Saying bye to the weekend

Friday could not have come quicker. It was a long week. The week at work after any time away is always the hardest. IMO anyway. We got home at 5:15 and I decided we’d go to my Nan’s for the evening. I don’t do this often as it means a late night for Scarlett. But once every now and then is fine. So we got picked up just after 7. My nan was going to the chip shop so I grabbed myself some dinner as I hadn’t yet eaten. We had a nice evening. Scarlett played and jumped and we didn’t get home till 10:30. She went to bed at 11ish.

Saturday we woke up at half 7ish. I did us some breakfast. Scarlett’s eye has been sore and weepy for a few days. It was horrid this morning. We watched Finding Dory then I put her down for a nap. When she woke we ate lunch then headed to my Nan’s. The sun was shining so she could play in their garden. We ended up staying for dinner. We headed home at 7:30. Quick bath then bed for little madam.

Today I heard her stir at 7ish but she didn’t yell out for me so I went back to sleep. She woke me up at 9am by rattling the stairgate on her bedroom. Turns out she’d shit and it was all down her leg because the nappy was too full of wee so it had no where else to go. Lovely! We had breakfast then at 10:30 we went food shopping with mom. She dropped me home with the shopping and took Scarlett round to hers for an hour. I watched a child-free episode of Shadowhunters and then we all walked to my Nan’s for dinner. Scarlett did some colouring with her chalk board table. And she played Tap Tap Art with everyone. Overall a pretty good day. Weather was too hot for me though. I hate this hot weather. Ironic really, given that I was born in the height of summer lol

We left for Home at 5ish and Scarlett had a banana (she asked for it) then we bathed and chilled. I put her to bed at 7:30. I did two loads of washing and am currently watching more Shadowhunters. I don’t know what I’ll do with myself when I reach the end lol actually tbf I do have season 2 of “13 Reasons Why” to watch. But I’m not in the headspace for it. Season 1 was mad intense and I’m not ready for that kind of focus.

Back to work tomorrow. I had hoped to hand in my notice. But I’ve not received my paperwork from my new role yet and I’m not resigning until I know what I’m signing my soul to lol

TTFN x

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Baby’s not feeling good

Monday I felt knackered. Going back to work after basically 10-11 days off consecutively was a bit much. Plus I still had that shitty cold. If anything I felt worse than I did at the weekend. I didn’t sleep great Sunday so today was just hard work. I caught up with more Shadowhunters as well as the soaps.

At 8:42pm some twat knocked my door. When I peeked around the door frame I could see it was some charity woman from Christian Aid. That is way too late in the evening to be approaching people’s doors. Not just because I have a toddler who they risked waking, but any vulnerable/old people do not need strangers knocked their doors at night. That could cause a fright or anxiety episodes to them. 

Tuesday was even worse. I had 4 hours of sleep because I kept coughing continuously between midnight and 3am. I woke up feeling crappy and I had a banging headache but I went to work regardless. No one is going to pay my bills for me lol

The charity people knocked AGAIN. It was about 8ish. I was eating my dinner.

Wednesday I watched Lucifer thinking it was the season finale but it wasn’t! So got another episode to watch tomorrow. Scarlett and me had a bath at half 6. We watched Emmerdale then I put her to bed whilst my dinner cooked.

I was eating my dinner and the bastard charity people knocked my door again for a third night in a row. I put my plate down and walked towards my hallway when they knocked again. Twice in 30 seconds, are they taking the absolute piss! I was furious so I raced down my flat stairs and swung the door open. This is how it went:

Lady: “Hi, I am here from Christian Aid”.
Me: “yes I know, I have seen you outside all week. You knocked my door rather late Monday and woke my toddler up. Not really acceptable to knock doors at almost 9pm”.
She seemed shocked for me to say this. Why? It IS too late to be knocking doors!
Lady: “It wasn’t that late, sorry to hear that, did your toddler go back to sleep?”
Me: “Yes but that’s hardly the point. It was far too late to be knocking my door and 3 days in a row is a bit much. Verging on harassment tbh.”
Lady: “Well are you interested in giving to our charity?”
Me: “Nah I’m alright thanks” then I slammed my door shut.

