Not how I expected my weekend to go

Friday was a nightmare at work. My temp, who use to give me a lift, said she wasn’t coming back on Monday. One of the managers had upset her and she didn’t want to work in a place where people are rude to each other. She was furious in the afternoon. I half expected her to up and leave there and then. I think she would’ve if she’d had her car but her husband had borrowed it because his was in the garage.

We were due to go to Brett’s house. Normally I check the trains ahead of time but I left it until 3pm. When I looked it said there were delays my end of the tracks until 5-6pm and his end there was a lot of cancelled trains due to an issue at East Croydon. So I thought we could go at 7pm as the was a train at 7 that looked like it was the usual 1 connection, 1 hour 15 minutes route. But when I got in from work, I realised it would be far too cold, far too late and far too dark to be dragging my toddler on the train. So I told Brett that I’d decided not to come due to the reasons above. I anticipated he’d have the hump but what happened was beyond anything I expected. He was utterly vile to me. Basically insulted my parenting skills by trying to say that taking her to watch a 15 minutes fireworks display in a mild November is the same as a 90 minute December journey at 7pm at night on a Friday after being at Nursery all day. And said I must be such a good mom for taking her to see fireworks (in the dark and cold) but not taking her on a train. Also said I traumatised her by taking her to see Santa. Oh and brought up the one time recently when she was walking underneath me when I was carrying something. I didn’t see her, I turned and my knee knocked her over and she hit her head on the doorframe. Like it was an accident. They happen from time to time. I didn’t mean to hurt her and I felt awful when she was upset. I picked her up and gave her a cuddle. That’s what moms do. I frequently pick her up and cuddle her.

Anyway, he was just horrible to me and I realised that I just don’t need or want him in my life (or Scarlett’s) anymore. So I blocked him for some peace then later I messaged him to say I can’t be with him anymore. I don’t love him in the same way as I used to. I’m not coming for Christmas. And please don’t harass me to get me back or try emotional blackmail like you usually do. I then blocked him again. I was up till almost 3am chatting to my bestie. She had a lot of support and advice to give on leaving a shitty relationship.

Saturday he tried to call me at some point in the morning as I had a voicemail. I only listened to a few seconds before deleting it.

Scarlett got up at 9. She had her bottle and we read some of her new books. She asked for breakfast. I asked her what she wanted, cereal or toast? She said toast. I said tea too? She said yeah! She’s so funny. So she had tea, toast and banana. I waited to eat with my mom as she was going to cook breakfast. We ate at 10:30. Scarlett had some sausage then I put her up for a nap at 11:15. I went up and got in bed because I was so cold and I had a headache. I fell asleep and woke up at 1:30. Then Scarlett woke. I dressed her then I finished putting addresses on the presents I needed to send.

Mom drove me to the post office so I could mail everything. I mailed all my gifts except my Australian secret santa. It was going to cost me £88 to send a £30 gift lol so I decided to try a different postal service. We went into town so I could get a refund on the PS4 Pro I bought Brett for Christmas. So I’m now £300 richer. Which is great because I have Scarlett’s 2nd cake smash to pay for in January as well as her birthday party.

After Argos we went to my nan’s. She had a full house. Everyone was there. We stayed for a few cups of tea. Scarlett had lunch when we first got there. We left at 5. I ordered a Chinese whilst we were watching Madagascar. It took over an hour to come. Scarlett was proper hangry. We ate then I took her up for a bath. I ended up bathing with her. We got our and got dressed. I did her bottle then she said goodnight to everyone as my mom was going to work and so was my brother. I took her up at 9:15 for bed. She was flat out within 15 minutes.

I was watching Grimm on Netflix when the bloody door knocked. I knew who it was. No way was I answering. I have nothing to say to him. I thought I’d made myself pretty clear in my message the night before. I ignored the door. But he knocked twice more. The light in our kitchen was on so I knew he’d see me if I darted upstairs to look out the window. I stood in the doorway and he must’ve sense it because I heard him say something about “come on just answer the door”. I ran upstairs to tell my brother girlfriend not to open the door. Not that she would have. It’s late.

