Not how I expected my weekend to go

Friday was a nightmare at work. My temp, who use to give me a lift, said she wasn’t coming back on Monday. One of the managers had upset her and she didn’t want to work in a place where people are rude to each other. She was furious in the afternoon. I half expected her to up and leave there and then. I think she would’ve if she’d had her car but her husband had borrowed it because his was in the garage.

We were due to go to Brett’s house. Normally I check the trains ahead of time but I left it until 3pm. When I looked it said there were delays my end of the tracks until 5-6pm and his end there was a lot of cancelled trains due to an issue at East Croydon. So I thought we could go at 7pm as the was a train at 7 that looked like it was the usual 1 connection, 1 hour 15 minutes route. But when I got in from work, I realised it would be far too cold, far too late and far too dark to be dragging my toddler on the train. So I told Brett that I’d decided not to come due to the reasons above. I anticipated he’d have the hump but what happened was beyond anything I expected. He was utterly vile to me. Basically insulted my parenting skills by trying to say that taking her to watch a 15 minutes fireworks display in a mild November is the same as a 90 minute December journey at 7pm at night on a Friday after being at Nursery all day. And said I must be such a good mom for taking her to see fireworks (in the dark and cold) but not taking her on a train. Also said I traumatised her by taking her to see Santa. Oh and brought up the one time recently when she was walking underneath me when I was carrying something. I didn’t see her, I turned and my knee knocked her over and she hit her head on the doorframe. Like it was an accident. They happen from time to time. I didn’t mean to hurt her and I felt awful when she was upset. I picked her up and gave her a cuddle. That’s what moms do. I frequently pick her up and cuddle her.

Anyway, he was just horrible to me and I realised that I just don’t need or want him in my life (or Scarlett’s) anymore. So I blocked him for some peace then later I messaged him to say I can’t be with him anymore. I don’t love him in the same way as I used to. I’m not coming for Christmas. And please don’t harass me to get me back or try emotional blackmail like you usually do. I then blocked him again. I was up till almost 3am chatting to my bestie. She had a lot of support and advice to give on leaving a shitty relationship.

Saturday he tried to call me at some point in the morning as I had a voicemail. I only listened to a few seconds before deleting it.

Scarlett got up at 9. She had her bottle and we read some of her new books. She asked for breakfast. I asked her what she wanted, cereal or toast? She said toast. I said tea too? She said yeah! She’s so funny. So she had tea, toast and banana. I waited to eat with my mom as she was going to cook breakfast. We ate at 10:30. Scarlett had some sausage then I put her up for a nap at 11:15. I went up and got in bed because I was so cold and I had a headache. I fell asleep and woke up at 1:30. Then Scarlett woke. I dressed her then I finished putting addresses on the presents I needed to send.

Mom drove me to the post office so I could mail everything. I mailed all my gifts except my Australian secret santa. It was going to cost me £88 to send a £30 gift lol so I decided to try a different postal service. We went into town so I could get a refund on the PS4 Pro I bought Brett for Christmas. So I’m now £300 richer. Which is great because I have Scarlett’s 2nd cake smash to pay for in January as well as her birthday party.

After Argos we went to my nan’s. She had a full house. Everyone was there. We stayed for a few cups of tea. Scarlett had lunch when we first got there. We left at 5. I ordered a Chinese whilst we were watching Madagascar. It took over an hour to come. Scarlett was proper hangry. We ate then I took her up for a bath. I ended up bathing with her. We got our and got dressed. I did her bottle then she said goodnight to everyone as my mom was going to work and so was my brother. I took her up at 9:15 for bed. She was flat out within 15 minutes.

I was watching Grimm on Netflix when the bloody door knocked. I knew who it was. No way was I answering. I have nothing to say to him. I thought I’d made myself pretty clear in my message the night before. I ignored the door. But he knocked twice more. The light in our kitchen was on so I knew he’d see me if I darted upstairs to look out the window. I stood in the doorway and he must’ve sense it because I heard him say something about “come on just answer the door”. I ran upstairs to tell my brother girlfriend not to open the door. Not that she would have. It’s late.

