Third Time’s The Charm, hopefully!

Monday was a chilled evening. I watched some TV and just relaxed. I haven’t been sleeping great since we moved in so I am trying to relax, even if I don’t sleep.

Tuesday Brett got the train down to see us. He was originally coming Thursday/Friday. He primarily came to see Scarlett. We had a nice evening and we went to bed.

Wednesday I went to work and Brett stayed at mine. At 12:30 my Nan dropped Scarlett to him, at my flat. He had her all afternoon. I got home at almost 6. I cooked us dinner then we put Scarlett to bed at like 8:30. We watched some TV and had a chat about there potentially being an us again. Maybe.

Thursday I went to work and Brett did the same. Scarlett did a really nasty poo and it went everywhere so he was flustered about that when I got in. She did another when I got home so I sorted that. She had had bellyache all week so far. She went to bed at 7:30 like usual. I had cooked us all dinner. We watched some TV and had a proper conversation. We got everything out. Laid it all on the table. What we want from each other. What we want from life. What we think went wrong. What we’ll do better, what we will both do better. He is my bestfriend. He is legit my bestfriend! He’s the first person I speak to, and want to speak to, when I wake up. We decided this would be the last time of trying. If we cannot make it work then we’ll call it quits for good and go our separate ways.

Friday I went to work and Brett stayed at mine. I told him to help himself to food and the TV etc. When me and Scarlett got home at 5ish Brett and I decided we’d give her a bath then walk to my Nan’s for the evening. So she had her bath then my brother and his girlfriend came round. We all walked around my Nan’s at 7ish. We stayed there till 10ish. Scarlett went to bed at 10:30. We watched some TV then we got into bed. We stayed up till 2am chatting. It was nice. It was just like when we first met. It was good!

Saturday we were woken up at 7:30 by Scarlett. We expected her to lay in after her late night but she didn’t. We decided to eat breakfast in town so we grabbed our stuff and jumped on the bus. We went to Poppins Cafe before heading to the train station. We got to his area at 12:15. His mom picked us up from the station. Scarlett was really excited to see her Nanny. We had some lunch at 2ish then at 3pm we put Scarlett down for a nap. She fell down the stairs. Brett was at the top, she was following behind him. She lost her balanced and went backwards. Luckily his brother was at the bottom. He caught her. She cried, due to the shock more than anything. She was fine.

At 6ish we sorted some dinner then Brett and I went to the cinema for 8:15. We watched Black Panther. It was a really good film and we were glad to have gone to see it. We got back at 11ish. Scarlett went to bed at 10. She was flat out sleeping.

I climbed into bed at half 11. I was tired. We stayed up chatting till 1 then we went to sleep.

Sunday I woke up at 9ish to Scarlett sitting on the end of the bed. She had climbed out the cot, onto the bed. We snuggled under the duvet with Brett for 10 minutes. Then we all got up and had breakfast. She played with her Uncle “dot” and her nanny. We watched a film on sky called Unforgettable. It was good. We had dinner at 2:30 then we grabbed our stuff and got in the car. We drove to Guildford as Brett had an appointment at 5pm then we drove home. Scarlett got in the bath then we watched In The Night Garden. I put her down at 7:30. She was still awake at 9:30 and I stupidly decided now was a good time to take the side off her cot, so she could have a big girl bed. It wasn’t a good idea. I got it off but putting the rest back together was hard. Especially as she was “helping” me. I called my bro and he came and gave me a hand. We put it back together then I put her to bed again. She went straight to sleep. He got rid of a mahoosive spider that was terrorising me in the lounge then he left. I settled down to watch some TV then I climbed into bed as well. Think I nodded off about midnight.

Today [Monday] has been the longest ever. Me and my manager sat down to look at what I do on a day-to-day basis so she has a clue of what I get up to. When I am on annual leave she doesn’t cover me because she wouldn’t know where to start and no one tends to die when I am off for a week. But she said she should know a bit more. So we went through a termination I received. It should’ve been straight forward, removing 26 sites and their tasks. No. Just no! It’s taken a whole day, between 2 people. We came up against obstacle after obstacle. Wanted to bang my head against the wall all day. Honestly, proper headache. We finally got to the end at like 4:30.

Mom has just picked me up as we’re going food shopping on our way home. I desperately need some stuff otherwise I shan’t be eating all week. Then we’ll head home.

TTFN x

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How is it March?

Monday wasn’t as bad as I expected. The problem being home extra days with Scarlett is sometimes it’s hard to return to work. But I must admit, I thrive on routine so going back to work was fine. She woke up by herself instead of me waking her so she was happy as larry. She had some toast whilst I made my lunch then I headed out after my Nan turned up.