Now, just to clarify: I have NO QUALMS about giving to charity. I frequently do so and I will always help someone but when you’re constantly hounded for money left, right and centre it gets me angry. I will give my hard earned pennies when I choose. And if I don’t answer two nights in a row, do not knock a third night. And certainly do not knock twice in the space of 30 seconds. Scarlett is actually unwell so if they’ve had woken her yesterday I would’ve been a lot more rude than I was.

Speaking of Scarlett. She woke up at half 9 when I was on FaceTime to Brett. She was crying, hot and red cheeked. I gave her calpol then she laid on my chest [she never does this]. I put her back to bed at 10ish but she woke up again at half 11 when I went to bed. I settled her and then I fell asleep. She woke up crying at 2:30 and asked to sleep with me in my bed so I let her. She never asks so I relished the fact that she needs her mama. We slept and she woke me up again at like 4/5am. When my alarm went off she was blissfully sleeping. I was able to dress in peace, make my lunch for work and have a wee without an audience. It was bliss. I woke her at 7:20 and dressed her. I managed to convince her to have some calpol then I did some breakfast. I called my Nan at lunch to see how she was when she picked her up. She said she was tired but fine. I am glad about that. I can’t keep taking time off to look after her, even though I legit don’t have an alternative if she’s unwell #momlife

Riverdale season finale is available on Netflix today. I really hope Jughead isn’t dead but we’ll soon see. I watch the Lucifer season finale during lunch. Chloe finally realised he actually IS the devil, as he’s been telling her for 2 years.

I saw this post on Facebook. It was titled “An Open Letter To My Broken Hearted Friend”. I read it and it’s something we all should read and take heed. We’ve all been devastated by a relationship breakdown and we’re all guilty of thinking this “one guy” was the bees knees and he’s damaged us, ruined us forever. He hasn’t, you’re not broken and you will rise. You’ll look back and see it for what it truly was. You’ll be stronger, you’ll learn.

TTFN x

A lovely week ending in a cold

Thursday we did as I said, we stayed on site. We got up and ate breakfast then we headed down for a swim. Scarlett wanted to go on the slide but she’s far too little and I knew she’d get half way down and hate it. She kicked up a fuss and Brett did say he’d take her on it, but I put my foot down. She has plenty of time for that when she’s a big girl.

After swimming we went back to the caravan and Scarlett had a nap. Then I had a shower. When she was up we went into the centre for lunch and a wander around the arcade. We wandered down to the beach then went back to the caravan.

I went to the shops across the road to get dinner. Brett wanted Pizza but I wanted chips so I got me and Scarlett something from the fish shop and him a little pizza. She went to bed then we settled down to watch a film but Brett fell asleep so I went and got into bed. I left him asleep on the sofa.

Friday we got up just before 8. Had breakfast then we packed our shit up then we left. Reception phoned a taxi for us and we got to Hamworthy station just after 10. Train left at 10:30 and we got off the other end at 12:30. My nan picked us up and dropped us home. We put Scarlett down for a nap after some lunch then I did 2 loads of washing [saves doing it all on Sunday] then when it was all hung up drying, I threw a few bits into my weekend bag and off we set for Brett’s house. We got there at 6:30. We had dinner at 7:30, Scarlett had a bath then she went to bed at 9:30. Late one for her but she was good as gold. We watched some more Prison Break then we crawled into bed. I couldn’t sleep due to my newly stuffed nose, annoying cough, bad headache and just overall sickness. It was 3 by the time I nodded off.

