Bank holiday weekend FTW

Monday 24th:

Wasn’t as bad a day as I expected. I mean, yeah, I was totally not mentally prepared to go back to work after 10 days off. But I did. And I lived. And so did everyone else. So a win!

Mom and I are fine. We just left it as a middle of the night tiff.

Tuesday 25th:

My brother came to visit today so my mom picked me up for lunch. We had a little lunch date (and a catch up). Scarlett came too. Was good getting out the office. Much needed fresh air and convo!

Wednesday 26th:

I had lunch with my work team. We went to a pub down the road. I had a steak and cheese wrap. It was delicious. It came with fries and a drink for £8. That’s really old IMO. I saw the trailer for Kingsman 2. It looked brilliant so I’ll definitely be going to see that. 

Thursday 27th:

Had my 1-to-1 monthly meeting at work. Nothing special. Just chatting and filling out a form. I ordered some bits from GAP for Scarlett for our holiday to Italy. It’ll be warm when we go so she needed some new dresses. Most of her dresses don’t fit her now. They’re 9-12 months some of them, and she’s grown in height so they’re like t-shirts now lol

I tidied up when Scarlett was in bed. Hoovered then washed up. Did 2 loads of washing. Made myself a snack. Took sausages out of the freezer for breakfast Friday and then got in to bed.

Friday 28th:

I had a super busy day. I had this task to do. It was massive and took me all day, and I’m not even finished yet. Will finish it Tuesday, hopefully! Mom met me for lunch. We grabbed food then I picked up Scarlett’s new Clarks shoes. I got her the pink version of the white ones she already has.

Someone told me I looked pregnant. So I guess I’ll have to start dieting if it’s got to that point lol tbf I know I’ve put on about 10 lbs in the last 7 months. Ever since I went back to work. That can’t be a coincidence surely!

Tonight Scarlett had a bath and went to bed by 7ish. Mom and I watched emmerdale then when her boyfriend arrived, we had dinner. They watched some tele downstairs. I came up to watch Riverdale in bed. I’m knackered. It’s been a long week so I may go to sleep soon.

We are going to Godstone Farm tomorrow. It looks really fun. There’s a lot of stuff designed for her age and now she’s walking it’ll be so much better for her to explore. I’m excited lol can you tell?


Hump Day

Saturday 4th:

We spent the day with my grandparents as I hadn’t seen them much in the week. My throat was so sore I was struggling to swallow fluids so I phoned 111 and spoke to an out of hours doctor. Apparently they are so magical that they can diagnose problems over the phone. Problems that normal GPs require seeing you face-to-face for. Imagine that! So it is “viral” but to call my GP if I don’t feel better in the week. I took Scarlett to get measured for her first shoes at Clarks. I got her a pair of pre-walkers. She is a 3F. She was so funny standing in her shoes because she kept trying to flick them off lol


Sunday 5th:

My nan was out for the day so me and Scarlett stayed home. I let her have a good nap then we wandered to town. Mostly because we needed fresh air but I had also planned to take her to soft play. We ate lunch then walked to the play thing. It was packed so I turned right back round and went home.

Monday 6th:

My eye swelled up over night. It had been itchy and sore the night before but usually a good nights sleep helps it calm down. Not this time. So I phoned in sick at work and made an emergency doctors appointment. It took me an hour to get through. Firstly it took about 15-20 attempts to get through then I was on the holding loop (with shitty music) for 10 minutes. It got to the point where it says how many people were in front of me and there was only 2 then it cut me off. So I had to do it all again and it took 30 attempts to get through and I was on hold for another 15 minutes. When I finally did get through and explained my issue, they told me I would get a phone call back. I explained that I had already had a telephone appointment with 111 and that the issue needs to be “seen”. The receptionist was rather rude and said that it was procedure. Weird because that has never happened to me before so I guess it must be a really new procedure! So the doc called and said she didn’t understand why they didn’t make me a proper appointment and she made me one there and then. I went back to bed for a couple of hours and then walked to my appointment. Saw the doc and she said it all looks viral but to come back in a week if nothing has gotten better, or if it gets worse.

Scarlett was at nursery a whole day so I figured I could grab something to eat at my nan’s before heading home. And she lives next to the surgery so I walked to hers for some lunch. Me and my mom picked her up later.

