11 days to go

Friday I had originally said to mom that I fancied going cinema as she was home so it was no hardship for her to babysit. But I changed my mind. I stayed in. We waited for her boyfriend to come over then we ordered a sneaky Chinese. I then went up to bed to carry on watching Salem. I have just started watching it and I am engrossed. It is a Netflix show so been streaming it downstairs on TiVo. But also on my iPad.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 6ish. Put her back down. She wasn’t having any of it so we got up. Went downstairs. Let her play in the lounge whilst I attempted to doze. Every time I tried she kept coming over to show me her “baby” lol we had breakfast then she went for a nap. I woke her up at 11 as she had a swimming lesson finally. They had been cancelled for 2 weeks in a row due to a fault with the swimming pool so we’d not been in ages. She loves her lessons. She is getting more confident every time. When we were finished Mom dropped us in town. By then it was lunch so we had a cheeky McDonald’s. I just had a chicken burger. Scarlett had a cheese burger.

After lunch we took a stroll to the hairdressers as I needed my hair cut. She was really good behaved considering she had to sit in the stroller whilst they washed, cut and blow dried my hair. She whinged towards the end but that was due to her being tired and needing a nap. We hit the shops before we headed to my Nan’s. My mom, me and her boyfriend decided we wanted to go cinema so we asked my Nan if she minded babysitting. She said she would. So mom headed home to grab some bits. We had dinner at my nan’s then I bathed Scarlett in my Nan’s kitchen sink then I got her ready for bed. Nan said she’d give her a bottle and then put her to sleep in the stroller. Which she did.

We went off to the cinema at 8ish. We popped into Morrison’s first then headed to the movies. It was really busy. We all got a slushie then sat down in our seats. The movie was really good. Having studied History for 5 years at school I am really disappointed that we were never taught about Dunkirk. I know that if we had been I would’ve at least remembered the name of it. There is so much we aren’t taught in class and I feel like I barely know any of our history.

We Drove to my Nan’s and picked Scarlett up. Couldn’t transfer her from stroller to car seat without waking her so I didn’t other trying too much. She had a few extra ounces of milk in her cot at home then she was back to sleep. She is such a good little human, bless her.

Sunday she woke me up at 6am. Again! We were going out at 11ish so I gave her a bottle when she first woke then some breakfast at half 8. She went down for a nap at 9 and then I woke her at 10:45 so she could get dressed. We got picked up at 11 and off we went. We went to my aunt’s house. Her new house. Was hectic as with us there there was 5 adults and 6 kids. But we managed. Scarlett finally noticed there were 2 of the same kid. She was sat next to Frankie and then Freddie came in. She looked from Fred to Frank and back again. Then at me. Her face was a picture. She couldn’t figure out why there was 2. So I told her one was Frankie, the other was Freddie. She still wasn’t convinced, I could see it in her face lolIMG_3295

I don’t think anyone understands what that pic (^) means to me. Seeing my child with them. They were in-utero when I was told I couldn’t have my own babies. And I felt jealous that my aunt could just pop babies out. And I vowed I wouldn’t babysit for anyone ever again because it hurt too much to be near kids at the time. But time moved on and they were born. They spent as much time at mine their first 2 years than they did at home. They were terrors but I loved them anyway. And then Scarlett came along. My little dream. My miracle. MY terror. And to see her with them today. Her following them. Copying them. Yabbering away to them. Well, it made my heart swell… This is exactly what I had always dreamed of. My child with my aunt’s children, growing up as besties. Sometimes dream DO come true!

We got home at 5:30pm. We finished watched Hotel Transylvania. She had some supper [crisps, a gingerbread man and a yoghurt] then she had a bath. She was trying out her new skills from swimming. I got her ready for bed. We had a nice long cuddle on the sofa before I got up and made her bottle. She was in bed fast asleep by 7:30pm. When I put her down I got in the shower myself. Then I went downstairs just as mom got home. I hoovered whilst she made me some supper then we watched Poldark. When it was done I climbed into bed. I am in bed now. Work tomorrow.

