Sunday check in

Friday was a busy day at work. I was really tired because I had kept waking up Thursday night for no reason.

Brett actually finished work at a reasonable time. He got off the train at 8:45. We ordered pizza for dinner and watched a film called Captain Phillips. It was good. We went up to bed at half 11 and agreed we wouldn’t go to sleep late as we were getting up earlier than normal.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. Brett got up. We decided we’d have breakfast in town. So he got dressed and headed out. We had McDonald’s breakfast and they messed up the order. We didn’t realise until we’d sat down and we couldn’t be bothered to go back to the till. Scarlett ate her hash brown and a bit of her egg. When we finished we loaded her back in the stroller and headed to the tattoo shop. We arrived and they went about drawing up the right size for our wrists. Brett went first. Scarlett fell asleep whilst he was having his done (despite the shop music) and didn’t wake until I’d had mine done. She was hungry so we popped into Sainsbury’s to grab some bits for Work Monday then we headed to my nan’s for lunch. We had lunch and Scarlett played in the garden, indoors, at the table. Just everywhere, doing different things. She coloured. She read her book (someone read to her). Played catch. Played with her baby. All sorts lol

We walked home at 5ish. I sorted some dinner for her then me and Brett left to head into town for some food and cinema. We ended up going to the Wetherspoons. I had the buttermilk fried chicken burger with cheesy garlic and fries. He had a beef burger with chips. We both had a soft drink. We went to the cinema at 8:30 to see The Snowman. It was quite good but some of it was easy to guess.

We came out of the cinema at 10ish and went into Sainsbury’s so Brett could buy his brother the Fast 8 DVD. We ended up buying Scarlett some outfits, a new jumper and new shoes between us. Typical parents lol

We got the bus at 11:15 and we’re home by 11:30. We pretty much jumped straight in bed. We didn’t want another late night as I wanted us to get up at a reasonable time so we could spend our last day together. Brett agreed I could wake him at 9.

Sunday Scarlett woke up at 7:45. I took her down for a bottle at 8ish and some Sunday snuggles. When she was due breakfast at 9 I took her up to wake Brett up. He pissed me off and wouldn’t get up so I left him to it. I was irritated because the plan had been, I’d make us all breakfast then he’d shower and then he’d watch her whilst I had a bath. Spend time with her, without me. Instead, she started rubbing her eyes just before 10 so I plonked her in her cot and got in the bath. She slept till just after noon.

I had woken Brett up at 10:30 when I was done in the shower. He said he’d get up and shower now. He wanted to have some morning sex first. We forgot to shut my bedroom door and my brother came upstairs for a toilet and peered in (the door was open so no reason why he shouldn’t) to see if I was up, given how late in the day and I have a toddler, and saw Brett’s bare ass and ball sack hanging. Well he says he didn’t see as he quickly ducked back out and had a wee. But there’s no way he didn’t see SOMETHING. We had to stop because we just kept laughing. It was really rather funny. 18 months and no one has ever caught us haha

After that, he got in the shower and I got dressed. I went downstairs to tidy up from breakfast and then relax. Scarlett woke up at midday. I got her dressed. She wore her new Unicorn jumper that Brett bought her in Sainsbury’s. And her new shoes. We set off for my nan’s at 1 for dinner. We stayed all afternoon. Brett nipped home to pick his stuff up. Scarlett fell asleep on my lap for half hour. She seemed a bit like she’s coming down with something. She’s only just getting over having Croup, it turned into a nasty cold. Hope she’s not sick! We dropped Brett off at the station at 5:30 then my Nan dropped us home. Scarlett had some supper then I bathed her. She had her bottle on the sofa with me then we sat and watched some teletubbies. She went to bed at 7:30. Went straight to sleep like a good girl.

I made myself some supper and got ready for bed. I got into bed at 9pm because I’m tired. Scarlett woke up at 10pm crying. I cuddled her and put her back down. Haven’t heard a peep from her yet. Hopefully she’s okay!

