The Terrible Twos

Tuesday after work we went up the hospital to visit my Nan. She looked alright considering she’d had surgery at her ripe old age of almost 90. Scarlett was really well behaved and didn’t run around the ward as I had expected her to. We left for Home and grabbed food on the way as I hadn’t eaten.

Wednesday we had a big meeting at work. Well the meeting itself was at the Holiday Inn in the conference room. Apparently my job is at risk due to a restructure, coming from the merger of my department (and our sub department) with another department. Basically they’ve come in and told us we have to fight for our jobs. But they’re moving my office to another office. 9 miles away. As a non-driver this won’t work for me. So I’ve no choice but to leave. It left us all in low spirits if I’m being honest. Luckily I already had an interview lined up for the afternoon so fingers crossed something comes from that.

Thursday Scarlett didn’t go to bed till late. Well she did go to bed at a normal time. But she was still awake at 9pm. I even climbed in her bed with her for 10 minutes and it didn’t make a difference. I caught her chewing her dummy so I’ve taken it off her. She’s too old to have 1 now and she doesn’t need it. It’s just become habit for her.

Friday Brett got off the train when I finished work so we picked him up. It was great having him here for bath and bedtime on a Friday for a change. He doesn’t usually get here that early, when he’s working. Scarlett enjoyed a bedtime story with Daddy, rather than me. She prefers it when he does it. Day 2 of No Dummy went ok. When she went to bed I cooked us dinner then I had a quick bath. We watched Prison Break season 1 episodes 1-4. We said we’d watch the entire series from beginning to end as I haven’t seen it in years and can barely remember.

Saturday we got up at 8ish. We had breakfast then we watched A Little Mermaid. Well some of it. We put her down for a nap. I did some washing. When she was up we went into town for lunch then I bought a present for Scarlett’s Nursery friend. His party was at 3pm so I had to wrap it in the car outside. The party wasn’t that bad just very hectic. Lots of kids everywhere. Brett got forced into following her into the jungle gym. She wouldn’t go without him haha at 4:30 the kids had some dinner then at 5 we left. It was good seeing her with her little friends. After the party we went to Morrison’s so I could do a small shop then we headed home. Scarlett had a bath then she went to bed. I cooked us pizza and garlic bread then we settled down to watch more Prison Break.

Sunday I woke up at 8ish and heard Scarlett moving. She didn’t call out so I stayed in bed and must’ve fell asleep because when I heard her again it was quarter to 10. Result! We got up and had breakfast. We played and watched TV. At 12:30 we walked to my nan’s house for dinner. We stayed till 3ish then went home to chill. Brett left mine at 4:30 to get a lift to the train station. Me and Scarlett had cheese on toast then we had a bath. Mom popped in for tea then Scarlett went to bed at 8:30. Mom left just before 9. I settled down to watch a new series I’ve started. It’s called Shadow Hunters: The Mortal Instruments. It’s been a movie, which I’ve seen. And I read the books as well. It’s brill.

Monday (today) I woke up just before 7. Started making my lunch and Scarlett woke up crying. She had a bad dream. We got dressed then I did breakfast.

She’s so naughty at the moment. She doesn’t listen. She pushes and taps you (mild slapping). She says No all the time. She’s defiant and stubborn. I think she’s hit the Terrible Twos. She’s been like it a few weeks and I’m already at the end of my tether. She just pushes and pushes. Nothings working. I’ve tried the softly approach but all I seem to do lately is shout at her to get her attention because she just does not listen. I cried with frustration earlier and it did stop her in her tracks and she calmed down a little so we could chat. I’m not sure she listened or took in what I said. I mean she is only 2. But it was worth a try.

She went to bed at 7:30 but was still awake till almost 9! I watched the soaps then Criminal Minds. Tried to watch Blindspot but my TalkTalk box was playing up so I had to turn it off and reset. I lost my recording of Blindspot. So I set it up to record later on and I climbed into bed.

I’ve got neck ache and a headache. I’m on so I’m exhausted with menstural fatigue.

They named the new price. Louis Arthur Charles, pronounced as Loo-wee. How exciting!