Tuesday 7th:

My eye was still really bad and it was swollen when I woke up at 5am. I woke up early because it was hurting and I had a bad headache. I called in sick again and just tried to keep my eye clean and lubricated. It helped because I felt much better later.

Wednesday 8th (today):

Well I went to work today. Had a back-to-work interview. Wasn’t necessary in my eyes because I was only off for 2 days but anyway. Also got moaned at about “using my phone too much”. Yeah, because I am the only person to touch my phone. Irony is that my phone didn’t even have signal most of the week before as I had run out of data and I turned my 4G off so I couldn’t go over my limit and get charged. So I wasn’t even connected to anything except texts or calls – which I get very few. But whatever.

After my meeting, we had another one that had been scheduled to my calendar whilst I was off. Turns out that someone somewhere has decided my team is to no longer work as part of the water department but to be merged with the main company’s maximo team. Where this leaves us, I have no clue. The guy we will be going to “come under” is based in Whiteley, an hour or so away. We had so many questions for the guy but he had no answers for us today. I am not sure how I feel about it. But as a non-driver I won’t be travelling to Whiteley every day. I struggle to get to our office for 8am now, no way can I make it to Whiteley for 8am.

Just in bed. So tired. It has been a long week and it is only Hump Day.


First full week

Wednesday (1st):

Scarlett had beef chilli for dinner and she loved it. She made a mahoosive mess though and it reminded me of why I didn’t do Baby Led Weaning lol

She had me up at 3am. She screamed for half hour. I tried everything. In the end I decided maybe she was hungry. 5oz bottle made and drained within’ a few minutes. She then went back to sleep. HUH! She never wakes for a bottle. Must be a growth spurt.

Thursday (2nd):

World Book Day. The nursery joined in but I couldn’t find the costume I wanted her to wear, in her size. Typically BWD is done at schools so everything was aged 4+. I was hoping to send her in as Harry Potter, well Hermione. But in the end she wore an outfit wit the Gruffalo on it instead. Good compromise lol

She had me up at 5am last night instead of 3am. Same thing happened. In the end I made her a 6oz bottle, drained it and went back to sleep. Lucky for her. I couldn’t go back to sleep so I laid in bed from about 5:45:am, turned my alarm off when it went off at 6:30am and then finally “got up” when mom popped her head in at 7am lol

Friday (3rd):

Running on low energy today. Thankfully I have my trusty 500ml monster drink in my drawer lol mom met me for lunch at 1pm. We went into town for food and a wander.

My brother is moving in with his dad and step-mom tomorrow so we went out for dinner after work to say Bye. He is only moving about an hour away but we’ve all lived together so long so we felt we needed to do this. So we did. We went to the Harvester he used to work at.

We had a good meal and Scarlett ate so much. After we finished we went home. On the drive home some absolute knobhead tried to undertake my moms car on the dual carriage way. She was in the right hand lane, there was a car in the left hand lane, slightly ahead of her. Some twat came speeding up behind her, crossed into the left lane and proceeded to try some James Bond type shit of squeezing in the tiny gap between my moms front bumper and the other cars back bumper. My mom had to hit her brakes whilst going 70mph (the speed limit, just FYI) and the dickhead weaved in front of her and sped off. I was furious. It is bad enough that he would’ve hit us but to hit Scarlett’s side, I was angry as fuck!

Not got much planned this weekend. A relaxing one. Hopefully.


Pancake Day 2017

Tuesday (21st):

Brett went home at midday. He walked to the station and got the train home. Mom and me had Scarlett walking between us 

Thursday (23rd):

Something fell from the ceiling as I walked through the door to where we eat lunch at work. It was super close to hitting me on the head. I had to phone up a “near miss” hotline we use and they had me answering lots of mad questions. It was due to Storm Doris. The wind was so bad it can caused indoor ceiling panels to come loose!

Friday (24th):

I had to book this day as annual leave because my mom was away and couldn’t pick me or Scarlett up at 5pm. She dropped Scarlett at nursery then picked her up at lunch time. Usually she does a full day but I said as I was off I would have her at home after lunch.