Wasn’t surprised by my lack of emails when I got in. I had kept up with them till Friday afternoon and no one typically works a weekend so nada! They picked up a bit as the day went on.

I decided that today was the day I would tell Brett I wanted to finish with him. It’s not that I don’t love him, it’s just we are two very different people than we were 2 years ago. A lot has changed, for me personally, and when we split in December it was for a number of reasons. And these reasons have not changed. Obviously he is hurt. He doesn’t want this. He thinks we can figure it out. But he’s trying to accept my decision. He wants to remain friends for Scarlett’s sake and right now I see no reason why we can’t.

Scarlett had a good day at Nursery but it was her first day back after 4 days off and it was a long session so it wiped her out. She was a bit grumpy. She cheered up when she FaceTimed Brett. I put her in the bath then did her milk. I put her to bed at 7:15 but she didn’t settle even after we’d watched some TV and had dinner so I went up and climbed in her cot. Where my eyes are sore and watery, she thought I was crying. She rubbed my face and said “no cry mama”. Then she slipped her arms around my neck and gave me lots of cuddles. Plus some kisses. Which she actually named before she did it. She is growing too quickly! But I love it.

I climbed back out of her cot and she went to sleep. I guess she just needed some 1-to-1 time with me. I watched TV with mom then we went up to bed at like 11ish. My eye was proper throbbing and watering so badly.

Today my eye was glued shut when I woke up. I slept alright but my head still hurt a little. My mom heard Scarlett and as she was dressed before me said she’d get her up. But Scarlett wouldn’t get dressed until she had seen me. She was checking I was alright, bless her! I made my lunch then we left. We dropped her at my Nan’s then mom dropped me at work. I feel really cold today. Like I can’t get warm. I’ve had my heater on most of the day, only occasionally turning it off.

I called my doctor’s surgery earlier for a telephone appointment. I don’t know if some of my symptoms are normal for my coil. So the doc called back and said she wants the doctor who fitted it in May to see me. She will probably check it’s still in the right place. They may even have to do a blood test to check my hormone levels. We’ll see.

I am on lunch break now. Just going to watch Lucifer whilst I eat.

TTFN x

Sunday check in

Friday was a busy day at work. I was really tired because I had kept waking up Thursday night for no reason.

Brett actually finished work at a reasonable time. He got off the train at 8:45. We ordered pizza for dinner and watched a film called Captain Phillips. It was good. We went up to bed at half 11 and agreed we wouldn’t go to sleep late as we were getting up earlier than normal.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. Brett got up. We decided we’d have breakfast in town. So he got dressed and headed out. We had McDonald’s breakfast and they messed up the order. We didn’t realise until we’d sat down and we couldn’t be bothered to go back to the till. Scarlett ate her hash brown and a bit of her egg. When we finished we loaded her back in the stroller and headed to the tattoo shop. We arrived and they went about drawing up the right size for our wrists. Brett went first. Scarlett fell asleep whilst he was having his done (despite the shop music) and didn’t wake until I’d had mine done. She was hungry so we popped into Sainsbury’s to grab some bits for Work Monday then we headed to my nan’s for lunch. We had lunch and Scarlett played in the garden, indoors, at the table. Just everywhere, doing different things. She coloured. She read her book (someone read to her). Played catch. Played with her baby. All sorts lol

We walked home at 5ish. I sorted some dinner for her then me and Brett left to head into town for some food and cinema. We ended up going to the Wetherspoons. I had the buttermilk fried chicken burger with cheesy garlic and fries. He had a beef burger with chips. We both had a soft drink. We went to the cinema at 8:30 to see The Snowman. It was quite good but some of it was easy to guess.

We came out of the cinema at 10ish and went into Sainsbury’s so Brett could buy his brother the Fast 8 DVD. We ended up buying Scarlett some outfits, a new jumper and new shoes between us. Typical parents lol

We got the bus at 11:15 and we’re home by 11:30. We pretty much jumped straight in bed. We didn’t want another late night as I wanted us to get up at a reasonable time so we could spend our last day together. Brett agreed I could wake him at 9.

Sunday Scarlett woke up at 7:45. I took her down for a bottle at 8ish and some Sunday snuggles. When she was due breakfast at 9 I took her up to wake Brett up. He pissed me off and wouldn’t get up so I left him to it. I was irritated because the plan had been, I’d make us all breakfast then he’d shower and then he’d watch her whilst I had a bath. Spend time with her, without me. Instead, she started rubbing her eyes just before 10 so I plonked her in her cot and got in the bath. She slept till just after noon.