I came back down and he spoke to me through the letterbox. Said he wanted to talk so could I at least open the door. I said no. It won’t change anything. I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. He said he wants to try and he’s listening. I said why listen now. You’ve had almost 2 years. We’re not the same as we were. It’s finished. He got a bit angry and slammed the letterbox. I thought he was gone so sat down but he came back and called my name. So I said what? He said so this is it? You want me to go? I said Yes that’s what I’ve been saying. He said he was sorry it got to this point and sorry we couldn’t work it out. He said he hopes I have a good Christmas and I look after Scarlett then he slammed the letterbox and went. Me and my brother’s girlfriend sat in the front room for a while, expecting him to knock again. But he didn’t. We chatted a bit and then I carried on watching Grimm.

I’m in bed now. Going to have a lazy day tomorrow. I just want to relax and have a laugh with my baby girl. She’s all that matters to me.

TTFN x

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The Doctor copped a feel

Friday Brett didn’t arrive until almost 1am. Because I had fell asleep when I came home sick from work, I wasn’t tired yet so we watched some tele then went to bed about 3am.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at about 8am. Not too bad considering she went to bed at 9:30. She had her bottle in bed with us. She spoke to Brett but he was half asleep. I took her downstairs. She opened her advent for Days 1 and 2. As well as her first and second days of Book Advent. Her book was Fox’s Socks. Day 2 book was Princess Mirror-Belle and Snow White.

We had porridge for breakfast then I put her down for a nap. We were due to go out at 11. We didn’t leave until 11:30. Oops! We went to Camberley to take Scarlett to see santa. As you can see it went as well as last year!

After Santa we went and grabbed lunch at Wetherspoons. Scarlett had salmon fish cake, mash, peas and some cucumber and peppers as a side. I had a chicken burger and chips. Brett had steak and chips. Food was pretty good. Scarlett ate so much. We hadn’t taken the stroller with us so she was walking a lot but she’s still so little so we also carried her a bit too. Man she’s heavy lol

After lunch we went to Primark as my nan had asked me to get 2 gift vouchers for my cousins for Christmas. I also picked up matching Christmas headbands for me and Scarlett then we got a lift to my nans. We had a cup of tea then at 4 we headed home.

Scarlett had some fruit and a yoghurt for dinner (she ate loads at lunch) then Brett bathed her and then after a bottle and storytime she went to bed at 7. She went straight down like a good girl.

We ordered some dinner and watched Criminal Minds catch-up with my mom. My dinner took ages!! Brett’s came and he’d eaten it long before mine came. We had separate because he wanted pizza and I didn’t.

He has a bath whilst I read my book in bed. We were going to watch a film but I had bellyache so I went to sleep about 11. My grandad’s Birthday is today. He’s 68.

Sunday Scarlett woke at 8:45. That’s some epic sleep she had. She must’ve had almost 14 hours sleep! She had a bottle then she had toast (she asked for it). I had porridge and of course she had to share it when she’d finished hers lol

Scarlett opened Day 3 of Book Advent which was the book Everyone Loves Underpants.

We woke Brett up at 10. I put Scarlett down for a nap at 10:30. We climbed back into bed for cuddles and just relaxed. We woke her up at 12:30 so we could go shopping then to my Nan’s for dinner. I had to stock up on nappies and wipes. We bunged it in my mom’s boot then we went to my nan’s house. We left at 4:30. I stuck Shrek on and Scarlett actually sat with us to watch it for ages. I took her up for bath time and Brett left to get the train home at like 6ish.

She and I read a story. She had her bottle then I put her to bed.

Today she did not want to get up. I don’t blame her, I didn’t want to either! She got dressed, had her bottle whilst I made my lunch then my Nan turned up so I could leave for work. I got to work and set about playing catching up from being sick on Friday. I made an epic dent in my emails and managed to finally load AIR on to the system. I did a mini victory dance because we’ve waited too long to load AIR!!!!

I left work at 3:15 as I had my hospital appointment. We managed to get parked in the middle of the day. That’s so rare! I got seen at 4:10 so only 20 minutes late. The doctor asked me a bunch of questions and then did a check. Said it all seemed normal and sent me on my way. Weird considering my GP said she was sending me for a scan. But nonetheless I’ve been discharged from the hospital so if I have any more issues or am not happy in the new year I’ll go back to my GP.