We got on the train at 4pm and arrived at the train station near Brett’s house at 5pm. He was working but he had finished and we made it back to his house at the same time. His mom had picked us up from the station. She went out and bought a car seat so I don’t have to lug one with me every time we visit. That was so nice of her. I had planned to get one delivered and paid for by myself. 

She was all over his mom. She wouldn’t leave her alone. It was really cute. I would say “where is nan nan?” and she would look for her!

Saturday (25th):

Scarlett is officially 13 months now. Mad to think she is over a year now. His mom offered to babysit for the evening so we could go do something. We settled on going for food and cinema. So Brett bathed her at 6:30 and got her ready for bed. I got her bottle sorted and she had that. When I tried to put her to bed she didn’t wanna go, so she stayed up for a bit. His mom dropped us at the cinema. Scarlett stayed at home with Brett’s brother. She really likes him. He is good with her. We had some food then watched 50 shades darker. Brett’s choice. I have seen it but he hasn’t and he wanted to. He saw the first and said it “wasn’t bad”.

We had a decent evening and she was flat out asleep when we went back home later on.

Sunday (26th):

Scarlett woke up at 5am. Needed a cuddle then back down. She woke up again at 8am. We had a lovely roast chicken dinner and then chilled for a bit. We got on the train at 6ish and were home by 7. My mom picked us up from the station. Scarlett went to bed at about 9ish I think. Usually she is down by 7 but she was too excited to be home so I let her be before tea, bath and bottle before bed.

Monday 27th (yesterday):

Back to work today. I hate coming back when I have had a long-ish weekend lol it is always a shock to my delicate system. It is payday though so I paid all my bills.

Tuesday 28th:

Pancake day. I am so not fussed by it. I don’t like pancakes. Scarlett had some at nursery apparently and she liked them. Big surprise there LOL joke, that kid eats everything.

I have been getting into this new show on Netflix called Riverdale. It is super creepy and weird. Right up my street. There is also a new series of Broadchurch now too.

I can’t believe it is March tomorrow. Where has the last 2 months gone?


Happy Birthday Babies

Sunday we were suppose to go to my Dad’s for a visit but Scarlett had such a rubbish nights sleep so when she fell asleep at 9am after her porridge I had NO intentions of waking her up. So we missed the train 10am train. We aimed for the 11am. I woke her up at 10:30 and we just got to the station with a minute to spare, and still missed the train lol so we agreed we’d give it a miss as we had to wait another hour for the next, and wouldn’t arrive for another hour after that, would’ve been 1pm by time we arrived. So mom picked us back up from the station, drove us to Morrison’s so I could grab some chicken breasts for dinner as mom had only got out enough meat for her and her boyfriend. Which was fine as originally me and Scarlett weren’t meant to be here for dinner.
We had a pretty good day in the end. We watched a Christmas film and Scarlett played with her toys. She plays so nicely for a 10.5 month old. We had dinner and she had hers then bath, bottle and bed.

Monday she was 46 weeks. She had a full day ar nursery, as per her new routine since November 28th. She is clearly settling into the full days now as they were able to get 2oz down her. Normally she completely refuses!!!

Tuesday I was due to go out for dinner with my work team. It was to welcome Millie to our team and to say a Merry Christmas. Obviously I take over Scarlett’s care ASAP after work so I said to my mom to drop her to the restaurant and we’d meet her there and she’d eat with us. We had starters and mains. Scarlett shared my starter, cheesy garlic flat bread. She also had a bit of my grilled chicken from my burger. She was a good sport and she took a shine to Millie, as did Millie with her lol

We got home at 7. I got Scarlett bathed and ready for bed. Apparently she wasn’t actually ready for bed though, and didn’t go to sleep until 9ish lol

Wednesday, my office had sent out an email in the week before about drinks, so my mom dropped Scarlett to me after work. Me and Millie walked her round the corner to the pub. I had a coke and we stayed with the others chatting for 2 hours. Scarlett was entertaining them all. She took a shine to our Scottish manager and she let him pick her up lol mom picked us up at 7ish. I got back, mom bathed her whilst I cooked my dinner then I sat and shared my mini pizza with her. Surprise, surprise! She went to bed at 9ish again.

