Terrorised by a spider

Monday was alright. I was tired though. I always am. It’s a struggle going back to work after a weekend.

Tuesday we had people coming into our office to measure up. I mean how disrespectful. We are being moved (though this is unofficial and I’ve not had any type of forewarning) so these builder type guys have been in to check sizes as someone somewhere in my company want to knock down some walls and change shit around. At the moment my team sit in a little office, separate from the main office as we are in a different room (inside the main office) and we love it. I cannot work in the main office. I use to before maternity. And I struggled. It’s too noisy and distracting. My brain doesn’t work as quick as it use to and I won’t survive out there so as soon as we do get a confirmed date if movement, I shall hand my notice in. Simple as that.

Today I was shattered because Scarlett woke up really upset at 2am and again at 6am (though 6 isn’t as bad usually as my alarm is set for 6:30). I was falling asleep at my desk by 12. I should’ve utilised my lunch hour at 1pm and napped lol

We have another motherfucking spider trying to seek residence. They always do it when I’m alone. It’s like they can sense it. It just strolled across my living room floor like it owns the place. I tried to throw a heavy book at it but it darted out of sigh (worst thing ever). Then it came back and hid underneath one of Scarlett’s toys. I kept my eye on the toy whilst I watched tele, deciding to deal with it after. I went to move the toy so I could stamp on the spider (trying to be brace and shit) and the bastard had somehow snuck off when I wasn’t eyeing. So I scooped my crap up and legged it to bed. So here I am now, in bed, pretending I’m not a wuss. Nah jokes, I’m legit a wuss when it comes to spiders.

Only 2 more work days to go then we are on holiday lol can’t wait. I’ve never been Glamping.



Bank holiday weekend

Wednesday 24th:

Spent most of my day catching up with BBC news for more updates on the Manchester arena attack. More names were released over the victims who died. An 8 year old girl! What the actual fuck? She’s a child. Her life cut short. And to what end? What reason? I can’t even fathom what this world has come to! As a mother, this cut deep. 10 years from now, that could’ve been me and Scarlett at a concert. I cannot even begin to imagine what that poor little girls family are going through right now. All the families.

Thursday 25th:

2 years ago today I found out I was pregnant. I still remember it vividly to this day. I had been unwell with some kind of bug type thing and someone asked me if I was maybe pregnant? I laughed. Said of course not, I can’t get pregnant! Then I checked my period tracking app and realised I was in my “due on time frame”. I have very wonky periods. Some months I have a perfect 28 day cycle and other months I can wait 6-8 weeks for one. At this point I was on cycle day 34 so well within in my “I’m due on” frame. So I thought hmmm I’ll do a test. So I grabbed this cheap line one from my friend and did the deed. When I looked down I could not believe my eyes. Two lines. Albeit one line was faint. The positive line. But it was a line. I felt like I was on drugs. Everything was so surreal. I didn’t believe it. So I ended up taking another test the next day and the days after until I ended up making it “clearblue official” lol

Scarlett celebrates her 16 months today. She’s so cheeky and clever. She still only has 6 teeth but she’s definitely getting more. Hopefully soon.

Friday 26th:

Payday bitches lol spent £53 online at H&M on summer stuff for Scarlett. Got 20% off because I am a H&M member. Woohoo lol

Me and Amelia went for lunch at work together. We went to the harvester around the road. It was nice just us 2.

My mom worked the night so it was just me and Scarlett. The usual. I watched some tele, had a shower then read my book. I’m reading the latest Alex Cross book. I love it! I’ve read all 23 previous ones.

I came across a heart wrenching tribute on ITV before I went to bed. See below:

Saturday 27th:

Scarlett missed out on breakfast with me and mom as she wasn’t awake at 7:30 when mom got in from work with a McDonald’s breakfast. She woke up about 20 minutes after so she ended up just having a hash brown instead of a wrap. She wasn’t overly fussed tbh and she had a bottle, watched some teletubbies and then I put her up for a nap because she asked to go. She kept rubbing her eyes so I asked if she wanted a nap and she pointed at the stairs, got off my lap and walked to the stair gate. She didn’t settle in bed until about an hour after though. I listened to her talking to herself for ages. I watched NCIS from Friday and then I read more of my book. Scarlett settled and I must’ve fell asleep on the sofa because next time I know, the monitor is lit up and she’s crying. So I go up and sort her out. Get her dressed and off we go to my Nan’s house. As she hasn’t had lunch yet I defrosted her a shepherds pie but she wouldn’t eat it. She just wanted her bottle so I gave her some milk. Then she played. In and out the garden all day. She got her outfit soaking wet so I changed her into a new vest and a clean shirt so she could continue playing. We ended up staying for dinner then we came home.

