Urgh I hate Mondays

Friday I had my interview at 2:30pm. I thought it went well but I can never tell. I don’t really act that different at work than I do at home. I find that I don’t have the mental energy to be two different people. If my work don’t like who I am as a person then they can fire me. It’s not like I am a horrid person or anything. I just don’t just have a “work personality” and a “home personality”. I mean don’t get me wrong, I am a little different to some extent because here I don’t have a toddler hanging off my trousers. I can be more “adult”. I can hold a conversation without being interrupted etc. Anyways we managed to get on the train at 5:15. So we were in Hackbridge by 6:30. I hate the busy travels of travelling between 5-6pm but I prefer getting there early. We had dinner then Scarlett got ready for bed. I think she went to sleep about 9:30pm.

Saturday she woke up at 9ish but didn’t get up. She just stirred then went back down so I went back to sleep too. She didn’t wake until 11:15am. Like what? How great a night’s sleep is that. It was brilliant. She got up, had her bottle then I got her dressed. We grabbed some snacks and headed to see some of Brett’s family. When we got back we had some lunch. We decided to go to the cinema so we left at 6 to have dinner. We went to Pizza Express. I love their doughballs. We ate, had a drink then went to the cinema. We watched The Mountain Between Us. The trailer made it seem much more exciting than it actually was. But nonetheless it wasn’t bad. After the cinema we went back to Brett’s. Scarlett had gone to bed at 9:30pm. So not too late.

Sunday she woke at 8:30ish. We got up and watched some teletubbies. She had breakfast then went down for a nap. After nap time Brett and I took her to the park near his house. It’s massive. It’s got a cafe, lots of open greenery, a lake and bridges etc. She loved running about. We stopped at the play area and she went up and down the slides, with Brett’s help of course. We left at 2:45 to head back for dinner as his mom was cooking a Sunday roast. Scarlett didn’t eat much. Her appetite is still a little off but she had a yoghurt after, which she demolished.

I looked at train times for home and there seemed to be issues with the trains. It was saying I needed to get a rail replacement bus from Hackbridge to Streatham then a train, then another train. So I ended up getting a tram from Beddington Lane to Wimbledon then a train to home. We got off the train at 6:30pm so not too late. I think Scarlett was in bed asleep by 8pm. She was shattered. Long weekend, after an even longer week.

Today my day was just ridiculous. It started well [to some extent and ignoring my bad foot] because I got to work on time, fed and happy. Came into my office and new desk phones had been installed however in the process someone had removed my internet box leaving me with no access to anything. I asked around and eventually an engineer came and replaced some cables and got me back online. Without internet access I couldn’t use our emailing system, our database nor our shared drives. So I couldn’t do any work for almost an hour. As fun as that sounds, it’s infuriating when you know you have lots waiting to be done.

I am currently on lunch catching up with Victoria from last night. My foot is getting worse as the day goes on. I genuinely have NO CLUE how I have hurt it. I don’t recall stepping on anything, twisting it or bashing it. It must be some weird delayed reaction to trampolining last week. I mean I hurt my knees so why not my foot too lol

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A quiet weekend

Friday we stopped for a bite to eat on the way home as we had stopped not too far away at Tesco to stock up on some bare essentials. I also got Scarlett 6 pairs of pyjamas as her old ones are too short for her now, finally. We had some food and then we headed home. Scarlett went to bed at usual time. She was shattered after our long week away.

Saturday she didn’t wake until 9am. What a lovely lay-in. She got up, had a bottle, we watched some teletubbies and then she had breakfast. She was tired still so I put her back to bed at 10:30am. I had to wake her for swimming. We were late and then I discovered I had left my swimsuit at home. I told the swim teacher my predicament and explained that I was sorry but Scarlett would have to miss it this week. She said that if I didn’t mind, she would take her and swim with her. She said as we were down to half the class [usually there is 4 of us but today there was only 2 including Scarlett]. So Scarlett did her lesson with the teacher. After swimming we went home for lunch. She had her lunch then she went back down for a nap. She was still asleep at 3:45 when I left to go to the cinema. I had a hot dog and a slushie. I don’t usually have food but I was hungry. I watched the new “IT” movie. It wasn’t scary but very creepy. It was only down as a 15 so there was a bunch of “teenagers” in there and every time you saw his hand or reflection or something equally as non-scary you’d hear squeals. Like seriously? I enjoyed the movie and I think Bill Skarsgard did the role brilliantly. I know Tim Currie did the original Pennywise but you cannot compare the two. Bill brought something different to the character. It seems they are splitting the book between 2 movies instead of condensing it in to 1 movie, like the first movie was done. So I look forward to IT chapter 2. After the cinema I got the bus back to home. Scarlett was in bed but still awake. I popped up and said Hi to her and goodnight. She was so pleased to see me. She had a quick chat on FaceTime with Brett then I put her to bed properly.

