1 more sleep till Rockley Park

Thursday Scarlett had her 2 year review with the Health Visiting team. She’s practically perfect in every way. Scores all in the “white area”. They did her height, she’s 85cm and her weight was 22lb. She’s so little, bless her.

She had a fever when she woke up from her nap. I gave her calpol. She was very sad and not herself. She had me up at midnight then again at 3am.

Friday Scarlett stayed off Nursery as her fever was bad and we had a shit night. She was miserable all day. We had no food in so we popped to the shops so we could eat and grab some groceries. We went to my nans for a cup of tea then we headed home. Brett arrived at 9:30. Scarlett went to bed at 10. We went to bed at 1ish.

Saturday Scarlett woke up and we had breakfast. We watched Frozen then she went down for a nap. When she was up we had lunch. We stayed in all day as it was so hot outside. I cooked dinner then bathed Scarlett. We headed out to drop her at my nans so we could go cinema. I bought the tickets weeks ago.

We watched Avengers Infinity War. It was good but the ending was a bit weird. And now there’s a year long wait for part 2!

We got home at 11:30. Scarlett was really grumpy and took ages to settle. We went to sleep at 2:30.

Sunday She woke up screaming at 3:30 and it took me ages to settle her back asleep. She woke again at 6am and wouldn’t calm down. Ended up getting up with her, making breakfast and chilling. She perked up after some calpol. I put her down for a nap at 8ish.

I woke up at almost midday. She’d had a 3/4 hour sleep. She needed it. She usually sleeps 12 hours a night but had only had 6 hours, broken sleep. Brett took her out for an hour to play. I watched the season 2 premier of Mortal Instruments. When they came back I did us cheese on toast for lunch. Brett took all the boxes down to my garage and took the recycling out. Then he put together my two side tables and 2 bedside tables from ikea. Scarlett had a nap and woke up at 6ish.

I put dinner on then Scarlett had a bath at 7:30. She went to bed at 8:30. I had had a bath with her so Brett had 1 after then we settled down to watch more Prison Break together. It’s so hot here. My flat is a sweat box. I can’t deal with it. I’m so glad our “summer” is only the odd week here and there. I couldn’t live this for months. I’d melt!

We’re off on holiday tomorrow. I’m excited. We’re staying at Rockley Park in Poole. We’re doing monkey world, Weymouth and Bournemouth. The weather is suppose to be warm so I’m packing for that but also throwing in some jeans and hoodies etc.

TTFN x

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Third Time’s The Charm, hopefully!

Monday was a chilled evening. I watched some TV and just relaxed. I haven’t been sleeping great since we moved in so I am trying to relax, even if I don’t sleep.

Tuesday Brett got the train down to see us. He was originally coming Thursday/Friday. He primarily came to see Scarlett. We had a nice evening and we went to bed.

Wednesday I went to work and Brett stayed at mine. At 12:30 my Nan dropped Scarlett to him, at my flat. He had her all afternoon. I got home at almost 6. I cooked us dinner then we put Scarlett to bed at like 8:30. We watched some TV and had a chat about there potentially being an us again. Maybe.

Thursday I went to work and Brett did the same. Scarlett did a really nasty poo and it went everywhere so he was flustered about that when I got in. She did another when I got home so I sorted that. She had had bellyache all week so far. She went to bed at 7:30 like usual. I had cooked us all dinner. We watched some TV and had a proper conversation. We got everything out. Laid it all on the table. What we want from each other. What we want from life. What we think went wrong. What we’ll do better, what we will both do better. He is my bestfriend. He is legit my bestfriend! He’s the first person I speak to, and want to speak to, when I wake up. We decided this would be the last time of trying. If we cannot make it work then we’ll call it quits for good and go our separate ways.

Friday I went to work and Brett stayed at mine. I told him to help himself to food and the TV etc. When me and Scarlett got home at 5ish Brett and I decided we’d give her a bath then walk to my Nan’s for the evening. So she had her bath then my brother and his girlfriend came round. We all walked around my Nan’s at 7ish. We stayed there till 10ish. Scarlett went to bed at 10:30. We watched some TV then we got into bed. We stayed up till 2am chatting. It was nice. It was just like when we first met. It was good!