I came back down and he spoke to me through the letterbox. Said he wanted to talk so could I at least open the door. I said no. It won’t change anything. I’m done. I can’t do this anymore. He said he wants to try and he’s listening. I said why listen now. You’ve had almost 2 years. We’re not the same as we were. It’s finished. He got a bit angry and slammed the letterbox. I thought he was gone so sat down but he came back and called my name. So I said what? He said so this is it? You want me to go? I said Yes that’s what I’ve been saying. He said he was sorry it got to this point and sorry we couldn’t work it out. He said he hopes I have a good Christmas and I look after Scarlett then he slammed the letterbox and went. Me and my brother’s girlfriend sat in the front room for a while, expecting him to knock again. But he didn’t. We chatted a bit and then I carried on watching Grimm.

I’m in bed now. Going to have a lazy day tomorrow. I just want to relax and have a laugh with my baby girl. She’s all that matters to me.

TTFN x

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December 2017 is here

Thursday was the last day of November for 2017. Work was quite relaxed for a change. A slower pace. Did a bit more Christmas shopping online during lunch. And watched some more Glitch – pretty sure I’ve seen the finale now.

I watched Riverdale when Scarlett had gone to bed. My brother’s girlfriend comes on a Thursday so she got to ours about 7:30. She’s so cute. She made my brother an advent calendar and filled the drawers will presents for him. How adorable!

Today I got up like normal and went to work. I did some bits when I first got in. Spoke to my friend in the main office as he was in. Was stood next to him and I came over all funny. I felt dizzy and sick. I went back to my desk but I just felt so weird and off. I sat there for an hour. Every time I so much as blinked I felt like I was on a boat on choppy waters. By almost 11 I’d had enough. I messaged who I needed to, packed up my crap and went home. I was laid down in bed by 11:30. I must’ve fell asleep because next thing I know, it’s 3:15pm.

I sat up and I felt “okay”. I put some slippers on and went downstairs. I’d slept through lunch. Usually by 1pm at Work I’m eating so I was starving. So I went into the cupboards and grabbed some porridge. I really fancied it. So I ate that and then at 4 my mom came home. Then her friend turned up at 4ish too. Mom picks Scarlett up at 4:30 so I said I’d go with her as I never usually get to go as I’m at work. So we all went to get her. She was surprised to see me but she was happy sitting next to me in the car. She held my hand!!!

When we got in she played and had her usual cup of tea. Then at 6 I took her up for a bath. At 7ish mom drove us and my brother’s girlfriend to drop my brother at work then we grabbed dinner before going to my nans for a cup of tea. She had a laugh running about, singing, shouting and playing with Marley. My mom left for work just before 9 and then my nan dropped us Home at 9:30. Scarlett went straight to bed. No fuss. She’s so good!!!

I ordered some stuff from Amazon Prime NOW as I need more Soya milk for Scarlett as well as various other things. Saves me doing a big shop on a weekend. I hate shopping on a weekend, too hectic! So I’m in bed waiting for it to come. It’s due between 10pm-12midnighy. It’s 11:25 lol

Brett is on his way to ours. He got on the train at 11 so he’ll get off about 12:15.

We are taking her to see Santa tomorrow at the grotto in the Mall in Camberley. She didn’t like it last year but I’m hoping she’ll be a bit more excited this time. Doubtful but we’ll see.

TTFN x

Ps. Christmas countdown has begun.

24 sleeps till Christmas!!!!!

1 more day till advent

Monday Scarlett didn’t want to get up today. I don’t blame her. It is Monday after all!

I did some Christmas shopping today. I got 10 presents plus I paid my mom rent.