I had woken Brett up at 10:30 when I was done in the shower. He said he’d get up and shower now. He wanted to have some morning sex first. We forgot to shut my bedroom door and my brother came upstairs for a toilet and peered in (the door was open so no reason why he shouldn’t) to see if I was up, given how late in the day and I have a toddler, and saw Brett’s bare ass and ball sack hanging. Well he says he didn’t see as he quickly ducked back out and had a wee. But there’s no way he didn’t see SOMETHING. We had to stop because we just kept laughing. It was really rather funny. 18 months and no one has ever caught us haha

After that, he got in the shower and I got dressed. I went downstairs to tidy up from breakfast and then relax. Scarlett woke up at midday. I got her dressed. She wore her new Unicorn jumper that Brett bought her in Sainsbury’s. And her new shoes. We set off for my nan’s at 1 for dinner. We stayed all afternoon. Brett nipped home to pick his stuff up. Scarlett fell asleep on my lap for half hour. She seemed a bit like she’s coming down with something. She’s only just getting over having Croup, it turned into a nasty cold. Hope she’s not sick! We dropped Brett off at the station at 5:30 then my Nan dropped us home. Scarlett had some supper then I bathed her. She had her bottle on the sofa with me then we sat and watched some teletubbies. She went to bed at 7:30. Went straight to sleep like a good girl.

I made myself some supper and got ready for bed. I got into bed at 9pm because I’m tired. Scarlett woke up at 10pm crying. I cuddled her and put her back down. Haven’t heard a peep from her yet. Hopefully she’s okay!

Back to work tomorrow. Why are weekends so bloody short!

TTFN x

Ps. Today there is 9 weeks until Christmas Eve!!!!

Day 1 in Verona

So the day got better. Surviving on just 1 hours sleep was not good for me, for Scarlett or for my relationship. But after we went to the supermarket we came back and I put Scarlett down after her lunch. She got back up and we played and coloured. She was still catching up on her sleep so she went back down. And she stayed down for about an hour. Brett and I had a random mid-afternoon shower and we made up over the grouchiness between us. It's amazing what tiredness does to you. So we showered and had a laugh like two young people should do. Scarlett woke up before we were dressed so she "helped" me find my clothes. Which basically just means she kept pulling clean stuff out of my suitcase lol bless her!

We got sorted and headed out for dinner. We took a stroll trying to find an ATM that accepts my money card and there's one just outside our building so that's good to know. We ended up in a little pizzeria nearby. We had pizza and Scarlett ate some. She was knackered by the time we'd finished eating so we grabbed a quick drink in a bar then headed back home. Brett got her ready for bed and I put her down with a bottle. Then I grabbed our sweets and drinks and came in the bedroom so we could watch a film. We ended up talking instead. About judo. He was showing me some moves and we rolled about a bit laughing because I'm too short limbed to grab like he does which just ruins my attempts at any moves haha

He's fell asleep now and I'm just catching up with my girls and then I'm going to bed.

TTFN x

Sunburnt

Monday:
The travelling. Omg! So basically we were set to get off at West St. Leonard’s but when we pulled up I got off and Brett (being away with the fairies) didn’t get off. So he was stuck on the train as I’m stood outside waving at him like “wtf you doing? We’re meant to be off”. I tried to call him to say to get off at the next stop and I’ll meet him there. Didn’t ring. Straight to voicemail. I remembered, he’d said it had died on the train. I wasn’t sure what to do so I crossed over the bridge and waited the other side thinking he may have gotten off at the next stop and come straight back. 20 minutes go by and nothing. A train pulls in and he doesn’t get off. Then my phone rings. It’s his mom. Turns out he remembers her number off by heart so he’s managed to borrow a phone from a fellow traveller and called her to call me. So I got a taxi to the station he was at and the same taxi the took all 3 of us to the caravan site. Overall it took us an hour longer but we made it.

We checked in at 5:15 and went to our caravan. We are situated right next to reception so that means a short stroll to the shops and swimming pool too. So we dumped our stuff and headed straight to the shop for the necessities lol this included bread, milk, washing up liquid, sandwich fillings etc. We had brought 2 steak pies with us from home so we grabbed some chips to go with, and we had our dinner. Scarlett did so well sleeping in a big girl bed for the first time. She slept so well and I was so proud of her.

Tuesday:

We decided to go to Hastings for the day. So we set off at 10:30. We walked down the hill to catch the bus to the town centre. We decided to do the Aquarium then have lunch then do the Smugglers Caves. So we headed down the sea front to the Aquarium. Scarlett loved all the different fish and sea creatures. We stopped in a lovely little fish and chip restaurant down by the entrance to the Clifftop Railway. Brett and I had passed a jewellery store on the way to the Aquarium and I’d pick out a lovely ring. He wouldn’t let me have it. Said I had to wait for him to find the perfect moment to bend down and ask. We had our lunch and then headed to the clifftop railway. The view up there is amazing. Scarlett had a massive poop explosion and we had run out of wipes so we did the best we could to sort it with warm water and tissue roll. Brett had it all over his hands and arms so he sorted himself out then we headed back down.