11 days to go tomorrow until we go to Italy. It is getting very exciting!!!!!!!!!

TTFN x

Hump day already

I woke up in agony at 3am. I had really bad stomachache and I ended up rushing to the loo with diarrhoea. I went back to bed and then Scarlett woke up at 6ish. Gave her a bottle and put her back down. I finally crawled out of bed at 7ish. I felt like crap but I decided to go to work so I did. I got in just before 8 and was heading back home by 10ish. My manager was nice and dropped me home. I curled up on the sofa and pretty much remained there all day. I felt bad mom-guilt that I was home [when usually I’d be at work] but I wasn’t spending my time with Scarlett. But I was sick. She was better off at nursery. So Mom and I popped past Morrison’s to grab some much needed groceries as we had literally NOTHING at home then we picked her up. She looked so confused when I walked in to pick her up. I rarely get her. Even the nursery staff were like “Hey stranger…” We went home and did our usual routine then she went to bed. Mom went off to work at 7:30pm. I still felt crappy and I decided that if I still felt dodgy in the morning then I would phone in sick.

I did still feel crappy so I called in sick. Scarlett had me up at 5am, then again at 6am – I gave her a bottle. Then I left her and woke her up just after 7am. My nan picked her up just before 8. She waved bye and they left. Mom and I had breakfast then she went up to sleep, having worked the night before. I caught up on some tele then later I felt like I needed to be productive so I tidied Scarlett’s room and washed up the dirty dishes. Then I headed to my Nan’s as Scarlett does a half day on Tuesdays so she was there from 12:30. I put her down for a nap when I got there and a bit later my nan woke her up by accident so she was very grumpy. I tried to put her back down but she wouldn’t so we just sat and played. Then we had dinner then headed home.

Today is hump day. I went into work and caught up on the emails I got whilst off, and finished the task I started on Monday. My brother is up visiting so we met for lunch with my mom and Scarlett. We went to the Harvester. Scarlett just had salad and garlic bread as the little fatpants had already had her lunch! After we ate my mom dropped me back at work.

My brother stayed at home for a bit after I finished work but my mom dropped him at the train station at 6ish. Scarlett didn’t settle for bed very easily even though she had asked to go to bed. I had to go up and cuddle her 3 times. The last time I went up she laid in my arms like a baby. She hasn’t done that for a very long time. It was very soothing for my soul to just rock her whilst taking in her baby smell. She eventually settled and Mom and I had dinner before watching Emmerdale. Then mom started doing some of her tasks for her NVQ whilst I caught up with NCIS.

I have just got into bed. Work tomorrow. Was suppose to have a job interview but having looked at where the actual office is based, and bus times, I don’t think I can get to work on time if I got the job so no point in attending the interview, so I cancelled.

TTFN x

Celebratory BBQ

Thursday:

Scarlett was fine and didn’t seem to hold a grudge. She went to bed like usual.

Friday:

My manager let us leave early Friday so I was at my nan’s just after 4:30. It was a nice thing for a Friday. I got a last minute text from TurtleTots saying there was no swimming lesson Saturday due to a problem with the pool chlorination pump having an issue. So I agreed with Brett’s mom that we’d get an earlier train so we could have more time there.

Saturday:

We got up quite early and were on the train by 9am. His mom picked us up at 10:45 the other end and we went to Sainsbury’s for some groceries then after we’d dropped them back, and I made Scarlett some lunch, we set off to visit some of Brett’s family. We got a few engagement cards. So sweet. I wasn’t expecting that.

When we got back from visiting people Brett had finished work and was home. We decided not to go out (cinema). Scarlett went to bed quite late and then we watched tele with his family then we went into his room and watched a film. We watched The Mechanic. We had accidentally watched the sequel recently so we had both wanted to see the first one. So we did. I was shattered by the time it finished so we climbed into bed and I was flat out within half hour.