She had a bath, watched 1 episode of teletubbies then up to bed she went with her bottle. She went straight to sleep as she had skipped her afternoon nap so she must’ve been shattered.

I’m watching 12 monkeys on Netflix and enjoying a quiet Saturday evening. Mom’s working tonight so again it’s just us 2.


2 headaches

Monday 10th:

Considering it was a Monday I had a good day. I got lots done at work and didn’t feel as tired as I expected, after a busy weekend with Brett.

Tuesday 11th:

Came on when I woke up. Had been expecting it since Friday so not too bad, only a few days late. My tracking app gives averages based on previous data entered. So it’s always only going to be a guesstimate lol wish they’d come on time though.

Wednesday 12th:

Had a horrible headache. All damn day. Had no painkillers on me. My supply was empty so I had to tough it out. Eventually took some when I got home. Scarlett cries to go to bed ATM. It’s mad because usually kids want to stay up but she’s so tired she just wants to go to bed. She at 7 she’s down and I don’t hear a peep from her.

I was downstairs for a while watching some tele and doing chores. Headache came back with a vengeance (which worries me because that’s usually when a migraine hits) so I decided to go to bed. Turned my bedside lamp on and it made a massive bang and went off. I unplugged it and then got in to bed but then I noticed my alarm clock was flashing, my TV standby light was gone and my phone said No Wifi. So I had to call up our out of hours people for advice. Luckily it was a simple fix that I did myself over the phone. I was worried about the food in the fridge and freezer. It’ll go off quickly. Anyway, problem solved so I climbed into bed. Headache was still there but hopefully the tablets will kick in soon.


Back at work

I feel like utter shit. I forgot how draining a cold can be. Especially with a touch of flu. I spent all Monday feeling like shit. I kept going hot/cold/hot/cold which was super fun! Plus I had this jarring headache ALL DAMN DAY. Brett looked after S for a few hours so I could take some painkillers and nap, in an effort to shake the headache. No such luck.

He went home at 7ish. I sorted Scarlett for bed and after a bottle I put her down but she wouldn’t settle. Turned out she was still hungry. She drained another 5oz bottle then went to bed. She never drinks that’s much. She had 30 oz that day. Plus 3 meals and snacks. Fatty!

I went to bed at 11 as I had a bath then watched Silent Witness. I forgot it was on and got in the bath at 9pm so had to watch it on playback at 10pm.

I got up for work yesterday at 7am. I was meant to be up at 6:15am. I ignored my alarm apparently. But oh well. I still made it to work with time to spare and that was including taking a detour past McDonald’s for a breakfast wrap lol the day went really quickly which was a bonus. I got in from work and Scarlett was all over me like a rash. I think it was because she had spent 10-11 days straight with me and suddenly was back at nursery so she missed me. She kept rubbing my shoulder and looking at my face then kissing me. Sadly it means all our cold/flu germs are merged. She has an awful cough now. She was in bed by 7pm. She had a 7oz bottle which she drank in one go. I heard her cough a fair few times before I went to bed at midnight. I watched Silent Witness at 9pm then from 10 I was reading my book. I am 70% completed. It is a kindle book so it doesn’t count by pages. Just percentages. It is a good book. I am aiming to read 15 at least this year, however I have set my challenge to 20.

Today I am struggling. I was awake on and off all night with a fever. I was either hot or cold. I couldn’t get comfy and my head was hurting again. Oh, and the coughing was keeping me up. Mine and Scarlett’s. She kept coughing in the night. The monitor lit up a lot lol

I am on lunch so I am going to just read my book. I don’t fancy socialising. My throat is sore and my head hurts.


Ps. Her birthday is 3 weeks today. And her blessing is this Sunday!


We went into my work place yesterday to say Hi to everyone. Firstly we sat upstairs with Rachel and Graham for lunch. Graham actually held Scarlett which is pretty special as he “doesn’t do babies” haha after Rachel’s lunch hour was up I took Scarlett into the office. There was hardly anyone in the office. They are all off sick. Part timers lol

Scarlett was held by an ex-colleague called Lee. His missus still works for my company so he’s often in the building lol she kept smiling at him. She was also held by his girlfriend then she was held by Jack, my team leader. She was also held by a few other people. She seemed fairly happy with everyone except Jack’s brother who works at our company too. She cried as soon as he had her lol no idea why.