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There is a new Prince

Wednesday I went for a walk during lunch with my work colleagues. We walked around Frimley Lodge opposite our offices. Took us 20-25 minutes. I did 2800+ steps to add to my steps of 2500 so I hit my daily 5K target. Started watching a new series called the Resident. It is set in a hospital and follows the stories of some Doctors.

Thursday we went for another walk. Did the same thing. It was quite warm and I should’ve worn sun cream as I burn easily due to my sensitive skin. Wasn’t out in it for long though and the trees provided shade so I should be ok!

It was my brother’s birthday today so I posted a video on his facebook of Scarlett singing Happy Birthday lol

Friday I sent Scarlett to Nursery in a dress. Her first one without tights in like 6 months. I made the mistake of thinking her Nursery would remove it before painting etc. She came home smothered in paint. The dress is white (and pink). Very annoyed!

Brett got to mine late. I had said I’d wait for him to get off the train and cook us dinner so we could eat together. Which I did. It was nice eating together. We stuck some TV on then climbed into bed.

Saturday was Brett’s birthday. Scarlett woke up quite early. I was awake from like 6am because Brett kept coughing and it was really annoying lol we had breakfast then we watched half of Moana. Scarlett was tired so she went down for her morning nap. Once she was up we walked to the bus stop to go to town. We had lunch at poppins cafe then we jumped on the train to London. We arrived just before 3pm and headed straight for the London Eye. We had a lovely time. It was warm but not too warm. We headed back towards home. My nan picked us up from the station at 4:45. We went to hers for a cup of tea and ended up having dinner. I ate egg for the first time in 3 years. I don’t know why, I just ate it. And I didn’t feel queasy after so that’s good.

We headed home and Scarlett and I had a bath then she went to bed. Brett and I watched a film called The Dark Tower. It’s based on a Stephen King book so it was quite weird and creepy. We got into bed at midnight. Brett said he’d had a good birthday.

Sunday we got up at 8ish. I did us breakfast then we watched the rest of Moana. Scarlett had a nap and we watched most of Jack Reacher 2 before she woke. Once she was up we got dressed and got a taxi to Morrison’s. I almost went out my slippers on. I forgot to put shoes on and went down my flat stairs and was half way down the road before I realised. I had to go back in and change them, with Scarlett in tow. Talk about hassle lol

We did some shopping then my nan picked us up with the shopping. We dropped it home. We packed away the fridge and freezer stuff but left the rest. Then we jumped back in the car and headed to my nans as we were having dinner there. Nan cooked chicken and we stayed till 4ish then headed home. Brett left for the train at 6:15. Scarlett and I had a bath again then we snuggled watching In The Night Garden (or Piggle as she calls it). Then she went to bed. She’s been brilliant at this “sleeping in a bed” thing. I couldn’t fault her.

I struggled to sleep. I laid in bed coughing for 2 hours. I got up at 2 and had some water then I finally went to sleep.

Monday I woke up a 6:45, got dressed and then got Scarlett dressed. Thought it was going to be a nice day so I stuck her in some shorts but threw some trousers in her bag for good measure.

My nan told me that my Nan had had a fall in the old folks home. They suspected she’d broken her hip. She did her other hip in when she fell in 2015. They were going to operate on her. Later I found out she went down at 10:30 and survived the operation. Surprising given that she’s almost 90! So now it’s just a case of recovery and physio. She’s a nightmare that woman lol glad she’s okay though! We’re going to visit her tomorrow.

Prince William and Princess Kate have finally had baby number 3. A little boy. He weighed 8lb 7oz and looked all squishy. No name yet but amongst the favourites is Albert, Arthur and Philip. Whatever the choice, I’m sure they’ll put a lot of thought in to it. I love princess Charlotte, she’s beautiful and she reminds me of our queen (I’ve seen pictures of her from her childhood), they’re the spitting image!

Today at Work I ended up balls deep in a task that’s going to take me days. And it’s really long and dragging. It’s also taking me away from my daily duties, which is annoying. I’ve had to massively multitask today. I’m knackered after my night of rubbish sleep.

I’m currently watching Blindspot on sky living then I’m going to bed to read my book in bed then go to sleep lol

TTFN x

Third Time’s The Charm, hopefully!