Sunday:

Scarlett woke me at 6am. She had only been asleep since 9:30pm (usually she’s down by 7pm) so I changed her nappy, made her a bottle and put her back down. She didn’t nod back off until 7:30 and I was behind her by about an hour. Then at 9:30 Brett woke me up trying to get frisky. Idiot! Then 10 minutes later told me to stop snoring haha I weren’t even asleep again. What a twat! She woke back up at 10:30 so I gave her breakfast then I got her dressed for the day. She played with her uncle Scott and followed him around like a lost puppy lol I put her down for a nap at 1:30 and fell asleep myself. We had a BBQ at 3ish to celebrate our engagement. It was nice. Scarlett wasn’t overly hungry so she just had a yoghurt and an ice lolly. She’s so funny. She was playing “basketball”. Meaning Scott was lifting her up to the basket and she was putting the ball in lol

Brett dropped his phone down the loo. It turns on and for the most part it does “work” but he’s got no sound and the microphone doesn’t appear to work if he calls you!!!

We got on the train home at 7ish and got off at 8:30. She didn’t go to bed until almost 10pm because it was 9 when we got home then we bathed together (well I showered whilst she was sat in the bath). She’s getting brave now. She usually hates the shower and cries. But this time she used a flannel to “wash” my feet and ankles whilst I was stood up washing my hair. Bless her.

I’m in bed now. Got work tomorrow. I’m quite tired. Travelling really does take it out of you!!!

TTFN x

Alpro ice cream

Wednesday 21st:

My cousins baby was born at 10:01am. He weighed 8 lb 14 oz. And he is gorgeous. He has quite a bit of dark hair. So glad he arrived safely. They named him Parker Harry James.

Thursday 22nd:

Scarlett’s passport came through the mail today. I’m so excited for our holiday now. I was worried the passport people would reject it due to her picture or something but thankfully they are more lenient with under 2s. We are now checked in for our flights online. I needed all of our passport numbers to do. And I have!!!!

My mom dated a guy the year after my step-dad left her. And he cheated on her for 4 months before they split. He denied this. But we know it’s true. Anyway he and my mom always stayed in contact as friends. He was told by his new missus he can’t be friends with my mom. Insecure much? This breeds from being “the other woman” to a guy who cheated WITH YOU. And many times she removed my moms number from this guys phone. Talk about controlling. But whatevs! This woman he cheated with became his partner from the moment they met all the way up till now. Well this woman’s daughter called my mom up and accused my mom off sleeping with him. As my mom pointed out, 1) she’s in a very happy relationship, 2) he cheated on her so why the F would she want his ass back and 3) how the F would any of their menial “hello how are you” texts ever convey there was anything untoward going on. She said all this and basically told the girl to fuck off. She told me and I sent her ex (from 8 fucking years ago, like for real who even cares about people from that long ago) a shitty message telling him to get his fucking women under control and stop dragging my mom into his BS. I told him that he knows he’s not suppose to be friends with my mom and because he failed to do as he’s fucking told she’s now been on the receiving end of some shitty outburst.

It’s gets better. He never responded. Surprise! Not! Turns out it’s their Wedding Day on Saturday. That woman would be stupid to marry him. She knows he’s a cheater and she clearly thinks he still does so why marry him.

Friday 23rd:

For the first time in ages it was just me and my mom. No men. Oh, and Scarlett, obviously. So we put her to bed, grabbed some alcohol and watched a film. It was nice.

Her new high chair came today. I think she likes it!!


