Friday we stayed home instead of going to my Nan’s. Scarlett went to bed at 7:30. I did myself some dinner then I relaxed. I really love having my freedom. I can wander around our flat naked if I wish. I can sit on my sofa eating my dinner no matter the time. I can leave the washing up and no one is going to moan at me about it.
Saturday we got up at 8:30. I did us breakfast then we watched Monster Family movie on Sky Cinema. I put her down for a nap. When she woke up at 2ish we went food shopping with my mom. I stocked up on nappies. We aren’t Potty Training just yet. She dropped us home with our shopping. Scarlett seemed tired and we were due to have a later dinner for my cousin’s birthday. I put Scarlett in a nice dress and off we went for dinner at 7. We went to the Harvester. I had steak and chips. Scarlett had fish fingers and chips with peas. She LOVES peas. We went to my Nan’s house afterwards for a cup of tea. We got home at 10. She was in bed at 10:30. I stayed up watching TV then I climbed into bed.
Sunday we got up at 9am. Nice little lay in for me. We were going to visit my Gran in the old folks home but we couldn’t due to no room in the car. So we stayed home. I tried to put Scarlett down for a nap at 11ish. She just rolled around my bed for 2 hours. Fun times. We got ourselves ready and walked to my Nan’s house. It was raining and we got soaked. We had dinner at about 2:45. She didn’t eat much and she was very obviously tired. We stayed till 6pm then we went home. I did her bath and then at 7ish mom turned up for a cuppa tea. Scarlett went to bed at 7:30. Mom and I watched TV. At 8:30 I made us cheese on toast then she had tea and left for home. I got in the bath then caught up on some TV before heading to bed.
I’ve not been sleeping properly since we moved in. My flat is nowhere near the motorway even though I live in the same group of roads as my mom. But 23 years next to the motorway and this flat is eerily quiet. I have been mad tired for like a week now but I think I am slowly getting use to it.
So as you know, me and Brett split up. My choice. I felt all we did was row, and tear each other down. I figured splitting up we could maybe remain friends. Maybe remember why we liked each other in the first place. And hopefully salvage that friendship we had. He still makes me laugh. I still make him laugh. Less so now that he knows I have been chatting to guys. More so one in particular. He hates 1 guy and for good reason, and he said if I touch this guy then he and I are done for good, he’ll never touch me again. Which in 1 respect is like “Well we ain’t together so it doesn’t matter” but on another it’s like “Wow ok, that’s made you pissed and hurt” and I felt bad that he was angry and upset. It wasn’t intentional. He asked me to be honest. He said he’d rather know what I was up to. So I told him. Part of me wishes I hadn’t but saying it out loud has made it real. We genuinely are done. There is no going back. He wouldn’t want me now even if I said I changed my mind or wanted to try again. I told him I hope he meets someone who makes him feel like he’s on top of the world. He deserves that. I want him to be happy. He replied with “I did. And I was”. Thanks lol
Not up to much tonight. Just going to sort Scarlett out for bath and bed. Then have my dinner and chill. I really need to start sleeping better. At work I am struggling. Need to catch up on Criminal Minds and Blindspot tonight then bedtime for 10:30/11ish.