Mom and I toasted her completion of her NVQ level 3 in Care. She started it when I was pregnant but so much personal stuff had come up and she had put it on the back burner. I am so proud of her because this year she worked her ass off to complete it. And it wasn’t easy as some of the physical attributes to the NVQ required my mom to be shadowed by her NVQ assessor, at work, doing stuff. But my mom’s work life has been really disruptive this year as she was made redundant and changed jobs twice since for various reasons. And she was in hospital last month. But she did it. So we toasted with some Martini Asti.

Sunday Scarlett woke up at 8ish. She had a bottle then some breakfast. We started watching Hotel Transylvania 2 together but she ditched me for a nap. That’s fine, I watched it by myself. I love that movie. She woke up at 1:30pm. I dressed her then mom and I took her to the park. We all needed the fresh air. We played for a bit but there was too many boisterous asshole kids pushing past her, and she banged her cheek. So we left the play area and wandered on the open field. I had brought her bubbles so she chased them lol we went home after and watched Shrek 4. Mom cooked some dinner at 5:30. Scarlett was bathed at 6 and in bed by 6:45. She had been whinging to go to bed since 4 lol it took a lot of energy to keep her up as long as I did.

Mom and I watched some tele. I tidied up the toys in the front room then I got in the shower. After I finished I came down to watch Victoria. I love it. Now it is finished I am in bed.

I am back at work tomorrow. I wonder what that will bring. I bet I have a bunch of emails and shit has changed. I have anxiety just thinking about it. But it feeds my kid. I forgot to say, I got a letter whilst away from my company saying I was getting a salary increased effective from this month. I have gained about £1300 a year. Not bad.

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16 years, never forgotten

I had the best weekend I’ve had in ages. It was really chilled. We barely got up to much and it was great. Brett got here at about 10:45pm. We opened the bottle of Prosecco he brought with him. We had a nice long catch up of our day and then we went up to bed. Scarlett woke up on Saturday at 8:15. I got her from her cot, brought her into my bed so she could see Brett. She climbed all over him and gave him kisses. I said I’d leave him for a bit, wake him in a bit. So I scooped her up and took her downstairs for a bottle and some teletubbies. We practised doing her puzzles. She is getting very good at them now. She had some breakfast then I dressed her and took her upstairs to wake Brett before putting her down for a nap. I woke her up at about 12:30 before my grandad arrived to drop us off at her swimming lesson. She did so well with the lesson, she remembered more than I expected and Brett managed to film a lot of the lesson as he was sat on the sideline watching. He had not been before so that was nice.

After swimming we walked to Farnborough Gate Retail Park for some lunch. It was nice having some family time, just the 3 of us. After lunch we walked to my Nan’s house. Scarlett loves going there because they have a garden she can play in [not that she managed to because it was raining]. She went down for a nap a 3ish and didn’t wake till almost 5. We had dinner at my Nan’s then we walked home. I did bath time and Brett did bottle and bed time. Then we took turns getting in the shower then we went downstairs and watched a movie. We watched the Seventh Son. Brett has never seen it. I watched it when pregnant. Good movie. We went to bed quite late which was silly as one of us has to get up with the toddler lol

She woke up at 8:45am which is an epic lay in for my little princess. We did bottle then woke up Brett. I made us all breakfast at 10am as we were headed out at about 10:30 to go visit my Gran. Brett has never met her so was about time. We stayed until about 12 then we left for home. I put Scarlett down for a nap and then we relaxed. It was nice having some one-to-one time as well as family time. When she woke up we got ready and headed out for some food. We went to town and had a nice meal at Poppins café. After we ate we took her to the soft play at the leisure centre. Brett kicked his shoes off and went in with her for half hour whilst I read my book [which I have now finished]. I was reading “A bucket list to mend a broken heart”. I couldn’t put it down.