She was so funny when we got home after work. She was so happy and noisy. She had 2 cups of tea because she had 1 and then asked for more. We had our dinner and mom decided to do her some potato smiled as she’ll just want to share anyway. So she ate hers and went to my mom to help her with her dinner. I had finished mine so my plate was on my lap empty. Scarlett came over and asked me for more. I said “No baby, mamas eaten hers, it’s in my belly” so she walked back to my mom, grabbed a potato croquette off her plate then handed it to me for me to eat. I almost melted with love for her. How fucking adorable! I said to her “oh thank you baby but mama’s had enough food. Give it back to nanny” so she took it back to my mom lol

She had a bath at 6:15 then when we were getting dressed from bath time we FaceTimed Brett. She was chatting to him for ages before going to bed at 7 (after her bottle).

I watched Blindspot at 10 then went to bed.

Tuesday Scarlett was so miserable when we got home. She didn’t even want to drink her tea at first. I think she is teething at the moment. She chatted to Brett then I took her up for a bath. When we were done we went downstairs for bottle then bed. She had her bottle then asked for more. I made her a few more ounces of milk and she drank half. She set her bottle on the table, grabbed my dummy and off we went to bed. She didn’t settle easily. She spent ages laid in her cot with the photo frame that’s usually next to her bed. It’s a photo of her and Brett. She was laid next to it, rubbing it gently. It was the most adorable thing. She must miss him!

She eventually settled whilst I was eating my dinner and catching up with Glitch. Season 2 is on Netflix now!!!

Today Scarlett was okay getting up. She didn’t lay back down and moan for a change. She’s still got a snotty nose but she’s okay! She was playing still games after work. Her godmom was here for a cup of tea and a chat. Scarlett was suppose to be eating her dinner but she was messing around. My mom said “hurry up or nanny will eat it”. Scarlett pick up her spoon (full of food) and walked over to my mom to give her it. We all laughed. My mom pretended to eat. Scarlett then pretended to eat it then she actually ate it. What a fun game lol

My brother got in the shower so she didn’t have her bath until 6:45. Then my mom dressed her whilst I showered quick then I did bottle then bed. She took ages to settle. I could hear her singing to herself for like an hour. But she did drop off eventually.

I watched some more Glitch. It’s so addictive. More so because I cannot figure anything out lol just finished an episode so now I’m in bed. It’s chilly tonight. My feet are cold!!!

TTFN x

Attacked by the car boot

Monday was tough. I really didn’t want to get up when my alarm went off. On the upside, due to the clocks going back an hour, it was brighter outside at 7am. But on the downside, it was dark outside when I left work at 5pm. I managed to get all my 250+ hourly steps and I hit over 5K steps during lunch. For the first time in a long time I ventured outside for a walk. I had a headache so I thought the fresh air might help. It did surprisingly. And in 20 minutes I walked 2.5 thousand steps. Which brought up my total to over my 5K target so that was good. I came back to my desk and watched some TV whilst I ate my lunch.

After work Scarlett was so funny. We were playing this game where I run behind, chasing her and she was running away squealing in laughter. I’d catch her then I’d run away. She climbed on to my mom to get away but I got her again. She was giggling like a loon. Mom did our dinner. Scarlett helped us eat. Even though she’d had hers at Nursery already. Greedy. She went to bed at 7. Mom and I watched Emmerdale. I washed up our dishes then I carved our pumpkins. I wasn’t going to. I hate the squishiness. But I did and they weren’t half bad.

Tuesday was Halloween. Scarlett wore her costume. She managed to keep her black sparkly bow on most of the day. I was impressed by that. Someone at work upset me via email. They insinuated that I can’t do my job properly and require help. Absolutely ridiculous and totally unwarranted. I escalated it up higher as I refuse to be spoken to like that. I’m not paid enough to be disrespected. Left me feeling shitty all day. I was so close to just walking out. I’m going to be the only member of my team left in a week. It stresses me out just thinking about it.