Back to work tomorrow. Why are weekends so bloody short!

TTFN x

Ps. Today there is 9 weeks until Christmas Eve!!!!

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Mom’s turn

Saturday I couldn’t wait for Brett to go home. He started a row on my birthday night [although technically it was early hours Saturday]. He pissed me off so I stormed up to bed at like 3am. A while later he came up when I was half asleep and then said I was snoring and annoying him. I didn’t care. I was only breathing FFS so he went downstairs and slept on my brother’s bed. I got up to give Scarlett a bottle at 8ish and then I put her back to bed as she had had a late night. Then I climbed back into bed. I heard her wake again later on but I just ignored her as I knew someone else would get her out and sort her. And I was right. So apparently I only get a lay-in when I force it. I got up later on and he tried to talk to me. I didn’t want to talk to him. I wanted him to fuck off home. He tried to talk to me discreetly in front of everyone but he just wound me up, and something he said led me to put my ring on the table and say “well go then, I am done”. Then I shoved him away from me as he had been all up in my face. I walked upstairs and away from him. He followed me and kept getting in my face and I said I didn’t want him to do that. He just kept on and on. told me he was sorry for what he said previously, and can we just forget about it and move on? I don’t think so. I think it will be the same argument in 3 months, it is always the same thing. He wore me down eventually and said to put my ring back on. He said as long as we love each other, that is all we need. I disbelieve that. You need more than that to keep a relationship going and at the moment I am fed up of the BS. Nonetheless I stuck my ring back on, hugged him and went downstairs. He went home. I took Scarlett out for a mummy-daughter date. We ended up in Frankie & Benny’s again. That burger I had the night before was so delicious. She had mini hot dogs this time. After dinner we had 1 game of bowling. She hasn’t quite got the hang and is too young to sit still nicely whilst I have my go so I had to carry her = I was knackered!

After dinner we headed back towards home. We stopped at my Nan’s for a cup of tea and ended up staying there for the evening. My Nan dropped us home and I put Scarlett straight to bed, no bath lol

Sunday we had dinner at my Nan’s, like usual. 3 of my many cousins were there. My uncle’s 3 daughters. Scarlett is a fair bit younger than them so she didn’t really play with them and one of them kept trying to pick her up and crowd her. I had to tell her to give her space. We went home later and I put Scarlett to bed then had a shower before having some supper.

Monday was my first day back at work. I felt so tired and it really took a lot mentally. I ended up rowing with Brett, again. I can’t even remember what it was over. Oh wait yes I do, because I made a comment about how shit my birthday actually was. And then it was about this weekend when the fight between Mayweather and McGregor is on. I was already coming to his for the weekend as it is a bank holiday, and I never had issue with him wanting to watch the fight. But not if he goes to his pals as the fight doesn’t start till 5/6am and if he is up all night he would sleep all day at his pals and we wouldn’t see him till night time. What am I meant to do all day at his? So I said we wouldn’t come this weekend and it set him off even more.

Tuesday morning I woke up to a text from my mom saying she was in hospital and I would need to ask my Grandad to take me to work. I asked if she was ok? She said she had bleed really badly at work so her coworker phoned an ambulance who took her to hospital at 6:45am. I text my Nan and told her what happened and what I needed. She didn’t reply so I called her, phone was off. I called her house phone and she answered. She said she would pick Scarlett up as usual and Grandad would pick me up. So he did and I went to work.

What happened was, 3 weeks ago she had a procedure called a Colposcopy to have a look at her cervix and laser some bad cells off. This was after a routine smear had come back as abnormal. It went well and her bleeding afterwards was fairly normal.