We left town at 4ish. I put Brett’s phone on charge whilst he packed his stuff up then at 5:30 my Nan picked him up and dropped him to the train station. After he left I bathed Scarlett and then we snuggled watching teletubbies. She was really worn out after soft play so she asked to go to bed. So at 6:30 I made her bottle and took her up. By the time she had drank it, had a kiss and a cuddle and laid down it was 6:45. By 7:15 she was flat out. I tidied up the kitchen, took the recycling out, put away clean dishes from the draining board and washed up the dirty stuff. I put her toys away in the front room so there was space to hoover [Mom is doing that] and I then got ready for a bed and settled in front of the TV to catch up with Bitten. I managed 5 minutes before my phone rang and ended up on FaceTime with Brett for an hour and a half lol I don’t mind. When we hung up I carried on watching. By then my mom was home. We had a mini catch up then she went and got in bed. I watched the episode, then another and before I knew it was midnight so I crawled into bed and hoped I wouldn’t be too tired.

Today came and I was tired as expected lol I feel like I barely sleep even though my FitBit says I got almost 6 hours. I was just about on time to work. Bloody traffic and shitty weather. My work pal’s dog has gone missing. She was with her dog walker and she just ran off. She has been spotted but someone [it was shared on Facebook] but when my pals mom got there, she couldn’t see her. She hasn’t been seen since. The biggest worry is that the dog Izzy has epilepsy. And this can be triggered by stress/anxiety. She could have a fit if she is scared or the noise of the cars on the busy road. That is another worry. There is main roads near where she was last seen. She is a dog. They don’t have great road sense. I hope for my pals sake they find her soon.

Today marks 16 years since the fall of the twin towers. And since all those people died. I wasn’t there and I wasn’t remotely aware of the whole incident as I was only 10 and our school that day decided to keep us in the dark, which is understandable. But as I got older and learned more about it I realised what happened was such an awful, despicable thing. People lost their lives. Their lives. Families lost their loved ones. Firefighters, police officers, medical personnel, whoever the hell else – they did their utmost best to help everyone. A lot of “off duty” people rallied. They literally showed that United States is called “United” for a reason. We will never forget the people who died, were injured or even those who survived. Nor will we forget the helpers, the heroes and all those in between. We stand, united, as humans.

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Almost September

Well last weekend was a Bank Holiday weekend. We didn’t have a lot planned.

Saturday I took Scarlett to town for a mummy-daughter lunch date. I had her feet measured at Clarks. She was a 3F in March and she is now a 4G. Her feet have grown!!! My little weed is growing lol not surprised with the amount she eats. After Clarks we went to Poppins for lunch. Scarlett had a burger and chips, same as me. She wasn’t able to sit in a highchair as they were all occupied so she sat in the booth with me. She sat SO well for her age. I was so impressed with her, my heart swelled.

After we ate lunch we did some shopping and I bought her some new trainers and some wellies. I also got her some sandals as September is meant to be a sunny month. We got on the bus and went to my Nan’s. We ended up there for dinner. We had KFC but the idiots forgot to give us our drink when we left so I had to walk back in with the receipt to ask for it. Then we got back and they had forgotten our 2 sides. Bloody morons. Kind of glad I don’t have KFC often. It doesn’t agree with my bowels. They get angry lol

Sunday we had planned to meet my mummy friend, her husband and their toddler, M. They were stuck in traffic but we managed to meet at Frimley Lodge for 1pm [ish]. We had lunch at the café and the toddlers got reacquainted with each other. They haven’t since each other since M’s 1st birthday party in February. A lot changes in 6 months. Bacl then M was walking but Scarlett wasn’t quite there. We ate our lunch, did nappy changes and then we walked to the play area. There was sand so off came the shoes. Scarlett has only been on sand once before, last year when she was about 9 months old [technically half her life ago]. She was okay but it’s hard to walk on sand lol

We went to the fields and found a shaded part. It was really hot. The girls took it in turns of sitting between my legs. Scarlett got a bit jealous of M sitting near me haha was cute. We left the lodge at 4ish. My grandad picked me and Scarlett up as we had a dinner waiting for us. I put Scarlett down for a nap and when she was up we ate our dinner together. We went home and Scarlett had a bath, bottle and bed like usual.

