Screaming baby

Yesterday we had to wait in for a parcel as well as our meeting with a lady from my local church. I wanted to discuss a possible christening for Scarlett. Unfortunately the lady forgot to ask for my address (and I never even noticed) so she emailed me at 12:40 saying she needed my address but the office was closing at 1 so if I didn’t reply before that then she wouldn’t make the meet at 2:30. I didn’t see the email till 1:45 lol so we’ve rearranged. I’m not entirely sold on the idea of having her christened because I’m not christened myself and I personally don’t believe in any of it so I feel a bit hypocritical getting her christened. We’ll see how I feel after I speak to them at the meeting.

So we stayed in all day. Had dinner, bath and then she got in bed. She woke up properly at 1:30am for the first time in 5 months. She never even woke in the night when she had her injections. I thought she’d settle but at 2am she started crying so made her a 4oz bottle thinking she’d drink maybe half at most. She downed 3.5oz then went straight back to sleep. So I put her back in her cot.

She slept till 6:15am this morning. Had another 3oz then slept till 8ish. She was doing well today. She was happy after having 2x 1 hour naps but towards the late afternoon she started crying and getting herself all worked up. She had a very late nap at 7ish because she was screaming and then she kind of just passed out in my arms. She slept for an hour. I bathed her and got her up to my bed for her last bottle at 9ish but she went into a hysterical screaming fit. With bursts of crying in between. I stripped her to her nappy as she was making herself hot and then I gave her Calpol, teething powder and gel. She fell asleep so I put her in her cot at 10pm. She woke up crying at 10:30 so I figured she must be hungry now so I gave her the bottle and she drank 3oz and passed out so I put her back in her bed at 10:45. Hopefully she’ll stay there aslee all night. Bless her.

She was fine when my dad popped in on his lunch hour for a cup of tea. She was happy as anything. We were talking about me going back to work and I said someone made a comment about how spoilt she is because she was whinging when I went to put her down. But at the time she was actually hungry and I only wanted to put her down so I could make her bottle. But the comment pissed me off because when you’re pregnant every fucker says they can’t wait to meet baby and help out and babysit. But when it comes to it, no one offers. Not that I would let most of the people babysit. I only trust my parents, my grandparents and Brett. I said to him that it took me weeks for my mom to agree to watch her so I could have 3 hours to myself at the cinema. And my dad said she’s always welcome at theirs if I’m happy to let her stay for a weekend. I was surprised but pleased. I’m not desperate to palm her off. It’s not like that at all. But I think we need to spend a little time apart for both of our sanities. She’ll have no choice but to get use to other people when she’s in nursery 5 mornings a week so if I start getting a little bit of separation from her now, it won’t be so sudden to her in September. I’m apprehensive about her staying there for 2 nights and the first night I’ll probably be a mess lol but it’ll be good for us both. We chose next weekend for it. I dunno what I’ll spend my baby-free weekend doing lol freedom freedom freedom lol god I’ll miss her!!!!

So I have my operation tomorrow. I have to be up by no later than 6:30am as I’m being picked up at 7am. I’m nil-by-mouth from 6am so I’ve set my alert for 6am so I can have a big glass of water (letter says I need a glass of clear fluid at 6am then nothing after) then I’ll sort myself out for the day. I’ll get Scarlett’s stuff together so mom knows where everything is.

I’m not looking forward to it but it needs to be done. I’m laid in bed with a bit of a headache but I’ve ran out of paracetamol so I’ll just drink some more fluids and go to sleep.


Ps. I so totally hope she doesn’t wake again tonight. She needs the sleep. And so do I lol


First day of maternity

Well today was my first day of maternity. I woke up at 11ish. I had some food then I washed up like I said I would. When mom got in from work we went to town so I could get the party favours. I went for purple bags with white dots on. I grabbed a few fun sized bags of chocolates and haribo. I also bought my sister her birthday present.

We stopped off at nan’s after shopping for lunch and a cup of tea then we went home. Mom went to sleep as she worked last night and is working tonight. When she got up at 6 she cooked dinner and I made tea. At 7:30 Frankie was dropped off. I said I’d have him for the night so my aunt could go to her hospital appointment with just one of the kids in tow tomorrow.

Frank had a bath then we got a chocolate banana milkshake then got into bed. He watched Paw Patrol whilst I surfed the net. He bashed his mouth with his bottle earlier and actually made his lip bleed.

I’m having my bump painted tomorrow. A lady is coming to my house to do it. I’ve told her I’m having a girl but we are going for a festive theme as it is December.

I’m just in bed watching Criminal Minds with my headphones in. Frank is asleep.


28 weeks

Friday I left work at noon. Mom picked me up. We had lunch at Morrison’s cafe then did some shopping. I got some more Christmas bits for baby’s first Christmas next year. I really must stop but I just can’t help it. Plus a lot was on sale!!

I was babysitting Frankie for the weekend so I went to my Nan’s to wait for him to be dropped off. He didn’t end up being dropped till gone 5pm. We had dinner at mine and then I bathed him, got him ready for bed and we watched some TV in bed. He talks so much more every time I see him. He’s obsessed with Paw Patrol.

