26 candles

Ironically I didn’t actually get a cake for my birthday this year. But that just sums up how my day went. Brett pissed me off because the only thing I asked for for my birthday was a lay-in. And did I get one? No! We had said we’d spend the day together and my mom would babysit. We didn’t go out until half 2. We went bowling. We had two games. He thrashed me on both. Then we played in the arcade. We played air hockey and it was really fun. I love that game.

We got a bus to the garage then my mom picked us up and we went home. I put Scarlett down for a nap. When she woke up I did my makeup and got dressed then we headed out at 7ish. We went to Frankie and Benny’s for a meal. My dinner was delicious. Scarlett ate well but Brett gave her some coke so she was a tad hyper. It took her ages to calm down. We stopped at my nan’s on our way home for a cuppa. We put Scarlett to bed and then we finished watching the second Sherlock Holmes. Now me and Brett are just toasting my birthday with our Asti and chatting.

TTFN x

Day 1 in Verona

So the day got better. Surviving on just 1 hours sleep was not good for me, for Scarlett or for my relationship. But after we went to the supermarket we came back and I put Scarlett down after her lunch. She got back up and we played and coloured. She was still catching up on her sleep so she went back down. And she stayed down for about an hour. Brett and I had a random mid-afternoon shower and we made up over the grouchiness between us. It's amazing what tiredness does to you. So we showered and had a laugh like two young people should do. Scarlett woke up before we were dressed so she "helped" me find my clothes. Which basically just means she kept pulling clean stuff out of my suitcase lol bless her!

We got sorted and headed out for dinner. We took a stroll trying to find an ATM that accepts my money card and there's one just outside our building so that's good to know. We ended up in a little pizzeria nearby. We had pizza and Scarlett ate some. She was knackered by the time we'd finished eating so we grabbed a quick drink in a bar then headed back home. Brett got her ready for bed and I put her down with a bottle. Then I grabbed our sweets and drinks and came in the bedroom so we could watch a film. We ended up talking instead. About judo. He was showing me some moves and we rolled about a bit laughing because I'm too short limbed to grab like he does which just ruins my attempts at any moves haha

He's fell asleep now and I'm just catching up with my girls and then I'm going to bed.

TTFN x

5 days till Italy

So I got up with Scarlett at 7:45am. Was a decent lay in. She had a bottle and a nappy change. We watched some teletubbies and she sat on my lap for ages, which made me think she was probably tired. I made her breakfast then I put her down for a nap. Brett got up just before 10 and we had a bicker in the kitchen because he had pissed me off in the morning by almost knocking me out when dreaming [which itself isn’t an issue] and then when I was nice and asked if he was ok/dreaming? He got really attitudinal with me and then he was whinging that Scarlett was crying [I was putting her down for a nap] so I swore at him and left the bedroom. He came out a bit later and yeah we argued. His mom decided to get in the middle and told us to grow up. Brett was annoyed because he wouldn’t interfere in her relationship with his Dad, so she shouldn’t do it to us. But her argument was that it’s her house and she doesn’t want arguing in her house. She said [not to me, to Brett whilst I sat there feeling awkward as fuck] that I need to learn to “handle” him better. I am still young apparently and bite too quickly. Not sure having the hump over his attitude is anything to do with my age, just the fact I don’t like being spoken to like shit. But anyways, I was just still angry so I kept my mouth shut and sat there like a fucking lemon feeling more awkward by the minute.

We went into the shops once Scarlett woke up from her morning nap. I felt sick because I was so hungry as it was lunch time at this point. And we went into the pet store and it stank I almost vommed lol so I waited outside. We headed back. Scarlett had a sandwich and then I put her back down for a nap at half 2. She woke up just in time for dinner at 4ish. She didn’t eat much dinner, which I expected as she had just woke up. Brett and his dad had a blazing row in the kitchen whilst washing up. Not entirely sure what it was over. I was in the lounge changing Scarlett’s shitty nappy so I only heard snippets. They’ve never rowed when we’ve been there before. So was a little unsettling to hear 2 grown men going at each other. Scarlett obviously could hear and it upset her a little. Contrary to what you may believe, we don’t yell at each other in my house an we certainly have never in front of Scarlett. Brett picked her up when he had calmed down and I packed our stuff up. His mom drove us to the station at 6. Our train was 6:18pm. We got home at 7:30. My mom picked us up and we went home.

She had a bath and went to bed for 8:30ish. I had a quick shower myself and then caught up with Midnight, Texas that was on Thursday. Mom and I went up to bed at about 10ish. I was quite tired so I am thinking of going to sleep soon. Just laid in bed with my lovely mosquito bites that are itchy. I keep coming across a new one. So far I have 5.

5 days until Italy. I should count “sleeps”. So we have Sunday night, Monday night, Tuesday night, Wednesday night and Thursday night so that is 5 sleeps. Getting closer and I feel unprepared lol

TTFN x

1 week to go till Italy

Can’t believe it is only 1 weeks till we jet off to Italy. 7 days. 7 days!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you tell I am excited?