Monday we had no plans except for going food shopping. We decided to go at 11am and then when we got back Scarlett went for a nap. She wake until almost 2pm. MOm was dropping my brother somewhere so we bundled in the car and she dropped me and Scarlett at my Nan’s. My nan was out all day so she had asked if I would go in for half hour and let the dog get some fresh air. I stayed about an hour then mom picked us up. We went to the chemist to speak to a pharmacist about Scarlett’s bumpy rash but as it was a Bank Holiday none were open except the 24hr Boots one at Farnborough Gate Retail Park. So we asked there and they guy said it “could be chicken pox” but as there are so few of them, he can’t say for sure and suggested I see a GP. We were next to food places so we had dinner as we had kind of skipped lunch. Scarlett ate lots and was so good with her cup and straw. I think she has finally gotten the hang of it and doesn’t “tip” it as much as she use to lol as I knew I’d need to take her to the doctor’s Tuesday, I text my manager to let her know I’d have to be home Tuesday. She was fine with it and said she’d let my TL know [as it was just going to be me and my TL in this week, the other 2 are on annual leave lucky buggers].

Tuesday I got up at 7:30am. My doctor’s surgery opens at 8am so I waited and then called. It took me 15 minutes of clicking “call back” and a further 15 minutes of being on hold until I got through. They had an emergency appointment for 9:20am available so we took that. I gave Scarlett breakfast, fed her and then we walked to her appointment. The doctor said it looked like she had a viral infection [some long winded name] and it would go on its own. So no Chicken Pox for us. Yay lol we didn’t want her to be spotty for our holiday in 2 weeks!!! The doc looked at her swollen eye and confirmed it was a stye as previously suspected. She says it should go down on its own, but to put a farm clean flannel on it as a compress once or twice a day to help aid it. But she’s a toddler so she probably won’t sit still long enough. I did try it at bed time and she sat fine so that is great. She is such a good-natured child, I can’t believe how lucky I am. After doctor’s we stopped by my grandparent’s as they live near it. We ended up staying almost the whole day. I put Scarlett down for a nap at 10:30am and she woke up at 12:30 when my Dad popped in on his lunch hour. When he went to leave an hour later, she went down the garden hand in his hand and wanted to go with him. Which is great considering she doesn’t see him as often as she should.

We went home at about 5ish. Mom cooked sausage and mash. I do love that. Scarlett had it too. She is quite partial to having the same food as us now. I can rarely get away with giving her something different haha she knows, she isn’t silly.

Wednesday my first day back after an extra long Bank Holiday was a very busy day. I didn’t stop doing stuff all day. Usually we have quiet periods. We fill out these task trackers to keep track of tasks, ironically. My task tracker was 20+ lines deep and all different colours. It’s never usually like that lol it’s good being busy though. Scarlett and I had garlic and herb tortellini with a cheese sauce for dinner. She ate most of it and then asked for a banana, which she shared with my mom. She then went to bed. She was asleep by 7:30 but when I went upstairs at 8:30 she was whinging, she must’ve woke up. So I went in and gave her a big cuddle and then we FaceTimed Brett so he could say Hello to her as he missed her before bedtime. She stayed up for 20 minutes then I put her back down and she went back to sleep. She thought she was incredibly clever for sitting on Nann’y bed after bed time lol

Thursday [today] I had an awful nights sleep last night. I feel like I haven’t slept much. Just on lunch at work. Thank god. I accidentally left my sunbite crisps at home so I had NO SNACK so I was HANGRY beyond believe until now.

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26 candles

Ironically I didn’t actually get a cake for my birthday this year. But that just sums up how my day went. Brett pissed me off because the only thing I asked for for my birthday was a lay-in. And did I get one? No! We had said we’d spend the day together and my mom would babysit. We didn’t go out until half 2. We went bowling. We had two games. He thrashed me on both. Then we played in the arcade. We played air hockey and it was really fun. I love that game.

