Baby’s not feeling good

Monday I felt knackered. Going back to work after basically 10-11 days off consecutively was a bit much. Plus I still had that shitty cold. If anything I felt worse than I did at the weekend. I didn’t sleep great Sunday so today was just hard work. I caught up with more Shadowhunters as well as the soaps.

At 8:42pm some twat knocked my door. When I peeked around the door frame I could see it was some charity woman from Christian Aid. That is way too late in the evening to be approaching people’s doors. Not just because I have a toddler who they risked waking, but any vulnerable/old people do not need strangers knocked their doors at night. That could cause a fright or anxiety episodes to them. 

Tuesday was even worse. I had 4 hours of sleep because I kept coughing continuously between midnight and 3am. I woke up feeling crappy and I had a banging headache but I went to work regardless. No one is going to pay my bills for me lol

The charity people knocked AGAIN. It was about 8ish. I was eating my dinner.

Wednesday I watched Lucifer thinking it was the season finale but it wasn’t! So got another episode to watch tomorrow. Scarlett and me had a bath at half 6. We watched Emmerdale then I put her to bed whilst my dinner cooked.

I was eating my dinner and the bastard charity people knocked my door again for a third night in a row. I put my plate down and walked towards my hallway when they knocked again. Twice in 30 seconds, are they taking the absolute piss! I was furious so I raced down my flat stairs and swung the door open. This is how it went:

Lady: “Hi, I am here from Christian Aid”.
Me: “yes I know, I have seen you outside all week. You knocked my door rather late Monday and woke my toddler up. Not really acceptable to knock doors at almost 9pm”.
She seemed shocked for me to say this. Why? It IS too late to be knocking doors!
Lady: “It wasn’t that late, sorry to hear that, did your toddler go back to sleep?”
Me: “Yes but that’s hardly the point. It was far too late to be knocking my door and 3 days in a row is a bit much. Verging on harassment tbh.”
Lady: “Well are you interested in giving to our charity?”
Me: “Nah I’m alright thanks” then I slammed my door shut.

Now, just to clarify: I have NO QUALMS about giving to charity. I frequently do so and I will always help someone but when you’re constantly hounded for money left, right and centre it gets me angry. I will give my hard earned pennies when I choose. And if I don’t answer two nights in a row, do not knock a third night. And certainly do not knock twice in the space of 30 seconds. Scarlett is actually unwell so if they’ve had woken her yesterday I would’ve been a lot more rude than I was.

Speaking of Scarlett. She woke up at half 9 when I was on FaceTime to Brett. She was crying, hot and red cheeked. I gave her calpol then she laid on my chest [she never does this]. I put her back to bed at 10ish but she woke up again at half 11 when I went to bed. I settled her and then I fell asleep. She woke up crying at 2:30 and asked to sleep with me in my bed so I let her. She never asks so I relished the fact that she needs her mama. We slept and she woke me up again at like 4/5am. When my alarm went off she was blissfully sleeping. I was able to dress in peace, make my lunch for work and have a wee without an audience. It was bliss. I woke her at 7:20 and dressed her. I managed to convince her to have some calpol then I did some breakfast. I called my Nan at lunch to see how she was when she picked her up. She said she was tired but fine. I am glad about that. I can’t keep taking time off to look after her, even though I legit don’t have an alternative if she’s unwell #momlife

Riverdale season finale is available on Netflix today. I really hope Jughead isn’t dead but we’ll soon see. I watch the Lucifer season finale during lunch. Chloe finally realised he actually IS the devil, as he’s been telling her for 2 years.

I saw this post on Facebook. It was titled “An Open Letter To My Broken Hearted Friend”. I read it and it’s something we all should read and take heed. We’ve all been devastated by a relationship breakdown and we’re all guilty of thinking this “one guy” was the bees knees and he’s damaged us, ruined us forever. He hasn’t, you’re not broken and you will rise. You’ll look back and see it for what it truly was. You’ll be stronger, you’ll learn.

TTFN x

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Holiday in 5 days!

Yesterday wasn’t that bad of a day. Had lots to do at work and the day flew by. I got an email from the job interview I went for. They want to do a second interview but can’t confirm a date yet. I’m away next week so hopefully it happens before then. Would like it out the way before I am on annual leave as it’ll give them a week to decide whether the job is mine.