He had the hump because it turns out he planned to propose at the very top of the hill but her poop issue ruined it lol In the end he got down on bended knee on the beach looking out at the gorgeous hot summers day. It was perfect. I said yes, obviously! After we let Scarlett throw a few pebbles we headed back to the bus.


We tried to go swimming when we got back but turned out the swimming pool closes at 5:45. That seems uncharacteristically early to me. Especially for the summer. I mean it’s light until 10pm. But hey ho. So we came back and got changed then headed back down to the entertainment centre. Scarlett had BurgerKing for dinner. She loved that. We had a little play in the arcade then we headed black to the caravan. Scarlett had a bath, a bottle and then went to bed. We had a lovely relaxing evening. We watched NCIS and then Ultimate Force.

Wednesday (today):

We decided to go to Eastbourne today. Scarlett woke up at 7ish so I gave her a bottle and put her back down. She woke up again at 8. Brett hadn’t had a good nights sleep so I gave her breakfast then took her to the play park behind our caravan for half hour. She loves running about and jumping. She’s such a tearaway for a tiny person lol

We wanted to try out the swimming pool so we headed down at 10ish. Scarlett was loving it and we showed Brett what she’s been taught at her swimming lessons. We decided to try the outside pool. The floor was painful to walk on (although Brett says I’m just a sensitive soul). We dipped in the outside pool but it was freezing even though the weather was really hot. Scarlett didn’t like it. She kept shivering. So I took her out and sat down on one of the loungers with her in a towel. She sat on my lap cuddling me for ages. Brett went down the massive slide/flume thing a few times. He’s a fantastic swimmer. No fear. Good for him lol I can just about swim and that’s it.

After swimming we headed back. Scarlett had a nap. I laid on our bed chilling. Cooling down. It was so warm. When she woke up we all had a sandwich then we headed out at 2pm to get a taxi to Hastings station. We were going to Eastbourne for the afternoon. Just to look around and maybe have some dinner. So we got off the train at 3:30pm. We walked into the shopping mall. I spent £35 in Primark. I got Scarlett a lush dress and matching shoes plus a few cheap summer tshirts and some grey slip on shoes. I also got myself some Harry Potter socks haha

We walked back towards the station and had a lovely meal at the Wetherspoons. I had a hotdog and chips. Scarlett had the same, the kids version. Brett had an all day brunch. We also got cheesy garlic bread. Scarlett loves it. We ate then got back on the train to Hastings.

Brett gave Scarlett a bath and got her ready for bed. She didn’t go down till 9pm. We were watching NCIS and listening out for her. Just watching Ultimate Force now.

Not doing doing anything tomorrow. Maybe swimming. But staying on site. My legs ache and my knee is hurting again. Plus we’ll just spend more money if we leave haha

TTFN x

Engaged!!!!!!

So Scarlett finally wore this top and we announced on Facebook the news we’ve kept under wraps for months now lol

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We’ve loved keeping this secret for a few months but we thought it was time to share. We haven’t decided on a date, yet. But we are thinking from late 2019 onwards, as we want to save up properly for it. Plus we need to find our own place together as well.

TTFN x

1 more sleep

Saturday:

Scarlett had her second swimming lesson on Saturday afternoon. She did really well and was much more confident doing things. I am so proud of her. She’s just a darling (and a tiny terror lol)

Brett came down Saturday afternoon. His brother drove him down to ours after work. We went to Asda to grab some last minute bits for the holiday. I managed to pick up a swimsuit for myself. It wasn’t the best one but it’ll do.

We put Scarlett to bed and then caught up with each other. We planned to watch a film but we just never got around to it.

Sunday:

We got up and watched some tele. Scarlett had a bottle then breakfast. I got Brett up at 10ish. He had a shower. We headed to my Nan’s at 1 after Scarlett woke up from her mid morning nap. We had dinner at my nan’s. Scarlett had on one of her new dresses from GAP. It’s lovely. She had a nice afternoon and we went home in the evening. Brett had a banging headache so he went for a nap and so did Scarlett. I had a headache too (due to the heat) so I just laid in the sofa watching tele.

I have finally packed for our holiday. God I forgot how stressful packing can be. Especially as it’s not just me now. It’s a toddler too.

We’ve just watched that film now. It was pretty good. It was The Mechanic sequel. We haven’t seen the first though lol

Holiday tomorrow. I’m apprehensive for the travel as we’ve got to get the train to Hastings via London. I don’t really fancy going via London lol but needs must!

TTFN x