Monday was a chilled evening. I watched some TV and just relaxed. I haven’t been sleeping great since we moved in so I am trying to relax, even if I don’t sleep.

Tuesday Brett got the train down to see us. He was originally coming Thursday/Friday. He primarily came to see Scarlett. We had a nice evening and we went to bed.

Wednesday I went to work and Brett stayed at mine. At 12:30 my Nan dropped Scarlett to him, at my flat. He had her all afternoon. I got home at almost 6. I cooked us dinner then we put Scarlett to bed at like 8:30. We watched some TV and had a chat about there potentially being an us again. Maybe.

Thursday I went to work and Brett did the same. Scarlett did a really nasty poo and it went everywhere so he was flustered about that when I got in. She did another when I got home so I sorted that. She had had bellyache all week so far. She went to bed at 7:30 like usual. I had cooked us all dinner. We watched some TV and had a proper conversation. We got everything out. Laid it all on the table. What we want from each other. What we want from life. What we think went wrong. What we’ll do better, what we will both do better. He is my bestfriend. He is legit my bestfriend! He’s the first person I speak to, and want to speak to, when I wake up. We decided this would be the last time of trying. If we cannot make it work then we’ll call it quits for good and go our separate ways.

Friday I went to work and Brett stayed at mine. I told him to help himself to food and the TV etc. When me and Scarlett got home at 5ish Brett and I decided we’d give her a bath then walk to my Nan’s for the evening. So she had her bath then my brother and his girlfriend came round. We all walked around my Nan’s at 7ish. We stayed there till 10ish. Scarlett went to bed at 10:30. We watched some TV then we got into bed. We stayed up till 2am chatting. It was nice. It was just like when we first met. It was good!

Saturday we were woken up at 7:30 by Scarlett. We expected her to lay in after her late night but she didn’t. We decided to eat breakfast in town so we grabbed our stuff and jumped on the bus. We went to Poppins Cafe before heading to the train station. We got to his area at 12:15. His mom picked us up from the station. Scarlett was really excited to see her Nanny. We had some lunch at 2ish then at 3pm we put Scarlett down for a nap. She fell down the stairs. Brett was at the top, she was following behind him. She lost her balanced and went backwards. Luckily his brother was at the bottom. He caught her. She cried, due to the shock more than anything. She was fine.

At 6ish we sorted some dinner then Brett and I went to the cinema for 8:15. We watched Black Panther. It was a really good film and we were glad to have gone to see it. We got back at 11ish. Scarlett went to bed at 10. She was flat out sleeping.

I climbed into bed at half 11. I was tired. We stayed up chatting till 1 then we went to sleep.

Sunday I woke up at 9ish to Scarlett sitting on the end of the bed. She had climbed out the cot, onto the bed. We snuggled under the duvet with Brett for 10 minutes. Then we all got up and had breakfast. She played with her Uncle “dot” and her nanny. We watched a film on sky called Unforgettable. It was good. We had dinner at 2:30 then we grabbed our stuff and got in the car. We drove to Guildford as Brett had an appointment at 5pm then we drove home. Scarlett got in the bath then we watched In The Night Garden. I put her down at 7:30. She was still awake at 9:30 and I stupidly decided now was a good time to take the side off her cot, so she could have a big girl bed. It wasn’t a good idea. I got it off but putting the rest back together was hard. Especially as she was “helping” me. I called my bro and he came and gave me a hand. We put it back together then I put her to bed again. She went straight to sleep. He got rid of a mahoosive spider that was terrorising me in the lounge then he left. I settled down to watch some TV then I climbed into bed as well. Think I nodded off about midnight.

Today [Monday] has been the longest ever. Me and my manager sat down to look at what I do on a day-to-day basis so she has a clue of what I get up to. When I am on annual leave she doesn’t cover me because she wouldn’t know where to start and no one tends to die when I am off for a week. But she said she should know a bit more. So we went through a termination I received. It should’ve been straight forward, removing 26 sites and their tasks. No. Just no! It’s taken a whole day, between 2 people. We came up against obstacle after obstacle. Wanted to bang my head against the wall all day. Honestly, proper headache. We finally got to the end at like 4:30.