Today is the twins 4th birthday. Can’t believe they are 4. Feels like only yesterday my aunt had them. We went to my aunts house for a birthday party after I finished work. We got there at 5:30. We gave the boys their cards and presents. My grandad came with us as my nan couldn’t because she was working. My aunt did nibbles and the kids ran riot. We did the cake then we left at gone 7pm. We got home at 7:50. I took Scarlett straight in for a bath, bottle and then bed. She was down by 8:30pm. I watched Blindspot at 9 then cooked myself some dinner. I was so tired so I was in bed by 11pm.

I am off to sleep now. Scarlett has got her Christmas party at nursery tomorrow. I am working. Same old, same old.


December, again

So we had a shit week. Scarlett had me up all night, two nights in a row. Not her fault. She was either teething or having a growth spurt. Both nights consisted of 3 wakes up for whinging then crying then a cuddle. Then 1 wake up for a 4oz bottle. Which she drained both times.

I was absolutely shattered for 3 days. I think I only started to feel “normal” today. She has never really done the “waking in the night” thing. Even when she was newborn, she’d sleep in 4 hour increments. So I was blissfully able to get 3-4 hours at a time. So this was a hard pill to swallow this week, her waking up. I feel incredibly blessed she’s such a brilliant sleeper the other 95% of the time.

Today we opened our advent calendars. Scarlett really liked her Paw Patrol one.

I had a brill day at work. We put up our office decorations yesterday and today we put up the lights. We had to get battery operated ones as we had NO spare plug sockets lol #ComputerProblems

Scarlett went to bed at 8:30. I had my dinner and watched Blindspot with my brother. Now I’m going to jump in the bath so I can shave my legs. Can’t wear a dress with furry legs lol bring on the xmas do tomorrow!!


Monday, again

We had a decent weekend overall. Except for Friday night when Brett first got to mine. We got in bed and I tried to talk to him about what happened with SD (sperm donor) and we ended up having a row, rolling away from each other in a huff and not speaking till the next day. And the next day we had a mini meltdown because I asked him what we are even doing together? Which I felt was a valid question as we just seem to be irritating each other a lot lately. We managed to figure things out in town and were fine after. We took Scarlett to soft play but she was knackered so we didn’t stay long.

We watched a film in bed after Scarlett went to bed Saturday night. We watched Pan I think. I fell asleep. Oops!

Sunday I had to go to church and had no intentions of dragging Scarlett out in the wet and windy weather. She stayed in the warm with Brett. I left at 9ish. After church was done and I had spoken to the lady who is performing the service, I left and walked to town. It was freezing out!!!! I stopped in Sainsbury’s to grab some stuff for dinner as we were fending for ourselves as my grandparents were out for the day. Usually we have a lovely roast with them. After the shops I made the most of my baby-free time and stopped in Wetherspoons for a cheeky breakfast and cup of tea. I think I got home at 12:30.

Brett and Scarlett had a good morning together. I love that I can leave her with him and I know she will be safe and cared for. We spent the day watching her play whilst we caught up with iZombie. I cooked us dinner and then he looked at train times. There was problems with the trains so we agreed he would go home today.

So today I got up with Scarlett. I sorted us both out for nursery and work then woke Brett up so we could say goodbye. Then we headed off. He messaged me at 11am to say he was on the train.

SD proper wound me up. I messaged him asking if he wanted to see Scarlett as I hadn’t heard from him in 5 days nor had he asked how she was so I assumed he had lost interest… He replied saying that he hadn’t asked because the “last time I asked I got a shitty reply”. Umm no you didn’t. I simply said she was fine like usual. That wasn’t shitty. But whatever you dickhead. Conversation went on about how I am “stopping” him seeing her because of what I said over the DNA. All I actually said was that if he has doubts that she isn’t his then PERHAPS for the time being, until the DNA is done, he should’t see her. It was a suggestion, not a “this is what is happening, deal with it”. If he carries on I bloody will, the cheeky cunt. It ended with him saying he will see us Thursday. I said ummm hang on, you haven’t asked, you’ve assumed. In future it would be prudent to ask if we are free! Subsequently we are free so I said See you Thursday. He is a class A asshole!!!

Scarlett was 43 weeks old today. Yep, still doing the weeks lol she had her new Ghostbuster shirt on. I think it is super cool lol


I am in bed watching tele at the moment. Been trying to get back in to reading books but can’t concentrate long enough. I think it is the stress and shit…