After work we popped to Tesco’s extra. I needed a drink after my shitty day and we had no alcohol in the house. We got home at quarter 6. I put some dinner on for me and Scarlett. We ate then I bathed her. She had her bottle and was in bed by 7:30. I had a quick shower then I settled down to watch some TV. There’s not much on that I watch at the moment. I watched a new episode of Once upon a time. It’s on every Tuesday. I got into bed at 9 and just played my game.

Wednesday I woke up at 6am because Scarlett woke up. I could heard her talking to herself. I looked on the monitor and she was playing with her baby doll. I didn’t want to get up at 6am so I laid in bed. She must’ve dropped back off because when I next looked at the monitor she was laid down. My alarm went off at 7. I got up and got half dressed (my trousers were downstairs) then I went in and dressed Scarlett. She’s so funny in the mornings. She’s usually so happy and today she was happy. Her new thing is saying light and wanting to turn it off. She went to bed at 7 like normal. I had my dinner then I watched some tele. I climbed into bed quite early. Think it was 10pm. I’ve had a headache for a few days that won’t budge.

Thursday (today) Scarlett woke me up at 4am. Then when I was putting the spare car seat in my moms car, the boot hit me on the head. So now I fear I may have a concussion. Not really. But seriously it hurt a little when it whacked me on the head. I ended up throwing the car seat on the backseat and jumping in the car with the major hump (and headache).

I got to work 6 minutes late. I’m always late on days when my mom has done a night shift as she doesn’t leave work till 7:30 and what is usually an 8 minute journey for her, takes longer in the morning traffic. So now I’m at my desk popping pills for the head and debating on whether I really need my job as I just wanna go home. I need to feed my toddler so I guess I have to stick it out! I have Dentist at 12:30 so that gives my head a break from the computer for a while.

TTFN x

Alpro ice cream

Wednesday 21st:

My cousins baby was born at 10:01am. He weighed 8 lb 14 oz. And he is gorgeous. He has quite a bit of dark hair. So glad he arrived safely. They named him Parker Harry James.

Thursday 22nd:

Scarlett’s passport came through the mail today. I’m so excited for our holiday now. I was worried the passport people would reject it due to her picture or something but thankfully they are more lenient with under 2s. We are now checked in for our flights online. I needed all of our passport numbers to do. And I have!!!!

My mom dated a guy the year after my step-dad left her. And he cheated on her for 4 months before they split. He denied this. But we know it’s true. Anyway he and my mom always stayed in contact as friends. He was told by his new missus he can’t be friends with my mom. Insecure much? This breeds from being “the other woman” to a guy who cheated WITH YOU. And many times she removed my moms number from this guys phone. Talk about controlling. But whatevs! This woman he cheated with became his partner from the moment they met all the way up till now. Well this woman’s daughter called my mom up and accused my mom off sleeping with him. As my mom pointed out, 1) she’s in a very happy relationship, 2) he cheated on her so why the F would she want his ass back and 3) how the F would any of their menial “hello how are you” texts ever convey there was anything untoward going on. She said all this and basically told the girl to fuck off. She told me and I sent her ex (from 8 fucking years ago, like for real who even cares about people from that long ago) a shitty message telling him to get his fucking women under control and stop dragging my mom into his BS. I told him that he knows he’s not suppose to be friends with my mom and because he failed to do as he’s fucking told she’s now been on the receiving end of some shitty outburst.

It’s gets better. He never responded. Surprise! Not! Turns out it’s their Wedding Day on Saturday. That woman would be stupid to marry him. She knows he’s a cheater and she clearly thinks he still does so why marry him.

Friday 23rd:

For the first time in ages it was just me and my mom. No men. Oh, and Scarlett, obviously. So we put her to bed, grabbed some alcohol and watched a film. It was nice.

Her new high chair came today. I think she likes it!!