Mom has just picked me up as we’re going food shopping on our way home. I desperately need some stuff otherwise I shan’t be eating all week. Then we’ll head home.

TTFN x

How To Alienate Your Ex

Friday we stayed home instead of going to my Nan’s. Scarlett went to bed at 7:30. I did myself some dinner then I relaxed. I really love having my freedom. I can wander around our flat naked if I wish. I can sit on my sofa eating my dinner no matter the time. I can leave the washing up and no one is going to moan at me about it.

Saturday we got up at 8:30. I did us breakfast then we watched Monster Family movie on Sky Cinema. I put her down for a nap. When she woke up at 2ish we went food shopping with my mom. I stocked up on nappies. We aren’t Potty Training just yet. She dropped us home with our shopping. Scarlett seemed tired and we were due to have a later dinner for my cousin’s birthday. I put Scarlett in a nice dress and off we went for dinner at 7. We went to the Harvester. I had steak and chips. Scarlett had fish fingers and chips with peas. She LOVES peas. We went to my Nan’s house afterwards for a cup of tea. We got home at 10. She was in bed at 10:30. I stayed up watching TV then I climbed into bed.

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Sunday we got up at 9am. Nice little lay in for me. We were going to visit my Gran in the old folks home but we couldn’t due to no room in the car. So we stayed home. I tried to put Scarlett down for a nap at 11ish. She just rolled around my bed for 2 hours. Fun times. We got ourselves ready and walked to my Nan’s house. It was raining and we got soaked. We had dinner at about 2:45. She didn’t eat much and she was very obviously tired. We stayed till 6pm then we went home. I did her bath and then at 7ish mom turned up for a cuppa tea. Scarlett went to bed at 7:30. Mom and I watched TV. At 8:30 I made us cheese on toast then she had tea and left for home. I got in the bath then caught up on some TV before heading to bed.

I’ve not been sleeping properly since we moved in. My flat is nowhere near the motorway even though I live in the same group of roads as my mom. But 23 years next to the motorway and this flat is eerily quiet. I have been mad tired for like a week now but I think I am slowly getting use to it.

So as you know, me and Brett split up. My choice. I felt all we did was row, and tear each other down. I figured splitting up we could maybe remain friends. Maybe remember why we liked each other in the first place. And hopefully salvage that friendship we had. He still makes me laugh. I still make him laugh. Less so now that he knows I have been chatting to guys. More so one in particular. He hates 1 guy and for good reason, and he said if I touch this guy then he and I are done for good, he’ll never touch me again. Which in 1 respect is like “Well we ain’t together so it doesn’t matter” but on another it’s like “Wow ok, that’s made you pissed and hurt” and I felt bad that he was angry and upset. It wasn’t intentional. He asked me to be honest. He said he’d rather know what I was up to. So I told him. Part of me wishes I hadn’t but saying it out loud has made it real. We genuinely are done. There is no going back. He wouldn’t want me now even if I said I changed my mind or wanted to try again. I told him I hope he meets someone who makes him feel like he’s on top of the world. He deserves that. I want him to be happy. He replied with “I did. And I was”. Thanks lol

Not up to much tonight. Just going to sort Scarlett out for bath and bed. Then have my dinner and chill. I really need to start sleeping better. At work I am struggling. Need to catch up on Criminal Minds and Blindspot tonight then bedtime for 10:30/11ish.

TTFN x

So Glad It’s Friday

Wednesday was much the same as Tuesday on the work front. Quiet. I put Scarlett to bed like normal. But I forgot to switch the monitor on. I usually keep an eye on her whilst she’s settling. I didn’t. I eventually realised and went into check on her before I went to bed. She had taken her onesie off because she was hot [evident by her sweaty head] and then was wrapped half in her duvet. So I put a vest on her so she wouldn’t be able to take her nappy off if she woke up before me. Then I climbed into bed. She is so damn cheeky it makes me giggle.

