Monday I woke up exhausted. I felt like I had not slept whatsoever. I had a really odd dream which I can’t even recall now. Work was ok. Manager is back from her holiday so I feel safe now she’s back. When she’s away I feel like I have no buffer between the people who expect my team (aka me) to do things I shouldn’t be doing, and myself. I sometimes get backed into a corner to do things and I don’t like that. So yay for her arrival!
He rung me again. Left a few voicemails. I listened this time. One was about 5 minutes long. He seems to have calmed down a little. He reckons he accepts my decision but I’m doubtful.
Scarlett did her Book Advent for Day 11. Her book was On A Pirate Ship.
Watched criminal minds followed by Blindspot then I got into bed at 11.
Tuesday I felt better as I had slept okay. However I had a random arse dream about Scarlett’s sperm donor. I dreamt me and Scarlett were on on holiday staying in some motel in America. He turned up. I was like wtf you doing here? He said he wanted to see her. I was like but why now? Why here? We’re on holiday, how did you find us? Was so weird!
I got caught short at work today. I have the coil fitted (as previously mentioned in my post about how traumatised getting it fitted I was lol) and I totally skipped a period. Which I figured was them stopping as it’s common with the coil for them to stop. And I was at month 6 so yeah, I assumed. Never assume! I had nothing. I repeat, nothing in my handbag. So I had to trek in the -2 temperatures, with no coat, down the road to the local shop at 10am. Luckily I got there and back in 10 minutes and didn’t slip over on any ice. Winning! At lunch my manager asked me if I wanted to come to Matalan with her. So we went. I bought myself a coat – mom said she’d buy me one for xmas so if I see one and get it she’ll give me the money. I also got Scarlett some fluffy pyjamas as her room gets so cold in the night. Her GroEgg changes colours dependent on the temperature. It’s red if it’s too hot and orange if it’s just right. Well apparently it goes blue if it’s too cold. It’s been blue every morning so far. I’m tempted to set my alarm to go in her room at 4am and put the heater on low till we get up. But I don’t know. May try her throat out.
Anyways, I got some fluffy socks for myself and Scarlett a Christmas cup. I spent like £80 in less than 20 minutes. This is why I usually stay at my desk and watch TV. Cheaper lol
Today Scarlett asked me to sit in the back of the car with her. She wanted her blanket on her legs and to hold my hand. So that’s what we did. On our way home we looked at all the Christmas lights. It’s become routine now. She loves them.
She had her dinner whilst I showered. She sat so nicely eating whilst my mom made tea and I was in the shower. She then had her bath and then we did Book Advent for Day 12. Today’s book was Little Bear’s Big Adventure. After her bottle she went up to bed.
I watched Once Upon A Time then some more Grimm. Now I’m in bed ready to sleep. So tired!