFN x

2 weeks until her birthday!

I’ve been so damn tired this week. I knew having a busy weekend would kick me in the butt. Not just me either. Scarlett’s been shattered. She had her first accident at nursery. She was sent home with an incident report. She was reaching to stand at the table (like normal) and she slipped and bumped her head. She was tired. She gets clumsy when she’s tired.

I cannot believe that she’ll be a year old in 2 weeks. This time last year I was 37 weeks pregnant and fed up. I couldn’t wait to get her out. She kept “not moving” and I was forever up the hospital in the weeks leading up to her birth. When they say it goes quick, they aren’t joking. It’s gone faster since I’ve been back at work. The weeks go quicker because I’m busy in the week. Christmas sailed by. Next it’ll be Valentine’s Day then Easter then the summer. I worked it out earlier. She’ll go to school in September 2020. That’s literally just 3.5 years away. WTAF? I’ll be 29. Wow! Just wow!

I think I’ll just go cry in the corner lol

I am glad it’s Wednesday. That means half the week is gone. Just 2 more work days then I can finally have a chill weekend. Well as much chill as you can have with an ALMOST 1 YEAR OLD in the house lol

TTFN x