After the hospital we went to pick Scarlett up. She does a full day at Nursery on Mondays. My mom usually picks her up at 4:30 then me at 5. My nan picked her up so we got her from her house. She was having a yoghurt when we got there. Apparently she had already “helped” Grandad to feed the dog. She loves doing that. Her and Marley are BFFs.

We went home and Scarlett had some fruit as she was “hungry” – she wasn’t she was peckish. She has dinner at Nursery lol we watched some teletubbies and she opened her Day 4 on her advent calendar, as well as her Book Advent. The book was Stories for 3 Year Olds. She went for a bath then she went to bed at 7.

Mom is off tonight so we’re watching tele and having a relaxing evening.

TTFN x

December 2017 is here

Thursday was the last day of November for 2017. Work was quite relaxed for a change. A slower pace. Did a bit more Christmas shopping online during lunch. And watched some more Glitch – pretty sure I’ve seen the finale now.

I watched Riverdale when Scarlett had gone to bed. My brother’s girlfriend comes on a Thursday so she got to ours about 7:30. She’s so cute. She made my brother an advent calendar and filled the drawers will presents for him. How adorable!

Today I got up like normal and went to work. I did some bits when I first got in. Spoke to my friend in the main office as he was in. Was stood next to him and I came over all funny. I felt dizzy and sick. I went back to my desk but I just felt so weird and off. I sat there for an hour. Every time I so much as blinked I felt like I was on a boat on choppy waters. By almost 11 I’d had enough. I messaged who I needed to, packed up my crap and went home. I was laid down in bed by 11:30. I must’ve fell asleep because next thing I know, it’s 3:15pm.

I sat up and I felt “okay”. I put some slippers on and went downstairs. I’d slept through lunch. Usually by 1pm at Work I’m eating so I was starving. So I went into the cupboards and grabbed some porridge. I really fancied it. So I ate that and then at 4 my mom came home. Then her friend turned up at 4ish too. Mom picks Scarlett up at 4:30 so I said I’d go with her as I never usually get to go as I’m at work. So we all went to get her. She was surprised to see me but she was happy sitting next to me in the car. She held my hand!!!

When we got in she played and had her usual cup of tea. Then at 6 I took her up for a bath. At 7ish mom drove us and my brother’s girlfriend to drop my brother at work then we grabbed dinner before going to my nans for a cup of tea. She had a laugh running about, singing, shouting and playing with Marley. My mom left for work just before 9 and then my nan dropped us Home at 9:30. Scarlett went straight to bed. No fuss. She’s so good!!!

I ordered some stuff from Amazon Prime NOW as I need more Soya milk for Scarlett as well as various other things. Saves me doing a big shop on a weekend. I hate shopping on a weekend, too hectic! So I’m in bed waiting for it to come. It’s due between 10pm-12midnighy. It’s 11:25 lol

Brett is on his way to ours. He got on the train at 11 so he’ll get off about 12:15.

We are taking her to see Santa tomorrow at the grotto in the Mall in Camberley. She didn’t like it last year but I’m hoping she’ll be a bit more excited this time. Doubtful but we’ll see.

TTFN x

Ps. Christmas countdown has begun.

24 sleeps till Christmas!!!!!

Part-Time Working Mummy Fest

Friday I got up for work and mom said she was dropping Scarlett at Nursery. So we bundled her in the car and set off. i got a McDonald’s breakfast to tide me over for the busy day ahead.

My mom picked me up at 1pm as I had Scarlett’s Nursery consultation for her yearly review. She is smashing life. She’s so bright and is on par, and slightly above for her milestones. This includes emotional, social, developmental and educational. Basically everything. She’s such a super star!!!

I had to pick up my night guard retainer from the dentist so we swung by then I grabbed lunch from the shop next door and headed back to work. I managed to do all this within my 1 hour lunch break. Skills!