Thursday she put her own coat on. They teach them how to do it at Nursery. She’s such a clever bean! Scarlett asked me to put my phone down when we had done her bath. When I did she took it off me and put it on the side. Then she asked me to sit next to her for a cuddle. It made me simultaneously melt with love and then guilt. She obviously thinks I’ve used my phone too much recently between 5-7pm. I never use to. I had a strict rule of them 2 hours being privileged time. For just me and her. I only use to use my phone to call Brett for FaceTime. Or to take pics or videos of her. But now I use it a lot for other things like Snapchat or WhatsApp. And I’m so sorry to her for that. It’s a bad habit. But I can break it very quickly. I’m not addicted. It’s just one of things that creeps up on you.

I got into bed at 11ish. I hadn’t been watching much on TV. I had music on. I didn’t get to sleep till almost 1am. This is a recurring issue lately. I think I am still adjusting to the lack of background noise. I just lived next to a motorway for 23 years. We are only 2 weeks into living away from it.

Today was sunny and bright. Scarlett and I did our usual morning routine. Friday’s we drive her to nursery. We get McDonald’s breakfast. We go through the drive through. We got there and it was shut because some knobhead doesn’t know the size of his van and got himself wedged under the “height restriction” sign. Typical man not knowing the size of something! So I got out and went in to order our breakfasts. Scarlett gets aggy as soon as the bag comes in the car because she know’s it’s food but it’s too hot. So she sulks all the way to my work.

My day has been pretty good. I love Friday’s. We are not up to much this weekend. It is my cousins birthday today so we are going for dinner tomorrow as a family.

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TV Box All Set-Up

Monday we woke up at 8:30am. I slept great. So did Scarlett. We had some breakfast and watched the rest of Open Season, the movie from the other day. My mom’s friend said her and her partner would come round at 11 to sort out my TV box. I put Scarlett down for a nap just before she got there, with her partner. He sorted it whilst I made tea. So now I have a working TV box. I can record stuff and pause TV if needed. I thanked them, paid for the cable and they left. I set all my programmes up to record, logged into Netflix and NowTV then Scarlett woke up. She woke up at almost 2. We walked round my Nan’s house to let her dog out, as she’s out all day and it’s not fair on the dog being cooped up [not that she cares, she sleeps all day]. We stayed for 2 hours.

Scarlett is beyond clever. She was eating a yoghurt [which she had asked nicely for] and she asked for another. I said she could have 1 but she had to throw the old one in the bin then go into the fridge and get a new 1. She threw it away then went and got a new 1. When she was done she said she was finished so I said she had to throw that away too. I never mentioned the spoon, I forgot. When she came back I asked her where her spoon was. I expected her to have thrown it in the bin. She said it was on the side. I went into the kitchen and as she said, it was sat on the side. I literally could feel my heart bursting with proud. This tiny little person is growing up. I remember waiting for my emergency scan when I was 7 weeks, finding out I was 10 days behind than I thought, and barely seeing a speck on the screen. And now looking at her, where has that time gone? I am excited to see the person she will become. Already she amazes me. She is beyond cheeky, very bossy, chatty and caring. She is also stroppy and strong-willed. She shares whatever she has. She likes to sit near you and play, asking you to join in sometimes but is happy to play by herself, immersing herself in her own little world with her dolls. She pretends to feed them. I caught her using her changing mat to “change” the baby doll’s nappy lol

We walked back home at 5pm. I cooked us some dinner for 6pm then I put her in the bath. She wanted me to bath with her but I fancy having a bath by myself for a change. By the time she was ready for bed my mom had turned up. She said she’d pop in for a cup of tea before heading to work at 9ish. So she came and I made tea. Scarlett had her milk then she went off to bed at 7:30. We watched TV and chatted. She headed off at 9. I put another episode of Altered Carbon on, then another before switching over to watch my recorded episode of Blindspot from 10pm. At about 11:30 I got into bed.

Today I woke up at 6:45 when my alarm went off. I woke up to loads of notifications. I got myself dressed, sorted my bag for work and Scarlett’s nursery bag. I went in and dressed her. We brushed our teeth then I put teletubbies on for her then I made our breakfast. We ate together then I made my lunch. My Nan turned up at 7:30. She put her coat and shoes on. I put my own on then I left for work at 7:45.

Today has dragged a little. It usually does during the school holidays as a lot of staff book time off to spend with their kids. So there’s less emails, meaning less work. I prefer busy days.