After my mom finished work she picked us up and we went with her to Morrison’s to do some shopping. We desperately needed some food in the house lol I got Scarlett a few outfits in 3-6m for our holiday as she’ll be 5 months (and hopefully will fit them). I also got her a coat in 6-9m. It’s huge so even thou she’ll be hitting 6m in July and it’ll still be warm-ish, she’s quite little, so it’ll fit her for a while. Probably till she’s like a year old lol They’re lovely bits and I only spent £30.

She wasn’t working Thursday night as her boyfriend was over so she babysat for me whilst I went to bingo for the first time since I’ve had Scarlett. I use to go a lot in the last month before I had her. I won £25 in the first few rounds then didn’t win again all night. It was nice being out and I had a cheeky cider lol

Scarlett was 2 months old on Thursday so we did the usual sticker thing.

Friday we stayed home in the morning. Mom made breakfast then I got up. I decided to take Scarlett swimming because the weather was nice. So mom dropped us in town. I went to the post office and finally posted my child benefit form as well as a returning item to eBay. Then I did a little shopping. I printed a photo of Scarlett to put in a frame for my dad to have at his house. I bought a new bra. Just basically had a wander around. We went swimming and she managed 20 minutes before she got cold. She was starving when we got out so I sat down in the cafe downstairs and got them to warm her bottle up. She hates it at room temperature and I don’t blame her. She had her bottle then we got on the bus. We stopped off at nan’s for a bit before mom picked us up. We had a cheeky Chinese which we picked up on our way home. It’s Easter weekend so why not.

Omg. Scarlett had a feed then she was really upset with wind. She did a massive poo so I changed her and she was still upset so I figured she needed to burp. She burped eventually. All was good. I gave her a bath then she started crying for food so I made her a 4oz up, knowing that she’d probably only need a top up of 1-2oz. I was feeding her and I thought “uh oh I need a poo again” (earlier I had to dash to the loo coz I needed to go and it was like diarrhoea). I was sat feeding her contemplating whether to stop, put her down and go loo. I’m so glad I didn’t. Literally a second later she puked up the oz she drank. If I had left her she’d have choked no doubt. I should’ve just sat on the loo with her lol she then fell asleep so I’m did a mad dash before I crapped myself lol

Today I got up after Scarlett had her first feed of the day then went back to sleep. Whilst she was napping I did some washing, washed and sterilised her bottles and then I had a sneaky bath. She woke up soon after so I dressed her for the day then we went downstairs. It was hammering down outside so I had no intentions of going out till I needed to. So we watched TV. By we I mean me. She spent the day napping and feeding lol she had 20 minutes underneath he play mat as that’s all she tolerates before she whinges lol we had dinner then mom drove us to my nan’s as I was dog sitting for them tonight. We swung by the garage to fuel up her car and I got myself a bottle of WKD to pretend I have a social life lol

I watched Friends all evening in between Scarlett eating. She did a lovely explosive poop in her nappy. Luckily she didn’t explode on her clothes. I was sorting her out, and whilst I had no nappy on her after I’d wiped her she did a huge fart and a load of poop came out all over the changing mat. Dirty moo. She’s clean now and we are in bed. My Nan and grandad got back from the wedding just now.

My eye is swollen again. I must be allergic to something. I still have the pain in my head from my wisdom teeth. It’s starting to get right on my nerves because it feels like I have a soft spot on my head and someone is poking it. It’s awful.

I’m off to sleep as Scarlett is drifting off and I think I should join her.


P.S. I have a “date” on Monday. I’m meeting a guy for a coffee/tea. By myself. Mom will have Scarlett. I need to vet him but he seems pretty sound. And he’s local. Praise the lord lol no one is ever local. He’s not too much older either.