My mom picked me up from work at 5 like usual. We went home. I bathed Scarlett and got her ready for bed. I threw some bits in a bag for her and then put some bits in my bag for me. We went to my nan’s house as she was sleeping over there. We stayed until my nan got in at 7ish then we set off.

We drove for an hour then stopped at services for a wee and dinner then we carried on. We arrived at about 10. We parked up then went to our room. It wasn’t bad. It was clean and decently sized. We shared a drink and watched Emmerdale in bed then we went to sleep.

Saturday we got up at about 8. I had a shower then we checked out and headed for breakfast. We found a Wetherspoons so we ate there. I phoned my nan to check on Scarlett. She said she went to bed at 8 and woke up at 7:30am. She’s fine. She’s had her bottle and some breakfast. I knew she’d be fine. She loves her Nana.

After we ate we walked to the Crowne Plaza Hotel in the city centre for the Part-Time Working Mummy show that started at 10:30am.

It was fab. Rachaele (part-time working mummy) is just brilliant. She’s so down to earth and the things she’s been through, just horrendous. But you wouldn’t know it because she’s so kind and funny and real. We picked up our free cupcakes (I got one for Scarlett too) and then we browsed the merchandise stalls. I got a PTWM t-shirt, wrist band and badge. I won some earrings on the tombola. My mom got a plaque, a wrist band and a badge too.

We got back to the car at 1:45pm and headed off for Home. We stopped for food about half hour away from home and finally got back at 4:30pm. I had proper missed Scarlett and I totally feel like my weekend with her will feel so short. But it’s only one time and she had a blast with my grandparents. She loves them.

We had a quick cup of tea then we headed home. I bathed her and got her ready for bed. She went to bed at 7:15 as she was shattered. I climbed into bed myself and watched a film. I watched Miss Peregine’s Home for Peculiar Children. It was weird but good.

Today Scarlett woke up at like 6:30. But she was just singing and chatting to herself so I left her. She eventually got up properly at 7:45. She had a bottle and then some breakfast whilst we watched Postman Pat the movie. She likes Postman Pat. After that finished I took her up at 10 for a nap. She slept till 12ish. In that 2 hours I laid in bed watching Doctor Stranger. Had wanted to see it for ages.

We got dressed and then we headed to my Nan’s house for dinner. She was cooking a Sunday roast.

We ate. Scarlett played a bit. I washed up and my Grandad dried up. Like normal. Then we headed home. Scarlett watched some teletubbies then I took her up for an afternoon nap. Wasn’t sure if she’d go down or not. It was 3ish. She did but it took her ages to drop off. I think I fell asleep as I was laid on my bed playing a game on my phone, listening to her singing etc. Next thing I know it’s almost 5 and she’s shouting lol

She had some supper. Skips, a cake and some fruit. We had a bath together at 7 then my mom dressed her whilst I washed my hair and got out. She went to bed at 7:45 so later than usual but only by 45 minutes. She didn’t take long to get to sleep. I had some supper with my mom then I went up to bed. I watched Captain America 3. It felt familiar in parts, like I’d seen bits before.

I’m now laid in bed. I’ve had a headache all day. I took paracetamol this morning and then ibuprofen this evening. Nothing is helping. Hopefully it goes after a good nights sleep.

TTFN x

Ps. Scarlett’s milk and cookies photoshoot pictures came back. I’ve downloaded them. I’m ready to post them online in December. So excited for Christmas!!

Sunday check in

Friday was a busy day at work. I was really tired because I had kept waking up Thursday night for no reason.

Brett actually finished work at a reasonable time. He got off the train at 8:45. We ordered pizza for dinner and watched a film called Captain Phillips. It was good. We went up to bed at half 11 and agreed we wouldn’t go to sleep late as we were getting up earlier than normal.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. Brett got up. We decided we’d have breakfast in town. So he got dressed and headed out. We had McDonald’s breakfast and they messed up the order. We didn’t realise until we’d sat down and we couldn’t be bothered to go back to the till. Scarlett ate her hash brown and a bit of her egg. When we finished we loaded her back in the stroller and headed to the tattoo shop. We arrived and they went about drawing up the right size for our wrists. Brett went first. Scarlett fell asleep whilst he was having his done (despite the shop music) and didn’t wake until I’d had mine done. She was hungry so we popped into Sainsbury’s to grab some bits for Work Monday then we headed to my nan’s for lunch. We had lunch and Scarlett played in the garden, indoors, at the table. Just everywhere, doing different things. She coloured. She read her book (someone read to her). Played catch. Played with her baby. All sorts lol