I don’t know why people trust me to rent a flat, pay my bills and keep my child alive when I can’t even eat a chocolate yoghurt without getting it all over myself. I was eating my lunch and my yoghurt went down my blouse AND my hoodie. FFS lol

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Happy Easter & April Fools Day

Thursday I had a half day at work. So I left just after 12 and headed home. My tumble dryer had been delivered and I was waiting for the repair guy to come look at my dodgy bathroom tap. He turned up at 12:30. He fixed the tap and said he’d have to come back another time to install a pump for the shower as it’s gravity fed and the water has no “push”, hence why the shower has no water coming out.

I waited all afternoon for the talktalk internet guy to come out and install everything. He didn’t show. At 6:15 I went on the online chat to ask why he wasn’t here and they told me that engineers don’t come to your property. Apparently they set it up online from some exchange thing and then you self install the box. Right ok. That’s a load of shit because the emails I got and the 3 phone calls I received “to check I was still okay for the engineer to visit my property” made no inference to no one actually coming. As a matter of fact, the wording used made it seem crystal clear that they were coming to my flat to install. So you can imagine I was furious!

So I set up my internet (WiFi) but the internet/phone line is in the Hall way whereas my talktalk TV box is next to the TV and you can’t run the TV box without being connected via the Ethernet cable to the WiFi. So I asked my mom’s friend to pop round to look. Her and her partner said I’d need a 30 meter cable to bring the WiFi and landline back into the front room so I can plug the TV box into the router to use the internet. Otherwise I can’t use my talktalk box and it’s useless having it. So they ordered 1 for me and said they’ll come sort it over the weekend.

Friday we got up and had breakfast. I put her down for a nap. My dad was visiting. He turned up. Once Scarlett was up we went out for lunch. It was a good meal and after we ate we went to my nans for a cuppa. My dad left after he drank his tea. We stayed at my Nan’s till 9 then my grandad dropped us home.

Saturday we got up and had breakfast. We had a bath then we curled up and watched a film on Netflix. My mom and her boyfriend came round for a cuppa just as I cooked lunch. Scarlett and I had chicken and chips then we went to my nan’s. We came home later and I cooked us some tea. We had pizza and garlic bread.

I’ve been watching Altered Carbon on Netflix. It’s mad weird but I kind of like it.

Today we got up at 8:30. We got dressed then headed out the door to wait for the bus. We got to town and had breakfast. Scarlett sat in a proper chair rather than a high chair and she looked so grown up.

We ate then we got our tickets at the cinema for Peter Rabbit the movie. She did so incredibly well. She sat for 55 minutes then I let her wander up and down the stairs next to our seats. She did so well though, I’m beyond proud. She’s only just 2, bless her!

After the cinema we got the bus home and I put her down for a nap. I watched an episode of Altered Carbon but I was tired (no idea why) so I turned it off when it was done and climbed into bed at 2. I expected Scarlett to wake up soon but I must’ve fell asleep quickly as I woke up at 4 because I could hear her singing. I went into see her and she’d tipped her water all over her cot. Her sheet, duvet and pillow was soaking. So I stuck it all on the radiator and re-dressed her as her clothes were soaked too.

We watched some teletubbies and I asked my mom if she wanted to go out for dinner. She said yeah so she picked us up at 5:30 and we went to the harvester. We ate and had a good time just us 3. Again, Scarlett was so good.

We got home at almost 8. I bathed her and did her milk. She went to bed at 8:45. She went to sleep quite quickly. I caught up on the last episode of The Disappearance and now I’m going to watch Altered Carbon.

Day off tomorrow. Going to spend it at home. Will probably watch a film together and play with her toys. She likes this Farmyard Bingo game someone bought her for her birthday. We match the pictures and she tells me what the animals are in each one.

I feel like I’m the only person who didn’t do an Easter Egg hunt, didn’t buy any bunny decorations or make any sort of big deal about it. This is mostly in part because I don’t wish to be a hypocrite. I’m not religious and it’s suppose to be a religious thing. People have forgotten that it’s not about chocolate. I’ve never been in to easter and I don’t want Scarlett in the habit of searching dirt once a year for candy from a strange creature. Hardly kosher lol

TTFN x