Saturday we woke up with Scarlett but we both struggled. We hadn’t slept enough. We went to Sainsbury’s with his mom. I bought myself a new pair of jeans as my current pair are getting tatty [oops]. I also got a new top. Scarlett loves Teletubbies but recently she’s branched out on the BBC iPlayer and watched ITNG [In the night garden] or “piggle” as she calls it, as well as Peter Rabbit [or “rabbit” as she calls it] and she’s always liked Postman Pat. Well she’s taken a liking to Upsy Daisy and Iggle Piggle so I picked up the two characters in 6 inch teddies for her. Brett’s mom got her 1, I got her the other. She was over the moon. It was a treat for being such a great girl all week and travelling so well. After shopping we went back and I put her down for a nap. When she was up we had lunch then we just stayed in all day as it was raining [and I didn’t have her wellies]. We had dinner at half 6, she had a bath at half 7 and we got her down by 8:45. We watched the last 2 episodes of Prison Break on the first disk of series 2 then we got an earlier night.

Today we woke up early and both felt like crap. I had spent most the night coughing. My head was pounding, his head was pounding, he was coughing. It was just insanely awful. I gave him paracetamol and left him to work through it. He’s shit with a headache. I just plough on through as I get a headache every week, sometimes twice. And I use to be a huge migraine sufferer. I haven’t had a migraine in months *touch wood*.

I did Scarlett some toast then we watched the soaps from Friday that I missed [Emmerdale, Corrie]. She went down for a nap at half 10 but she didn’t go down that quick and she only slept for an hour at most. I had to go food shopping and with it being a Sunday the shops shut at 4 [some 5] so I decided early on I would go home at 1ish. So I packed our stuff up, made some lunch and checked trains. There was a train at 1:21pm so we set off and I got on the train. We arrived the other end at 3pm. Scarlett had been a whingy nightmare most of the journey as her tiredness was catching up with her. She finally fell asleep about 20 minutes from our stop. I walked to Sainsbury’s and grabbed as much as I could without injuring myself as I had a stroller to push and 2 bags to keep an eye on as well as the basket. She woke up just as the Taxi arrived at 3:45. We got home and it was such a great feeling. Shutting the door to the outside world and collapsing on the sofa [after packing the shopping away, obvs]. Scarlett was grumpy as she was still tired, then hungry. I cooked dinner at 5ish then we had a bath then at 7:30 she went to bed.

I caught up with Riverdale from last week. How can they kill off Jughead? Also, I am pretty sure that Betty’s Dad has a twin. I mean he’s actually a blossom and twins run in their family right? Plus he was with Betty and her mom when someone dressed as the Black Hood attacked Archie and his Dad… I guess we’ll have to wait for season 3. Better not make us wait too long. 6 months is acceptable but a year? Nah!

I caught up with some more Shadowhunters. I am on season 2 now and Clary’s mom just died. A demon possessed Alec and he killed her. I didn’t see that coming tbh. I mean, I vaguely remember the storyline of the book and movie. I will watch 1 more episode then get into bed as my head is banging and I am back to work tomorrow.

TTFN x

Monkey World & Weymouth

Tuesday we woke up at half 8. We had breakfast then we got ready to go. We left just before 10 for Monkey World. We got there and paid for our tickets. We wandered around, looking at the monkeys. It was quite warm. Scarlett was pointing at everything and watching the monkeys. We had lunch at 12 at the cafe inside the park then we carried on walking. We all had hotdogs for lunch. We ended our visit with a trip to the gift shop. £70 later and I’ve got some goodies. I got Scarlett some pyjamas. The same ones as our trip before but in her now size. Also got myself a tankard and a tshirt. And some bits and bobs for other people (family).

We got back to the caravan site at half 3 and we decided to go swimming as the pool is open till 5:30. Mom stayed in the caravan. Us 3 went off. We had a lovely time. I forgot how much I liked swimming and bopping around in the water. Still not BFFs with water but I don’t mind casually hanging out in the water. We stayed till almost 5 then we got out. When we got back we both had a shower then I bathed Scarlett. Had to get the chlorine out of our skins. All 3 of us have skin disorders. Scarlett has eczema. Brett has psoriasis. I have lichen sclerosis.