We walked home at 5ish. I sorted some dinner for her then me and Brett left to head into town for some food and cinema. We ended up going to the Wetherspoons. I had the buttermilk fried chicken burger with cheesy garlic and fries. He had a beef burger with chips. We both had a soft drink. We went to the cinema at 8:30 to see The Snowman. It was quite good but some of it was easy to guess.

We came out of the cinema at 10ish and went into Sainsbury’s so Brett could buy his brother the Fast 8 DVD. We ended up buying Scarlett some outfits, a new jumper and new shoes between us. Typical parents lol

We got the bus at 11:15 and we’re home by 11:30. We pretty much jumped straight in bed. We didn’t want another late night as I wanted us to get up at a reasonable time so we could spend our last day together. Brett agreed I could wake him at 9.

Sunday Scarlett woke up at 7:45. I took her down for a bottle at 8ish and some Sunday snuggles. When she was due breakfast at 9 I took her up to wake Brett up. He pissed me off and wouldn’t get up so I left him to it. I was irritated because the plan had been, I’d make us all breakfast then he’d shower and then he’d watch her whilst I had a bath. Spend time with her, without me. Instead, she started rubbing her eyes just before 10 so I plonked her in her cot and got in the bath. She slept till just after noon.

I had woken Brett up at 10:30 when I was done in the shower. He said he’d get up and shower now. He wanted to have some morning sex first. We forgot to shut my bedroom door and my brother came upstairs for a toilet and peered in (the door was open so no reason why he shouldn’t) to see if I was up, given how late in the day and I have a toddler, and saw Brett’s bare ass and ball sack hanging. Well he says he didn’t see as he quickly ducked back out and had a wee. But there’s no way he didn’t see SOMETHING. We had to stop because we just kept laughing. It was really rather funny. 18 months and no one has ever caught us haha

After that, he got in the shower and I got dressed. I went downstairs to tidy up from breakfast and then relax. Scarlett woke up at midday. I got her dressed. She wore her new Unicorn jumper that Brett bought her in Sainsbury’s. And her new shoes. We set off for my nan’s at 1 for dinner. We stayed all afternoon. Brett nipped home to pick his stuff up. Scarlett fell asleep on my lap for half hour. She seemed a bit like she’s coming down with something. She’s only just getting over having Croup, it turned into a nasty cold. Hope she’s not sick! We dropped Brett off at the station at 5:30 then my Nan dropped us home. Scarlett had some supper then I bathed her. She had her bottle on the sofa with me then we sat and watched some teletubbies. She went to bed at 7:30. Went straight to sleep like a good girl.

I made myself some supper and got ready for bed. I got into bed at 9pm because I’m tired. Scarlett woke up at 10pm crying. I cuddled her and put her back down. Haven’t heard a peep from her yet. Hopefully she’s okay!

Back to work tomorrow. Why are weekends so bloody short!

TTFN x

Ps. Today there is 9 weeks until Christmas Eve!!!!

Sand storm

Friday I did manage to get a doctors appointment. They gave me a triage call back. And I was called within half hour. They booked me in to see the doctor at 11:45 so at 11:25 my mom picked me up. The doctor was useless. I told her my ear hurt and I have a cold (for background info). She proceeded to do my temp, my BP, listen to my chest, check my throat and then finally checked my ear. My ear is fine. She says it might be my jaw as I said I had noticed a lump on the joint of my jaw. She suggested I see my dentist. And that was it. I had originally planned to ask about my foot but she took so long to look in my ear I just couldn’t be assed.