Mom called me just before 10 and said they were considering discharging her. She said I was the only person with a key and she didn’t think Grandad would want to go through her bedroom looking for clothes so would I be able to leave work, get him to run me home and then up the hospital. Everything she had worn to the hospital was covered in blood. I said of course and hung up. I called my grandad asking him to come get me. He turned up at 10ish, we drove home and I picked up some bits then he dropped me at the hospital. I found her bed. She was in the same trauma bay [M6] that I had been in the times I were in A&E during pregnancy. Weird. She looked a bit white/pale but she was alright. She said the doctor claims she had stopped bleeding. She got off the bed to go and change her pad and clothes. When she hobbled past me I saw she was wearing a hospital grade sanitary pad with mesh knickers. It looked like a giant nappy. I couldn’t help but laugh. She got dressed and we headed out. She was advised to rest and take it easy and not be alone for 12-24 hours in case the bleeding got worse again. I bought her a cup of tea whilst we waited for Grandad to pick us up.

We got home and she desperately wanted food, sleep and a shower. She was starving, had not slept having worked a night shift and had not eaten since the middle of the night. She decided to have a shower once my Nan had finished work and grabbed her some more maternity-like sanitary towels. She dropped Scarlett off at 12:30ish. She was asleep so I put her straight in her cot and then aided mom in her shower. My nan stayed too [in case mom went dizzy I think]. She had massive blood clots and it was just running down her leg, going everywhere. She was really upset. She was stood in the bath crying. She said “how am I suppose to get dressed? It’s just going to go everywhere”. I told her to just stay still and I would get her clothes and she can dress in the bath. She laughed. Then chastised me for making her laugh as it caused more blood to leak. I called 111 for advice and they said they’d send a referral to our GP surgery so she can have an emergency appointment. I phoned them at 1:45 and they said the doctor would call back within 30 minutes. She didn’t call for 2 and a half hours. By that time my mom’s meds had kicked in and her bleeding was substantially much less so she said to the doctor she wouldn’t take an appointment and would go up A&E if the bleeding got worse again.

So she had a lay down and then at 5ish we decided what to have for dinner. She hadn’t eaten since her night shift so she welcomed that. We had dinner, I bathed Scarlett and put her to bed then Mom and I just relaxed. She went up to relax in bed at about 9ish. I finished watching season 4 of The Originals then I had a shower and got into bed.

I hope she feels better tomorrow.

TTFN x

Day 1 in Verona

So the day got better. Surviving on just 1 hours sleep was not good for me, for Scarlett or for my relationship. But after we went to the supermarket we came back and I put Scarlett down after her lunch. She got back up and we played and coloured. She was still catching up on her sleep so she went back down. And she stayed down for about an hour. Brett and I had a random mid-afternoon shower and we made up over the grouchiness between us. It's amazing what tiredness does to you. So we showered and had a laugh like two young people should do. Scarlett woke up before we were dressed so she "helped" me find my clothes. Which basically just means she kept pulling clean stuff out of my suitcase lol bless her!

We got sorted and headed out for dinner. We took a stroll trying to find an ATM that accepts my money card and there's one just outside our building so that's good to know. We ended up in a little pizzeria nearby. We had pizza and Scarlett ate some. She was knackered by the time we'd finished eating so we grabbed a quick drink in a bar then headed back home. Brett got her ready for bed and I put her down with a bottle. Then I grabbed our sweets and drinks and came in the bedroom so we could watch a film. We ended up talking instead. About judo. He was showing me some moves and we rolled about a bit laughing because I'm too short limbed to grab like he does which just ruins my attempts at any moves haha

He's fell asleep now and I'm just catching up with my girls and then I'm going to bed.

TTFN x

1 week to go till Italy

Can’t believe it is only 1 weeks till we jet off to Italy. 7 days. 7 days!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you tell I am excited?

It is Brett’s brother’s birthday today. I sent a card in the week, from Scarlett. Even though we are going there tonight. Just felt less hassle because at least I know he already has it.