Saturday 24th:

Scarlett had her first swimming lesson at 12. We arrived at 10 to 12. I was already in my swim stuff so I just had to sort her into her swim suit. I had bought her a neoprene nappy cover and a neoprene all-in-one to stop her getting cold. She did really well. She let the instructor take her around the pool for a minute without me. She walked on a float before holding my hands and sliding into the water. She kicked. She waved her arms to move the water in a motion. We sang songs. Overall it was good. I was really proud of her. I made the rookie mistake of not checking my bag before we left. I left my bra behind. So we popped home so I could dump the wet swimming gear and grab my bra then we headed to Morrisons. We had some lunch then we did some shopping. We went home and chilled. Scarlett was tired so I put her down for a nap at 3:30 and I kind of fell asleep myself. I rarely do that. Even when she was a proper baby I didn’t nap often. She went to bed at 8:30. She’s so funny. She kept playing silly games with my hair. She likes it when it’s wet from the shower (no idea why).

We watched two movies. Bad Moms and Mother’s Day. It was nice just the two of us. I think I went to bed about 1ish.

Sunday 25th (today):

Scarlett woke up at 7ish. Gave her a bottle at 7:30 thinking she’d go back to sleep for a bit but after half hour of her rolling around she got up and whinged so we went downstairs. She had her breakfast – some fruit and a choc-au-pain then she got dressed. Mom did us some breakfast then we got dressed. We had to head to Morrisons for a cooked chicken as nan had planned for 3 of my uncle’s kids to have dinner with us so she needed more meat. We got one and then went to my Nan’s house. Scarlett was asleep when I got her out of the car so I went straight in and laid her in the stroller in the hallway. She needs her afternoon nap. She slept through Sunday dinner and woke up just after we ate so I got her out and put her in the high chair. She ate her dinner then she had pudding. My nan had managed to get some Alpro Soya ice cream. She had her first taste and she loved it. She ate the ice cream AND the cornetto too!


After we had dinner we had a cup of tea and let our dinner go down then we took her to King George V park. Her first ever trip to a park. She’s been in parks as a baby baby. But they didn’t count as she wasn’t walking etc. She loved it. She went down the slides and in the swings. She climbed EVERYTHING! We had a good time then we headed back for another cuppa then home.

I did her some supper at 6ish. She had some fruit and a slice of bread with butter. She’s like me in so many ways, it’s weird but kind of exciting. She had a bath and then for a change Nanny put her to bed. She went straight down. We stuck on a movie after having some supper ourselves. We watched The DUFF. Mom hadn’t seen it.  I love it!

I’ve just got into bed. I’m not tired. I had my first energy drink today in 8 weeks. My mom bought 2. I think she forgot I don’t drink them. Tbh neither does she now. We’ve both stopped. I quit cold turkey. She has the occasional one. I think I won’t be able I sleep tonight now!!!

Back to work tomorrow. I only have 5 days then I’m off on holiday July 3rd. I can’t wait. It should be good fun. Brett and I are taking Scarlett to Hastings for the week.

Just over 6 weeks till we go to Italy!!!!!!!

TTFN x

4 wake ups

Tuesday 2nd:

Today was Princess Charlotte’s 2nd birthday. It came up on my Facebook memories because I shared the announcement when she was born. I love the royals!

Wednesday 3rd:

I had the dentist today. I haven’t been since a follow up in July after my wisdom teeth extract surgery. For the first time in 2 years the dentist actually said my teeth were “fine” and didn’t require a cleaning, filling or whatever else. Pretty pleased with that because my maternity exemption ran out in January and I haven’t got money to pay for extras lol

I caught up with Pretty Little Liars. I can’t believe this season is the final one. Sad times!

Thursday 4th:

Blindspot catch up. As well as other shows. My focus is back a little. I can watch a whole episode and not feel fidgety. Progress! Brett got here at midnight. His face really annoyed me. I don’t know why. We had a row and went to bed.