Saturday we were woken up at 7:30 by Scarlett. We expected her to lay in after her late night but she didn’t. We decided to eat breakfast in town so we grabbed our stuff and jumped on the bus. We went to Poppins Cafe before heading to the train station. We got to his area at 12:15. His mom picked us up from the station. Scarlett was really excited to see her Nanny. We had some lunch at 2ish then at 3pm we put Scarlett down for a nap. She fell down the stairs. Brett was at the top, she was following behind him. She lost her balanced and went backwards. Luckily his brother was at the bottom. He caught her. She cried, due to the shock more than anything. She was fine.

At 6ish we sorted some dinner then Brett and I went to the cinema for 8:15. We watched Black Panther. It was a really good film and we were glad to have gone to see it. We got back at 11ish. Scarlett went to bed at 10. She was flat out sleeping.

I climbed into bed at half 11. I was tired. We stayed up chatting till 1 then we went to sleep.

Sunday I woke up at 9ish to Scarlett sitting on the end of the bed. She had climbed out the cot, onto the bed. We snuggled under the duvet with Brett for 10 minutes. Then we all got up and had breakfast. She played with her Uncle “dot” and her nanny. We watched a film on sky called Unforgettable. It was good. We had dinner at 2:30 then we grabbed our stuff and got in the car. We drove to Guildford as Brett had an appointment at 5pm then we drove home. Scarlett got in the bath then we watched In The Night Garden. I put her down at 7:30. She was still awake at 9:30 and I stupidly decided now was a good time to take the side off her cot, so she could have a big girl bed. It wasn’t a good idea. I got it off but putting the rest back together was hard. Especially as she was “helping” me. I called my bro and he came and gave me a hand. We put it back together then I put her to bed again. She went straight to sleep. He got rid of a mahoosive spider that was terrorising me in the lounge then he left. I settled down to watch some TV then I climbed into bed as well. Think I nodded off about midnight.

Today [Monday] has been the longest ever. Me and my manager sat down to look at what I do on a day-to-day basis so she has a clue of what I get up to. When I am on annual leave she doesn’t cover me because she wouldn’t know where to start and no one tends to die when I am off for a week. But she said she should know a bit more. So we went through a termination I received. It should’ve been straight forward, removing 26 sites and their tasks. No. Just no! It’s taken a whole day, between 2 people. We came up against obstacle after obstacle. Wanted to bang my head against the wall all day. Honestly, proper headache. We finally got to the end at like 4:30.

Mom has just picked me up as we’re going food shopping on our way home. I desperately need some stuff otherwise I shan’t be eating all week. Then we’ll head home.

TTFN x

So Glad It’s Friday

Wednesday was much the same as Tuesday on the work front. Quiet. I put Scarlett to bed like normal. But I forgot to switch the monitor on. I usually keep an eye on her whilst she’s settling. I didn’t. I eventually realised and went into check on her before I went to bed. She had taken her onesie off because she was hot [evident by her sweaty head] and then was wrapped half in her duvet. So I put a vest on her so she wouldn’t be able to take her nappy off if she woke up before me. Then I climbed into bed. She is so damn cheeky it makes me giggle.

Thursday she put her own coat on. They teach them how to do it at Nursery. She’s such a clever bean! Scarlett asked me to put my phone down when we had done her bath. When I did she took it off me and put it on the side. Then she asked me to sit next to her for a cuddle. It made me simultaneously melt with love and then guilt. She obviously thinks I’ve used my phone too much recently between 5-7pm. I never use to. I had a strict rule of them 2 hours being privileged time. For just me and her. I only use to use my phone to call Brett for FaceTime. Or to take pics or videos of her. But now I use it a lot for other things like Snapchat or WhatsApp. And I’m so sorry to her for that. It’s a bad habit. But I can break it very quickly. I’m not addicted. It’s just one of things that creeps up on you.