We went for dinner last night. I had buttermilk fried chicken. I love it!!!!!! It was good catching up with my brother. He has expressed interests in wanting to move back home. I don’t think this is a good idea. He will just end up just as unhappy here as he clearly is at his Dad’s. But it’s not my choice apparently. My mom says he can move back if he gets a job back home, before moving. So yeah.

We got home at 7:30. I bathed Scarlett then put her to bed. We watched Emmerdale then I decided to get in to bed. I had a headache. I think I switched my phone off at 10:30.

Today I woke at 6am desperate for a pee. I never wake up usually lol I got up at 7. Mom dressed Scarlett whilst I looked for leftover items to pack for Brett’s house. We headed out at 7:30. Today Scarlett wasn’t being dropped at nursery by my Nan. My mom said she would do it, so she came for the ride to my work with me. I gave her a kiss before I headed into my office. She was waving at me lol

Just on lunch watching Salem now.

TTFN x

11 days to go

Friday I had originally said to mom that I fancied going cinema as she was home so it was no hardship for her to babysit. But I changed my mind. I stayed in. We waited for her boyfriend to come over then we ordered a sneaky Chinese. I then went up to bed to carry on watching Salem. I have just started watching it and I am engrossed. It is a Netflix show so been streaming it downstairs on TiVo. But also on my iPad.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 6ish. Put her back down. She wasn’t having any of it so we got up. Went downstairs. Let her play in the lounge whilst I attempted to doze. Every time I tried she kept coming over to show me her “baby” lol we had breakfast then she went for a nap. I woke her up at 11 as she had a swimming lesson finally. They had been cancelled for 2 weeks in a row due to a fault with the swimming pool so we’d not been in ages. She loves her lessons. She is getting more confident every time. When we were finished Mom dropped us in town. By then it was lunch so we had a cheeky McDonald’s. I just had a chicken burger. Scarlett had a cheese burger.

After lunch we took a stroll to the hairdressers as I needed my hair cut. She was really good behaved considering she had to sit in the stroller whilst they washed, cut and blow dried my hair. She whinged towards the end but that was due to her being tired and needing a nap. We hit the shops before we headed to my Nan’s. My mom, me and her boyfriend decided we wanted to go cinema so we asked my Nan if she minded babysitting. She said she would. So mom headed home to grab some bits. We had dinner at my nan’s then I bathed Scarlett in my Nan’s kitchen sink then I got her ready for bed. Nan said she’d give her a bottle and then put her to sleep in the stroller. Which she did.

We went off to the cinema at 8ish. We popped into Morrison’s first then headed to the movies. It was really busy. We all got a slushie then sat down in our seats. The movie was really good. Having studied History for 5 years at school I am really disappointed that we were never taught about Dunkirk. I know that if we had been I would’ve at least remembered the name of it. There is so much we aren’t taught in class and I feel like I barely know any of our history.

We Drove to my Nan’s and picked Scarlett up. Couldn’t transfer her from stroller to car seat without waking her so I didn’t other trying too much. She had a few extra ounces of milk in her cot at home then she was back to sleep. She is such a good little human, bless her.

Sunday she woke me up at 6am. Again! We were going out at 11ish so I gave her a bottle when she first woke then some breakfast at half 8. She went down for a nap at 9 and then I woke her at 10:45 so she could get dressed. We got picked up at 11 and off we went. We went to my aunt’s house. Her new house. Was hectic as with us there there was 5 adults and 6 kids. But we managed. Scarlett finally noticed there were 2 of the same kid. She was sat next to Frankie and then Freddie came in. She looked from Fred to Frank and back again. Then at me. Her face was a picture. She couldn’t figure out why there was 2. So I told her one was Frankie, the other was Freddie. She still wasn’t convinced, I could see it in her face lolIMG_3295

I don’t think anyone understands what that pic (^) means to me. Seeing my child with them. They were in-utero when I was told I couldn’t have my own babies. And I felt jealous that my aunt could just pop babies out. And I vowed I wouldn’t babysit for anyone ever again because it hurt too much to be near kids at the time. But time moved on and they were born. They spent as much time at mine their first 2 years than they did at home. They were terrors but I loved them anyway. And then Scarlett came along. My little dream. My miracle. MY terror. And to see her with them today. Her following them. Copying them. Yabbering away to them. Well, it made my heart swell… This is exactly what I had always dreamed of. My child with my aunt’s children, growing up as besties. Sometimes dream DO come true!