Saturday 24th:

Scarlett had her first swimming lesson at 12. We arrived at 10 to 12. I was already in my swim stuff so I just had to sort her into her swim suit. I had bought her a neoprene nappy cover and a neoprene all-in-one to stop her getting cold. She did really well. She let the instructor take her around the pool for a minute without me. She walked on a float before holding my hands and sliding into the water. She kicked. She waved her arms to move the water in a motion. We sang songs. Overall it was good. I was really proud of her. I made the rookie mistake of not checking my bag before we left. I left my bra behind. So we popped home so I could dump the wet swimming gear and grab my bra then we headed to Morrisons. We had some lunch then we did some shopping. We went home and chilled. Scarlett was tired so I put her down for a nap at 3:30 and I kind of fell asleep myself. I rarely do that. Even when she was a proper baby I didn’t nap often. She went to bed at 8:30. She’s so funny. She kept playing silly games with my hair. She likes it when it’s wet from the shower (no idea why).

We watched two movies. Bad Moms and Mother’s Day. It was nice just the two of us. I think I went to bed about 1ish.

Sunday 25th (today):

Scarlett woke up at 7ish. Gave her a bottle at 7:30 thinking she’d go back to sleep for a bit but after half hour of her rolling around she got up and whinged so we went downstairs. She had her breakfast – some fruit and a choc-au-pain then she got dressed. Mom did us some breakfast then we got dressed. We had to head to Morrisons for a cooked chicken as nan had planned for 3 of my uncle’s kids to have dinner with us so she needed more meat. We got one and then went to my Nan’s house. Scarlett was asleep when I got her out of the car so I went straight in and laid her in the stroller in the hallway. She needs her afternoon nap. She slept through Sunday dinner and woke up just after we ate so I got her out and put her in the high chair. She ate her dinner then she had pudding. My nan had managed to get some Alpro Soya ice cream. She had her first taste and she loved it. She ate the ice cream AND the cornetto too!


After we had dinner we had a cup of tea and let our dinner go down then we took her to King George V park. Her first ever trip to a park. She’s been in parks as a baby baby. But they didn’t count as she wasn’t walking etc. She loved it. She went down the slides and in the swings. She climbed EVERYTHING! We had a good time then we headed back for another cuppa then home.

I did her some supper at 6ish. She had some fruit and a slice of bread with butter. She’s like me in so many ways, it’s weird but kind of exciting. She had a bath and then for a change Nanny put her to bed. She went straight down. We stuck on a movie after having some supper ourselves. We watched The DUFF. Mom hadn’t seen it.  I love it!

I’ve just got into bed. I’m not tired. I had my first energy drink today in 8 weeks. My mom bought 2. I think she forgot I don’t drink them. Tbh neither does she now. We’ve both stopped. I quit cold turkey. She has the occasional one. I think I won’t be able I sleep tonight now!!!

Back to work tomorrow. I only have 5 days then I’m off on holiday July 3rd. I can’t wait. It should be good fun. Brett and I are taking Scarlett to Hastings for the week.

Just over 6 weeks till we go to Italy!!!!!!!

TTFN x

32 degrees!

Monday 19th:

So Scarlett woke me up at 5:30am with a poo explosion. I knew that ice-cream would come back to haunt me lol Just what I needed to deal with half-asleep and sweating my ass off. I cleaned her up, removed all offensive bedding and made her a bottle. Once she was re-settled I laid back down but couldn’t sleep. Eventually we got up and got ready for the day. As it is so hot I dressed her in one of her new cotton dresses, with no vest. Just her dress and a nappy. Oh, and socks and shoes. Mom didn’t work the night so we chilled with a drink and some tele then climbed in our respective, hot beds.

Tuesday 20th:

Scarlett had me up at 6am. Managed to get her to go back to sleep. I changed her nappy and gave her some water as she was thirsty. Mom worked the night and had already had dinner before she picked me up so I waited until Scarlett went to bed to sort my dinner. I had a shower when I first put her down at 7pm. Then ate at 8pm whilst watching NCIS catch-up. I have been watching this TV show on Prime Video called American Gods. Now I shit-you-not, this woman swallowed a man whole with her vagina. Yes, her lady parts ate him. She is a goddess, I think. And I think it was the equivalent of “soul eating”. Nicer way she could’ve done it though. The show is mad weird! I am not sure I like it or not. I am only 4 episodes in so I feel like I need to keep watching and give it a proper try before declaring it “not for me”.