Weekend is here

Well I went into work on Wednesday. I shouldn’t have gone in but I felt bad because I hadn’t been in the office since LAST Wednesday. I left work at lunch time. I was so exhausted both physically and mentally. Thursday (yesterday) I didn’t go in. I just felt so drained. Friday I went back to work. I had a meeting with my manager. She says I’ve had too many absences because I had a few days off due to my migraines when I first started at the company and then I’ve had 3 sick bugs. Two of which have been since I became pregnant. Which isn’t my fault because being pregnant means I’m more susceptible to germs. Obviously I had 2 days off whilst I was in hospital so they don’t count but the whole thing was high so she had to speak to me. I appreciate it doesn’t look good and it’s not like me to be such an unreliable fucker so I’m embarrassed that it is so high tbh. I didn’t have any plans for the weekend. I had hoped to to see Magic Mike XXL but mom is working or is busy during her day off so I don’t think we’ll watch it this weekend. After work I went to my Nan’s and when she finished work we went up the chippy for our dinner at 7ish. My aunt turned up whilst we was out so we grabbed her some food too. She was picking her car up. She asked if I would have Frank for the night so I said “Yes one night”. I text my mom as she gets funny if I don’t let her know I’m bringing one of the kids back with me. She’s not even home tonight so I don’t know why it should even make a difference to her but anyways she text back that I shouldn’t have him because my brothers girlfriend is “sick”. She’s not sick. She’s in pain. There is a difference. And he doesn’t have to go near her, the house is big enough plus he isn’t the most sociable child so he’s not likely to go and sit with her. So as mom got all ridiculous about the whole thing, we are staying at Nan’s. I got her to run me home go grab some bits as I had no nappies at her etc. We haven’t been back long. I got Frank in the sink for a bath as Nan only has a shower then he was ready for bed. He’s fast asleep and I’m going to follow him as I’m knackered.


A wedding and a house move

Well Friday didn’t end up being payday. Apparently we officially get paid every 27th of the month. I never noticed I could’ve sworn that payday was always the LAST Friday of the month. So payday is Monday this month. That is fine though as I am not totally boracic but I do seriously need to go shopping. I only have 1 decent pair of denim jeans. The other 2 pairs I have are a pink pair and a pastel green pair. They are fine but they aren’t universal as you can only wear certain colour tops with those colours.

So on Saturday morning Mom and I got up fairly early (8ish) to have our monthly “payday breakfast” where we go to McDonald’s for breakfast and I pay. We met her friend Emily there at 9ish. We had some food, some giggles and they both went up for a second coffee then Mom and I went into town. I picked up a pair of Denim Jeans, a redy-orange top and some underwear (boxers). I had the cinema booked for the new Avengers movie at 12:45 but we left town at 11:55 and I thought if I went at that time, I’d be really early so I went to my Nan’s for 20 minutes. Unfortuntely I ended up being half hour late for the cinema because the bus from town to the cinema was 20 minutes late and then took ages to get to my destination, as if it were on a very slow speed. Officially I only missed 15 minutes of the movie because usually films don’t start at their official start time. They often start about 15-20 minutes after the “start time” due to trailers, adverts and to give people enough time to arrive, get food/drink and get seated. So yeah I awkwardly arrived late and had to step over people to get to my seat but finally I was in. The movie was good and I will catch up with the bits I missed online another time. After the cinema I remembered we were going out that evening so on my way home I grabbed dinner as there wouldn’t be another opportunity.

By quarter to 7 mom and I were dressed and ready to go. I wore my new redy-orange top, with my new denim jeans and my comfy white wedges. I made a point of painting my toe-nails just so I could wear them as they’re open toed wedges. We got to the Wedding Reception at 7:30 but the disco wasn’t set up as the wedding guests were still eating dinner so we just sat around in the bar. At 9 the dancefloor was finally ready so we went in and saw my grandparents. My aunt had left as the kids were at home with her friend and she had a lot of packing to finish before she moves house tomorrow. Speaking of which, I looked after the twins all day today whilst my grandparents helps her move house. I haven’t seen the babies in a fortnight so it was nice to see them.
We left the reception at about half 10. We were giving my grandparents a lift home as they’d gotten a lift to the wedding with my aunt in the morning but obviously she had gone home now so Mom drove them back home.

Today I got up at 8:30 and made my way round my nan’s house. It was far easier to have the twins at nan’s for the day as they have the garden to play in and toys in the house to play with. We had a good day. They were less crazy energetic this time and we ran off some steam by going to the park. Which we actually walked to, the 3 of us, without a stroller or reigns. They simply held my hand (which I held tight) all the way until we reached the park gate then they were off playing. After the park we came back for some lunch. Then we watched a film, played silly games and then had some nibbles. Fred fell off the couch backwards and whacked his head on the coffee table. There was screams for a moment but after a cold and wet flannel to his sore head for a few minutes, plus some serious investigation on said head, he was fine. I told my nan on the phone to let his momma know to keep an eye but he was fine. That’ll teach him for jumping on nana’s couch!!!

Nan and grandad grabbed some food on the way home as it was quite late in the day but the twins had not long had their supper so they just had some chips. When their dad picked them up he gave me a lift home. I had a shower when I got in and now I’m in bed trying to sleep. I thought I’d quickly write this up before I forget.

I’m booked to see Woman in Gold at the cinema tomorrow evening at 8. I can’t wait for Age of Adaline to come out next month. Only a week or so to go :)