It is Brett’s brother’s birthday today. I sent a card in the week, from Scarlett. Even though we are going there tonight. Just felt less hassle because at least I know he already has it.

We went for dinner last night. I had buttermilk fried chicken. I love it!!!!!! It was good catching up with my brother. He has expressed interests in wanting to move back home. I don’t think this is a good idea. He will just end up just as unhappy here as he clearly is at his Dad’s. But it’s not my choice apparently. My mom says he can move back if he gets a job back home, before moving. So yeah.

We got home at 7:30. I bathed Scarlett then put her to bed. We watched Emmerdale then I decided to get in to bed. I had a headache. I think I switched my phone off at 10:30.

Today I woke at 6am desperate for a pee. I never wake up usually lol I got up at 7. Mom dressed Scarlett whilst I looked for leftover items to pack for Brett’s house. We headed out at 7:30. Today Scarlett wasn’t being dropped at nursery by my Nan. My mom said she would do it, so she came for the ride to my work with me. I gave her a kiss before I headed into my office. She was waving at me lol

Just on lunch watching Salem now.

TTFN x

8 days to go

So Scarlett’s item came from Amazon last night. It was her teletubbies backpack. I am hoping to use this as her “baby bag” from now on. She loved it. She wouldn’t leave it alone when we opened it. She kept pointing at it and saying “La-La”.

teletubbiesWe had dinner at my Nan’s house so we didn’t get home till 6ish. She played for a bit then I gave her a bath, bottle and then bed. I really can’t fault her. She is just so good at going to bed. She sometimes whinges to go to bed early lol I have been teaching her to say “love you”. She can. But only we can understand it. It isn’t clear enough yet.

I am heading off out for my lunch break soon. Mom is taking me to the shops so I can do some holiday shopping. I desperately need some shorts as it is between 30-35 degrees in Italy in August. I have just looked at the weather forecast and it says next Friday in Verona it’ll be 32 degrees when we land! Hopefully I find what I am looking for.

We are going out for dinner tonight as my brother is down visiting. So us 4 are heading straight out after I finish work. I have brought jeans to change in to as I don’t want to wear my work clothes out.

TTFN x

9 days to go

Yes I am doing that annoying countdown that I usually do for events like my birthday or Christmas etc. We have 9 days till we jet off to Italy. I ordered a bunch of things on Amazon on Monday. 3 of them came Tuesday. I had ordered a medium sized suitcase, a toiletries bag [that hangs up with a plastic hook] and 4 medium sizes reusable silicone toiletry bottles [for shampoo etc].

The little bag was a good idea as we can hang it in the apartment bathroom so it is out of the way of the toddler lol the suitcase is big enough but not too big as we’ll need to drag it on the train a few times whilst away. The reusable bottles are the best idea ever. I can take my fave conditioner with me for my hair. *Happy Dance*

I am just watching Emmerdale. It is on for an hour tonight. Didn’t realise until it went to the second break and it didn’t have then end credits. Doh! lol

TTFN x

10 days to go

Scarlett spoke to Brett on FaceTime twice last night. She was very loving towards him. Sometimes she acts really indifferent to him and it bothers him. But she is a toddler and they get easily distracted which is why I tend to turn the TV off when he calls. But she was talkative to him. She was in the bath. She was showing him her bath toys [which he sees anyway when he is here] but it was super cute. She went to bed at 7:15 and then mom and I watched Emmerdale together. Brett FaceTimed me a few times on and off whilst I watched Salem again. I think I crawled into bed at half 10. Didn’t fall asleep until gone midnight though!

Today I got up at 7 for work. Mom dropped me in and I was 15 minutes early for a change. I worked until 9:15 then mom picked me up and dropped me for my interview. It was at the hospital. The same hospital I was born in almost 26 years ago, and my brother was born in 22 years ago. Also, Scarlett was born there 18 months ago. I actually walked passed the entrance to the Labour Ward/Delivery Suite. So surreal. If me and Brett end up living down my area, rather than his, it’s safe to assume our next baby will be born there too. Although we might not. We may find a place together in Croydon. I wouldn’t mind doing that. Moving away. But we’ll see.

Interview seemed to go well. They said they’ll let me know either way before next Friday. I popped into the toilets on the way out and whilst I was mid-pee the toilet flushed. Safe to say I got an impromptu fanny wash haha I got back to work at 11am.

I got picked up after work so I could donate at 5:30pm. I booked this months ago after my last donation. I couldn’t donate. My iron levels were 110 and the average is 115-140 and the NHSBT bottom line is 125. So I’ve been banned for a year from donating and told to see a doctor at some point. So we went home for dinner etc. Mom went to her boyfriend’s house about 20 minutes ago and Scarlett is in bed so I think I will just catch up with Salem.

10 days till Italy!!!!!!!!!!

TTFN x