We went out for dinner. We went to a Hungary Horse pub that was down the road. I had this delicious chicken thing with chips and curry sauce. We ate then we came back. Scarlett went to bed and we watched Prison Break.

Today we woke up at almost 9. Had breakfast then we headed out to Weymouth for the day. We couldn’t find a parking spot for ages and the Jurassic Skyline wasn’t open. So we walked around, stopped for lunch at Wetherspoons then we headed back to the caravan.

We decided we’d go swimming tomorrow. So we stayed in the caravan. My mom left for Home just before 5. I put some dinner on at 6ish and we sat down to eat just before Emmerdale started. Brett bathed Scarlett whilst I watched Corrie. The storyline is about a guy taking his own life even though he seems like he’s doing fine, has a great life etc. That’s exactly why they’ve done it. To prove that suicide doesn’t always come from someone who is outwardly depressed. More often than not, the person isn’t showing the “signs”. As someone who’s family has survived a suicide, all I can say is that I hope anyone who is struggling knows there is always someone to talk to. Someone will always listen. So please talk!

Tonight we’re watching Prison Break. We’ve almost finished season 1 then he’ll head to bed.

Tomorrow we’re staying on site. We will go swimming and check out the arcade and park etc. It’ll be good.

TTFN x

We’ve arrived

Today we woke up at 8ish. I sorted some breakfast then we watched Toy Story. I packed then Brett had a bath. Scarlett and I got dressed then once Brett was ready mom took us to Morrison’s. We decided it was cheaper to buy essentials from there, than the onsite shop as it’s really expensive. So we hit the shops then we went back to my flat. I finished packing then we headed out at 1ish. We stopped for lunch then we set off.

Scarlett slept half the journey. I watched an episode of Shadowhunters that I’d downloaded. We arrived at 3:30 and they said they were running behind on check-in so we went to the pub down the road for a drink. Scarlett had a play in the kids area in the garden. Stretched her legs. Finally they were ready at 5 so we drove back and got the keys.

Our caravan is brilliant. We expected just a 2 bedroom. Meaning my mom would either have to share with Scarlett or sleep on the pull our sofa. Instead we have 3 bedrooms. A fridge/freezer and a proper 4-seater table with chairs.

We chilled for a bit then mom put on the dinner. We had pie. We got chips from the chip shop to go with it. Scarlett had a bath at 7:30 and was in bed at 8:15. She was very tired but she settled after a bit of a whinge.

We are watching Prison Break. Mom is in bed.

We’re going to Monkey World tomorrow. Scarlett went when she was 5 months. It’ll be such fun taking her at this age. 2-3 years is the best (and toughest). She learns so much every day and talks so much more clearer.

TTFN x

1 more sleep till Rockley Park

Thursday Scarlett had her 2 year review with the Health Visiting team. She’s practically perfect in every way. Scores all in the “white area”. They did her height, she’s 85cm and her weight was 22lb. She’s so little, bless her.

She had a fever when she woke up from her nap. I gave her calpol. She was very sad and not herself. She had me up at midnight then again at 3am.

Friday Scarlett stayed off Nursery as her fever was bad and we had a shit night. She was miserable all day. We had no food in so we popped to the shops so we could eat and grab some groceries. We went to my nans for a cup of tea then we headed home. Brett arrived at 9:30. Scarlett went to bed at 10. We went to bed at 1ish.

Saturday Scarlett woke up and we had breakfast. We watched Frozen then she went down for a nap. When she was up we had lunch. We stayed in all day as it was so hot outside. I cooked dinner then bathed Scarlett. We headed out to drop her at my nans so we could go cinema. I bought the tickets weeks ago.

We watched Avengers Infinity War. It was good but the ending was a bit weird. And now there’s a year long wait for part 2!

We got home at 11:30. Scarlett was really grumpy and took ages to settle. We went to sleep at 2:30.