Friday 5th:

We got up, Scarlett had breakfast then we headed off to the Harry Potter Tour in London. She fell asleep on the bus to the studio and we were early so Brett and I grabbed a sandwich in the studio cafe. The tour was brill but busy. They have added A LOT since I went with Reggie in 2014.


Scarlett did really well considering she wasn’t in the stroller much. We did take it with us rather than giving it to the information desk [they lock it away]. But she walked around the tour, mostly. We tried Butterbeer [Scarlett loved it] and I took home the souvenir mini tankard. We left at 4ish and headed for the bus back to the station. We got off the train at home just before 7 so my nan dropped us home. We had a good day. We got a lot of pics including the obligatory ones they do where you “ride a broom” lol we had dinner once she was in bed then we watched the Equaliser. Love a bit of Denzel.

Saturday 6th:

Today we went out at lunch to my Nan’s house. We had lunch then we got in the car to visit my aunt. It was a flying visit. My nan and Debbie had a cuppa. Scarlett played with the twins. I had a banging headache when we left so we stopped off at a shop so I could get some paracetamol and a drink. It took over an hour for it to fade away let alone go away. Eurgh! Hate those heads. We stayed at my nan’s for dinner and ended up going up the chippy. My grandparents, Brett and Scarlett had fish and chips. I had chicken curry [my version]. After dinner we went to Asda as Scarlett needed milk and then we went home. We got her in bed by 9 then we climbed into bed to watch Fantastic Beasts. Scarlett woke up really upset, coughing, tears and just overall unhappy. Brett saw to her. Took ages to settle her, she was not very happy. Managed to lay her back in bed eventually and we continued watching the film then we went to bed.

Sunday 7th:

Scarlett woke up at 8am but as she had been up in the night I gave her a bottle and put her back down. She slept until about 10ish. I just did some washing up and caught up with Riverdale. I woke Brett and asked if he was coming with us to visit my gran. He said no but he would get up and shower etc whilst we were out then meet us at my Nan’s when we were back as we were having dinner there. So I left with Scarlett at 10:30. We visited my gran and bumped into my nan’s sister who was visiting too. We left at 12ish and headed home. We detoured via my house and Brett was still asleep, as I predicted he would be. So I woke him, he jumped in the shower and I left. He came round my nan’s when he was ready. We had dinner. Scarlett played and then she had her supper then we went home. I bathed her, he dressed her so I could shower then she went to bed. We watched Harry Potter 6 then my mom got home so we chatted for a bit then we got into bed.

Monday 8th:

Scarlett had woken up once before we had gone to bed. In the night she woke a total of 4 times. Twice she was just crying, and twice she was coughing so much she woke up. Bless her. We had already agreed he would stay home with her today so he did. She didn’t wake up until 9:30, bless her. They had a good morning then they jumped in the car with my mom who picked me up from work so we could go food shopping. They picked me back up from work at 5. Brett went home at 7. Mom and I had dinner after I had bathed Scarlett. I put her to bed before we ate but it took her a while to drop off. She’s very fussy. But she’s asleep now so we are just watching Little Boy Blue.

TTFN x

Monday, again

Well Brett and I did get back in contact. Eventually. We agreed to meet Friday and see how we got on. I was so anxious. A lot had been said between us and I wasn’t sure it would end well but nonetheless he got the train down Friday night.

Friday:

Friday morning I dropped Scarlett at nursery. Usually the nursery don’t see me unless I am off. So I had a chat with her key worker over her progress since she started there in September. She is doing well and is very sociable. Which I knew. She is the total opposite of me.

After our chat, I left the nursery and Mom and I went to Farnborough Gate Retail Park. She was due to do an hour of her NVQ with her course lady at Costa. I popped next door for breakfast then I wandered around TK Maxx. I got myself a new handbag as my white one is tatty and falling apart. I also got a new purse too, and a comic relief shirt for Scarlett. My mom dropped me home and I put together Scarlett’s new Paw Patrol canvas unit. It is just the right fit for her little bedroom.

