Mom’s turn

Saturday I couldn’t wait for Brett to go home. He started a row on my birthday night [although technically it was early hours Saturday]. He pissed me off so I stormed up to bed at like 3am. A while later he came up when I was half asleep and then said I was snoring and annoying him. I didn’t care. I was only breathing FFS so he went downstairs and slept on my brother’s bed. I got up to give Scarlett a bottle at 8ish and then I put her back to bed as she had had a late night. Then I climbed back into bed. I heard her wake again later on but I just ignored her as I knew someone else would get her out and sort her. And I was right. So apparently I only get a lay-in when I force it. I got up later on and he tried to talk to me. I didn’t want to talk to him. I wanted him to fuck off home. He tried to talk to me discreetly in front of everyone but he just wound me up, and something he said led me to put my ring on the table and say “well go then, I am done”. Then I shoved him away from me as he had been all up in my face. I walked upstairs and away from him. He followed me and kept getting in my face and I said I didn’t want him to do that. He just kept on and on. told me he was sorry for what he said previously, and can we just forget about it and move on? I don’t think so. I think it will be the same argument in 3 months, it is always the same thing. He wore me down eventually and said to put my ring back on. He said as long as we love each other, that is all we need. I disbelieve that. You need more than that to keep a relationship going and at the moment I am fed up of the BS. Nonetheless I stuck my ring back on, hugged him and went downstairs. He went home. I took Scarlett out for a mummy-daughter date. We ended up in Frankie & Benny’s again. That burger I had the night before was so delicious. She had mini hot dogs this time. After dinner we had 1 game of bowling. She hasn’t quite got the hang and is too young to sit still nicely whilst I have my go so I had to carry her = I was knackered!

After dinner we headed back towards home. We stopped at my Nan’s for a cup of tea and ended up staying there for the evening. My Nan dropped us home and I put Scarlett straight to bed, no bath lol

Sunday we had dinner at my Nan’s, like usual. 3 of my many cousins were there. My uncle’s 3 daughters. Scarlett is a fair bit younger than them so she didn’t really play with them and one of them kept trying to pick her up and crowd her. I had to tell her to give her space. We went home later and I put Scarlett to bed then had a shower before having some supper.

Monday was my first day back at work. I felt so tired and it really took a lot mentally. I ended up rowing with Brett, again. I can’t even remember what it was over. Oh wait yes I do, because I made a comment about how shit my birthday actually was. And then it was about this weekend when the fight between Mayweather and McGregor is on. I was already coming to his for the weekend as it is a bank holiday, and I never had issue with him wanting to watch the fight. But not if he goes to his pals as the fight doesn’t start till 5/6am and if he is up all night he would sleep all day at his pals and we wouldn’t see him till night time. What am I meant to do all day at his? So I said we wouldn’t come this weekend and it set him off even more.

Tuesday morning I woke up to a text from my mom saying she was in hospital and I would need to ask my Grandad to take me to work. I asked if she was ok? She said she had bleed really badly at work so her coworker phoned an ambulance who took her to hospital at 6:45am. I text my Nan and told her what happened and what I needed. She didn’t reply so I called her, phone was off. I called her house phone and she answered. She said she would pick Scarlett up as usual and Grandad would pick me up. So he did and I went to work.

What happened was, 3 weeks ago she had a procedure called a Colposcopy to have a look at her cervix and laser some bad cells off. This was after a routine smear had come back as abnormal. It went well and her bleeding afterwards was fairly normal.

Mom called me just before 10 and said they were considering discharging her. She said I was the only person with a key and she didn’t think Grandad would want to go through her bedroom looking for clothes so would I be able to leave work, get him to run me home and then up the hospital. Everything she had worn to the hospital was covered in blood. I said of course and hung up. I called my grandad asking him to come get me. He turned up at 10ish, we drove home and I picked up some bits then he dropped me at the hospital. I found her bed. She was in the same trauma bay [M6] that I had been in the times I were in A&E during pregnancy. Weird. She looked a bit white/pale but she was alright. She said the doctor claims she had stopped bleeding. She got off the bed to go and change her pad and clothes. When she hobbled past me I saw she was wearing a hospital grade sanitary pad with mesh knickers. It looked like a giant nappy. I couldn’t help but laugh. She got dressed and we headed out. She was advised to rest and take it easy and not be alone for 12-24 hours in case the bleeding got worse again. I bought her a cup of tea whilst we waited for Grandad to pick us up.

We got home and she desperately wanted food, sleep and a shower. She was starving, had not slept having worked a night shift and had not eaten since the middle of the night. She decided to have a shower once my Nan had finished work and grabbed her some more maternity-like sanitary towels. She dropped Scarlett off at 12:30ish. She was asleep so I put her straight in her cot and then aided mom in her shower. My nan stayed too [in case mom went dizzy I think]. She had massive blood clots and it was just running down her leg, going everywhere. She was really upset. She was stood in the bath crying. She said “how am I suppose to get dressed? It’s just going to go everywhere”. I told her to just stay still and I would get her clothes and she can dress in the bath. She laughed. Then chastised me for making her laugh as it caused more blood to leak. I called 111 for advice and they said they’d send a referral to our GP surgery so she can have an emergency appointment. I phoned them at 1:45 and they said the doctor would call back within 30 minutes. She didn’t call for 2 and a half hours. By that time my mom’s meds had kicked in and her bleeding was substantially much less so she said to the doctor she wouldn’t take an appointment and would go up A&E if the bleeding got worse again.

So she had a lay down and then at 5ish we decided what to have for dinner. She hadn’t eaten since her night shift so she welcomed that. We had dinner, I bathed Scarlett and put her to bed then Mom and I just relaxed. She went up to relax in bed at about 9ish. I finished watching season 4 of The Originals then I had a shower and got into bed.

I hope she feels better tomorrow.

TTFN x

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