We got a bus to the garage then my mom picked us up and we went home. I put Scarlett down for a nap. When she woke up I did my makeup and got dressed then we headed out at 7ish. We went to Frankie and Benny’s for a meal. My dinner was delicious. Scarlett ate well but Brett gave her some coke so she was a tad hyper. It took her ages to calm down. We stopped at my nan’s on our way home for a cuppa. We put Scarlett to bed and then we finished watching the second Sherlock Holmes. Now me and Brett are just toasting my birthday with our Asti and chatting.

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5 days till Italy

So I got up with Scarlett at 7:45am. Was a decent lay in. She had a bottle and a nappy change. We watched some teletubbies and she sat on my lap for ages, which made me think she was probably tired. I made her breakfast then I put her down for a nap. Brett got up just before 10 and we had a bicker in the kitchen because he had pissed me off in the morning by almost knocking me out when dreaming [which itself isn’t an issue] and then when I was nice and asked if he was ok/dreaming? He got really attitudinal with me and then he was whinging that Scarlett was crying [I was putting her down for a nap] so I swore at him and left the bedroom. He came out a bit later and yeah we argued. His mom decided to get in the middle and told us to grow up. Brett was annoyed because he wouldn’t interfere in her relationship with his Dad, so she shouldn’t do it to us. But her argument was that it’s her house and she doesn’t want arguing in her house. She said [not to me, to Brett whilst I sat there feeling awkward as fuck] that I need to learn to “handle” him better. I am still young apparently and bite too quickly. Not sure having the hump over his attitude is anything to do with my age, just the fact I don’t like being spoken to like shit. But anyways, I was just still angry so I kept my mouth shut and sat there like a fucking lemon feeling more awkward by the minute.

We went into the shops once Scarlett woke up from her morning nap. I felt sick because I was so hungry as it was lunch time at this point. And we went into the pet store and it stank I almost vommed lol so I waited outside. We headed back. Scarlett had a sandwich and then I put her back down for a nap at half 2. She woke up just in time for dinner at 4ish. She didn’t eat much dinner, which I expected as she had just woke up. Brett and his dad had a blazing row in the kitchen whilst washing up. Not entirely sure what it was over. I was in the lounge changing Scarlett’s shitty nappy so I only heard snippets. They’ve never rowed when we’ve been there before. So was a little unsettling to hear 2 grown men going at each other. Scarlett obviously could hear and it upset her a little. Contrary to what you may believe, we don’t yell at each other in my house an we certainly have never in front of Scarlett. Brett picked her up when he had calmed down and I packed our stuff up. His mom drove us to the station at 6. Our train was 6:18pm. We got home at 7:30. My mom picked us up and we went home.

She had a bath and went to bed for 8:30ish. I had a quick shower myself and then caught up with Midnight, Texas that was on Thursday. Mom and I went up to bed at about 10ish. I was quite tired so I am thinking of going to sleep soon. Just laid in bed with my lovely mosquito bites that are itchy. I keep coming across a new one. So far I have 5.

5 days until Italy. I should count “sleeps”. So we have Sunday night, Monday night, Tuesday night, Wednesday night and Thursday night so that is 5 sleeps. Getting closer and I feel unprepared lol

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1 week to go till Italy

Can’t believe it is only 1 weeks till we jet off to Italy. 7 days. 7 days!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you tell I am excited?

It is Brett’s brother’s birthday today. I sent a card in the week, from Scarlett. Even though we are going there tonight. Just felt less hassle because at least I know he already has it.

We went for dinner last night. I had buttermilk fried chicken. I love it!!!!!! It was good catching up with my brother. He has expressed interests in wanting to move back home. I don’t think this is a good idea. He will just end up just as unhappy here as he clearly is at his Dad’s. But it’s not my choice apparently. My mom says he can move back if he gets a job back home, before moving. So yeah.

We got home at 7:30. I bathed Scarlett then put her to bed. We watched Emmerdale then I decided to get in to bed. I had a headache. I think I switched my phone off at 10:30.

Today I woke at 6am desperate for a pee. I never wake up usually lol I got up at 7. Mom dressed Scarlett whilst I looked for leftover items to pack for Brett’s house. We headed out at 7:30. Today Scarlett wasn’t being dropped at nursery by my Nan. My mom said she would do it, so she came for the ride to my work with me. I gave her a kiss before I headed into my office. She was waving at me lol

Just on lunch watching Salem now.

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