I got into bed at 11ish. I hadn’t been watching much on TV. I had music on. I didn’t get to sleep till almost 1am. This is a recurring issue lately. I think I am still adjusting to the lack of background noise. I just lived next to a motorway for 23 years. We are only 2 weeks into living away from it.

Today was sunny and bright. Scarlett and I did our usual morning routine. Friday’s we drive her to nursery. We get McDonald’s breakfast. We go through the drive through. We got there and it was shut because some knobhead doesn’t know the size of his van and got himself wedged under the “height restriction” sign. Typical man not knowing the size of something! So I got out and went in to order our breakfasts. Scarlett gets aggy as soon as the bag comes in the car because she know’s it’s food but it’s too hot. So she sulks all the way to my work.

My day has been pretty good. I love Friday’s. We are not up to much this weekend. It is my cousins birthday today so we are going for dinner tomorrow as a family.

TTFN x

5 Year Blog-O-Versary

WordPress notified today that I set up my blog exactly 5 years ago today. I am quite impressed that I’ve stuck out blogging for half a decade. Happy Blog-O-Versary to me.

In that time I have changed jobs 3 times working initially at HomeSense then Carpet and Flooring. Finally landing on my feet at MITIE.

I had various dalliances with guys. Some romantically. Some less so. Some weirdos, some nice guys. Some I took home, some I met away from home and some I weren’t sure on.

I found myself pregnant and facing parenthood alone. I talked about how it felt to be abandoned and how I almost preferred it, after listening to my married friends arguments with their partners about names, the nursery and god know’s what else.

I had a baby and expressed all the feelings that came with new parenthood. The aftermath of an unscheduled C-Section. Meeting new mom friends.

I met someone new. I tried not to discuss in depth our relationship. Which I would have thought he’d have appreciated.

I travelled to various cities to meet new friends. I spent a lot of time trying to have fun before I had to go back to work.

I went back to work and faced the challenges, and stresses, that brings. Mostly down to the fact that emotionally and mentally I was not ready to return. I should’ve took the full year, plus holiday on top. 

I documented Scarlett meeting Harry [her Dad] for the first time. And some of his family. It started off well but kind of exploded. One day we may work that out, you never know. My door is always open for him. It’s up to him to want to see Scarlett.

I’ve documented her milestones, her first Easter, Halloween, Fireworks Night, Christmas and birthday. Then her first Aeroplane ride, her first trip abroad. Her first tooth, her first steps, her first words and everything in between.

And recently it’s been all about our move from living with my mom to our new 2 bedroom flat. It has been challenging to say the least but we done it. We got in. I have mostly got everything sorted from a financial standpoint. As for unpacked boxes, it’s getting there.

I can honestly say that when I started blogging I was completely down on my luck. I was 12 weeks into being unemployed, bored AF and had no direction. I decided I would return to study and find a part time job. I did both of these things and then I returned to full time work at a company on a contractual basis and remembered why working full time was great. Money. I landed at MITIE by chance, having temped there in 2012. I wasn’t sure if it was the job for me but fate intervened. May 2015, just 12 weeks into my job, I found myself pregnant. From there on, my path was set. Parenthood. Worklife. It’s been an amazing, albeit up and down, journey. I started off with no job and no prospects. 5 years later I have a brilliantly smart 2 year old, a decent permanent job and I’ve just moved into a little flat of our own. It’s not perfect, but it’s ours.

Here’s to the next 5 years [where I will be 32, yikes!]

TTFN x

Steak & Blowjob Day 2018

Let’s be honest, how many woman actually slap a steak on the grill and give their man a BJ on this day? I can safely say that no one is getting steak or anything off of me this year lol not that they do any other year …

Monday I was full on shattered. I don’t even know why. Lately I am just tired ALL THE TIME! Scarlett didn’t want to get up for Nursery and she was grumpy all the way till drop off.