Saturday morning I was shattered. My nose had reached a new level of blocked and I spent most my night waking up. I also felt feverish on and off. When Scarlett woke up just before 8 I was not ready for that. She did go back down later for a nap but I then had been awake too long and couldn’t sleep so I gave up lol

I had planned to do lots of things but I didn’t in the end. I felt so crappy. We stayed home before heading to my Nan’s for lunch. We ate. Had cups of tea. Then at 5:15 me and Scarlett got on the bus to Aldershot. I had reserved a table for us at Frankie and Benny’s. We had a nice meal just the two of us. We headed into Morrison’s and I got her a few bits. My Grandad picked us up at 7:30. We got home, I bathed Scarlett and got her in to bed for 9ish. I climbed into bed at midnight myself.

Sunday Scarlett laid in until 9am. What a babe! We barely had time to have breakfast before heading out the visit my gran at the old folks home. Her and Scarlett were playing catch with the ball. And swapping dolls. After we visited we went back to my Nan’s. We headed for dinner when my mom turned up at 1:15. We went to the harvester as my Nan had received a gift card as an anniversary present. 45 years my grandparents have been married. That’s a feat!! We ate then I went home so Scarlett could nap. She slept from 4 till 5:30. So did I by mistake. I knew I’d pay for it later and I did. I was still up wide awake at 2am.

Monday I woke up at 7am and surprisingly I didn’t feel tired. Scarlett got up fine, got dressed and then we went downstairs. I did her bottle, made my lunch and packed my breakfast. We were actually ready to go when my Nan turned up. That is rare. I am often still “doing” something when she shows up. So I felt quite accomplished. Work was fine. Busy. It will only get busier when my only other team member leaves in 3 weeks. I will legit be the only member of my team. Fun times lol

There is a sand storm coming from the Sahara. It’s not overly scary. It’s just turned the sky a weird yellow colour and made the world seem very dark and overcast. There is a hurricane due to hit Ireland at the moment. Hurricane Ophelia. I hope my Irish friends stay safe – you’s know who you are!

Scarlett was grumpy when I got in from work. She didn’t perk up much, I think her full days tire her out. She had a banana and a cup of tea. We ate dinner then I took her up for a bath. She was in bed by 7. Mom and I watched Emmerdale then she got herself ready for work. I watched Private Eyes followed by the series finale of Liar. It’s been left wide open for a season 2. Can’t wait.

I am in bed now. I am catching up with season 1 of The Exorcist before I start on season 2 [which I’ve recorded].

TTFN x

Ps. Christmas is 69 days!!

Baby’s First Christmas

So surprisingly Scarlett didn’t have me up in the night. I woke up about 4-5 times myself to check on her, because yanno, she’s sick. But she slept from 9pm till 7am this morning. 

I got up and risked making a bottle of milk for her. She drank the whole 5oz then we had an hours nap together in my bed all cuddled up. It was nice.

Then we went downstairs to watch some TV.

At about 8:45 she was whinging for breakfast so I did her some porridge. She wolfed that down then a small cup of tea. At 9:30 my my mom got up followed by my brother. I cleaned the porridge off Scarlett and dressed her then we sat down to open ours gifts. She wasn’t overly interested in helping. She was happy just playing with wrapping paper or any toys WE unwrapped and gave to her lol










She’s so clever. We only showed her twice what to do with the balls then she did it!

She was the best gift ever!!!

Nan and her two eldest grandchildren (aka the faves)


Me and my Nan. She’s the best one ever. Love her a lot. Me and Scarlett would be lost without everything she does for us!

  

Christmas kisses

We’ve had a fab day. We opened our presents at my nan’s house as soon as my grandad got back from picking my great-gran up from the old folks home. Then Scarlett had a nap whilst we ate dinner then she woke and had hers. She loves her nana’s dinners.

We stayed till quite late. We were watching stuff on my nan’s tele and we had no reason to rush home.

Scarlett had a bath when we got in. I jumped in with her quickly as I felt hot and sweaty. I dressed her in her elf onesie. Gave her a bottle then she decided she didn’t want to go to bed so she played for a bit. We FaceTimed Brett then I put her in bed at 9. I’m hoping she’ll sleep in till maybe 7:30-8 tomorrow. She needs the sleep.
I’m in bed watching Love Actually but I’m quite tired so I may end up falling asleep lol


TTFN x