Saturday we had planned to go swimming but it had been raining really heavy, and was very windy. I decided we’d probably catch our deaths so we braved the rain, to get some fresh air, to our Nan’s house. We stayed there most the day then came home to chill before deciding what to have for dinner. We decided to have takeaway. Frankie ate 6 chicken nuggets and all his chips from the Chinese and fish place. I had a bowl of egg fried rice, crispy chicken pieces and curry sauce (I made my own little curry). Mom had a chicken burger and chips. I was surprised Frank ate that much as all he did all day was eat lol

We ate our dinner in my bed then I cleared our stuff away then grabbed myself a quick shower whilst he watched Paw Patrol. Mom was upstairs so she kept an eye but tbh he’s a really good boy. If I tell him I’ll be back in 10 minutes, he’ll just stay where he is watching TV. So I got him in the bath once I was out the shower then we curled up with some TV and he had a bottle of “nana shake” which is chocolate and banana milk.

Sunday we were having dinner at Nan’s so after some breakfast in bed, a bath and then getting dressed we ventured outside. It wasn’t raining so that was a bonus. It was just really windy.

Frank and I did some colouring. He made me draw a monkey. And a house. And a boat. And a shark. My drawing skills are limited at best.

At 1ish dinner was ready and mom finished work just in time to eat. Frank was picked up at 6ish and I got dropped home.

I was 28 weeks yesterday. I have 9 weeks till I’m full term and 12 weeks till my due date. Baby is roughly 14-15 inches long and weighs between 2-3lbs. Baby kicks a lot but when Frank tried to feel he/she stopped. He kept trying to talk to baby. But I think all of his shouting scared baby because he/she kept making jerky movements whenever he was being noisy. He/she will know his voice when he/she born.

Omg I’m so fed up of saying he/she. I have my 4D scan on Saturday. I can’t wait. It’s just going to be me and mom.

I have finished a Monday at work, and from now on I only have 3 more to get through. I go on maternity in 25 days but it’s only 19 working days. I can’t wait. It’s so exciting!!!!

I’m in bed. I’m really tired today. I don’t know if going to sleep at 8:30 is a tad ridiculous but it’s a huge possibility tonight as A) there is NOTHING decent on TV and B) 10 hours sleep (broken by ridiculous getting-up-to-pee) sounds delightful.


25 weeks

The week was alright except I was shattered. Thursday I had my 25 week check up with my midwife. She did my BP, checked my urine and checked my tummy. She says baby is head down at the moment. That will explain why I’ve felt kicks high up, rather than in my groin like before. She has booked me in for my Glucose Tolerance Test on October 27th. I can’t say I’m looking forward to that.  

I will have bloods drawn afterwards then see my midwife 2 days later to see how whether I have gestational diabetes or not. Hopefully not.

I went to my Nan’s on Friday after work. I ate dinner with her, my grandad and my aunt as she was there with 3 of her kids. Frank wanted to come home with me, as usual. I didn’t think mom would agree he could stay as we’d just had them here for 5 days, so I didn’t ask her. But she said Saturday that he could so my aunt brought him over and he stayed with me until this evening. We had Sunday roast with my grandparents and just chilled for the day really.

I am so glad to be in bed as I am off to Tamworth tomorrow for work. That’ll be a long trip. 3 hour train journey on 3 separate trains. I can see me falling asleep on the way home lol

I am 25 weeks today. I have 15 left to go. I am thinking of bringing my maternity leave start date forward by a fortnight. I currently leave on December 18th but I’m thinking of changing it to December 4th.


Stupid dentist

Well I had my dental consultation yesterday. It rained hard all day and my grandad and I got soaked walking from the car park to the hospital. I got to my appointment just on time which is great considering it took us an hour to complete a 25 minute journey. I saw the consultant and he was surprised to learn I am pregnant. Turns out my dentist didn’t inform him off this and it changes things for him as he’s not happy operating during pregnancy. Yeah, duh! I figured that it would as I had been surprised to have had the appointment in the first place. He’s recommended I have the surgery next year, after baby is born.

Today was my last day at work for the next 5 days. I am on annual leave tomorrow, Friday and Monday as my aunt is going to Spain with her partner and I am looking after the twins. Mom has taken the same days off so she can give me a hand. When I agreed to do this I wasn’t pregnant, that’s how long ago I was asked lol but obviously being almost 24 weeks means I’m going to be more tired and a lot less tolerate. We are off to Peppa Pig World again this year. We are going Friday. I believe the weather is due to get better than all this rain we’ve had the last 3 days straight. I’m glad about that as we got soaked last year when we went.

I went to the cinema tonight to see Macbeth. It wasn’t bad and it opened my eyes to fact that I did indeed learn stuff in class at school. I wouldn’t say it was a great movie as it isn’t my sort of thing but it was worth seeing Michael Fassbender looking ruggedly handsome attempting a sexy Scottish accent lol

I am off to bed now. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow and my flu jab before the terrible twosome are dropped off for the weekend.