I said in my last post that Scarlett’s hit the terrible twos:

She’s so naughty at the moment. She doesn’t listen. She pushes and taps you (mild slapping). She says No all the time. She’s defiant and stubborn. I think she’s hit the Terrible Twos. She’s been like it a few weeks and I’m already at the end of my tether. She just pushes and pushes. Nothings working. I’ve tried the softly approach but all I seem to do lately is shout at her to get her attention because she just does not listen. I cried with frustration earlier and it did stop her in her tracks and she calmed down a little so we could chat. I’m not sure she listened or took in what I said. I mean she is only 2. But it was worth a try.

Yesterday we had a better evening and we sat down and had another chat. I asked her some questions to gauge her understanding/comprehension. I told her she needs to listen to  what I/Nursery/Nanny/Daddy tell her. She has to speak more. If she isn’t happy or wants something she needs to speak up. She needs to stop jumping on the sofa, her bed or anything else like a chair as it’s dangerous. I told her if she gets a toy out she needs to put it back or ask for help in putting it back. Same with books. I am going to get her to help tidy up the front room tonight. Her toys and books are everywhere.

Today I woke up in a pool of blood. I stupidly thought my period was calming down so I only wore a pad overnight. I hate tampons. They are uncomfortable. So I try to avoid them. But I got caught out massively and had to leave my soaking PJ bottoms and pants in a bowl of cold water [and vanish] this morning when I headed out to work.

I still can’t believe I live in my own place. I mean we’ve lived there for nearly 7 weeks now. I’ve paid 2 lots of rent already plus 1 month of utility bills. So far, so good. It’s scary though. Knowing I have to pay all these things as well as Nursery fees, my phone bill, my iPad bill, Netflix [because I can’t live without it. Evenings are spent at home because the toddler is in bed]. Amazon Prime [I opted for monthly rather than £80 lump sum each year]. God what else do I pay for? Oh I pay money off my credit card, I put money in Scarlett’s account and I pay off my studio account. My brother’s bed came from my studio account so I pay the fees each month and he and his girlfriend are giving me money each month.

Tomorrow I have a half day at work as Scarlett has her 2 year Health Visit review. It’s like 90 minutes long. Also, I’ve lost her Red Book. Her RED BOOK. How? I can’t blame the move because it’s been lost months…

Once I am done Friday I am then off for 9 consecutive days. 2 weekends, 1 bank holiday and 4 days holiday. I can’t wait. Poole here we come!

TTFN x

The Terrible Twos

Tuesday after work we went up the hospital to visit my Nan. She looked alright considering she’d had surgery at her ripe old age of almost 90. Scarlett was really well behaved and didn’t run around the ward as I had expected her to. We left for Home and grabbed food on the way as I hadn’t eaten.

Wednesday we had a big meeting at work. Well the meeting itself was at the Holiday Inn in the conference room. Apparently my job is at risk due to a restructure, coming from the merger of my department (and our sub department) with another department. Basically they’ve come in and told us we have to fight for our jobs. But they’re moving my office to another office. 9 miles away. As a non-driver this won’t work for me. So I’ve no choice but to leave. It left us all in low spirits if I’m being honest. Luckily I already had an interview lined up for the afternoon so fingers crossed something comes from that.

Thursday Scarlett didn’t go to bed till late. Well she did go to bed at a normal time. But she was still awake at 9pm. I even climbed in her bed with her for 10 minutes and it didn’t make a difference. I caught her chewing her dummy so I’ve taken it off her. She’s too old to have 1 now and she doesn’t need it. It’s just become habit for her.

Friday Brett got off the train when I finished work so we picked him up. It was great having him here for bath and bedtime on a Friday for a change. He doesn’t usually get here that early, when he’s working. Scarlett enjoyed a bedtime story with Daddy, rather than me. She prefers it when he does it. Day 2 of No Dummy went ok. When she went to bed I cooked us dinner then I had a quick bath. We watched Prison Break season 1 episodes 1-4. We said we’d watch the entire series from beginning to end as I haven’t seen it in years and can barely remember.

Saturday we got up at 8ish. We had breakfast then we watched A Little Mermaid. Well some of it. We put her down for a nap. I did some washing. When she was up we went into town for lunch then I bought a present for Scarlett’s Nursery friend. His party was at 3pm so I had to wrap it in the car outside. The party wasn’t that bad just very hectic. Lots of kids everywhere. Brett got forced into following her into the jungle gym. She wouldn’t go without him haha at 4:30 the kids had some dinner then at 5 we left. It was good seeing her with her little friends. After the party we went to Morrison’s so I could do a small shop then we headed home. Scarlett had a bath then she went to bed. I cooked us pizza and garlic bread then we settled down to watch more Prison Break.