Tuesday I had a busy morning then a slower afternoon. My manager’s manager had previously said he was going to sit with me and show me reports he wants me to do and send. I currently only do 2 reports at any one given time. So this is more responsibility. He showed me but he’s so quick so I said do a step-by-step guide on an email then I can use that and play around before I go “live”. Scarlett was grumpy on the way home but perked up when we got in. I put her to bed at 7:15. She rolled around till gone 8.

Wednesday [today] I had a doctor’s appointment at 9:30am. I went to work for 8. Worked till 9:15 then my Mom picked me up and took me for my appointment. I was having my coil reviewed because my periods have been mad and haywire since I had it put in 10 months ago. Which in itself isn’t an issue as they got lighter. But the last one I had in February was like a horror movie and I swear I would’ve preferred to give birth again than suffer that period pain ever again. Then last week [only 2 weeks since my last period] I started “spotting” when I wiped. Every day till Friday then it stopped. So I booked the appointment to check my coil is fitted where it’s meant to be and is working. So I saw the Doc at 9:45 and she copped a feel down there. She said it looks great [yay, my cervix looks great] and the coil appears to be firmly in place where it’s meant to be. She said she’d take a swab just to check for an infection but said it’s likely to come back normal. So she said to just bear with it, the spotting is normal and be caused by a number of things. It’s annoying but she’s right. It’s tolerable and for the most part me and coil get on fine. Certainly stops me having an unwanted pregnancy. I love my 2 year old, she’s more than enough.

TTFN x

 

 

Mother’s Day 2018

Friday Brett came down at 9ish. We were at my Nan’s do he got dropped there. He had gotten a card from Scarlett to me for Mother’s Day. I didn’t expect that. He wrote it in the dining room and had her draw on it for me. It was very thoughtful. He also got my a dvd from her too. La la land.

We got home and put Scarlett to bed. We laid in bed chatting for hours. Eventually we went to sleep.

Saturday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. I picked her up from the cot and changed her nappy then I took her into my bedroom to wake up Brett. To his credit, he did get up. We all went downstairs and I made breakfast. We watched Postman Pat the movie then we took Scarlett up for a nap. I had a headache so I laid down on my bed whilst she was asleep. It helped.

When she woke up we all got dressed then my mom took her in the car to town and me and Brett got the bus. We couldn’t fit all of us in the car as my brother and his girlfriend were coming to the shop as well. We met up with them in ASDA. Brett and I primarily went to get my microwave. He agreed he’d buy me one and he’s stuck by that, even post-breakup. I picked a nice little white one and then mom put it in her car.

My mom had gotten me some flowers from Scarlett. Once they’d gone through the checkout she gave them to her to give me.

We took Scarlett and went into town for lunch. She didn’t want to sit in the “baby seat”. She wanted to sit on the chair next to “daddy” to eat her lunch. After we ate we headed to my nan’s. We stayed for a cup of tea and ended up having dinner. I just about managed to eat some but Brett isn’t a huge eater and his lunch had finished him off so we wrapped it up and brought it home.

He packed his stuff up whilst I bathed Scarlett then my nan picked him up and dropped him at the station for 8. I put Scarlett to bed then I caught up with some TV before heading to bed.

Today is Mother’s Day. My mom’s away. She’s at her boyfriends. My Nan is out for dinner so it’s just me and Scarlett. Except it’s never just us in the house. God I can’t wait to move!

She woke up at 8:30. We had porridge then we watched Brave in bed whilst doing puzzles. At 11am I put her down for a nap. She woke up at 1:30. We got dressed and headed to my nan’s. She had said if we wanted some space then we were welcome to go to hers whilst she was out. So we did. I cooked our dinner. We had steak pie and chips. We watched teletubbies, played games, coloured lots. Overall just spent the day together. Which was lovely but I was a bit irked that no one wanted to make it special given that it’s my last Mother’s Day living at my mom’s house. But whatevs!