Wednesday 21st:

My cousin has gone in for her scheduled c-section today. No word yet. I am excited as this is her second baby and she tried so hard to get to this point of having him. So fingers crossed for safe delivery!!

Scarlett woke up at 6am. I gave her a bottle and put her back down. Doing this allows me to get up and do what I need to without her getting under my legs. She slept for another hour or so. I woke her up at 7:15ish and dressed her. Again in a new dress. It is just too warm for anything else.

I watched the latest episode of Pretty Little Liars on Netflix on my lunch hour today and spent a good half hour pissed that the series appeared done but the bad guy hadn’t been revealed. Then someone informed me there was 1 more episode, next week, a 2 hour episode. Hopefully everything will be revealed then. I was so confused lol

I had a call from a woman regarding a job I had applied for. Hopefully this will lead somewhere good as the location is nearby home and the money is starting at £2K more than I get now upwards to £7K more. So definitely worth considering.

Just finished worked. Not sure what to have for dinner. Need a shower because I feel so hot and sweaty. More NCIS later, plus new episode of iZombie – must be Wednesday ;)

TTFN x

Sunday blues

Thursday 8th:

So we voted. Both myself and mom voted the same. Not because we copied. That’s silly. And totally not how thing should be. We voted the same because we believed in the same things. Not that it did us much good because the election ended with a hung parliament. It’s not all bad. But it’s not good either because we didn’t get enough seats for our party so god knows what happens next. A coalition perhaps?

My little brother was 14 today. 14! Where has that gone? I remember when he was a baby. I use to pick him up for a cuddle and play silly games with him. Now he’s 2 years into teenage-hood. What!?

Friday 9th:

I had a long day at work. I felt so tired. I usually get to Thursday/Friday and feel exhausted. It’s this energy-free life. It’s just not compatible with my brain lol but nonetheless I gave up energy drinks about 6 weeks ago and I haven’t died, yet, so I can’t quit now lol

I decided I didn’t want to spend another Friday at home doing nothing so I bathed Scarlett, got her into her pyjamas and slippers then we headed to my nan’s house. She usually entertains on a Friday as her brother and his other half always come over for a cuppa tea and a chat. We ended up getting home for 9:30 and Scarlett went to bed at 10pm, 3 hours past her bedtime. She did really well. She only started to complain when it got to 9ish and she was REALLY tired!

She wasn’t feeling very well in the night. She woke up with a fever (teething I think) so I had to give her calpol, teething gel and a bottle. She was up from 3am until almost 6am. She eventually settled.

Saturday 10th:

She woke up at 8ish but didn’t stir fully and ended up going back to sleep. So did I. And eventually we surfaced at 10:30am. I don’t think she was right as rain yet because she got up and had breakfast then she cried to go back to bed so I gave her more calpol and put her back down at 12. She slept until 3pm. When she woke up she seemed much happier. We went out for dinner with my mom at 4:30 then did a quick food shop before heading home as mom had work. Scarlett was in bed by 7:30. Didn’t hear much from her except some coughing. Bless her!!!

Sunday (today):

She woke up at 8ish. She had a bottle then a bit later she had some breakfast with a cup of tea. She couldn’t get any more like my family if she tried lol I put her back down for a nap about 10ish. She slept until almost 12. Then we headed to my nan’s. I let her walk. No stroller! She did really well considering the distance and her short legs. Originally we weren’t going for dinner. But we ended up having dinner, pudding and after her playing in and out the garden all day, we went home at 6ish. She had a bath then she watched teletubbies. Then I made her a bottle at 7 and down she went. I heard her cough a bit but she’s alright.