Sunday I woke up at 8ish and heard Scarlett moving. She didn’t call out so I stayed in bed and must’ve fell asleep because when I heard her again it was quarter to 10. Result! We got up and had breakfast. We played and watched TV. At 12:30 we walked to my nan’s house for dinner. We stayed till 3ish then went home to chill. Brett left mine at 4:30 to get a lift to the train station. Me and Scarlett had cheese on toast then we had a bath. Mom popped in for tea then Scarlett went to bed at 8:30. Mom left just before 9. I settled down to watch a new series I’ve started. It’s called Shadow Hunters: The Mortal Instruments. It’s been a movie, which I’ve seen. And I read the books as well. It’s brill.

Monday (today) I woke up just before 7. Started making my lunch and Scarlett woke up crying. She had a bad dream. We got dressed then I did breakfast.

She’s so naughty at the moment. She doesn’t listen. She pushes and taps you (mild slapping). She says No all the time. She’s defiant and stubborn. I think she’s hit the Terrible Twos. She’s been like it a few weeks and I’m already at the end of my tether. She just pushes and pushes. Nothings working. I’ve tried the softly approach but all I seem to do lately is shout at her to get her attention because she just does not listen. I cried with frustration earlier and it did stop her in her tracks and she calmed down a little so we could chat. I’m not sure she listened or took in what I said. I mean she is only 2. But it was worth a try.

She went to bed at 7:30 but was still awake till almost 9! I watched the soaps then Criminal Minds. Tried to watch Blindspot but my TalkTalk box was playing up so I had to turn it off and reset. I lost my recording of Blindspot. So I set it up to record later on and I climbed into bed.

I’ve got neck ache and a headache. I’m on so I’m exhausted with menstural fatigue.

They named the new price. Louis Arthur Charles, pronounced as Loo-wee. How exciting!

TTFN x

TV Box All Set-Up

Monday we woke up at 8:30am. I slept great. So did Scarlett. We had some breakfast and watched the rest of Open Season, the movie from the other day. My mom’s friend said her and her partner would come round at 11 to sort out my TV box. I put Scarlett down for a nap just before she got there, with her partner. He sorted it whilst I made tea. So now I have a working TV box. I can record stuff and pause TV if needed. I thanked them, paid for the cable and they left. I set all my programmes up to record, logged into Netflix and NowTV then Scarlett woke up. She woke up at almost 2. We walked round my Nan’s house to let her dog out, as she’s out all day and it’s not fair on the dog being cooped up [not that she cares, she sleeps all day]. We stayed for 2 hours.

Scarlett is beyond clever. She was eating a yoghurt [which she had asked nicely for] and she asked for another. I said she could have 1 but she had to throw the old one in the bin then go into the fridge and get a new 1. She threw it away then went and got a new 1. When she was done she said she was finished so I said she had to throw that away too. I never mentioned the spoon, I forgot. When she came back I asked her where her spoon was. I expected her to have thrown it in the bin. She said it was on the side. I went into the kitchen and as she said, it was sat on the side. I literally could feel my heart bursting with proud. This tiny little person is growing up. I remember waiting for my emergency scan when I was 7 weeks, finding out I was 10 days behind than I thought, and barely seeing a speck on the screen. And now looking at her, where has that time gone? I am excited to see the person she will become. Already she amazes me. She is beyond cheeky, very bossy, chatty and caring. She is also stroppy and strong-willed. She shares whatever she has. She likes to sit near you and play, asking you to join in sometimes but is happy to play by herself, immersing herself in her own little world with her dolls. She pretends to feed them. I caught her using her changing mat to “change” the baby doll’s nappy lol

We walked back home at 5pm. I cooked us some dinner for 6pm then I put her in the bath. She wanted me to bath with her but I fancy having a bath by myself for a change. By the time she was ready for bed my mom had turned up. She said she’d pop in for a cup of tea before heading to work at 9ish. So she came and I made tea. Scarlett had her milk then she went off to bed at 7:30. We watched TV and chatted. She headed off at 9. I put another episode of Altered Carbon on, then another before switching over to watch my recorded episode of Blindspot from 10pm. At about 11:30 I got into bed.

Today I woke up at 6:45 when my alarm went off. I woke up to loads of notifications. I got myself dressed, sorted my bag for work and Scarlett’s nursery bag. I went in and dressed her. We brushed our teeth then I put teletubbies on for her then I made our breakfast. We ate together then I made my lunch. My Nan turned up at 7:30. She put her coat and shoes on. I put my own on then I left for work at 7:45.