Sunday She woke up screaming at 3:30 and it took me ages to settle her back asleep. She woke again at 6am and wouldn’t calm down. Ended up getting up with her, making breakfast and chilling. She perked up after some calpol. I put her down for a nap at 8ish.

I woke up at almost midday. She’d had a 3/4 hour sleep. She needed it. She usually sleeps 12 hours a night but had only had 6 hours, broken sleep. Brett took her out for an hour to play. I watched the season 2 premier of Mortal Instruments. When they came back I did us cheese on toast for lunch. Brett took all the boxes down to my garage and took the recycling out. Then he put together my two side tables and 2 bedside tables from ikea. Scarlett had a nap and woke up at 6ish.

I put dinner on then Scarlett had a bath at 7:30. She went to bed at 8:30. I had had a bath with her so Brett had 1 after then we settled down to watch more Prison Break together. It’s so hot here. My flat is a sweat box. I can’t deal with it. I’m so glad our “summer” is only the odd week here and there. I couldn’t live this for months. I’d melt!

We’re off on holiday tomorrow. I’m excited. We’re staying at Rockley Park in Poole. We’re doing monkey world, Weymouth and Bournemouth. The weather is suppose to be warm so I’m packing for that but also throwing in some jeans and hoodies etc.

TTFN x

Holiday in 5 days!

Yesterday wasn’t that bad of a day. Had lots to do at work and the day flew by. I got an email from the job interview I went for. They want to do a second interview but can’t confirm a date yet. I’m away next week so hopefully it happens before then. Would like it out the way before I am on annual leave as it’ll give them a week to decide whether the job is mine.

I said in my last post that Scarlett’s hit the terrible twos:

She’s so naughty at the moment. She doesn’t listen. She pushes and taps you (mild slapping). She says No all the time. She’s defiant and stubborn. I think she’s hit the Terrible Twos. She’s been like it a few weeks and I’m already at the end of my tether. She just pushes and pushes. Nothings working. I’ve tried the softly approach but all I seem to do lately is shout at her to get her attention because she just does not listen. I cried with frustration earlier and it did stop her in her tracks and she calmed down a little so we could chat. I’m not sure she listened or took in what I said. I mean she is only 2. But it was worth a try.

Yesterday we had a better evening and we sat down and had another chat. I asked her some questions to gauge her understanding/comprehension. I told her she needs to listen to  what I/Nursery/Nanny/Daddy tell her. She has to speak more. If she isn’t happy or wants something she needs to speak up. She needs to stop jumping on the sofa, her bed or anything else like a chair as it’s dangerous. I told her if she gets a toy out she needs to put it back or ask for help in putting it back. Same with books. I am going to get her to help tidy up the front room tonight. Her toys and books are everywhere.

Today I woke up in a pool of blood. I stupidly thought my period was calming down so I only wore a pad overnight. I hate tampons. They are uncomfortable. So I try to avoid them. But I got caught out massively and had to leave my soaking PJ bottoms and pants in a bowl of cold water [and vanish] this morning when I headed out to work.

I still can’t believe I live in my own place. I mean we’ve lived there for nearly 7 weeks now. I’ve paid 2 lots of rent already plus 1 month of utility bills. So far, so good. It’s scary though. Knowing I have to pay all these things as well as Nursery fees, my phone bill, my iPad bill, Netflix [because I can’t live without it. Evenings are spent at home because the toddler is in bed]. Amazon Prime [I opted for monthly rather than £80 lump sum each year]. God what else do I pay for? Oh I pay money off my credit card, I put money in Scarlett’s account and I pay off my studio account. My brother’s bed came from my studio account so I pay the fees each month and he and his girlfriend are giving me money each month.

Tomorrow I have a half day at work as Scarlett has her 2 year Health Visit review. It’s like 90 minutes long. Also, I’ve lost her Red Book. Her RED BOOK. How? I can’t blame the move because it’s been lost months…

Once I am done Friday I am then off for 9 consecutive days. 2 weekends, 1 bank holiday and 4 days holiday. I can’t wait. Poole here we come!

TTFN x