I have been binge watching NCIS lately. I love it. I’m officially following season 7 (having seen the previous seasons in sequential order) but I dipped into season 9 tonight, the finale, after catching 2 episodes previous to it that were good.

I’m also reading. I’m still reading Limitless but I’m 70-something percent done so yay!

Work tomorrow. I bet the week drags balls. And I bet the weather outside our office window all week is blue skies and sunshine lol

TTFN x

Almost late

Sunday 28th:

We took Scarlett up to visit my gran in the old folks home. Scarlett got hold of some playing cards and found it highly amusing to hand random ones to everyone, then take it back, then hand it over again. Kept her amused the entire time we were there.

After we left we headed towards Morrison’s as she desperately needed her Soya Milk. She only had 1 carton left and she needed 1 for nursery, 1 for my nan’s and atleast 1/2 for home. So I grabbed some. Then we went to my nan’s as she was cooking dinner. Scarlett went down for a nap as she was tired and I knew dinner wasn’t going to be ready for at least an hour. She slept for 90 minutes, woke up just as we had finished eating. So she had her dinner in the highchair then she was let loose. We left for home. She had a snack, a bath and then watched some teletubbies before her bottle then bed.

Monday 29th:

Bank holiday Monday. Typically it was very wet outside so again we couldn’t do much. Scarlett had me up at 3am until about 4:30am. Then again at 6am. Finally we got up at 8:30 for the day. As I had given her a bottle at 4am, I just gave her proper breakfast at 8:30. She watched some teletubbies. We read a book. Played with her wooden music bits. Played sleeping lions. Just acted silly. Then I took her up for a nap at 10ish. She woke up at 12 when my dad turned up. I made him a cup of tea then we left to grab lunch. We were going to try out the new place that opened opposite Morrison’s but turns out it isn’t open, yet. Opens tomorrow. So we ended up at the Harvester. They were jam packed so we ended up waiting for our mains for so long. Scarlett did really well considering waiting isn’t exactly a toddler’s best skill. He dropped us home at 2:45 and sped off to his appointment. Mom was watching something on tele. afterwards we went to Morrison’s so I could attempt to get Scarlett’s passport photo done. It was the single most stressful 10 minutes of my life and they best be accepted by the passport people because I refuse to attempt that again! Scarlett was tired as she hadn’t had a chance to have an afternoon siesta but I managed to keep her up. She had her dinner at 5:30, bath at 6:15 and was in bed settled by 7. I watched Emmerdale then I watched 12 monkey’s. I have just started season 2. Season 1 was weird but interesting enough to warrant attempting the second season. I cleared away stuff, got our bags ready for the morning and climbed into bed at 10. I read a bit of my new book and was asleep by 10:30pm [according to my FitBit].

Tuesday 30th:

My stepmom’s birthday today. She is 42. 2 years ago she had a party for her 40th and I revealed I was pregnant there and then. My dad found it amusing that she was going to be a granny at 40.

Back to work today. Almost didn’t make it in on time. I was suppose to have been woken up by my alarm at 6:40am but I didn’t rise from the dead until 7:10 when my mom got in from work and enquired where I was? I managed to dress myself, brush my teeth and dress Scarlett [waking her beforehand] in the space of 8 minutes. Then I grabbed my lunch and off we went. We dropped her off at my Nan’s, swung by McDonald’s for a breakfast wrap then drove to my work. I got in the office for 7:55am. I start at 8!

I forgot to say the other day that I ordered a bunch of stuff for H&M for Scarlett. For our holiday. I got her a handful of dresses, some shorts and 2 pairs of shoes. I got her a pair of navy blue sandals and a pair of water/beach shoes. Very excited about those as I am hoping she will use them on all 3 of our holidays this year.

I also forgot to say mom and I have booked a week away Glamping in September. We are going to Notgrove in Gloucestershire. Just me, her and Scarlett. Should be fun.

On lunch now, watching Lucifer on Amazon Video.

TTFN x