We got home at 5:30pm. We finished watched Hotel Transylvania. She had some supper [crisps, a gingerbread man and a yoghurt] then she had a bath. She was trying out her new skills from swimming. I got her ready for bed. We had a nice long cuddle on the sofa before I got up and made her bottle. She was in bed fast asleep by 7:30pm. When I put her down I got in the shower myself. Then I went downstairs just as mom got home. I hoovered whilst she made me some supper then we watched Poldark. When it was done I climbed into bed. I am in bed now. Work tomorrow.

11 days to go tomorrow until we go to Italy. It is getting very exciting!!!!!!!!!

TTFN x

Engaged!!!!!!

So Scarlett finally wore this top and we announced on Facebook the news we’ve kept under wraps for months now lol

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We’ve loved keeping this secret for a few months but we thought it was time to share. We haven’t decided on a date, yet. But we are thinking from late 2019 onwards, as we want to save up properly for it. Plus we need to find our own place together as well.

TTFN x

32 degrees!

Monday 19th:

So Scarlett woke me up at 5:30am with a poo explosion. I knew that ice-cream would come back to haunt me lol Just what I needed to deal with half-asleep and sweating my ass off. I cleaned her up, removed all offensive bedding and made her a bottle. Once she was re-settled I laid back down but couldn’t sleep. Eventually we got up and got ready for the day. As it is so hot I dressed her in one of her new cotton dresses, with no vest. Just her dress and a nappy. Oh, and socks and shoes. Mom didn’t work the night so we chilled with a drink and some tele then climbed in our respective, hot beds.

Tuesday 20th:

Scarlett had me up at 6am. Managed to get her to go back to sleep. I changed her nappy and gave her some water as she was thirsty. Mom worked the night and had already had dinner before she picked me up so I waited until Scarlett went to bed to sort my dinner. I had a shower when I first put her down at 7pm. Then ate at 8pm whilst watching NCIS catch-up. I have been watching this TV show on Prime Video called American Gods. Now I shit-you-not, this woman swallowed a man whole with her vagina. Yes, her lady parts ate him. She is a goddess, I think. And I think it was the equivalent of “soul eating”. Nicer way she could’ve done it though. The show is mad weird! I am not sure I like it or not. I am only 4 episodes in so I feel like I need to keep watching and give it a proper try before declaring it “not for me”.

Wednesday 21st:

My cousin has gone in for her scheduled c-section today. No word yet. I am excited as this is her second baby and she tried so hard to get to this point of having him. So fingers crossed for safe delivery!!

Scarlett woke up at 6am. I gave her a bottle and put her back down. Doing this allows me to get up and do what I need to without her getting under my legs. She slept for another hour or so. I woke her up at 7:15ish and dressed her. Again in a new dress. It is just too warm for anything else.

I watched the latest episode of Pretty Little Liars on Netflix on my lunch hour today and spent a good half hour pissed that the series appeared done but the bad guy hadn’t been revealed. Then someone informed me there was 1 more episode, next week, a 2 hour episode. Hopefully everything will be revealed then. I was so confused lol

I had a call from a woman regarding a job I had applied for. Hopefully this will lead somewhere good as the location is nearby home and the money is starting at £2K more than I get now upwards to £7K more. So definitely worth considering.

Just finished worked. Not sure what to have for dinner. Need a shower because I feel so hot and sweaty. More NCIS later, plus new episode of iZombie – must be Wednesday ;)

TTFN x