3 days to go

Well I ended up babysitting this weekend just gone. Frank was coming to stay. He wasn’t dropped off till 9pm so we didn’t get into bed till 10:30pm. He woke up the next day at 7:30am. We spent the day at our grandparents. He played in the garden as the weather was so hot. He had pants on once we got there and to his credit he did 3 wees in the toilet. He had one “miss” because he got carried away playing in the garden. At 3:30pm he fell asleep watching TV so I laid him on the sofa. When I woke him up a little while later he wet his pants. Hardly his fault as he is still mastering daytime wees, let alone nighttime wees lol he had a nappy on after that because we were going to have dinner, walk home, then it was to be bath and bed. So we ate dinner with Nan and Grandad then we walked home. He talks a lot more now. Like half sentences such as “No my oo oo” (oo oo is monkey, he found my stuffed animals). We got in the bath. I don’t bath with him or Fred often as they’re at that age but it saved time. I washed his hair then put a face mask on me and he said “and me” so I put a little on his face. After I got out and was getting dressed, he climbed out and stood in the bathroom yelling for me lol he was cold. Not surprised. If he had waited a moment I’d have gotten him out, with a towel. Once he was dressed we got into bed and I said “do you want to listen to baby before sleep?” And he said yes so I got the Doppler out and we listened. I said to him to say night baby, so he did and we turned it off and went to sleep. It was about 8ish. 

**Our washing machine is broke. The guy came out Saturday but he didn’t have the part as we reported the door seal was broken but he says it’s the bearings and drum that need replacing** So nan did some loads of our washing over the weekend.

We woke up Sunday at 7:30. That was a good nights sleep. We had breakfast then I bathed him and got his dressed for the walk to Nana’s house. Soon after we got there we bundled in the car so we could visit my Gran. We left the old folks home after an hour. It was hammering down with rain and Nan was trying to get Frankie in the car but he was proper dawdling so my Grandad turned the car on and Frank panicked and yelled “Dee-dor (grandad) wait a me” – meaning grandad wait for me. Then when he got in the car he went “dee-dor start car no me” – meaning grandad started the car without me! So funny.

We went back and his mom soon arrived as she was having dinner. They stayed for hours and when she left she dropped me home. I had a bath which was relaxing. I was starving as we hadn’t had supper so I ordered some chicken shish for me and my brother. We ate that whilst watching a movie. My mom was away till today so it was just us 2, and Frankie in the house all weekend lol

Today at work seemed quickly. I bet tomorrow will drag. The weather was shite. It hammered down all day. I got soaked going to work so I scrounged a lift home from my Grandad as he wasn’t busy.

My nan has a hospital appointment tomorrow as she has some dodgy symptoms in her right breast that need attention. She’s got a lump, her breast is twice the size of the other AND she has an inverted nipple that has a black dot in the middle. I’m concerned it’s something sinister, so is my mom as its her mom after all. Hopefully they’ll tell her more tomorrow!

I was 17 weeks on Sunday. I have my gender rescan on Friday. I can’t wait. I hope baby cooperates!!!

I’m in bed playing harvest swap. I’m stuck on level 73!


16 weeks down…

…only 24 weeks to go lol

I had an emotional moment last night. No idea why. I just stared crying whilst in bed. Frank was laid next to me fast asleep, totally oblivious. I was just upset that the baby doesn’t have its father around. And it’s frustrating hearing women on the due date forum talking about “me and my husband like this”. I know that no one is personally attacking me. I know that. I am also aware that no one forced me to keep this child but as if there was any alternative. Hearing people women about their shared pregnancy experiences with their partners just highlights for me that fact that I can’t share it. It is the significant most important phase in my life and I am having to do it alone. I feel a little deprived. I feel that his childish behaviour is what’s caused things to be with way. Because he’s blocked all communication he’s not going to know if we have a son or daughter. And I say WE because it is OUR child. I didn’t make this child by myself.

So yes I had a cry. Then my aunt phoned for something then I ended up getting upset on the phone so she calmed me down lol thank god for her. We are like sisters!!

On the upside, Frank didn’t wake till 8am! Yay for him, and me. I need my sleep nowadays. Yesterday I let him, Ronnie, Reggie and Freddie each listen to the baby’s heartbeat. My aunt thought it was a cute idea so she had them lined up. Frank had the headphones on and my aunt said “say hello to baby” so he waved at my belly and went “hello bubba”. It was the cutes thing ever. I wonder how jealous he’ll be with the baby is here because he loves his “KayKay” and he won’t want to share lol

He was picked up today at 10am and I spent my morning back in bed being a lazy cow. At lunch I went to my Nans house to let the dog out for a bit. Mom picked me up later so we could do some food shopping. I had a late lunch then climbed into bed because my stomach felt weird. Must have eaten something that doesn’t agree with me.

I didn’t do as much today as I would’ve liked. My room is still a tip. There is stuff everywhere and I desperately need to change my bedding.

It’s my birthday in 2 days. I have Tuesday off (my birthday) and I also have Wednesday off. I did have a dentist appointment Wednesday but they called me late Friday to change it to tomorrow. Not sure if my manager will be okay with that but I couldn’t argue with the receptionist because there was a reason they changed it.

I’m in bed and it’s late so I’m off to sleep.