Today has dragged a little. It usually does during the school holidays as a lot of staff book time off to spend with their kids. So there’s less emails, meaning less work. I prefer busy days.

I don’t know why people trust me to rent a flat, pay my bills and keep my child alive when I can’t even eat a chocolate yoghurt without getting it all over myself. I was eating my lunch and my yoghurt went down my blouse AND my hoodie. FFS lol

TTFN x

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TTFN x

International Women’s Day 2018

Wednesday I got to work for 8. By 10 my eye was so bad I couldn’t see. My managers were in a meeting so I left an email and a text to say I was off home and then I left. When I got in I cleaned my eye out, I took more antihistamines and then climbed into bed with a wet flannel on my face. I fell asleep and woke up at lunch time. I ate some lunch then I laid back in bed waiting for the scratchy feeling and throbbing pain [and leaky water] to subside. It didn’t that much.

Thursday I stayed home again. My manager didn’t seem pleased but what could I do. My eye was still so bad. So I went back to bed after I sent Scarlett off to Nursery. I got up at 1:30. I didn’t bother with lunch. I went to my Nan’s. Scarlett was napping. Once she was up, she had dinner then we headed home. I watched some TV then I laid in a nice hot bath reading my book. I caught up with the season finale of Requiem. Two episodes instead of 1. It was a really strange ending. Scarlett woke up at midnight when I had just laid down to sleep. Typical. She was cute though. She thinks it’s exciting laying in my bed. She snuggles right up under my duvet. I put her back in her cot at 1am. Then finished reading my book. That is 6 books in the space of 2 weeks.

International Women’s Day 2018. As a mother of a daughter all I posted on Insta was “she may be small, but she is mighty“. I’ve heard it somewhere before but I can’t think where. It just sounded appropriate. I aim to raise my girl to be strong, independent and fierce. But also kind, loyal and determined. She’s very stubborn so I look forward [not] to her teen years. The terrible twos have already started [save me]!!!

Today I got up at 7. Got dressed then got Scarlett dressed. We brushed our teeth then I did her breakfast. I wasn’t hungry. I left at 7:45 for work. I’ve had a headache all day and my eye are been scratchy still because the heater was on and it kept drying my eye out. To be honest the heater didn’t need to be on, I was getting ready hot. The weather outside is dreary but not cold. I actually felt sick at one point.

Brett is coming down tonight. He is staying over and going home tomorrow evening. He wants to spend some time with Scarlett. I genuinely don’t know what is the best course of action. I am the reason they have a bond in the first place so I don’t feel it’s right or fair of me to rip them apart. At the same time, I’m not sure how appropriate or healthy it is for her to keep seeing him as “Daddy”. At the end of the day, he’s not her dad. And it’s not like we’ve been together years and have other children. It’s not been 2 years and it’s just her. Honestly, who knew navigating dating whilst a single parent was so damn tricky! I swear I am not going near anyone else. This has put me off for life!

TTFN x

P.S. move in day is in T-Minus 14 days!

The beast from the east

I think someone proper pissed Elsa off. We did walk to my nan’s as planned. It didn’t take that long but it was FREEZING!!!! We had some lunch then we played together. She did her puzzles. We did some colouring. My mom came round when she got up (she’d worked the night before). We stayed for dinner. I didn’t have much as I didn’t fancy toad in the hole. I helped wash the dishes then we headed home. Between us we managed even though it was still snowing and windy AF!

Scarlett had a bath at 7ish then we watched Emmerdale. I put her to bed when it was finished then mom and I watched the second episode. She went up for a bath and then I did us some cheese on toast. We watched a film at 9:30 before heading up to bed.

The Nursery emailed me and said they’d made the decision to close the nursery for Friday.

Today we didn’t wake up till 8:30. I did Scarlett some breakfast then we got dressed and headed into town with mom. We walked to the bus stop. We ended up not waiting that long for the bus. In town we went to Sainsbury’s then we stopped at the cafe for a milkshake. My nan finished work just before 12 and was headed home on the bus so she met us and we travelled back to her house together.

We had some lunch and a cup of tea. It wasn’t snowing at this point. It hadn’t snowed since yesterday night. At 12:45 it started snowing again!!!!! My brother and his girlfriend walked round. They left with my mom at 3ish just after I put Scarlett down for a nap.

I’m currently sat at my nans table watching the snow out of the window. I’ve done some work today and kept up with emails etc.

When it hits 5pm I’ll wake up Scarlett and we’ll head home. It’s still snowing. That’s 4 hours now!!!

TTFN x