I caught Scarlett standing on my nans windowsill looking out at the kids playing outside. She wanted to join in. But she’s just too little. Maybe next year.

My grandparents got home and we had a cup of tea. Scarlett helped feed Marley, like usual. She loves being helpful. She knows the routine and doesn’t need much prompting, my clever bean!

My nan dropped us home at 6:30. We got straight in the bath. Scarlett loves it when we share a bath but I don’t do it often as it’s harder work than if I just bath her quick then get her dressed lol we came downstairs to watch some dancing on ice as she loves it. We spoke to Brett then I took her up at 8:15. She cried so I had to go back up for cuddles then she went to sleep. Haven’t heard a peep since!

I started watching a film on my iPad but got distracted then it was too late to watch the rest so I’ll watch it another day.

Work tomorrow. Hope it’s not a stressful day. Got enough stresses in my head with this move!

TTFN x

P.S. 11 days till moving day!!!!

50 shades of pure cheese!

Friday Brett got here relatively earlier than usual. My Nan picked him up from the train station at like 9:15 so he was at mine for 9:30. We watched some TV and then climbed into bed.

Saturday Scarlett woke up quite early. About 7ish. I got her up and out the cot at 8. I did her some breakfast. She had some fruit and a yoghurt. We watched some TV, did some colouring and she played with my hair. At 9:30 we came upstairs to get Brett up. Mom did us some breakfast. She cooked. We headed down town to the bank as I needed to transfer some money. Then we headed to my nan’s. We stopped for a few cups of tea. At 3pm we headed Home to pack a few bits for our night “away” then we set off for town. We checked in at the hotel, dumped our stuff then headed back to town. Brett needed some new clothes so we hit up Sports Direct then we went back to the hotel. We put the TV and chilled for a bit. We decided we’d eat at 7ish as movie was 8:40. We ended up eating at 7:30/8ish. We went to the Tilly in town (Wetherspoons). Cheap meal and good food. I was stuffed.

We watched 50 shades freed. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t as intense as the book. And I feel their stuffed the good bits (kidnapping) into a small 5 minute segment. It could’ve been much more exciting than that. Also it just felt so damn cheesy. Eurgh!

After the movie finished we walked back to the hotel. We put the Winter Olympics on. We stayed up chatting about EVERYTHING. It was really nice and good fun. But we didn’t realise how late it was and when we finally laid our heads down to sleep it was half 3 in the morning. Not ideal.

Sunday I woke up at 8ish with my alarm but I reset it for 9 and went back to sleep. I got up at 9 and jumped in the shower. I needed to get the make up off my face and wash my hair. When I was done I woke Brett up. We checked out just after 10 and walked back to the Tilly for breakfast. Brett didn’t eat. He never does lol I did though, I was hungry.

We jumped on the bus and headed to my Nan’s. Scarlett was happy to see us, for all of 5 minutes. We stayed there for dinner then we headed home at like 4ish. Brett packed his stuff and he left to go home at 5:30. I sorted Scarlett some supper then we did our Weekend Box. 1 of the things was a creative thing. We created dinosaur claws. The other was a cooking/baking thing. We made chocolate rice crispy cakes.

After we made the cakes we watched half of Dancing on Ice. She proper loves it. We did bath time then we watched the rest. She went to bed but she sang for ages. She’s so funny!

Today I woke up to a little horror scene. Since having the coil fitted I’ve been in a weird pattern of having my period one month but skipping the next totally. My periods had gotten lighter. It was great. But today was nasty. I wasn’t expecting it but I had skipped January so I figured at some point something would come. I’ve felt drained all day. I’ve also had a bad headache too. Awesome!

Tonight Scarlett told my mom she didn’t like her. It was in reply to my mom yelling at her to move as she was standing underneath my mom when she was trying to make tea. Hot water is never ideal. She said “me no like you nanny” then stomped out. Teenager alert! Lol

I watched Criminal Minds as it’s back on but now I’m in bed because my head in banging. I’ve taken more paracemtol as it’s been 4 hours now.

TTFN x