My mom went out for lunch and I stayed home. My Nan dropped Scarlett to me and I finished packing her things. My dad picked her up at 2. She was asleep when he arrived at 1 and I said I would prefer her to get an hour then he can take her, she was in bed.

I didn’t think my meet with Brett (he was coming down to my house) was going to go well so I kind of got a little drunk. I figured the rejection would be easier to deal with. Also if we didn’t work it out then by the time I sobered up the next day he wouldn’t be around. I had felt unwell all week (sore throat, ear ache and headache) so I hadn’t been eating much. All I had eaten was breakfast so by the time I had my dinner, I had drank 2 alcoholic drinks. Not my finest hour. I was semi-sloshed when he arrived. He eventually hashed it all out. Every. Little. Thing. There was crying, shouting and sex lol I wouldn’t have agreed to this if I knew Scarlett was going to be here. I would’ve said No. She didn’t need to be around (even if just in bed) for the tears and shouting. But as she wasn’t, we had the freedom to figure it out.

Saturday:

We didn’t get out of bed until late as we hadn’t gone to bed until almost 5am. We decided to go for food and cinema. So we hopped on a bus at 4ish. We went to buy our tickets at the cinema but the 6:30pm showing was basically all booked up. So we booked the 9:20pm. We went across the road to Pizza Express and had a lovely meal. I think I may have overdone it on Garlic Dough Balls lol we ate then walked to the Spoons across the road and had 2 drinks. We talked and laughed load. It was really nice.

We watched John Wick 2 and it was really good. It finished quite late. We thought we had missed the last bus of the evening but luckily there was one at 12:02am so we jumped on that one then got off at the train station so we could get a cab. The bus only takes you through the station, it then goes off to another town. Hence why we got off.

Sunday:

We didn’t go to sleep until almost 6am. It is ridiculous. My dad text saying he was leaving, to bring Scarlett back, at noon. So I got myself up and got Brett up. He didn’t wanna get up. He is hard work when it comes to getting up. But he did. We walked to my Nan’s. He was in a bit of a mood. Not an angry mood. More like a sad resigned kind of mood. I didn’t know how to help him. He didn’t eat his dinner so we took it home when we left a few hours later. He perked up when we got home. He ate. Scarlett ate. Then he did bath, bottle and bed for her. She does really love him. He little face gets so excited. He decided, as he wasn’t rota’d to work this week, he would stay another night and spend Monday at home with Scarlett.

Monday (today):

So today I got up for work and I got Scarlett up at 7ish. I got Brett up and he had her all day. He got her to nap, twice. The nursery struggle to get 1 out of her because she is too nosey. But she was very good for him. Her gave her the morning bottle, porridge then a nap. Then they played, then she had lunch followed by her second nap. She had a bottle when she woke and then she played until I got home from work. I think he has realised what it was like for me at home, with her all day, when I was on maternity. And she is easier in some respects now than she was before. It isn’t “easy” like a lot of people assume. Mentally it is very hard going. Especially as it is such a big adjustment going from working full time, to being on “your jollies” for a few weeks of maternity pre-baby. To then being a full time mom to a newborn. I think I have adjusted quite well to working again. So much so that I enjoy our weekends together much more than I use to, when I was home ALL WEEK. Weekends didn’t hold much difference than weekdays, before.

She went to bed at 7 like normal. We had already had dinner. She kept trying to help herself to his dinner. She stuck her hand in his ketchup at one point. It was hilarious to watch. We watched TV then I said I would run a bath. So we sat in the bath together like we use to. Brett and I. Then we showered off and got out. We are just laid in bed now. I have work tomorrow and he is going home. He wants me to wake him when I am up. God I hate doing that lol #grumpypants

TTFN x