An open letter to my fiancé…
I know we’ve had our ups and downs over the last 15 months since we met. I know you sometimes want to punch me in face or shake me when I am being ridiculous. I know that you love me so much that you would take a bullet for me. And more than that, you would take a bullet for my daughter because she has become OUR daughter.
I have had a tough time over the past few years. You knew this. You knew I was a little damaged and it never bothered you. I was afraid the damage was irreversible. But it isn’t. Thanks to you. You’ve shown me that not all guys are the same. That sometimes you find love when you least expect it.
When we met I was over all the place [not that I realised it at the time]. I had not long had a baby and I wasn’t even looking for a relationship. You came along. With your cheeky grin and weird sense of humour. You lifted me up and literally helped me learn to love again. Being single for 4 years had me so use to it that being your girlfriend, being A girlfriend, came with challenges. We rowed. We learned what we both want/need from life, from each other. But we are still learning. That time we went for a Chinese and I had no clue you don’t like Chinese.
When you agreed to marry me it was the second best day of my life [only coming second after Scarlett’s birth]. I know we aren’t in a place right now to marry. We need to find a place together first and sort out all of our shit. But when the time comes I cannot wait to marry you.
I love you baby. I love you for you. I love how you always try when we argue and I am ready to boil your brain. You get me calm. You get me to talk. You treat me like I should be treated. You’re my best friend and the best Daddy to our daughter I could ever ask for. I love you, she loves you. We are lucky to have you.
Lots of love,
Kayleigh – aka your future wife!